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Farewell Philadelphia

I didn't really do gay prides last year. June aka Pride Month was the only month in 2023 where I didn't travel at all, and I took 23 trips in 2023.

I did end up going to Atlanta Pride in October, but I skipped every black gay pride last year, and most regular prides. I avoided black gay prides due to me getting canceled and not wanting to be around that many poz people. Granted no one's ever confronted me in person due to my pozphobia. I still get comments or posts made about me, but the keyboard warriors thankfully leave me alone in person.

So this year I want to be more prideful and go to way more gay pride celebrations. So I went to Philly Black Gay Pride.

I wasn't expecting to be a huge slut this weekend, but low expecations do usually lead to the best experiences. I haven't had any sex drive for random hookups lately, yet I guess I got over that. Maybe the lack of horniness for new men came from all the stress of moving to NYC. Now that I'm settled into my new place, I feel more at ease with having sex again.

Night one I ended up at the bathhouse after the club. I've never seen that many hot young black guys at the Philly bathhouse before. IT's a nice part of Pride weekend.

I did hookup with a friend. We had been talking online for months, and he has been following me for years. He was in a relationship with a woman for the past decade, and now started coming out. Now he's dating an old white man, which I constantly tease him about. But black gays dating old white men is very common in the northeast.

But they're not boyfriends so my friend is free to do his thing. Like go to the bathhouse with me.

I hadn't intended to hookup with DD (Delusional Dick). I call him Delusional Dick because he denies that he's a bear, when he is. LIke he denied being gay when he thought he was just in a bisexual phase that he could turn off. I knew he was diving deeper into his homosexuality. Along with the fact that he's a stereotype of being a younger black guy with an older whie partner, that he lives with half the week. He doesn't see reality.

I'm not even attracted to DD. I genuintely just want to be friends, but with gays when alcohol and weed are involved, hooking up with friends is very common. Usually some sexual tension at first, and then things become platonic afterwards.

DD did try fucking me, and then at one point we even had a crowd around us, but he couldn't stay hard. He's only been to the bathhouse once before, so it's new to him. I knew it was weird for me at first, but i've been going to bathhouses now for over 6 years, and I've been to dozens of them so I'm not embarassed.

Though I didn't like a crowd gathering around us while fucking, since as the bottom I get scared other guys will want to join in. I'm not a passaround bottom. I gotta vet guys before I let them in me. I need to be attracted and make sure they aren't poz. Also I don't want to be gang banged. That doesn't appeal to me. I didn't even like a threesome with 2 tops having their way with me for 2 hours.

Also DD was doing all this dom aggressive shit, and slapped me at one point which pissed me off. I thought of causing a scene like pushing him off me, but I didn't. I don't like that dom aggressive shit. You need to ask my permission before you think you can slap me around. Hooking up with DD was bad. I did try to make him cum throughout the night, but nothing was working. I even was willing to watch him with some old white man, incase that's the only thing that gets him off. He was beyond salvation, but it's for the best. We are better as platonic friends.

I did hookup with this butch queen latino bear that I've followed online for years. We have followed each other on most platforms. I always thought he was cute, but I heard he's been with people I know so that turned me off. But it's a small gay world. Plus he couldn't stay hard either. He told me he took many drugs beforehand, so I understood.

I did get fucked by this cute black guy in his room. It didn't last long, and I honestly forgot we fucked until his cum was coming out of me the next moring. I had to try to remember who came inside me, since I kept remembering the guys that couldn't even get/stay hard.

The rest of the night was a blur. I did suck and get sucked by a few more guys, but from what I can recall nobody came. It was one of the better nights I've had at the Philly bathhouse, since it's usually a bust.

Night 2 was the best. I went out with friends, but then got invited to the hotel of this guy I'd been talking to on Jack'd. We started talking years ago, but neve rmet. He lives in DC.

He's huge, and exactly my type. Big, beefy, brawny, butch, and bearded. He's got multiple degrees, and even in a fraternity. He's like my perfect man. He's only like a year or 2 older than me, but he has an older mature energy. Definitely daddy vibes.

The sex was amazing. I sucked him off, but then we fucked back to back. Normally I'm not one to go multiple rounds. I was very into him. He even got me off.

I slept over at his hotel. He did warn me he snores badly, which honestly is expected with bigger men. I've had some guys sleep over and their snoring was so unbearable that I couldn't tolerate it. His didn't bother me. I was able to sleep perfectly, and I normally dont' sleep well when sleeping over at a guy's place. Another sign he's my perfect man.

