#911 spec

[tenisperfection]

When Eddie sees Buck kiss Tommy after Tommy’s entrance at the wedding, I think he’ll look happy and he will smile like everyone else does, but Ryan will make sure that for a microsecond, Eddie’s face carries an expression that is indescribable and that no human face has every carried before, and in that one expression we’ll know the multitude of emotions that Eddie is feeling.

[chronicowboy]

wait if eddie doesn't even realise he still has the collar on and buck just very gently reaches up to unbutton it and eddie's holding his breath because he doesn't know what the fuck buck is doing and buck's holding his breath because this feels somehow bigger than it should and his fingers brush against eddie's neck and it's like a bolt of lightning but neither of them react and buck busies himself with arranging the collar into a pocket square for eddie and his hand lingers a little right over eddie's heart and eddie stares down at it and then buck takes two steps back and the moment bursts like a fucking bubble

[adarkermiserablecrow]

As much as I love Tommy calling Buck 'Evan', it also kind of feels like an omen.

(Bear with me a little, the buck/evan distinctions get a bit uhh).

Canon reasoning aside, as symbolism, it's clear-cut. Evan is the man Buck used to be, the kid he used to be, and with this piece of himself finally falling into place, there's some healing to be had for that past version of Buck as well. It's the start of a journey, and Buck can't make it if Evan doesn't as well.

And I've seen Buck referred to as a mask, a protection of Evan, but I think he's the man Evan evolved into. He got the nickname in the fire academy and never looked back, and there's something obvious about the way he stopped being Evan just as he became a firefighter and found his place with the 118. (Buck 1.0 was a mask, at least in part, but that's another story.)

For years, he has been Buck. Maddie is the only one who knew him when he was Evan, and she does call him by his name sometimes. There's also Eddie's infamous listen-to-me-goddamnit line. But that line during the will reveal works because 'Evan' is so jarring, not just to the viewers, but to Buck himself too. Even in s6, Chimney calls him Evan in front of the Buckley parents, and Buck is in the background looking confused as hell. It's not his name anymore, not really.

And I guess what I'm trying to say with all this is that Tommy calling him Evan (while cute) feels like it sets up the relationship to end. Because Evan doesn't really exist anymore; he's a part of Buck, certainly. All of us carry our past selves around, we're never really free of the people we used to be. But Buck grew beyond Evan, he grew up a bit and found his place in the world.

He's back to being Evan now that he's finding his footing with this new facet of himself. But in everything else he's still Buck. And I'm not sure it's insignificant.

[mazzystar24]

NO STOP NO DRESS BLUES

Back away

DONT YOU FUCKING DARE TOUCH BOBBY

(I’m assuming they’re coming for bobby because of the bobby centric episode on ep9)

SERIOUSLY THO BACK THE FUCK AWAY

I always said that I have been terrified from day one of them killing off bobby and istg if they do it I’m killing them

The only option I will accept is PERSUMED dead Eddie - who ofc is alive- and bam we get angst and buddie-ness and the will™️ and just some yummy fic worthy content

But actual dead bobby or any of them??? Nooo back tf away

[aromanticbuck]

AITA for coming out at my sister's wedding?

I (32M) recently realized I'm bisexual and I have my first bf (45M), he's a rescue helicopter pilot (this will be relevant later). I'm out to my sister (41F) and my coworkers, including her husband, who I have worked with for years, but not to my parents or most of the other guests. Everyone has joked that I'm a little too close to my best friend (32M), and we might as well get married, but he's straight and has a gf. They're not relevant to this story, but to give context to how much my sexuality probably shouldn't be a surprise, even if it took me by surprise.

I told my sister and her husband I was bringing a plus one, and they both knew my bf, they were supportive of it because he makes me really happy.

Everything kind of started at the bachelor party. It was just me, my brother-in-law, and my best friend, and we did the usual stuff. We stayed a night in a hotel, went out to get drunk, sang some karaoke at our usual spot. It should have been a super chill night. Until my best friend and I lost the groom??? But it way more stressful than The Hangover makes it look.

He'd been taken by these guys who tried to kill him (no, I don't know why) and we didn't realize he was missing until less than an hour before the wedding. My mom kind of threw a fit about us being late, and then blamed me for losing the groom, which is kind of a normal reaction from her. My dad didn't yell as much but again, this is a normal reaction, I'm kind of the disappointment child. Basically, we had to find my brother-in-law because he still needed to marry my sister.

