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hey hey so I haven't posted in a long time. I haven't lost any more w3ight but I have kept a flat stomach, healed my gut a lot (NO more lax and taking probiotics), been hitting sometimes up to 30,000 steps.... my downfalls have been ice cream and pasta. But I had a mindset shift. Instead of ice cream it's zevia (0 cal soda sweetened with stevia)... instead of pasta it's an assortment of colorful and vibrant fruits and vegetables. In my line of work I get a lot of time off in the summer starting after work on Friday. So that's when the w3ight loss is gonna go hard. Exercise, intermittent fasting, high raw vegan whole foods, and LOTS of sunshine .... I also am lightening my hair with a product called sunbabe and I have an entire glow up plan to look the best I ever have by my birthday and show EVERYONE how it's done.

I hope the few followers I have are doing well and much love 💗💗💗💗

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another coworker said to me, "since I've worked with you, you've lost A LOT of weight! I can tell you work out! I bet you're super health conscious!" All that kind of stuff. proud of myself.....

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at work one of my women co workers looked me up and down with a snarl of jealousy when I was wearing a tight tank top & yoga pants. Although I really hate the way women are pitted against each other , because she's a bitch to me randomly for no reason and she's one of the only people who I told I'm autistic and she still acts like I'm stupid when I say anything ...... it's kinda funny she's jealous . (stay mad because I work for this body.)

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good news .... things are going so well. I ditched breakfast and moved back to OMAD, I've been hitting between 12,00 and 20,000 steps a day and running pretty regularly; I've been taking probiotics and never using any form of lax anymore so my digestion can heal; I've stopped weighing myself and started working on self acceptance because how we perceive ourself is extremely powerful.... my stomach is getting ridiculously flat like I fully relax it and even try to push it out and it's still completely flat. My legs, thighs and bootay are slimming down as well but I need to tone up and moisturize. I've been getting nice and full with dinner (I eat around 4 pm), and I've even gotten ice cream a couple times. Things are falling into place in time for summer and it's honestly surreal. I still need to get back to juicing and smoothies but to avoid autistic burnout it's been coffee and protein shakes during the day. But it's working, my skin looks great too. I need to remember to take my vitamins and minerals tho, I've been really fucking that up. Anyway that's the update. Remember you can eat and you can love yourself and be thin. You just have to find your balance and for me it's omad and staying super active + positive self talk.

xoxo 💋🌸💖

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every day I wake up with a flat stomach

which means, every day it could get flatter

do not fuck this up

lean into yourself

into your lean self

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it's been sooo beautiful out lately... and today my man and I were gonna just go out and walk, hit up a couple stores etc. I went to put on a crop tee and ..... no. My stomach was sticking out, like a lot. I'd just eaten dinner but still, that shouldn't happen that bad. I should be able to suck it in just a little and get by like that but it was beyond that. Lately I've been doing omad but eating a lot for my meal and still eating a cookie after. Idk. I'm starting a new tactic tomorrow because I'm not FUCKING being insecure this summer.

Starting tomorrow liquids only all day as usual, smoothie for dinner, then go out for a run/walk for an hour. That should curb my appetite. Just a couple weeks of doing that and I'd be at my goal body. I'm just not happy with myself until I reach the body size I want to be at. It is what it is.

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I got a new juicy couture bag today ... it's pink, has sparkles, and is super extra. so you know what that means ....

I've got to get skinnier .....

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the plan has evolved and changed as it always does. I am diversifying my microbiome, making sure to get enough of certain things without going overboard, because my sugar binges were not going away. Therefore I am eating fruit. I'm taking probiotics and working out when I can but I keep burning out because of my neurodivergence. It's okay I just get back into it when I am ready. Right now I am not really trying to lose more, I'm trying to get my body back in a healthy balance so that after that I can lose more. I've been plateauing and I know it's because my body isn't getting enough nutrients so then I have uncontrollable chocolate urges and it keeps me at the same place. So I'd rather have smoothies during the day than eat a bunch of chocolate at night before bed. I want to just keep getting smaller but I have to be smart about this because the restricting is leading me toward binging whereas diversifying what I am eating and adding more fresh fruits and vegs leads me back to control.