Only downside is he's not fully out. He's involved in the church, so he's not out to the congregation. Though I did see him at the Block Party for pride the next day and he was out with his gay friends. We did do some brief PDA, and got compliments that we look great together. I'm in NYC, and he's in DC, but they're only an Amtrak ride away. Though I don't do long distance. Hmm...whatever. I really like him!

The block party was a huge reminder of me being happy to escape Pennsylvania and start my new life in NYC. I saw so many guys from the past.

The Bouncer that is a decade youner than me, that hates me after we fucked.

The Activist guy that turned on me after I got canceled. Though he didn't immediately cut me off, so I'm confused by he did decided to randomly block me everywhere months afterwards.

Along with just other random guys, that I don't care to see again. I'm so happy to leave Philly behind. Though I do realize I like Philly more as a visitor. No interest in living there, but I do appreciate the city more when I live somewhere else.

I did have one last hookup. I invited over this Fake Dl 26 year old from Sniffies. He was really cute. He looked middle eastern, but is mixed with black and Puerto Rican. I think the fake colored contacts threw me off into thinking he looked exotic.

He was stocky and my type. I liked his belly and man boobs. He liked his nipples sucked. I knew he wasn't a full top, since when he'd moan he suonded super feminine. It was cute, but then it made me start dominating him, and getting him to stop pretending and to loosen up. It was fun. Like i'd hump him, and pin his legs up like i was about to fuck him. I did eat his ass a lot. It was fat, and hairy, but I loved eating him out.

We did just stick to oral. I had Mexican earlier, and didn't want to risk anything. Plus he was fine with oral, since he was moaning like crazy from my head. He also said he used to follow me on Twitter/Tik Tok.

He came twice. The 2nd time was on my face, and I was so paranoid some got in my eye. I was putting in so many eye drops once he left. That is my worst nightmare getting pink eye from someone cumming in my eye. Exactly why I prefer guys to cum in my hole, in my mouth, or on me tits. On my face is very rare.

After that hookup I went out with friends. I ran into my ex-best friend's new best friend that I never liked because he'd always do fake snake shit to our mutual friend (like try to get with every guy my former friend was talking to). Then the new best friend was acting all sweet and nice to me and I wasn't feeling it. If I dont' like you I don't want to have to pretend to like you, which is why my former-bff and I fell out. I don't want to have to be around his friends I dislike every time I see him, and he chose them over me by not inviting me to his huge 30th bday celebration because they didn't like me.

The guy went on long rant to me for what felt like 20-30 minutes. He was basically just talking at me, telling me how I need to go reconcile with my former friends. It's been nearly 3 years since I cut them off. I do still think of them often. They were my closest friends from the time I was 16 to 30. Over half my life.

i miss all my former BFF's but they got cut off for a reason. The friendship changed. Things weren't the way they used to be. They started treating me in a way that seemed like they didn't value the friendship as much as I did, and they had new friends that they seemingly valued more than our friendship. I'd rather be former friends than fake friends, so once you do some bullshit to me, then you're dead to me.

I don't like being someone with more former BFFS than current BFFs, but I'm also one that would rather cherish memories, than hold to someone that needs to be a memory since the relationship is no longer the same.

Maybe I'm too prideful to want to make amends. Since I felt I was hurt and betrayed, and I'm not going to reach out to them for them to shut me down, when we're not friends because of what they did to me in the first place.

Though cutting off 2 of my closest friends from high school did pretty much destroy what was left of our high school friend group, so now I'm not really close with any of my high school friends anymore. It's sad, but that's life. People grow apart. I'll always value them for their significance in my life, but I'm not sure if reconciliation ever occurred that the friendship would ever be as strong as it once was.

There's definitely no reconcilation with my other former BFF that I fell out with last fall. I've been fucking the guy he really liked since before we even stopped being friends.

Black Gay Pride was a nice send off from Philadelphia/Pennsylvania. I am so happy to be back in NYC, and working on building my future and not being haunted by my past.

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Song of the Day: "Love In Common" by Anitta

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Song of the Day: "Enough" by Jess Glynne

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Song of the Day: "Down Bad" by Taylor Swift

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Welcome To New York!

I moved to New York City!

As a gay boy growing up in suburban Pennsylvania I've always aspired to live in NYC one day. NYC has always been the ultimate city. It's the biggest city in the country, and has such a huge, vibrant, diverse gay community, with decades of history.

Plus I've noticed all gays aspire to live in the biggest city in their region. Southeast gays aspire to live in Atlanta. Midwest gays aspire to live in Chicago. West Coast gays aspire to live in LA. Northeast gays aspire to live in NYC.

