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Matt has a whole new family now (and a new face). His husband Angelo. His son Niko. And his twins Saturnina & Luana. I’m contemplating giving him a new blog but it’d be more of a journal since he’s changed a lot as a character and isn’t necessarily keen on posting images of his children online. We’ll see.

However, this blog will stay up since I’m fond of some of the old posts!

Matty & Co.

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Hmmm...

Might be time to revamp this blog and follow Matt through single parenthood as a student. (None of his past kids exist, he has a son named Niko. You can peep a lil more about that/his life in general here)

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The End...

OOC: Resetting Matt, this timeline is just no good for him and his growth as a character. I’ll be making him a new rp blog when the timing is right but there will be no further updates to this blog & his kids/marriage in this timeline no longer exist. Thank you for all the support over the time that this blog was up!!

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🌺💖Paddle Boardin’ with Lu 💖🌺

I took LuLu to the beach with my dad earlier today so we could get some one on one time together.  It’s been hard on her trying to adjust from being an only child to having three newborns she has to share my attention with. So, I’ve made a point to spend time with her just the two of us whenever I can get the babies settled and have someone else watch them for a bit.  

I think today was totally worth all the extra fuss over getting the babies settled before heading out for a few hours, Lu needed the attention and she definitely enjoyed being out on the water. Every time we’d go back to shore she’d hop up and down and point at the water shouting “Oh seen!” (Yes, I’m aware my kid is the cutest lil shit ever). So, if my toddler understanding skills are as good as I think they are....she had a blast and we’ll be doing a lot more paddle boarding in the near future.

Next post I’ll be sure to talk more about the babies since I don’t think I have even said their names on here yet. But today is all about my OG, Luana🌺

Much Love,

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Aloha 🌺

I’m home!!!

After a lot of consideration and being at my wits end with the cold ass weather in New York...I decided a trip was in order. So, we’re back in my home town, Waialua, Hawai’i! Marshall had to stay home because he’s producing his own play and can’t be away from the project right now but the kiddos and I are doing just fine on our own. We’ve only been here about a week and I’m ecstatic to be around my dad’s side of the family who I haven’t seen in nearly a year. I’ve missed them all so much, especially my grandmother who absolutely adores her great grand babies and has been helping out a lot with the triplets. 

So far the only down side to this impromptu trip has been adjusting to the time zone. It’s 6pm now whereas it’s midnight in New York and I’m struggling to keep my eyes open. Hopefully the kids and I will all adjust soon and spend time going out during the day rather than sleeping, hah.

With that...I’m going to go take a nap with the kids.

Much Love, 

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                 Happy Valentine’s Day from The Triplets!

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Down Time 2.11.2018

Long time no see...obviously since my last post you saw that the triplets were born. They made their arrival December 19th at 36 weeks. We lucked out and all three of them were able to come home from the hospital with me on Christmas Eve -- Something I’m so grateful for after the time we had with Luana staying in the NICU when she was born. 

And if you haven’t guessed, I’ve been busy as hell with three babies and Luana to take care of but it’s not so bad seeing as I have my amazing husband, a nanny (who is fantastic), and my parents who are helping out for the time being. All the support has been so needed, although I’ve finally adjusted to having babies in the house again now that they’re here and I love my M Squad so much more than I could’ve imagined... they are really hard work even. I think our little Luana has it the hardest though, the thrill of babies wore off for her when they started interrupting her nap schedule during the day. We’ve since passed that hurdle but she’s still getting used to being a big sister and not being my main focus through out the day. I will give her credit & say that she’s a sweetheart and offers to “help” with the babies when she’s not irritated with them. Some nights she’ll even try to sleep in their room with them (which I almost always give into because...truthfully...I’m a sucker for how cute she is). I’ve got to admit, even with the occasional tantrum and asking to give two of the babies to her friends who don’t have siblings...she’s adjusted so much better than I expected her to. That said, I don’t think she or the triplets will have to adjust to anymore siblings again, or at least not for a long, long time. I’m feeling pretty done with having kids and just as done with this post.

