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I don't normally get super frustrated with my EDS.

Will I be annoyed when it hurts to walk so I take my backpack off, put it on the ground, dig around and grab my cane, zip up my backpack, and put it back on in a way that makes it stable while I walk only for me to be fine? Yes

Have I rolled my eyes at my wrist starting to hurt because I was using my cane to help walk all day? Absolutely

Have I had to switch around braces because the bulky ones I had to wear once in a blue moon no longer were optimal for me? Yeah, but I found much better suited braces

Have I been tired when all of my joints started to act up during a rehearsal where I had to be standing and doing various motions with my joints, to the point where I almost left the room and laid down? Fucking yes, and I hated it

Have I felt like I've lost a large chunk of my humanity because my back caused me so much pain I couldn't walk for weeks? Dear God, yes

But I rarely get frustrated

I've gotten frustrated once, when I was really fighting with serious joint pain that lasted and jumped around for a week or two.

Now I'm frustrated because, even though I've been pretty okay, I can't go out shopping with my parents without my shin or my knee or my ankle hurting, and I can't sew or cross-stitch or crochet or draw without being in pain. My wrist, so I rested it, then my shoulder.

I just want to fucking engage in my hobbies. I'm halfway through the base of a tapestry and I can't fucking crochet because it hurts and I'm tired of it.

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it bugs me how many lesbians have issues with trans women. like, we're supposed to love women. what's next, you gonna start hating short people too? fuck off.

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I personally love when a paperback (easier to hold in every way) has a cracked spine and shows signs of life and being read. My favourite book? Worn to shit because I read it every year and it's a paper back.

We had a presentation about our most prized possession at the beginning of this most recent school year and one of my professors brought a paperback book with the cover fallen off and beaten to shit and her story was about how that book had moved with her everywhere she had lived since college and she read it all the time, which is beautiful

It sickens me that we have a culture where it is normal to shame people for breathing life into their possessions. Why have we come to a time where people reject humanity for the sake of clean, mass-produced perfection

I know this is gonna piss off nerds but paperbacks are superior to hardbacks

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Jellyfish

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I don't get out people will be all like, "If I'm crocheting something for you then you'll have to pay me or pay for the yarn."

Like Bitch I love crocheting things for people. I bought a clown pattern so I could make an amigurumi (never made one before) for my roommate because she loves clowns. I've made flowers for the girl I like and for my roommate because she loves roses. I'm going to be making a cropped sleeves shirt for my sister free of charge and I want to make my sister a korok amigurumi for my sister for Christmas.

Like, if I like you enough and you ask me to make you something? Abso-fucking-lutely.

Obviously I would put stipulations if it came to it, like if it were a large project I was making bc someone asked, but some people literally refuse to make things for people in their lives unless they're paying and that's just... strange to me

I get that it's time and labor and money (which I make wearables and mostly use dollar store worsted weight yarn because it's a good enough texture, cheap, and accessible so I wouldn't know) but I don't give a fuck. Like I'm the type of person that would make pigs fly for someone I care about if they asked. I've done free drawings for friends and shit too

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careers in science & academia are so Cassandra-coded. you possess a Great and Burdensome Knowledge (at heavy cost*), which is both its own reward and its own punishment. and no one fucking listens to you

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all public transport should be free unconditionally and I'm TIREDDD of pretending this is a radical idea

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They should invent a method of asking for reassurance that nobody secretly hates you that doesn't make people secretly hate you.

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How the fuck am I supposed to meet a fellow lesbian and then convince her to date me

Don't know anything about lesbians, but maybe if you walked around carrying a baseball bat that'd be really bad ass.

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really everyone you love has something miserably wrong with them or an obvious flaw that won't ever be fixed but like it's up to you what kind of person you can and cannot deal with. someone in my family has anger issues which I can handle and diffuse with no problem, but a person who can't tolerate yelling could not be close to him. another person I know is very anxious & needs constant reassurance and she gets along famously with gentler and more straightforward people than myself, but I can't handle being second guessed all the time. someone who is loosey goosey with their morals wouldn't bother me, but a person with a profound sense of justice makes me feel afraid of getting on their bad side. none of these traits actually make someone a bad person & just because there are personalities I can't handle doesnt mean I'M a bad person either. litany against callout posts for stupid shit and simple incompatibilities we all have to live on this earth together & need to learn how to deal with each other

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Ever since I started talking more about my liking women/non binary people, my mom (who has never been the type of person to point out cute boys to me) has recently started pointing out cute gender ambiguous/vaguely androgynous people to me and I think that's the biggest show of allyship that could come out of my coming out.

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reminder that "allies welcome" was once secret code for "those not out yet can still participate without putting themselves at risk", and for those who aren't out yet to comfortably exist in these spaces you have to let allies exist in those spaces too.

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Fellas, how gay is it, on a scale from heteronormative to u-haul lesbians, to lay and stargaze for 30 minutes with your friend that you have a massive crush on (which they know), reminiscing on your childhood and talking fondly about books?

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As my friends put it, upon discovering this situation (which was worse than it is now), this environment does not pass the bechdel test

I am stuck in a house and hour away from my dorm building as the only woman in a house of obviously young adult guys (aged 19-25 or so) and you can fucking tell

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I am stuck in a house and hour away from my dorm building as the only woman in a house of obviously young adult guys (aged 19-25 or so) and you can fucking tell

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I think it's so funny that there's so much stress and emphasis put on the idea of college being so hard and fun-free and restrictive, because here I am, a college student writing about gay vampires.

I shit you not, hundreds, if not thousands, of words about various different homosexual implications throughout three different novels (purely because Twilight doesn't really include much overt homosexuality and there's a lot more that I can focus on), for a grade.

To make it even funnier, this is an essay for my Honors program, meaning the scary, intimidating program that's hard to get into and should have lots of pressure? Yeah, for that class I'm writing about gay vampires.

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STOP! before you decide you are irretrievably doomed, try one of the following options:

transition

bdsm

iron supplements