I know NYC is ridicuously expensive, which is why I've always said I want to experience NYC even if it's just for a year.

I've been trapped in Pennsylvania for nearly 5 years now since leaving Atlanta. I wasn't planning to be in Pennsylvania this long, but the pandemic happened, then I was in a relationship, and then I began a new job and didn't feel comfortable moving yet. So everything happens for a reason, and timing is everything. This is my time to finally fufill my dream of living in NYC.

I decided to move to Washington Heights. Washington Heights was the neighborhood I stayed in my very first solo trip to NYC back in 2015. I immediately loved the neighborhood. The apartments tend to be cheaper and more spacious than most of lower Manhattan. I wanted to definitely be in Manhattan when I moved to NYC, which Washington Heights is in. I saw the room on a roommate finder site, and immediately wanted it. I thought I had been set on Chicago, until finding this place immediately changed my mind.

I visited it on my most recent work trip to NYC. I loved it, and I had to have it. Now I do.

One week after leaving a 2 week NYC work trip, I returned to get the keys to my new place. Then I spent the next week furnishing my place.

I'm so proud of myself. This is my first time moving somewhere fully on my own, like no help from my parents, and I even furnished my place all by myself. Without help or assistance from anyone. I even paid for all my furniture to be set up by professional carpenters. I can't put shit together myself. I tried that in Atlanta, and that was an epic fail.

At 33, some may consider that old to be experiencing true independence, but I don't give a fuck. Your life journey, and my life journey have nothing to do with each other. So yes at 33 is my first time truly paying my own rent, furnishing my own place, and finally experiencing true adulting by paying all my own bills. We all have our own different life journey time tables, and this is how mine worked out.

I love my new place. I may have gotten everything a little big, but whatever. I wanted a queen size bed. I wanted a nice pink couch. I wanted a nice sized dresser. I love all my furniture. Floor space is minimal, but hey, it's NYC. I'm grateful to have a room with a decent sized closet. I love my new place, and my new life as a New Yorker.

Moving somewhere where I could finally having a dating/sex life again was extremely important to me. I've had like no dating/sex life in Pennsylvania. I have no friends here, and would only really feel alive whenever I traveled for work or vacation.

So only a week into NYC I've already had 2 dates!

First was with my Dominican Papi. Now i know I've been warned about Dominican men time and time again. But it's NYC, and the Dominicans are in abundance. I live in the most Dominican part of the city, and there are hot, buff, sexy Dominican men everywhere. Even my first time at my new gym I was shocked how many big, buff, muscular guys there were. I'd never seen that many hot fit people at a gym before, and I worked out at the gayest gyms in Atlanta.

Though despite all the hot Domincans all over my neighborhood I haven't really seen too many on dating apps. I'm sure the hot Dominican gays exist, or are DL, but I've not encountered too many online.

Well besides my Dominican Papi. I met him on Scruff. I saw his profile on Saturday morning, and I htought he was one of hottest guys I'd seen online since getting to NYC. He seemed too hot to be real, but he said the same thing about me too. We started chatting and were chatting all day, and then made plans to meet for dinner that night.

We went to this really cute Peruvian place in Hell's Kitchen. Dominican Papi was running late since he was trying to find parking. All the Bronx guys I meet have cars. I guess the trains aren't as convenient in the Bronx, but having a car seems so inconvenient. Especially when you want to go to downtown Manhattan, but they refuse to take the train or an Uber after they got a car. A man with a car is a plus.

Dominican Papi was just as hot as his pics as in person. He's exactly my type. big, beefy, brawny, butch, and bearded. He's over 6ft, and a top. He's my perfect man.

Being Dominican, a top, from the Bronx, and a Gemini are all red flags, but I'm a Scorpio. I love a toxic relationship and ignoring red flags.

We were very honest and transparent with each other about our red flags. He revealed he's married and lives with his ex. They're roommates and there's another roommate there, so thankfully it's not like they're sharing a studio or one bedroom together. They all have their own room. I have 2 roommates too, so I don't care about a guy having roommates. Especially in NYC where the average studio is over $3500 a month. I expect everyone to have roommates.

I shared my red flags and told Dominican Papi about me getting canceled last year. I don't see a point in hiding getting canceled, since most likely if a guy I go out with has any black gay friends then they're going to recognize me and tell the guy about me being a hateful pozphobic bitch. So I'd rather tell the guy myself. Plus Dominican Papi works in the medical field, so I wanted to get that out of the way.