Before anyone worries: they did get married. He's fine. The hospital says they're discharging him tomorrow to go home. They're gonna reschedule their honeymoon so he's well enough to enjoy it.

Long story short, it turned into a rescue mission, and driving would have taken too long, and my best friend suggested we ask my bf to borrow his helicopter again (long story, but we had to borrow him for something a few months ago, it's how we met!) so I asked him for the favor. My mom asked who he was, since my best friend just used his name, and I told her he's my boyfriend, and she freaked out about it.

When we go to the hospital with my brother-in-law, my parents both yelled at and scolded me for taking attention away from the biggest day of my sister's life by pulling some "stunt" with my bf (to SAVE my brother-in-law from being violently murdered), and I think my dad somehow grounded me?

AITA?

[honestlydarkprincess]

buck like oh so you'll drive for another man huh what happened to my passenger princess

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

Given that Chim seems to be Going Through It EYE personally think it would be hysterical if Tommy got to be a Big Damn Hero and save Chim (also nice full circle moment) only for their lovely friendship bonding to be interrupted by Chim going wait how are you even Here and Tommy going oh I’m Buck’s date and Chim just. bluescreens.

[honorarybuckley]

i want tommy to be in the wedding episode if only for the look on the buckley parents’ faces when buck introduces them to his boyfriend.

[usereddie]

just in case anyone was having a good day i just wanna point out that chris is a main this season yet we haven’t seen him since 7x01. you know. the episode where his whole storyline was thinking love and romance don’t matter because everyone leaves in the end anyway? right. and with buck coming out and dating tommy the dots he’s gonna connect? that if buck can love a man he can love eddie? the dots he’s gonna watch EDDIE connect? oh the buckley-diaz family arc in 7b is gonna make me insane

[exhuastedpigeon]

Eddie's sitting closer to Buck than he's allowed himself since Buck came out - since Buck started dating Tommy. But Buck isn't dating Tommy anymore and Eddie came out to Buck fifteen minutes ago and now they're having conversation so intense that Eddie thinks he might need to go to an emergency therapy session after they're done. So Eddie's sitting closer to Buck than he's allowed himself to in over a month, but it feels too close and not close enough at the same time.

"What am I supposed to say Buck? That I lied when you asked me what I remembered about getting shot? That if I told you what I remembered you'd never be able to look at me the same way?"

"Eddie -" Buck starts, but Eddie cuts him off before he can say more.

"You want to know what I remember about that day? I got shot in the middle of the street on a sunny fucking morning in L.A. and as I was laying on the ground bleeding out I reached for you. I thought I was dying and all I wanted was to touch you one last time. Do you want me to tell you that I was bleeding out and all I could think was that I never told you how much I love you? Because it's true, it's true."

"W-why didn't you tell me after?" Buck sounds as broken as Eddie feels.

"I thought I did," Eddie says and he reaches over the empty space between them but doesn't close the gap. It's only a foot, maybe less, but it feels as wide of a gap as it had felt like while he was bleeding onto the pavement. "I gave you my son Buck. I gave you my heart."

The "oh" that leaves Buck's mouth sounds like a revelation and an accusation all at once. It sounds like 'you didn't tell me' and 'I didn't realize' and 'I wish I'd known sooner'.

But then Buck does close the gap between their hands, just like he had all those years ago while Eddie had lay dying on the street, saved by the same hands that cover Eddie's now. His blood forced to stay in his body with the same fingers that slot through Eddie's now.

Eddie lets out a breath he hadn't realize he was holding and his next inhale feels better than his first breath after leaving that well. It feels like breathing for the first time.

"I'm still in love with you," Eddie tells him, because it's the only thing unsaid between them. It's the only thing left to say.

"Yeah?" Buck's eyes are wet and Eddie realizes his are too.

"Yeah."

"Me too - I-I love you too. I think I have for a really long time actually. I just didn't - didn't realize what that feeling was."

