viva-la-fangirl · 3 years ago
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Hey guys this is from my main blog so… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ toodles
Honestly the Queen fandom was the last thing that really made me stay here- y’all awesome but maybe don’t get mad if someone doesn’t update their fanfic ;)
All y’all stay fabulous✨
Goodbye
Hey everyone- this is my official goodbye for tumblr. This site has made such a huge impact on my views and life. I applaud tumblr for letting me explore not only myself but the (mostly) wonderful people on it. It was thru this site I realized I was bi. I made tumblr friends and got to explore my writing. Some of my favorite shows I started because of stuff I saw here.
However, as much as this site holds a place in my heart- I’ve outgrown it. I came on to the site at 15 on the day of Mishapocolyse (yeah that was my first impression). I’m in my 20s now and have a house and a dog and this just doesn’t have a place in my life anymore.
And, I have to say it, tumblr has a at times been a toxic place. I remember in my first months of tumblr, literally not knowing anything, I accidentally reposted art without credit. I was flooded with hate comments, telling me what a shitty person I was. I deleted it and reached out to the original creator and apologized. While the creator was nice enough, it did show me the first ugly side of tumblr.
A few years later I did a cute little thing where if you reblogged a post I made, I would give you a good message or something. Most messages I got were so wholesome, but there were others telling me how irresponsible and bad of me it was to do this because I would never get to everybody. I was trying to do a nice thing and it still wasn’t enough and was turn into something bad. (And I did get to everyone so fuck you).
I also made a supernatural video (ah yes my first hard core fandom RIP) and tagged it with some characters it didn’t focus on. The amount of hate I got was horrible. I had strangers telling me to literally kill myself over a shitty fan-made video I made at 17.
While the majority of tumblr is a great place to explore, too many of its users don’t want to have adult conversations, y’all want an echo chamber. If someone don’t agree or makes a different point (IN A RESPECTABLE WAY MIND YOU)- they are toxic and told to fuck off. I promise you- no matter what fandom or community you are in, it has toxic people. They only want to be told they are right and do not want to think but do as they are told. Do not be this person, that is not the way the world works. Even if you and some else agree on 99.9% of things, there will always be something you don’t. Be adults and have conversations.*
*this is not me saying any phobic or racists people get a pass on their views- y’all are the worst kind of trash. This is more about views on regular things
While this site has made me happy, it’s also taken a toll on my mental health (something people who post here preach about yet rarely hold themselves accountable for causing mental stress). I was so worried about making fucking strangers mad that I would have anxiety for days. Some of you are so busy calling out other people that you fail to look inwards and see who you are and what toxic traits you have. Ive people literally run off this site and told they are shit because they didn’t update fan fiction regularly! Fan fiction! A free fucking sometime a book-worths of story for you- for free! And they are told they are shit because they have lives outside and they don’t update at the exact time they promised.
I’ve seen this site grow wholesome communities. I’ve seen friendships made on this site. I’ve seen so many amazing pieces of art and beautiful writing. I’ve been lucky enough to talk to some really great people. But I’ve seen this site literally cause real world harm. I have seen this site turn people hateful, I have seen this site make people fearful of making one mistake. I’ve seen people such down, I’ve seen people afraid to speak up.
On a last note: just because you are liberal, and think everyone deserves rights, pro-choice, all that stuff (which I totally agree with) it does not mean you are a good person. You can be a bad person with liberal views. You need to be a good person to those around you first. Evolve and learn.
I know this post won’t mean much in the grand cesspool that is this site but to those who it reaches- this site is not the end all be all. Your true friends, who listen to what you have to say- they matter. Your chosen family and friends- they matter. So if you see someone getting hate, speak up because if someone did that for me- I might leave this site with a better taste in my mouth.
✌🏻bye yall
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viva-la-fangirl · 4 years ago
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who gave him the right to be so babie???
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Ben Hardy in black & white [lockscreens]
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viva-la-fangirl · 4 years ago
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Oh, raunchy does not even begin to describe it, Ben.
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♪ Don’t you hear my call though you’re many years away, Don’t you hear me calling you ♪
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Joe Mazzello as John Deacon in Bohemian Rhapsody (2018)
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viva-la-fangirl · 4 years ago
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if only he could grow his hair out like this in real life
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♪ Don’t you hear my call though you’re many years away, Don’t you hear me calling you ♪
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viva-la-fangirl · 4 years ago
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I need y’alls help
Hey everyone. I know that I’ve been spacey about posting but I’m now coming to you in need of some help. 
I have been out of a job for over a month and have not been able to find one due to this whole pandemic. I’m running low on funds and have to pay for student loans and other payments. 