Anyway I took a couple weeks away from edblr but coming back is such a relief, I don't know why this app feels so much like some kind of home base ... but it does.

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okay .... I'm ready to lock in again. I've been working out consistently but eating more than I need to, eating simple carbs, etc. I'm ready to take it back the basics: cauliflower rice. broccoli. tofu. replacing my dessert with a low cal sugar free meal replacement shake to kick this habit holding me back from my dream body that is within reach. it's going to be 80°F tomorrow.... which is a huge wakeup call. it's time to take this more seriously than ever before. we are nearing summer, we are nearing the finish line. BE YOUR BEST.

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every day is a new opportunity to lock in. 💗

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I still want to lose 10 lbs but it's very difficult now. I'm nearing underw31ght and my body is holding onto the fat I still have, thinking we should stay this size. I've been smaller before, but as we all know it's hard to lose it again. It's harder to r3strict, like I do well but it's always the sweets after dinner that add another few hundred cals to my day. I'm still usually in a d3ficit but like ... I want to be effortlessly small for summer and it's already nearing April. I just need to keep re evaluating, keep grinding, keep moving, keep it pushing, keep on trying.

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today I had a baggy crew neck sweater on top of another long sleeve shirt, a puffer vest over it underneath my jacket, with stuff in the pockets, and I still looked sk1nny.

I guess this means I made it ....?

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Ummmm I've been eating like a healthy girl in her wellness era so like, carrots, hummus, salads, tofu, chickpeas, lentils, whole grains, sweet potatoes, green beans, dressings made from raw nuts, etc etc... but I haven't been restr!cting as much as I should. I'm probably still in a deficit but I'm cutting it close. I've been hitting like 13,000 steps and trying to get on the treadmill every day but I've been having trouble sleeping so I don't have much energy... tonight I made sugar free sk1nny chocolate chip cookies and ate four of them so I'm in this weird place of kind of doing a good job but also bullshitting a little bit because I want to be TINY.... idk.... I needa lock in.... I know how I want, NEED to look, how I NEED to feel in my own self... and it's sk!nn!er than this....

these are the cookies tho ha xD

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hey ♡♡♡ .... I've been eating more than I wanted to this weekend, but MY TREADMILL ARRIVED TODAY!!!!!!! & I'm planning on doing around 900 net cals per day and then burning 500 per day, so this is gonna take everything to the next level... I have been stretching, and I'm ready to start the routine again (I had a long weekend and it kinda fucks with me, I rely on my routine quite a bit and it's easy to r3str!ct at work but it's hard to at home). The weather is warming up AS WE SPEAK, so it's mthrfcking CRUNCH TIME. I'm honestly pretty good, I haven't w3!ghed since I came in at 124, I'm waiting until the perfect moment so I'm not disappointed.... but I'm ready for my beach body, I'm ready for my best self, let's go !!!!!!!

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I finally ordered a treadmill !!!!!!! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

This is gonna be a game changerrrrrrr

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Okay so I need to get back on track after this weekend, I stayed home from work yesterday for a mental health day cuz I was headed toward a meltdown so I ate more than I wanted.... but today we are BACK and we are back doing pilates and stretches. My plan to get back into it this week is :

♡ breakfast bar + iced latte in morning (280)

♡ drink Propel all day at work (0)

♡ 1/2 pack tofu, green beans, & 1/2 small sweet potato (300 to 400 cal meal)

♡ aim for 10,000 steps

♡ pilates

♡ stretching to improve posture

LET'S GO !!!!!!!

xoxo 💋 💗 🌸

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Hey everyone, this weekend was a loved one's birthday weekend so there was alcohol, there was cake, there was food.... Def wasn't in a deficit this weekend. But!! It's over now and tomorrow I'm going back to as low of an intake as possible. Since it's been winter I always layer 2 pairs of leggings, but this morning when we went out for breakfast I just had one pair on and I caught my reflection in the window and I could actually see like, my legs look legit sk!nny. So that made me feel awesome. I don't like the feeling of eating too much and I cannot stand when my stomach isn't flat, so it's felt a little out of control, but ... it's over. We're back in routine, tomorrow. Only reason I'm cool with it being Monday tomorrow.... it's so easy to r3str!ct at work and I get my steps.

xoxo 💋 💗 🌸