[kitkatpancakestack]

You think it's gonna be Eddie approaching Buck for sage dating advice but it actually ends up being Buck and Eddie spiraling together into parental insanity and then cue Christopher Dating Montage but Buck and Eddie are together in the background of all the scenes wearing nondescript baseball caps and hiding behind big potted plants and pretending to read a newspaper that's clearly upside down and just generally being overanxious dummies about the whole thing <3

[chronicowboy]

do you know what. i almost don't want a double date. like yes that would be Everything to me and i will treasure it so deeply if that's what we get. but the idea of eddie and marisol going off to their table on the other side of the restaurant but eddie's fixated on buck and tommy. and it's just cutting between eddie being like "buck was being weird right? like that's not just me? he was being weird? do you think he's okay? he's not still feeling guilty about my ankle? i hope nothing's happened with tommy." and marisol's just like 😐 meanwhile buck's like wigging out fully like "shit tommy do you think he knows? not that i mind that he knows! like im really happy to be here with you and im not embarrassed or anything i judt kind of thought id get to tell him on my own terms. you don't think he knows do you? god what if he knows?" and tommy is realising that buck isn't Not in love with eddie, but he's very deeply in love with eddie and just doesn't realise it yet.

[mazzystar24]

The new promo is so unhinged but also I’m more and more convinced of the drugged theory😭😭

[aromanticbuck]

"jealous Eddie" this

"jealous Eddie" that

personally, I want Buck's best friend to be supportive of his new relationship, and be as excited as Buck is for this new revelation and this new level of self awareness. because Buck and Eddie are best friends before they're anything else, and I think they need to show more of that before they add another point of drama to their dynamic.

Buck and Eddie are incredibly close. having two jealousy episodes back to back like that would muddy that. their relationship isn't built on jealousy and drama. it's built on trust. we just saw some jealousy, and it didn't even get fully resolved in the episode.

they need to come back from that and show how strong their relationship is again before they even consider putting any more drama on their plates.

and besides that, Buck's first same-sex relationship shouldn't be disregarded or ignored. it should be special. Buck and Tommy need to have a relationship before something can come in the middle of it. and, frankly, it would be a disservice to all three characters if this extremely important moment in Buck's life wasn't celebrated by his friends, if someone as important to him as Eddie was sour about this thing that he's excited for.

Buck's first experience with "another dude" should be a positive one. not one that makes his best friend act weird around him. mutual celebration of this moment will bring them closer together. jealousy will create distance. and then that's more that they'll have to overcome to solidify their friendship before they can venture toward anything romantic.

[honestlydarkprincess]

[harrowharkwife]

the way that it's hen standing beside eddie in this moment of clear physical pain and pure, unbridled anguish and terror.

hen, who watched karen flatline a handful of episodes ago. who desperately worked to save her life in the back of that ambulance. hen, who thought she lost her wife, the love of her life, the mother of her child-

(only to end the episode with the wilson family at home together, safe and sound, hen fussing over her wife and getting her all set up on the couch to recover.)

hen, whose wife and child were simultaneously endangered in the lab explosion. hen, who was unable to rescue them herself, even though every instinct was screaming at her to run headfirst into the burning building.

(she may not have been injured the way eddie is here, but she was benched by bobby and barred from the scene on account of no longer being a paramedic.)

hen, who spent an entire episode subconsciously reflecting on her and karen's journey so far, everything they've been through together, how they built their family, and how they found their way.

(an episode written by nicole barazza keim, mind you, who happens to be- oh, yknow. one half of the writer duo behind pay it forward. no big deal. nothing to see here, keep it moving!)

so, like. of course it had to be hen, in this moment, who's here for eddie, because-

hen was the only witness to his widow's grief for buck.

christopher's back was turned, and eddie hurriedly wiped away his tears before chris could see.

but hen? she saw all of it. and we still haven't circled back to that fact.

in an episode called pay it forward, i'm starting to think this may be hen's chance to pass on the lesson that she and karen learned in tomorrow (courtesy of chimney). how did that go again, exactly?

oh, right:

chimney: hen is not actually dead, but-but she had a pretty bad near-miss accident last night.

karen: what the hell, howie? you can't just say stuff like that.

chim: i know. i just, i... we had a really tough call. and it was rough and there was a minute when i thought hen was dead, and it scared the crap out of me.

karen: and you decided to pay that experience forward?

chimney: yes. look... look, i know you two broke up. and i just thought you needed to know what it would feel like if you woke up tomorrow and you found out hen wasn't in this world anymore.

...

karen: because i thought you were dead. when howie called, there was a moment when i thought you died in that accident. when i felt like i'd lost you forever. and it scared me. to think of you being gone. never having a chance to fix things or try again.

hen: karen, it's too late.

karen: it's not. as long as we are both here on this earth... as long as we have tomorrow, it's not too late.