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Day 28 - Mercy

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CW: Suggestive

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"Have mercy," you panted between hot, needy kisses.

Viktor had you shoved against the wall of the entry way. Hands roaming freely. One found its way under the hem your dress, the garment that started this whole thing. Admittedly, you'd worn it to get a rise out of him.

Now you were dealing with the delicious consequences.

Viktor nipped at the sensitive skin of your neck, pulling a mewl from your throat. "Mercy? - You spend the day teasing me, and now you ask for mercy. We haven't even begun, my love."

"You like the dress then?"

"Yes. Very much so."

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An important lesson we can learn from plants, especially those considered "weeds", is that if a system does not work for you, grow around it.

Dandelions cannot thrive trapped under a concrete roof, so they twist and spread and sprout between the cracks.

Tree roots will find their way through foundations and bricks to feed the tree.

Brambles will climb up and over fences designed to keep them out, if what's beyond let's them grow.

A sunflower in a pot will face the sun, not the room it's owner so desperately wants it to decorate.

Do what you need to do to thrive, irregardless of what others think you should do.

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I love kids they’re all like.. “when i grow up i’m gonna be an astronaut and a chef and a doctor and an olympic swimmer” like that self confidence! That drive! That optimism! Where does it go

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Day 24 - Date

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~Canon for the Artist and the Engineer~

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You looked at the date on the information packet again. Your gallery exhibition was in two days. A grandiose collection of all your years of hard work. The only issue was your desired plus one. You weren’t sure he would accept your invitation.

Pet names aside.

Butterflies swarmed your belly as you walked into the studio. Viktor was already there. He’d set up your table for you.

Turning to you, his smile faltered as he studied your face. “You seem nervous, dove.”

“Vik,“ you sighed, “would you - that is - I was wondering…”

“Yes. I’ll be your escort for your gallery.”

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Today, we begin our journey into GamePass games on Xbox!

BlueSky

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Today we are back with Borderlands!

Have you ever tried stealthing in a bandit camp? It's much harder than it looks...

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Day 23 - Workshop

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You wandered halls. Were you going the right way? You looked once more at the napkin in your hand. The world’s crudest map drawn by the Man of Progress himself.

It made no sense.

You just wanted to get to the workshop. Surprise Viktor. Yet, here you were — lost. The food was going to be cold by the time you found it, the way this was going.

You took a guess as you pushed through a door. Just praying it was correct. And sure enough, there he was. Backlit by the afternoon sun, a cup of tea in his hand

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I put down writing so many times in my life.

The muse started to call in middle school. Since then, I’ve written and stopped so many times. But I’m always always called back to it.

Creation is one thing I don’t think I’ll ever escape from. In fact, I think it’s impossible.

Once the muse finds you, she’ll whisper in your ear. You’ll never truly be free of her.

“Exercising is a good analogy for writing. If you’re not used to exercising you want to avoid it forever. If you’re used to it, it feels uncomfortable and strange not to.” — Jennifer Egan

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and i know people mean well when they give employment advice but god damn some of them its like "did you try submitting your resume to a place that is hiring" fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck no kidding. shit. ive just been printing them out and eating them. yeah thanks i'll try that

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asking "hey is it fine if I smoke in here" and before you're able to answer I've already set up a full rack of salmon over a fire in your living room

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Yesterday's video! This is the only one without the audio crackle?? It makes no sense. But we'll see when I go to edit the others.

The journey continues! We are on our way to becoming the Firehawk. Not only that, we hear about T.K’s tragic backstory and Scooter makes inappropriate jokes about his mama’s ’girl parts.’

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Brain Soup - May 21, 2025

Happy Wednesday, I somehow forgot it was Wednesday. Maybe too much weed lately, lmao

Just grabbed my pen to do a wake and bake, it helps get my creative juices flowing. I'm working on the outline for The Artist and the Engineer. I know where the next four chapters are going. Now I just have to write them. I'm going to update every other week, so I want to make them as juicy as possible.

Hopefully my writing will be up to snuff.

I've have videos scheduled for the last three days. Now to edit, so I can have videos for the next few days. I'm going to try my hardest to upload every day. But I also need to make sure that I'm posting shorts every day too.

