âJust control it.â
How ironic.
You sit here and blame me for what youâve caused.
Youâve welcomed my anxiety into a crowded room with open arms as my depression huddles in the corner asking itself why is it even here, my insincerities never leaving the bathroom because she canât take her eyes off the mirror. My doubts are stuck in a two hour card game with themselves while insinosa is playing her playlist she made for memories who wasnât invited but showed up anyway.
- Party of one (s.m)
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âDonât you dare for a second think that you deserve anything less than happiness. You truly deserve all the good things in life. Itâs okay if youâre broken and shattered but it doesnât make you any less. If anything, remember the last time you had fallen and how you managed to pick yourself up â think about the last time you were hurt and how your wounds healed with time. And if you find yourself alone, go out and look at the moon â some nights, itâs half and other nights, itâs gone only to become whole.â by memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)
â it's okay not to be okay
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My heart physically,
Hurts.
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Youâre there but not really,
almost but not quite.
A teaspoon will not quench the thirst.
A crumb will not tame the hunger.
Just like a ghost will not occupy space.
I feel the most alone, next to you. (s.m)
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âAnd all I loved, I loved alone.â
â Edgar Allan Poe
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Oof.
âJust because things could have been different doesnât mean they would have be better. Remember that.â
â Unknown
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I finally deleted your number today, and thatâs a victory in itself.
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I miss you like crazy. I miss you telling me everythingâs gonna be okay when I call you at 2am over a panic attack. I miss how youâd randomly break out into the cheesiest smile when I caught you staring at me. I miss counting the hours til I could talk to you about my day. Most of all I miss our younger naĂŻve, ambitious selves planning our future together.
- Message never sent. (s.m)
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In love with a man who will never love me and yet I will write him poetry every day I live, with every breath, with every thought, with all the strength found in this heart.
e.v.e.
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I just want the love I put out into the world to be reciprocated.
- Is that to much to ask? (s.m)
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Maybe one day when weâre both older weâll bump into each other at the supermarket.
Out of pure coincidence, maybe.
Maybe youâll catch my voice from half way down the aisle and called out my name in disbelief. Iâll turn around shocked as you try to find the words to explain to me what happened all those years ago.
Why you left me with my heart in my hands and try to find the courage to tell me how you knew destiny would lead us back together if it was meant to be.
A head will pop out from my side, a little girl mirroring the same intense brown eyes you fell inlove with will stare at you in confusion and ask,
whose that mommy?
- You were right, I would find better. (s.m)
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I only broke down once today.
Hell, I brushed my hair.
When our song came on, I skipped it.
I bought groceries
I even called my mom.
And I deleted every last trace of you off my phone.
-The smallest victories are still worth celebrating. (s.m)
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Because youâre not ready to hear it until you do. You picture it and you tell yourself youâll be able to handle it. You tell yourself it wonât hurt because you wonât let it. But then he utters the words.
It could be something as simple as âI donât think Iâm ready for a relationship right nowâ or he could tell you how much you mean to him and how he doesnât want to ruin your friendship and it would. Still. Fucking. Hurt.
Friendship. The word isnât supposed to hurt that much, is it? People always see friendship as the nicest and happiest kind of relationship in the world. What they donât know is it isnât half as nice if itâs not what you want.
How could you be just friends with him when you see him and it feels like the whole world lowers its tone? How could you be just friends with the one person who has everything youâre looking for in a couple? How could you be just friends with his laugh and his eyes and his stupid jokes? How? How? How?
I will not say you just move on. I will not say this things happen and you should get over it. Because it doesnât work that way. You are not obligated to feel any less miserable than you are now. You are not obligated to talk about it or be the bigger person and force yourself to do something you donât want, like chatting with him as if nothing had happened.
The only thing you must do is heal. Cry. Listen to sad music. Write. Watch hours on end of netflix. Curse him and scream. Do whatever you have to. Just heal. You have healed before and you are strong enough to do it again, I know it. Because this is not the kind of pain you have a say on. You canât make people love you the way you want them to, babygirl. You can only accept what they give you or leave.
I hope you choose wisely. And I hope you are patient enough to wait for someone who will love you so fervently it will make all the heartbreaks go away.
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ââwish i was there and our timing was rightââ
â â weâll find each other again
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âItâs so hard to leave- until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.â
â John Green; Paper Towns
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