thecommonpoorwill

[thecommonpoorwill]

update again yeah im a system im pretty fucking sure

i think i have did/osdd and im not entirely sure what to do about it. i wrote a note with all of my symptoms and what i think they are. ive watched videos on it and i read the dsm5 entry (again and again). i genuinely dont know what to do now. i have therapy in a week or so, but i dont know how to deal until then. my first instinct is to try to talk to my (possible) alters somehow or try to force one to front but i dont know how to do that.

advice would be great but i also appreciate just stories or a bit of reassurance somehow? i just dont know what to do. thank you

[thecommonpoorwill]

THANK YOUUU

okay so ive got THREE paganism questions.

1. where do yall find cheap stuff for altars that not amazon

2. how do you stay consistent in practice (anyone is welcome to answer but this is mostly for those who have religious trauma and have a hard time with it)

3. what do you do for offerings, especially if youre in the broom closet?

(my current deities are apollon, dionysos, hephaistos, hestia, pan, and hermes if thats helpful.)

[thecommonpoorwill]

okay i brought it up to my therapist and she just said "i mean we're already doing treatment about the same as what did/osdd treatment would be so just do your best" and then scheduled me another appointment next week (i usually only go once a month) so that we could talk more about routes and such. i feel sane. i love my therapist

i think i have did/osdd and im not entirely sure what to do about it. i wrote a note with all of my symptoms and what i think they are. ive watched videos on it and i read the dsm5 entry (again and again). i genuinely dont know what to do now. i have therapy in a week or so, but i dont know how to deal until then. my first instinct is to try to talk to my (possible) alters somehow or try to force one to front but i dont know how to do that.

advice would be great but i also appreciate just stories or a bit of reassurance somehow? i just dont know what to do. thank you

[thecommonpoorwill]

im spiraling a lil so i cooled myself down and now im eating baked beans on my couch

i think i have did/osdd and im not entirely sure what to do about it. i wrote a note with all of my symptoms and what i think they are. ive watched videos on it and i read the dsm5 entry (again and again). i genuinely dont know what to do now. i have therapy in a week or so, but i dont know how to deal until then. my first instinct is to try to talk to my (possible) alters somehow or try to force one to front but i dont know how to do that.

advice would be great but i also appreciate just stories or a bit of reassurance somehow? i just dont know what to do. thank you

[thecommonpoorwill]

i think i have did/osdd and im not entirely sure what to do about it. i wrote a note with all of my symptoms and what i think they are. ive watched videos on it and i read the dsm5 entry (again and again). i genuinely dont know what to do now. i have therapy in a week or so, but i dont know how to deal until then. my first instinct is to try to talk to my (possible) alters somehow or try to force one to front but i dont know how to do that.

advice would be great but i also appreciate just stories or a bit of reassurance somehow? i just dont know what to do. thank you

[thecommonpoorwill]

okay i think i have did or osdd. i made a list of symptoms, what those symptoms could be from, and why i think theyre not from those things and from a dissociative disorder instead. i have therapy next week. whoop whoop.

apparently it is not normal to have extremely fuzzy memory and lose motor skills when regressed. aha. oh no.

[thecommonpoorwill]

i am now questioning if my false memories and random "i know what this is but i dunno how" are just a combo of ptsd and late night google dives or a genuine dissociation disorder. aha. oh no

apparently it is not normal to have extremely fuzzy memory and lose motor skills when regressed. aha. oh no.

[thecommonpoorwill]

apparently it is not normal to have extremely fuzzy memory and lose motor skills when regressed. aha. oh no.

[thecommonpoorwill]

my coffee will either be black or it will be 95% creamer and syrup. it will either be burning me alive or freezer burning me alive. thank you

[thecommonpoorwill]

how do you cope with shit parents. genuinely. i do not know how to form emotional bonds and i feel like i am both two years old and thirty and neither the toddler nor the millenial are pleased with my current mental state

[thecommonpoorwill]

you are wonderful thank you so much

okay so ive got THREE paganism questions.

1. where do yall find cheap stuff for altars that not amazon

2. how do you stay consistent in practice (anyone is welcome to answer but this is mostly for those who have religious trauma and have a hard time with it)

3. what do you do for offerings, especially if youre in the broom closet?

(my current deities are apollon, dionysos, hephaistos, hestia, pan, and hermes if thats helpful.)

[thecommonpoorwill]

PLEASE DO NOT USE TIKTOK AS A RESOURCE FOR HELLENIC POLYTHEISM

Tiktok is probably one of THE WORST places to learn about REAL hellenic polytheism because it is rampant with misinformation and most creators are only interested in views and parroting misinformation THEY heard. Yes there are some great and informative creators on there to learn about the hellenic gods but they are far and few in-between.

INSTEAD if you're new to the religion and have no clue where to start researching/learning, here are a few phenomenal creators on here with wonderful and informative posts!

@wisdom-devotee has an amazing guide for starting out in hellenic polytheism

@seasaltdevotion also recently made a fantastic post on resources for starting out

@crazycatsiren has a SUPER long list of resources and research material

@khaire-traveler has possibly the greatest list on subtle deity worship for just about every god

Please actually learn from those of us that truly love and covet this religion and spread information that will truly benefit you.

[thecommonpoorwill]

i ordered some beads online and im going to make prayer beads. im quite excited. im going to make the charms myself since i have clay, paint, and sealant at home just fine. :]

[thecommonpoorwill]

yesyesyesyesyes. more than anything i want to rule my own space in every way shape and form, including and especially religiously.

Anyone else out there constantly dreaming up the pagan life they want to live one day? Like, when you're in the broom closet or can't practice openly because of family members etc, and you just keep imagining how you'll be able to practice your craft once you have your own home?

I want candles in every room. Mini-Altars scattered all over the house/apartment. I want herbs drying in my kitchen and growing all over my windowsill.

I want a cool broom, not a boring one. One that makes people think I fly above the rooftops at night. I want black robes for my rituals and a big altar. I'll be able to actually put the demon's sigils and names on the candles without fearing someone finding them and having to hide them on the bottom.

I'll place spells in open spaces and decorate my place with magical objects. I'll make a shrine for my deities and have shelves full of occult education. Drawings and pictures of my beloved deities on my walls and the scent of burnt incense always filling the rooms.

I dream of all that and I know one day it will happen. I want it so bad. Anyone else?

[thecommonpoorwill]

okay so ive got THREE paganism questions.

1. where do yall find cheap stuff for altars that not amazon

2. how do you stay consistent in practice (anyone is welcome to answer but this is mostly for those who have religious trauma and have a hard time with it)

3. what do you do for offerings, especially if youre in the broom closet?

(my current deities are apollon, dionysos, hephaistos, hestia, pan, and hermes if thats helpful.)

[thecommonpoorwill]

once again i am having one of those days where i dont feel good enough to be considered human (or bird)

[thecommonpoorwill]

hypothetically, if i were to oil paint directly onto a glass container and then burn a candle inside of it, would i fuck up the paint?