I have an OB appointment today. I did my paperwork this morning. It was asking about my gender identity and my sexual orientation. I just don't think they really need to know that. Like if I'm going to the OB, then obviously I have the bits that need an OB. Thank you for asking my pronouns, but I only use they/them on the internet because I just don't think the people in my life would get it.

Bisexual was as close to pansexual as they had. I figured that, at least, can't hurt in one way or another for people to know. I mean, I don't really care either way.

Still, I just thought it was weird.

I bought a new cable for my capture card. I think I fixed my clipping problem. Now to make my video good quality. I fixed my camera, for the most part. Had no idea there was a quality setting and I could set it to 1080p. Looks hella better.

I was mad because my webcam wasn't cheap but it wasn't giving me the quality I wanted. Good to know it was a 'me' thing.

I just double checked, I bought that camera for $80 in 2022. I was still working at the dealership then and had a weird schedule. Husband was working overnights, so I'd record in the morning while he slept. Then go over to see him until work at 2/2:30. Then go back to his house after I got off at 6.

It was a weird time.

Today, I have to edit some videos. I need to work on my A&E chapter. I need to record, at least, two videos. Then again, I'm not sure if I'll have time. But we'll see. If nothing else, I need to record Saturday's video. Then I'll have all the videos for this week sorted.

The next few weeks are going to be busy. We're making an actual effort to be social. So we'll see how that goes.

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Brain Soup - 6AM May 20th, 2025

Good morning, rise and shine. It's fucking Tuesday and, brother, am I tired. It was so cold seeing Husband off to work this morning. Hard to believe it's May. But that's the East Coast for you.

I didn't get a chance to do everything I wanted yesterday. I really need a time chart. I need to set alarms for stretch breaks, and possibly one for a walk. I want to take the dog with me, but she's terrified of people and will run back home at the first sign of perceived danger (aka someone walking on the other side of the road ignoring us or a car on the highway being a little too loud).

My Borderlands video has 8 views, which I think is pretty good. All things considered. I still can't figure out how to get rid of that crackling in my recordings. I've never had that issue before, so I can't figure out what's going on. But it's incredibly annoying.

I need to work on my Viktor fan fic today. I already have my drabbles set. I'm thinking I'm going to pick a dedicated day and update it then. Maybe every other Friday? I think that would give me enough time.

I really do want to take sometime today and look a little further within myself. Figure out what I want to do with my life. Which direction I want to take. My friend does tarot readings, and she's always telling me to ignore outside criticism. That the only way to get what I want is ignore all the outside voices. That's hard, though - especially when I'm broke and need money. But I want to make money doing things I like. So it's a round robin, at that point.

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My first video in over a year is up! It's nice to be back and recording. Now let's see what kind of pace I can keep!

I'm so excited to be back and recording!

Greetings adventurers - Schooblz is back and ready for action!

In light of the Borderlands 4 release later this year, I'd thought it'd be fun to go on a journey waaayyyyy back to the very first game! My goal is play through the entire series in preparation for 4's release.

Come along for the ride!

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Brain Soup - May 19, 2025

I'm a little later doing this today than usual. But that's okay. Husband called on first break, his day is going good. Which makes me happy. I hyper focused and wrote drabbles for the next three days, plus today's. I have all of them scheduled on Tumblr. But as draft chapters on Ao3.

Today, I want to get more recording done. I have today and tomorrow's videos scheduled.

But today, I also want to do a little meditation. Take a deep dive into my brain and really figure out what I want to do with my life. I don't feel as lost at 28 as I was at 18. But I still feel like I'm lacking direction or commitment.

One thing I find over and over again is how much I disappoint myself. I make plans then never follow through. I find list after list of to dos from years ago that still have the same dreams on them. Just...unrealized because I never committed fully to them.

So today, I want to really think about my future. The kind of person I want to be for my kids, when we have them. Then I want to actually put together the building blocks. Create a list for myself to follow.

I'm a disappointment to myself, and I think that's the worst thing. I'm tired of letting myself down. This year has already shown me who my real friends are. Who the people who really love and care about me are. So now I need to show myself who I really am and how much I love myself and want better for me.

No more dreaming.

It's time for planning.

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