I’m offering my writing services in exchange for donations to my Patreon:  patreon.com/viva_la_rebel 
SO if you like my writing and want something personally written for you with whatever scenario you cook up- I WILL WRITE IT FOR YOU! I’m working on pricing but please let me know if this is something you would interested in. 
Here is a reference off my previous writing: https://www.fanfiction.net/u/4809046/   (i promise my grammar has improved) and obviously my writing on here which I will be keeping up and continuing. I’ll write pretty much anything you desire but nothing crazy or super inappropriate. But trust me smut is a-okay!
This would really help me since I would be doing something I love and I want to try and turn into a career and also making you guys happy! 
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viva-la-fangirl · 4 years ago
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#you’re welcome
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viva-la-fangirl · 5 years ago
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It’s soft boyfriend Ben hours, folks
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viva-la-fangirl · 5 years ago
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Yesterday Part 4
yall got every right to be mad at me. end of the semester was crazy, holidays were crazy and then i jumped right back into my job. BUT I have part 4 here! 
And as always: PART 1, PART 2, PART 3
warnings: bad grammar, misspelled words, cursing, mentions of previous abuse
IF YOU ARE HAVING DOMESTIC ABUSE: National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1−800−799−7233
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The next weeks were a blur of anxiety, sleepless nights and paranoia.
Your mind revolved around your ex. His black eyes always raking over you. The feeling of him kicking you in the alley behind the restaurant where you decided to leave him. You begging him to stop.
There were times where you forgot about him. You went about your day and thought of you and Roger. The tour happening. Planning on which cities you would visit.
Then something would take you out of it. A smell, a sound, a tone of voice from someone passing by and it all came rushing back. Your skin crawled at every thought of him. Even with Roger in bed, with his arm protectively wrapping around you- you would lie awake for hours and wonder if your ex was trying to find you. Roger and the boys had been especially diligent about keeping the paparazzi away from you over the past weeks. Roger nearly yelling at anyone who looked at you for a little too long or even tried to attempt to bring out a camera. It made your heart flutter seeing Roger all protective, but it sank just as fast when you remembered the reason why.
“(Y/N)?” Roger asked. It was morning, the sun was barely up and hidden behind thick gray clouds. You refused to tell him you’d been up for at least an hour, two at the most. 
“Yes?”
“Nothing,” Roger mumbled before pushing his face into your neck. His warm breath making your hairs stand up and your body relax. He had been so good recently, not staying out too late, inviting you to band practice and being attentive, ordering food and going out whenever you needed something. 
You hated it.
Well, not totally. Admittedly you liked the extra attention. Usually during an album you were getting less attention than his drumsticks. It was nice to see a different side of Roger. 
But then again. You hated being paranoid. You hated putting Roger out in the middle of recording. You hated being scared to go out. You hated being scared. Secretly, as you would never ever admit this to Roger, but you wished your ex would find you already and hurt you- just enough to put him back in jail. It was an ugly thought that tainted your mind but, being scared just to go to the grocery was killing you. You missed a time when it was only paparazzi to watch out for instead of a man that beat you enough to break some bones.
It felt as if you were in your own personal horror movie. Walking around just waiting for the boogyman to jump and get ya. 
You laid with bed with Roger steadily breathing beside you, one arm draped around you as protection from the world. With one breath you snuggled closer to Roger who pulled you in tighter. At least for the moment you allowed yourself to feel safe.
If only that safe feeling lasted.
It was a cold day when the world dropped from under your feet. You had convinced Roger to finally let you out of the apartment to go for a hair cut. Truthfully you hadn’t been keeping up with your usual hair routine and it showed. Split ends with lack of color made it look greasy and lifeless. No way you could go to the boys concert tonight looking like this!
The wet but crisp air was welcomed. After being shuttled around from place to place for the past couple of weeks, outside felt like a stranger and the air welcomed your presence. Your lungs relished in non-apartment air drenched in remnants of cigarette smoke or cologne Roger loved. 
“You feeling good love?” Beatrice asked. She ran her fingers through your hair, and massaged your head. For a second you forgot where you were, always a sucker for a good head massage. “(Y/N)?” 
“Oh yes!” you brought yourself out of the trance. “Better than I have. Thank you,”
Beatrice was an old and trusted friend of your from your university days. You weren’t the bestest of friends but she was a reliable one and a killer hair stylist. She could make a raccoon look like Cher. 
“Oh love you should have come in weeks ago!” Beatrice fiddled with your hair. “This is absolutely dreadful- sorry darling,”
“No I know,” You admitted. “Can you help me?”