Much Love,

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                                      ℍ𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕪 ℕ𝕖𝕨 𝕐𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝔽𝕣𝕠𝕞 𝕌𝕤 𝕋𝕠 𝕐𝕠𝕦

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I mentioned in passing that we were in LA visiting a few friends in my tags...and since I never really post about our trips...I thought why not actually talk about this one! We spent two days at Disneyland, I wish it could be more but we leave for Hawaii tomorrow so we really need to get to packing and getting ready for our flight. Either way I’m so happy for the time we got to spend in Disneyland together. Unlike our honeymoon we spent a lot more time with Lu exploring and she was actually able to have fun and enjoy the park with us and our friends. And speaking of friends....Gen (@freckledlittleloves) and I got to bond over all the rides we couldn’t go on due to a little thing called pregnancy. After a whole day of only being able to ride “Its a Small World” the train was almost thrilling, hah. But all in all I had a lot of fun eating everything available to me, drinking all the non-alcoholic margaritas I could, and just spending time with my family. My favorite moment of this vacation so far was Lu getting to meet Minnie Mouse, aka one of her favorite characters to grace Disney Jr. I was honestly a little bit nervous that a life size Minnie would terrify her but that wasn’t the case and she even got to hug Minnie. I doubt she’ll remember it when she’s older but at the very least she has some great pictures to look back on from this trip.

Much Love,

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                                         …Triplets On Board…

So…I have some explaining to do… We are in fact having triplets and we’ve known ever since the first ultrasound. It’s taken a lot to process since we weren’t expecting one baby let alone three, but we’re…getting there. To be completely honest, I’m still in shock, but after having a few weeks to let the shock subside just a little…I’m really excited for our three little goobers on board.

I won’t make this a very long post…mainly because like I said…still processing. I’m also a little bit scared shitless as to what our future holds in store for us as a family of six so…words are escaping me. But one thing remains, I’m excited for our babies, I love our family endlessly, & I’m happy to have this experience with my husband.

Much Love 

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SURPRISE! 12 weeks + 1 day! 

I posted these on my twitter yesterday and then realized...I should probably make a blog post too...But surprise, I’m pregnant!

I’ve known for awhile now, even before I took the test...which I put off, a lot, and still pretended to be surprised at when I took it lmao, but now...I’m sort of grasping the whole being pregnant thing. Much better than my initial reaction because rather than telling my husband like a normal person I threw the pregnancy test at his head and ran off, I’m a keeper, I know. But I still think it was some good news to have given to him on Father’s day. 

Emotional turmoil aside...we’re all doing really well. Lu is too young to grasp the idea of a pregnancy yet but I think she’s taken notice to just how emotional I’ve been lately...on top of the weight gain, I’m carrying pretty big for this early on lol. She pats my belly despite having no clue of what’s actually happening and I think its adorable. The Goober is all good, we had an ultrasound already (of which I almost passed out at) and everything is growing as it should, they’re on track to making a healthy entrance into the world. And Mooshie and I are still....processing, excitedly processing. I love them already...but I still haven’t quite processed that I will no longer be only Lu’s dad. If you couldn’t guess this pregnancy was not planned, so, now I’m just like ‘Woah, more than one kid...that’s uncharted territory’ and I’m not sure that I’ll process it fully until they get here. But for now, that’s okay, what matters is that they are loved and cared for by the time they make their arrival, and I know they will be considering all the love I have in my heart for them already.

 I won’t bore you with one of those log things, that’s what my pregnancy app is for, but I will say this first trimester has been rough. I’m happy to kiss it goodbye and hopefully start to enjoy this pregnancy a little more than I have been.

Much Love,

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HAPPY PRIDE EVERYBODY!

I just got home from pride, like, not even a full half hour ago and I’m just...ever so happy. Because for starters, IT WAS BABY GIRL’S FIRST PRIDE! But it was also my cousin Aimilios’ first pride & his boyfriend, Kenzo’s ( @parkerpeter12 ) first pride too! And I’m just so proud of Aim for a) coming out after 400 million years & b) actually dating someone I like and want to adopt into the family immediately lmao. But back to the point, today was not only a really great day of celebration, it was a really important day to remind ourselves of the vibrant community that we are a part of and just how different our tables can actually translate into each of our lives, but at the end of the day we are still accepting and full of love for the other people in our community. 

I dunno, my brain is mush after the week I’ve had so I hope this makes some sort of sense to everyone. I’m off to go eat dinner with the family and hopefully get in some sleep soon after. Much love,

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                 🎀  𝐿𝓊𝒶𝓃𝒶’𝓈 𝟣𝓈𝓉 𝐵𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝒹𝒶𝓎❢  🎀

I’ll admit, I’m a bit late posting these, but I just wanted to keep them to myself for awhile. It’s really strange processing the fact that we have a one year old now when she wasn’t even the full length of my arm her first week home with us. But, now that I’m sort of accepting the fact that one day she’ll be as big as me (if not taller if she get’s Marshall’s gene of unbearable tallness) and have her very own life outside of me and Marshall. I know that sounds a bit dramatic...but it’s me we’re talking about, and do you see her birthday set up? Dramatics are my thing lol.

