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I don’t know the first thing about Harry styles or any of the one direction band. However, if I could get to know anyone of them I’d go with Harry. Something about those eyes 🥺 iykyk .

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Fifteen

Is that weird age where you want to work but most jobs don’t want you or won’t hire until your sixteen. It’s that age where you know in a year you’ll be able to drive somewhat and still the year is going by so slow. It’s six years to little and Fifteen years too much.

Teen years are years too awkward and too consuming.

Im depressed and it’s not that depression where watching funny youtubers and quirky movies and listening to relatable songs fix it or make it better.

It’s hollow, it’s all consuming, it’s disgusting. It’s not knowing when it will end or how it will end. It’s feeling like you haven’t made any progress and everything triggers some reaction in you. It’s feeling like every question can only be answered with “I don’t know” because I really don’t know. How much is too much or where I’m going. When will it stop?

Sometimes I wish for just once I could stop thinking.

The other day I was walking to school and my mind was in the clouds thinking about I don’t know let’s say something relatable. And it just snapped how without even thinking I WALKED STRAIGHT TO SCHOOL. It’s so sad to know that my brain has it engraved where to go how to get there. It’s doesn’t question and I haven’t questioned it until this month.

I personally hate hugs but right now all I want is for a stranger to hug me and tell me everything will be okay and then leave. Because right now that’s all I need. It’s all I want even if it’s a lie. So everytime I look at myself or someone looks at me at least I can say I’m okay.

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L submitted: 

 Posting the first picture is REALLY difficult for me because I was so ashamed but this site and everyone who posts on it really kept me inspired and motivated! So fingers crossed this post helps motivate someone else.

Height: 5’6 Start Weight: 174lbs (78.9kg) Current Weight: 142lbs (64.4kg) Weight Loss: 32lbs in 6 months

I’ve never stepped inside of a gym. My weight loss was all done through reducing my calorie intake to 1400 calories a day, taking two long walks a day and not letting myself get down when I had a bad week. It worked for me but everyone is 100% different and needs to find what works for them.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve still got a bit to lose and some toning to do but I’m finally wearing the clothes I want to and able to walk around feeling confident in my own skin. 2019 is all about me taking that first step into the gym and owning what I’ve accomplished so far.

❓ How’s she looking? Any other walkers out there?  ✅ Reblog and Like if she should be proud. 📷 Submit your own before and after pictures to be featured on this blog

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even though everything is falling apart, knowing I’m losing weight is keeping me safe

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I fucking hate older people shiting on our generation. YOU raised us. YOU gave us technology. Gen Z is literally the first generation that doesn’t remember the world without advanced technology and you think this is OUR fault? We are stessed, depressed, we have social anxiety and you call us „weak” or „sensitive”, like damn. I’m sorry, but I’m just upset.

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Before // After

Please don’t take these and post them elsewhere! This is me being very honest with you all about my journey.

Before: 155 pounds. 5’4. Jean Size: 8(US). Bra Size: 36D.

After: 122.8 pounds. 5’4. Jean Size: 4/6 (US). Bra Size: 32C.

I’m happy and proud of my progress, but not the process. I thought I would see a huge difference between these photos, but there’s nothing. 30 pounds for nothing. I have to keep going. I’m going to be the woman I want. I’m going to be skinny.

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do you ever just wish somebody would violently beat the living fuck out of you

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REBLOG IF NAZIS OFFEND YOU MORE THAN NIPPLES.

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am i the only one who tries to see what kind of body i would have when i am thin? like i pull the fat of my inner tighs back to see a tighgap. i press my hands into my waist right under my rips to see how small it could be. i suck in my stomach and strech my neck. i hold my double chin back und pull the fat away. i try to make my finger look thinner. i always try to pull the fat away so i cna see my bones. and i have to say:

i have a beautiful bonestructure. just the fat needs to fuck off

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Warning: it gets hard deal with it

Tip: it gets harder don’t think about it

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When should you face the other way and when should you keep walking towards corruption?

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Recommending

It’s been a good year or couple of months. Something I’ve always loved to do is read and this year I decided to read historical fiction that took place in real events that happened and shaped our countries. I recommend the book White Gardenia —Belinda Alexandr. Now I’m the worst person to summarize books because I don’t do a tiny paragraph I GO ALL IN anyways I’ll add to pictures the front cover and the summary at the back. Now HERES the thing the author does a really bad job at summarizing the book. Like I almost didn’t pick it up because it just seemed so boring. Another thing is how the summary is worded I thought it was going to be a Sarah’s Key style book. Like the characters switch of and yeah. I hope you enjoy the book as much as I did. Not going to lie a few salty boys were lost during this book. ( I cried. Yup I know such a surprise ) I’m hoping to read Tuscan rose and just ahhh I want to read it now!!! I might try to find it online but I always think for these books it’s better to have it like the hard copy. So instead of throwing your phone to the wall you can throw the book. Enjoy!! ✌️✌️👌

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Ahhh

It’s been 2 1/2 weeks. I don’t have any before photos of my calves but I’m starting to see muscle on my arms. My stomach is also starting to show some stuff but let’s keep that for later. 😪👌 PEACE ✌️