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David Foster Wallace

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" i have a meanness in me, real as an organ slit me at the belly and it might slide out, meaty and dark. " — #perniicious an indie horror oc

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PAUL MESCAL Photographed by Jason Hetherington for Flaunt Magazine

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@specterseen: ❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

it was a good question - one that he didn't exactly have the answer to without putting them both in danger and so he simply shrugs instead, mentally cursing himself for being so sloppy and allowing robin to catch him literally red handed once again. "don't know - bad luck i guess." which was enough of an explanation as to why he would be standing outside his apartment door looking like he got hit by a fucking truck. "why are you here, robin? i don't remember ordering a pizza." or maybe he did? he's pretty certain he might be concussed at this point.

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&. 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  we  love  angst  on  this  blog,  what  can  we  say.  here’s  some  more  dialogue  prompts  for  you.  a  warning  for  potentially  triggering  themes  below.  )

❛ everything you touch, you ruin. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ you can’t make me disappear. ❜

❛ memories are only there to make you bleed. ❜

❛ i don’t need your permission. ❜

❛ don’t shut me out like this. ❜

❛ the less you know, the better. ❜

❛ i won’t stop killing until you kill me. ❜

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ you think i felt something for you? you’ve forgotten what i am. ❜

❛ the last time we talked, didn’t you say you wanted to kill me? ❜

❛ i felt something loosen in me that shouldn’t have been loosened. ❜

❛ pull yourself together. we have work to do. ❜

❛ stay back, i have a demon inside of me. ❜

❛ let me get closer, i have a hell inside of me where your demon can live. ❜

❛ people like that don’t deserve to live. ❜

❛ just do what you’re told. like you always do. ❜

❛ why do you have to make everyone hate you? ❜

❛ it’s better that you don’t get involved. ❜

❛ i’d do anything to make you stay. ❜

❛ who cares if it bleeds. ❜

❛ is this what you think love is? ❜

❛ just breathe through it. it gets easier. ❜

❛ don’t pretend that you cared about me. ❜

❛ i’m starting to think you like wasting my time. ❜

❛ we wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for me. ❜

❛ i will never, ever, give you a moment’s peace. ❜

❛ the world doesn’t hate us. but it doesn’t love us either. ❜

❛ it hurts that you still can’t trust me after all this time. ❜

❛ a darkness with voices is better than a silent void. ❜

❛ it’s safer to be feared, than loved. ❜

❛ am i not good enough for you? ❜

❛ a burnt child loves the fire. ❜

❛ i’m tired of dying. ❜

❛ what if you hurt because it feels good? ❜

❛ don’t try to fix me, i’m not broken. ❜

❛ if you want me to die, you can just say so. ❜

❛ you don’t have to be afraid of who you are. ❜

❛ that line disappears once you cross it. ❜

❛ how can i believe you after all you’ve done? ❜

❛ i won’t let you forget about me. ❜

❛ the person you once knew me as, died. ❜

❛ are you going to leave me again? ❜

❛ i have nothing i could offer you. ❜

❛ no one is going to save you. no one can. ❜

❛ maybe you’re / i’m already dead. ❜ 

❛ you have blood on your hands. ❜

❛ what, can’t take a punch? ❜

❛ i’m your mind giving you someone to talk to. ❜

❛ you have to step out of this darkness and let them see you for who you are, like i have. ❜

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" between terror and rage ucciisore --- i chose rage. " ind. crime oc.

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PAUL MESCAL as JUNIOR in FOE (2023)

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he had always felt bunny's darkness, her struggle, her fight against herself. it was something far too familiar and something he saw so deeply in himself. who were they behind the monsters they had been made to be? often leon would wake in a cold sweat stuck on the thought that maybe this was it. maybe there was nothing left behind the pain and bloodshed - no longer human but merely a weapon. a frown tugs at his lips, slowly shaking his head to her question. "no, coniglia." words are hummed quiet yet certain, taking a step closer to bunny, eyes a deep blue as they fix on her. "there is nothing i would change about you - " he would take it all, every last gruesome little bit. " - not a damn thing."

@ucciisore: starter call. 🐰

"What if this is who I really am?" The question lingers between them. She's just so damn tired of toeing the line, of fighting what's inside of her. For who? For what? Why must she think of the consequences? Bunny has power that people can only dream of, why should she be afraid of it? Why must she be fair and equal, when life has chewed her up and spit her out? "Would that disappoint you?"

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I'm still here!!! My anxiety has just been so high lately it's been hard to write but things are starting to get better

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leon and his perpetual state of loneliness

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Bones and All (2022) // dir. Luca Guadagnino

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@crushsung : ❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜

was he looking at her? time and reason slipped away in waves of exhaustion that buzzed in his head like a swarm of angry hornets, rendering him powerless to his own thoughts and actions which ran wild tonight. so really, he wouldn't be surprised if his gaze had been lingering and he arches a curious brow in her direction.

"--- like what?"

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@grote5que : ❛ what are you smiling at? ❜

the question makes him want to scowl but with the way riley was looking at him with those fervent amber eyes of hers he found it damn near impossible and it was becoming increasingly obvious that even after all the years apart and the distance between them riley still had that pestering hold over him that no one else was quite capable of. "you, amore mio -" he missed her. like really fucking missed her.

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i am here attempting to make icons and write

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𝙾𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟺, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟷 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶 -𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹

[ID. October 4. I feel restless and vicious. END ID]

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@petitsdieu said : ❛ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ❜

his stomach sinks to a familiar place, silently cursing his inability at making genuine connections with people. leon knows how he can be. cold, brazen, closed off. even if there was fondness in his heart he had absolutely no idea how to show it. "no hara -- no that's not true." the truth was he liked her. he liked her a lot which was the whole problem wasn't it? leon had a tendency to pull away the moment he was drawn in close. it was easier that way. "mi dispiace --- i'm sorry." he sighs, defeated as he runs his fingers through his hair, looking towards hara from where she sat beside him at the bar, giving her an attempt at a genuine smile which he's sure falls flat. "i'm just ... i am not very good at this."