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Two things you needed to hear today:

“You can’t be a good child to a bad parent.”

“You weren’t a bad child, you were reacting to your environment.”

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(Disclaimer: I'm reposting this from another Tumblr user instead of reblogging it from her because she appears to be a TERF (and a man-hating one too). Sorry not sorry lol)

I hope every little kid that's crying themself to sleep finds peace and has a guardian angel that loves them very much, gives them loving, soft dreams and hope for their future. I keep thinking about when I was a little kid and I often cried myself to sleep bc of how I was treated at home or otherwise. I remember feeling like the pain would never end and I'd be a child forever. I wish every little kid was safe and loved. I'm sorry I cannot protect you all.

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When I look into the mirror, I can see the eyes of my mother. I have the nose, and the eyebrows of my father. My lips are from my grandmother. The older I am, the more it's pronounced, it's their combined features in my reflection, a solemn reminder that I was not adopted, or kidnapped by them.

But then I also remember that all of these people have called me ugly at one point or another, what is up. Your genes not pleasing you? Gonna insult your own face on me? Grow up.

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Scarier when you realise the IDF tend to consider any Palestinian male over the age of 10 a “man.”

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This is going to sound incoherent to those who haven't been told over and over they're monsters or demons or animals as children, but I need to write it down.

It was often I would be told that I was some kind of evil creature and not a child, as a justification for abusing me, and I wouldn't have any kind of response to that, because how do you combat that? How do you respond to a parent or a family member calling you a snake and a swine and satan? I would get frozen in doubt and start to internalize, that I must be non-human, I must be evil and fundamentally wrong and demonic in some way, because I couldn't find any argument against it. After all, these people were saying it so surely, so filled with rage and righteous justice, that I was non-human, that it was not only okay but necessary to hurt me, and it's all I've ever known. And I still get flashbacks to those moments when I would be told stuff like 'you should have been strangled to death the second you were born', and I freeze. It hurts. I can't reason with hatred like that.

It's only today my brain finally found some counter arguments to it.

Was I born to a human being, or to an animal? If I had been an animal, I would have been born to an animal mother. And she wouldn't hate me like you do. Even if I was a baby snake, there would have been no need to torture me, I would have been normal and natural as a snake. But, even as a child, I had arms and legs, it was obvious I wasn't a snake.

If I as a demon, how would I be born into a family of humans? Wouldn't it be shown in the color of my eyes, or my skin, or my actions? Have I been displaying anything but normal child behaviour? How would anyone be able to tell I was a demon, if I was born to humans, acted like a normal human child, and had never done acts of irreparable evil and sadism? What made me a demon then?

If there was nothing but evil in me, why was I in so much fear and pain all the time? Is that how evil-doers feel? Why was I too scared to do even normal, mundane things that other kids fearlessly did? Why was nobody afraid of me? Why did people feel comfortable hurting me, cornering me and attacking me, if I was so dangerous and malicious?

It was painfully obvious that I was a human child from the start. Calling a human child demonic is not normal, it's not well-intentioned, it's not for the child's own good. It's cruel and vicious. And it wasn't based on anything inside of me. You saw a child you wanted to hurt repeatedly, and making the child believe they're not human was the simplest way for you to get away with it. Why did you need to hurt the child repeatedly? Even if you believed it was something else, an animal or an evil creature, why did it give you pleasure to hurt it over and over again? Why would you intentionally corner a small creature inside of your home and cause pain to it? Did it give you pleasure to see fear and tears? Did you enjoy it so much you just had to keep doing it?

All small humans are the same, they have small little limbs, they're squishy, they're sensitive, they get spooked and scared easily, they like playing brave to make themselves feel stronger. There's no reason to corner and torture one, and call them evil for that. I was the same. I was acting brave but I was small, and soft, with little limbs, easily spooked, easily brought to tears. What was in you to want to break me? What was it worth to you to do it?

You could have picked any child for it, and it wouldn't have made any difference. I was just what was in the house.

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A view of Brodick Castle, Isle of Arran, Scotland by Carlo Bossoli

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Retaj Othmani (10) is the only survivor of her family who was killed after the bombing of their home in the Nusairat refugee camp, central Gaza.

‎الطفلة ريتاج العثماني 10 سنوات تودع والدها ووالدتها وأخيها الذين ارتقوا نتيجة قصف منزلهم بمخيم النصيرات

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When you have abusive parents they have the upper hand. They were handed that upper hand when you were born into their care, and they rely on continuing to exert the power it gives them over you well into your adulthood if you let them.

The thing is, you don't have to let them.

When you were a child things were different. You probably learnt that the best way to deal with them was to give them whatever they want and in return they would reward you with an easier living situation. Maybe youd be your mums pseudo therapist because she'd scream less when she felt listened to. Maybe you'd end the friendships your dad told you to because he was easier to live with when he wasn't angry. They held your rights and your needs against you because they could. More importantly, they did it because they were the main beneficiaries of that dynamic.

What do they have now?

If they have everything to gain from you, what do you have to gain from them?

Consider this an opportunity to renegotiate the terms of your relationship with them. You don't have to give them everything they want anymore if you don't want that too.

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Repost from @stopwarcrimesingaza

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Read that again and again …release our children our youth credit @fadiqu @mothersagainstgenocide

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Holy fucking shit. The Zionists are Justifying Child Sex Trafficking.

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Full body massage

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luke black’s twitter is literally me talking to my therapist

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🩸Help Nour a hydrocephelus warrior from Gaza🩸

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> HERE IS THE LINK

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remenber that we still need to fight