“Of course darling,” Beatrice smacked on her gum. “Might take longer than normal but you’re talking to the master,”
Beatrice went to work right away washing your hair. The next two hours were filled with mindless talking and laughs. Beatrice went on about her sisters tacky wedding and the silk bridesmaids dresses that resembled bubble gum. You told of you and Roger, how tour was starting up soon and they had a local gig just to break the routine. It was the first time you felt normal in weeks.
While the day to day wasn’t bad, the topic of your ex seemed to always linger in the background- just waiting to pounce. While you trusted Beatrice, you know bringing up your ex would welcome a flurry of questions you didn’t want to answer. For just a few hours, you wanted to be a Roger Taylor’s girlfriend getting your hair done. Not some girl who was assaulted by he ex. 
“I think we’re about done sweetie,” Beatrice smiled wide between her purple lipstick. 
You looked in the mirror and couldn’t help but smile. Beatrice had really outdone herself. Your hair gained it’s color back. It looked fresh and healthy. Beatrice had even styled it for tonight.
“Oh Bea,” you fluffed your hair. “I can’t thank you enough,”
“Roger Taylor’s girlfriend deserves the best!” she exclaimed. 
After paying Beatrice and a couple more goodbyes you walked out the door feeling better than you had in weeks. 
Then came his voice.
“Hey (Y/N),” 
You froze. Keys in hand just about to open your car. Your blood ran from your face and immediately turned to ice. You turned to see him standing a few feet away. He looked worse than he did the last time you saw him in court. He had obviously gained weight. His beard was untidy and his hair was greasier than ever with streaks of gray sprinkling the sides. His snake-like eyes ran up and down your body, it was like a rusted knife threatening to pierce the skin. 
“What no hug?” he pouted. 
“You stay away from me Harrison,” you hissed. Blood pumped in your head so loud you couldn’t hear anything besides the words spoken between you and the guy who had beaten you so viciously you couldn’t remember some of that night. 
“Common hon,”
“Don’t call me that,” you wedged a car key between your fingers just encase. “How- how,”
“How did I find you?” Harrison flashed his yellowed teeth. “Humans are creatures of habit. You always went to Beatrice before a big event and with Queen’s gig tonight- I knew it would be a big event for you,
Queen gig. He knew about you and Roger.
Of course he would you idiot. You’re on the front of every tabloid from here to tin-buck-too. 
“You’re a real piece of shit you know that?” Anger took over. How dare this man come back into your life, a life you had overcome so much for, a life you loved with a man you loved. 
“Harsh words coming from someone who was going to marry me,” 
“I was manipulated into loving you. You hurt me. You belittled me. Then when I wanted to leave and said no to your proposal you beat me,”
“A little misunderstanding is all. I mean you could be a little over dramatic,” Harrison gas-lighted. “I lost my temper one time and you throw me in jail. Now how is that fair?”
“You hurt me. That’s not love.”
“And you think you have love now? With that Roger Taylor?” Harrison sneered. He said Roger’s name so grossly like he was thinking of something disgusting. “I mean common- I might have been a little angry but at least I never cheated on you,”
“Roger has never cheated on me,” You yelled as strong as you could. Before you and Roger got together you knew about his flings and girlfriends. Freddie had ranted about another one of Roger’s girlfriend’s flying off the handle after catching him in bed with another women. You knew about his past. 
“I won’t do that to you,” he promised. 
“How do I know that?” you weakly said. Roger had been asking you out consistently for the past 2 weeks. 
“Because...” Roger stopped. “Is saying you’re different too cliche?”
You laughed hardily. “A little,”
“Then call me Romeo because it’s true,” Roger stepped so close you could smell the strawberries you too had shared while watching a movie. “I know I’m not the best man, I fuck up a lot, I’m impulsive, I’m stubborn, I’m-”
“Roger,”
“Oh yeah. But the one thing I’m not is someone who is going to hurt you. After seeing you in that hospital, seeing how someone who claimed to love you could hurt you that badly- well it made me never want to see another tear from your eye,”
You melted and agreed to start seeing Roger. It was a slow processes but worth it. 
“So you ignore the magazines with him and a bunch of girls around him. Basically begging to be fucked by him,” Harrison shouted.
You had seen. It made your stomach turn but above all you trusted Roger. 
“What you and I shared is a fraction of what Roger and I do.” You stood up straighter. “I’m going home now and if I ever see you near me or Roger again I’m going to call the police,” You quickly opened the car and started it. Your hands shaking so much you could barely hold on to the clutch. 
Backing out Harrison peered into your window and with the radio blaring and a ringing in your ears you didn’t hear him say. 
“See you tonight,”
Tagged: sorry if i forgot anyone i’m not the best at this 
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viva-la-fangirl · 5 years ago
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#i love looking at ben hardy
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candid (boyfriend) ben
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