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my current obsession is my coffee mug that looks and feels like an orange 🍊

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Turn-of-the-Century Tactile Graphics Illustrate Nature for People Who Are Blind

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dennis ashbaugh + iñigo manglano-ovalle in the molecular gaze: art in the genetic age - suzanne anker + dorothy nelkin (2004)

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ATP synthase!

(The membrane beside it kinda looks like shit though. ) Froglights are to represent ADP binding sites, and are not spatially accurate.

Structure was referenced Cryo-EM model of E. coli ATP synthase from Sobti et. al. Structure 6PQV on PDB

Sobti, M., J.L. Walshe, D. Wu, R. Ishmukhametov, Y.C. Zeng, C.V. Robinson, R.M. Berry, and A.G. Stewart. 2020. Cryo-EM structures provide insight into how E. coli F1Fo ATP synthase accommodates symmetry mismatch. Nat Commun. 11:2615. doi:10.1038/s41467-020-16387-2.

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I just know genome databases hate to see you coming

me showing up at the NIH website to overload their servers by BLASTing the entire bee movie script

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oh man, they made you defend your thesis? that's fucked up, they told me mine was perfect the way it is and just gave me the phd

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The most valuable thing I learned doing a Masters degree with depression, anxiety and ADHD was to change my “things I’m bad at” list to “things I can’t do on my own.” Stop thinking of them as things I could do if I tried hard enough, and accept that I can’t accomplish them by effort and willpower alone; they’re genuine neurocognitive deficits, and if I need to do the thing, then just like a blind person reading or a mobility impaired person going up a storey in a building, I need to find a different method.

I’m “bad at” working on long-term projects without an imminent deadline or someone breathing down my neck? Okay, let’s change that: I can’t work on long-term projects without an imminent deadline and someone breathing down my neck. So let’s create an imminent deadline and recruit neck-breathers. Find a sympathetic prof who will agree that 3 weeks before the due date they expect me to show them my preliminary notes and bibliography. Get a friend I trust to block off an hour to sit with me and keep asking, “Are you working on your project?” Write a blog post about my progress. Arrange to trade papers and proofread them with another student.

Accept your limitations and learn to leverage them, instead of buying the neurotypical fairytale that they’ll go away if you just try hard enough.

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I am still stuck on the same data analysis (but finally towards the end !). To avoid posting the same desk pic for days in a row, I'll have you meet my lil study buddy 🥰

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I'm still chained up to my laptop trying to finish the thesis work I didn't do for the last three weeks !

... love that for me 😪

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babycat makes it so very difficult to get anything done but goodness she's the light of my life (ft. old medieval hist notes)

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always procrastinating and brain rotting and not making a good use of my time

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snapshots of last week ! send strength for the experiments of the upcoming days 😪

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I can't stop thinking about this bring colourful lab equipment back

Baby Blue a prototype automated thermal cycler for PCR (1986)

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one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

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What do you mean, I shouldn't write about my traumatic experiences in my lab notebook? Then what am I supposed to do with that thing?