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Aw, thanks for your reply! I'm actually very proud of my hair, but it's just a shame other people can't see it the same way I do *sigh*

If you're proud then as far as I'm concerned, that's all that matters. Other people's words are just a bunch of sticks and stones.How long have you been natural for?

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Stay Tuned

Life has dealt me cards

To fear I move toward.

Where I can design who I am

A one way ride to propel myself forward

The time is N.O.W. to hand craft a plan

One that is flexible and resilient In the process of reaching up dear,

I’ve brought you down and there’s no excuse for it

I have to give this charade up because I’m playing into the hand of one of my fears

I was lost before, developed a nausea when alone

Now I have a proper gripOne hand on what I need, both eyes fixed on where I will go

This is a trip I will have to go on my own

No temporary fix

Instead of talking about it I will be about it so…

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There is positive influence EVERYWHERE

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Perception is Everything

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"A drawing based on your blog" Yes please 😊

Everyone who reblogs this will get a drawing based on their blog

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Sounds in my Mind

“I’d like to see what you think you can do to me”

He said, standing in the front garden of my then home, Mapledene Road, simultaneously texting on two phones.

“Are you going to move or not?” I retorted, bringing the turning action of my key in the door to a stop. Why would anyone repeatedly stalk the same house on a daily basis? There’s no logic in that, none that I could see.

  And then like many other times before, the truth hit home.

He feels alone.

All of the compandres from college and uni are in a different time zone.

  Without the positive company, lack of money, he had allowed the design of his life to become uncouth.

Looking into his sorrowful eyes I see the remnants of a man encased in the shell of a drone.

One mechanically configured to grant the any and every wishes of the local lost youth.

  Sounds pro-Samaritan but with the same might he spews the darkest of words and acts with distaste towards everyone else in his home.

I’ve known Leslie all of my life and his current circumstances are a spoof.

  I KNOW HIS REAL TRUTH.

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DIY your vests for a style revamp 😍

DIY BALENCIAGA INSPIRED CROP TOP

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On Lock

I felt like I was high for the first time again.

On the roof of the Walthamstow Dog stadium, looking up all a bright blue sky dotted with white candy floss clouds.

No rain.

No teachers or finger wagging figures around.

The only care we had was making sure our feet never touched the ground.

Fast forward to the here and now.

In relation to sobriety I hold no vows. In acquiring knowledge to grow.

I chase it tirelessly wiping sweat from my brows.

No stopping now...onwards and I upwards I will and can go.

  I avoid living in the past because the fact is if you do you'll get left there.

Listening to Soulstar I bask in the previous Ninette's skin, playing roly poly, making way for the new in that b**** with no care.

Of my former self's positives I am fully aware.

While Musiq chimes, "But now, look at her, she got this game on lock", I stop.

I will keep this ish going until I get to the top.

Even then I still will fizzle and pop! The #TimeisNOW

I'm inspired:

Musiq Soulchild, Womanpoly

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N.O.W.'s Introduction to Natural Hair

When the decision was made to give my hair the big chop my reasons were more about marking a period of transition. I had just left a job of ten years and, wanting to understand what defines N.O.W.

Being under the spatula was far from a relaxing experience, despite the name relaxer; the chemical process used to straighten kinky, hard to manage hair. The fear of my trim being understood as bob cut lead to me relaxing my own hair myself during my teenage years.

With the wooden application spatula in my left hand I believed that having control over the relaxer process would result in a finish I would be, at least, content with. The daily battle that ensued with my hair lead to minute insecurities that I internalised.

For years I tried to gel, mould and style my relaxed hair but with every attempt I felt as disheveled as how I perceived my hair actually looked. My call to natural alternatives could only be fulfilled in starting again.

The end of July was when I had enough. I started to recall how empowering it was to take scissors to my hair at the age of twelve but, not being brave enough to follow through and sport and an ultra short cut.

I cut my hair so short that managers at my fairly new place of work thought I was a new starter they had overlooked.

Since taking the plunge to cut all traces of my relaxed hair off my head, I've gained something unexpected. Confidence in my natural beauty, a growing understanding that the material shop bought exterior, like the Peruvian hair extensions are whatever the most decadent and pricey market leader is, only curtains the real me.

My biggest desire is to discover who I am and to achieve this goal I need to peel back my every layer to reveal my purpose.

When stood under armpits that occupy my head space on a packed train, or bus, I notice that I am amidst a natural hair revolution. Through peep holes between bodies packed like sardines I see you.

Another of my desires is to document this shift in how women see themselves, their hair. If you deem yourself as part of the natural hair revolution, come forward, identify yourself, connect with me.

  I want to put words to your experience and share with other women, to help us move past the aesthetics to more acceptance and appreciation of natural beauty.

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"When I looked in the mirror I saw a false representation. I was hiding behind a façade. Now I see my true beauty growing and changing in front of my eyes, naturally" - N.O.W.

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You've got to keep going. Even in the rain 💦

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Reveal, acknowledge, heal and move on

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How do you know which way to go if you have no goals?

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#PositiveThoughtoftheDay #SoulSundays #breath #keepgoing #strength #grow #positive #life #mantra #change #improve

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#Tan #Timberland #boots ...? I'll have some of that #TuesdayShoesday #TuesdayTreat