toxicbpd

[toxicbpd]

Being chronically ill in your 20s is stupid you have to see your peers like “started a family🥰” “got married😍” “bought a house😇” “scored a promotion😋” meanwhile you’re fighting for your life to take a shower

[toxicbpd]

[toxicbpd]

None of this would’ve been an issue if I just killed myself at 16

[toxicbpd]

i must create scars, scars are what define me

[toxicbpd]

[toxicbpd]

[toxicbpd]

I just don't want to exist anymore. I'm just so very lonely. I am so fucking lonely.

[toxicbpd]

‘‘Can you multitask?’’

Yes, I’m losing my mind & chillin’ at the same time.

[toxicbpd]

You find the peace where I look for war.

[toxicbpd]

My colors are darker and cold, I think it's time that I went home.

[toxicbpd]

I used to shine bright like gold, now I’m all indigo.

[toxicbpd]

Where do i go if nowhere and no-one feels like home anymore

[toxicbpd]

Call me manipulative, but I want someone to reach their hand out to me when I start to walk away.

I want to feel like I'm worth running after. I want to feel like I'm wanted.

[toxicbpd]

[toxicbpd]

Just seasonal self-destruction 😚

[toxicbpd]

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

[toxicbpd]

and when all the distractions dont work anymore and its the end of the day, i’m left with just myself and the want for it all to please just fucking stop.