Anyways, we had a pretty laid back party for Lu, don’t let the decor fool you, just a few friends, my cousins, and Moosh’s mom/Lu’s grandma. My parents couldn’t make it but they more than made up for it with the amount of presents they sent in. My little Lu is quite adored by them, lol. She’s quite adored by me & Mooshie as well, but that should go without saying. The both of us can't wait to see who she grows into and celebrate all of her birthdays to come with her.

Much Love-

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Co-Bathing...

When I was little co-bathing was a pretty regular thing. Up until I was about five baths/showers with both of my parents were a normal part of our routine, and now that I’ve got Lu, I see why. It makes life so much easier, giving her sink baths or putting her in the baby tub is perfectly fine, sure, but if you’ve got a fussy baby who hates baths, I’d definitely recommend co-bathing. Even with Lu whose been pretty good about bath time it’s just a lot easier to bathe with her because on the off chance that she does get fussy I’m already holding her and it saves time when we both need to get cleaned up and have somewhere to be. But it comes with tiny downfalls like having to have Moosh around to help with getting Lu out before I can do so myself, and y’know, having to get out when Lu inevitably falls asleep after I start washing her hair. But like I said, those are tiny downfalls,cause Lu asleep is adorable, having Moosh around makes it a whole family thing, and the most important aspect of it to me is the skin-to-skin bonding it provides for me & Lu. 

I don’t have all that much to say about it cause it’s really just a part of our routine at this point. There’s some form of co-bathing or showering at least three times a week, I’d love to do it more but with Moosh being a teacher & getting up early, sometimes our schedules just don’t line up -- aka Neither Lu or I wake up in time for him to help us out. 

Anyways, that’s all folks. I’m quite shitty at this whole blog thing because I really feel like shoving pictures in your faces & going “LOOK AT MY KID, I MADE HER,” rather than actually talking about subjects at hand. But I’m trying & that’s what counts. Much Love

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My Lil Chunk

Not even a proper blog post. I posted this on my twitter a couple nights ago & thought why not upload it here as well. I’ll have an actual post up later this weekend hopefully & another next week? My best friend is pregnant and overdue by almost four days so I might be flying out to be with her at a moment’s notice if she goes into labor...so...long stay short, don’t take my word for it on the new blog posts lol. Anyways...

Much Love

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I Don’t Even Know What to Title This

Today (the 22nd) marks the sixth anniversary of my miscarriage, and it’s been fucking weird. This picture is from I think a week or so before I lost sprout & every other year before now I would go though pictures like this one and mope around all day. But today...it’s been different, I didn’t relive the day I lost sprout, I didn’t stay at home and cry, instead I went out and just spent time with my husband and our daughter...words my nineteen year old self never thought I’d be able to say. I never thought I’d be able to open myself up enough to have a baby with someone let alone get married, not when I spent years with someone who made me feel like his abuse and love were somehow related. Especially not when his abuse is what made me lose my baby...I was always so scared of getting pregnant again and them not wanting the baby the same way Nathaniel didn’t want ours. Obviously my marriage isn’t perfect, I still hurt some days over the time Marshall left (yeah, still not sure what to call that gap, purgatory maybe? Hah.) it even brings me back to the time after losing sprout sometimes, but with him I at least know what happiness is. With him I know what love is and should be, I know that a surprise pregnancy shouldn’t tear us apart, that fundamental respect isn’t optional with us. 

And Lu...jeez, I really never thought I’d go through another pregnancy, I didn’t. I can’t put into words how much I cherish her, she’s my universe. But...I can’t put into words the conflicting feelings I have towards now being a father and finally feeling somewhat...detached....from my miscarriage. It’s all new territory that I’m not quite sure how to process right now, but if life has taught me anything...everything takes time. 

Much Love

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Luana’s First Easter!

I don’t really celebrate Easter...but on a account of it being Lu’s first I felt like we should do something for it. So, I took a quick trip to Target, broke out a tutu, and my mom’s recipe box. And I have this picture & a giant mess in the kitchen to show for it, hah. We’re gonna have food for weeks from what I cooked, but anyways, I just wanted to log in really quick to wish you all a happy Easter if you celebrate it! 

Much Love!