thebirchtrees

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where they belong💕

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I love how I've been driving in my little clown car, mutuals and all, headed towards a Bobby is Jesus reveal, and this episode Buck went to confession and got a whole damn earthquake as a sign, Athena isn't selling their house, Hen didn't take the offer for captain, and it was literally centered on people from previous episodes returning, so this clown car isn't a clown car it's a full on Bugatti competing in the Grand Prix and we're speeding straight towards that sexy ass finish line faster than the speed of light.

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some part of me wants to wait until i can actually see the episode and avoid all spoilers for 8x18 until i watch it.

i got 2-3 friends who don't care about the show at all invested in alobby (and lowkey buddie) though so ig i have an emotional responsibility

(also i'm just not anyone's strongest soldier i'll be scouring the internet for what went down in the episode when i wake up the next day at the latest i know myself i won't be able to wait for two weeks)

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honestly i'm gone for like. 3-4 hours and the "remembering bobby nash" post is deleted from the official socials. why do i even try to take time off from thinking about this stupid show

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honestly i think this episode has been some of the best depictions of grief the show has done in a long time. i was so pleasantly surprised to see buck at confession to try and get closer to bobby when he felt so alone. eddie holding it together until he really couldnt anymore. both of them going at it with each other because of their pain but also because they feel the safest with each other. athena holding anger against chimney and knowing its not fair to him but she cant help it. chimney’s guilt. grief has so many facets to it and its such an ugly beast so i was pleasantly surprised to see the show finally get Into It. yknow

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whyyyy do i have to go to rehearsal i have a fic to finish writing ugh

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"This is Eddie, you know what to do."

“H-hey Eddie. I uh. I’m not sure how to say this and my phone has like… 19% battery left so I probably can’t even *cough*. Listen… know - I know you said it doesn’t change anything between us and it doesn’t. Because I’m pretty sure I’ve been in love with you for years. I j-just didn’t realize that’s what it was. But I - I didn’t tell Bobby I loved him before he died and I’m taking that regret to my grave. Probably in the next few hours based on the oxygen levels down here. *Sad laugh* I just – I needed to tell you that I love you. I couldn’t die without telling you. I’m really sorry that I’m leaving this in a voicemail but, well. I mean, you probably understand? I hope you understand. I – shit. Rav - Ravi.”

*Call disconnects*

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oh fuck me i just realised the day after the episodes come out over here is father's day which means 1) i'll be stuck baking all day when the episodes become available and 2) i'll spend the day after with my stepfather with whom i am incredibly close (there is a reason i love bobby and may's relationship so much). also i have work on the day before father's day. i'm so cooked.

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can't wait to actually experience all of these exact same emotions only with me sobbing in my bed when i'm actually able to watch these episodes

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destiel presidential election son or buddie papal election daughter?

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oh fuck me he's actually trapped now ig ahahahahahah next week will kill me

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look. the only reason to give us buck as captain would be to make him fail at it. and then give it to hen. but also like. why tf would they do that. pls just give me hen captain i am begging—

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'i heard some dick was being mean to you' EDDIE IS THE BIGGEST BUCK DEFENDER INCLUDING AGAINST HIMSELF

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HE WENT AND GOT CHRIS FOR BUCK. HE BROUGHT HIS AUNT OVER TO COOK FOR THEM. SHE HUGGED BUCK LIKE HES FAMILY. AND EDDIE WATCHED IT ALL FROM THE CORNER. JOY LIGHTING UP HIS FACE.

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FINALLY REUNITED 🥹🥹🥹

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starting doing a happy dance about chrisbuck reunion so hard dog 1 came to check on me YET AGAIN. dog 2 is staring disapprovingly from the floor.

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I just the buddie angst edits are going to eat tho