Dominican Papi is HIV-Negative and on PrEP (thankfully), and Doxy Pep as well! Which makes him even more perfect! Still there are weirdly negative guys out there that don't like me because I don't want to get with poz people. So I like my baggage out there. I want a man that wants me for me, flaws and all. So I would rather get rejected for a guy wanting me for the true me, than only wanting me because he doesn't know certain things about me.

Dominican Papi didn't seem to care about me being canceled. I did tease him about his husband throughout the night, which he didnt really like much. So I gotta cut that out.

But the date was amazing. We walked around Hell's Kitchen and got drinks at a gay bar afterwards. We were all over each other in the club. Making out, feeling each other up, I loved it. I love a big beefy man not scared to be affectionate in public. I love PDA, and I don't give a fuck about who's around. We're gay and in a gay bar. We are free to makeout with our men wherever we want.

We quickly left the bar and went back to my place. We didn't fuck. I had a huge dinner with him. I'm not douching before dinner. That would fuck up my stomach. If I'm going to fuck on the first date then we need to fuck first, and then go out to eat and enjoy the night.

Though I'm more into dating lately. Random hookups haven't been satisfying me lately, so I'd rather be going on dates with guys. I'm proud of myself for getting a date less than a week into moving to NYC, since most of my friends that live in the NYC area barely go on dates.

Dominican Papi and I had a nice sleepover. Lots of oral, making out, and me pretending to top him. I dont know what it is about being a bottom wanting to dominate my top. I don't really want to top them, but in a way it's like a comfort in knowing that my man isn't allowed to let me explore every inch of him. I don't want any part of my man's body to be off limits to me, even though I am a full bottom and want a full top. Well I may want to flip once or twice a year.

Though downside is after Domincan Papi left in the morning he wasn't very talkative afterwards. I was scared I really was getting the Dominican stereotype experience. They act like they love you and love bomb you right away, and then dump you after they get what they want. Granted we didn't even fuck, so not like he hit it and quit it. Still...I really like Dominican Papi, and didn't want to get ghosted after my first NYC date.

Though I also don't want a repeat of Atlanta where I meet a guy week one, and then am already boo'd up. I just got to the biggest city in the country, and want to date. I want to explore my options. I don't want to settle down with the first guy I meet. Granted I do really like Domincan Papi, and I do want to be in a relationship again in the near future. Do I want to be in a relationship with a married man that still lives with his ex? Ideally no, but if I like a guy that I'm still gonna pursue it. I'm up for adventure. I definitely want to see Dominican Papi again.

His communication hasn't been great since day one but he has been more responsive and talkative. Apparently I gave him a hickey, which he wasn't happy about. I'm sure his husband wasn't happy about it either.

My next date was with Fiddler. He's an actor, and was in a production of Fiddler on The Roof recently. Plus I remember watching Fiddler on The Roof in elementary school, and Fiddler does remind me of the big, burly, bearded protagonist in the fim.

Fiddler is white, 29, big burly and bearded, so just my type. We also met on Scruff, and had been talking daily since I got to NYC. He lives in my neighborhood and has been giving me lots of recommendations and knows the neighborhood well. I like that he's also an actor, and it's nice having a guy to connect with about the struggles of being an actor in NYC.

Fiddler is originaly from Virginia, and went to school down south too. So he's a southern man living in NYC. He's really big into theater, which isn't my realm. Since I'm more into TV/film. Which I also think is nice to be actors but in different realms so it's not like that competitive. Granted I don't really feel competitive with other actors, especially since we aren't going out for the same parts. We aren't the same race, body type, or even playing the same age ranges.

I'm attracted to Fiddler. I was turned on by his chest hair poking out from the top of his tank top. We went to this cute restaurant which was only a street over from where I live.

Conversation flowed, but not too naturally. There were some awkard pauses and transitions. Fiddler is also a Scorpio, which is fun. I haven't had the best expereinces with other Scorpio men, but they say that you should be most compatible with your own sign.

I'd see Fiddler again. We did kiss as he walked me back to my place. He said I'm a great kisser. I'm definitely physically attracted to him. I enjoyed hanging out. I don't necessarily feel like there's boyfriend potential there, but maybe a FWB.

So one week into NYC and i've already been on 2 dates. I love it here!

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Song of the Day: "Who's Afraid of Little Old Me?" by Taylor Swift

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Song of the Day: "I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can) by Taylor Swift

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Song of the Day: "Expresso" by Sabrina Carpenter

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Song of the Day: "But Daddy I Love Him" by Taylor Swift

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Song of the Day: "Florida!!!" by Taylor Swift feat. Florence + The Machine

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Song of the Day: “Six Whole Days” by SiR

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Song of the Day: “I Go Dance” by Kiesza