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Merry Christmas.

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So…What's been happening on TCCblr:-).

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That's higher than I can count!

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Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da life goes on:-).

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Just a small reminder that I'm protective or whatever over characters/people I like…

That also applies to Adam, even as a joke I don't like people saying they're a bigger fan than me or saying weird or mean stuff about him.

I know, it's weird and a bit cringe but it's how I am.

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I'm worried…

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Hello. 👋👋👋

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I wanna say it again so happy non-cultural birthday Adam:-)

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Happy late ZeroDay… Day.

Aka May 1st, I suppose.

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I just wanna say sorry if I'm not as active on Tumblr as I was before, I've lost interest in this app and really only started using it when my friend (Finn) wanted me to use it or whatever and didn't expect like 100 people to follow me and I feel obligated to do daily Tumblr posts so that's why I don't do many ‘funny’ posts anymore and only post image based ones or short text ones:-(.

Again, I'm more active on Twitter but just know I'm completely different on there than I am on here.

I might not do usual daily posts but if I ever get back into using Tumblr more I'll make this up to you guys:-).

Again, sorry.

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Reminder that I'm more active on twitter/X:-).

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Whens the next shooting gonna drop.

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…Please don't use that image ever again.

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I'm so tired and sick…

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Majority of this I knew or knew half of it, but I never knew he actually did speak of Pumped Up Kicks! Thanks for the info-dump:-).

Today is Adams 33rd Birthday. April 22nd 1992 - December 14th 2012.

For today, I will be explaining stuff about me and Adam, how he has kind of changed my life and some other stuff. Even though he's long gone.

Knowing about Adam and his thinking, issues and more have really changed how I view other perpetrators. But in general just knowing about Adam has really changed my life and views on stuff that wouldn't have been changed if not for him, I lack empathy but one of the people I can feel the slightest of empathy for is Adam. He seemed like a sweet guy to know and an interesting person to be around, and not a-lot of people consider that about him and only view him as another ‘crazy person gone off’ or a ‘baby who didn't mean harm’. Though yes he may have thought that he was saving kids, he isn't a baby nor a crazy person (although he did have some views that people do consider ‘crazy’). When I first found out about Adam, I was in a place in my life where I longed for a harmless distraction.

After the months of knowing about Adam and relating to him in ways I wouldn't believe, I can't help but feel a connection with him. Not in the way Nathan is with Eric nor how self-shippers are, it's just whenever I feel horrible and I feel like I'm about to spiral, I remember about Adam and I can calm down.

Adam has been in my life for only a few months, though it feels like I've known him for a few years. No matter what, I don't think I could hate him. I consider myself a half apologist for Adam, I don't apologise for his actions during the shooting (although, I can see what he was intending), but I am an apologist for his controversial words, views and ideas. I can't help but see Adam as an actual person. Not as a baby, a crazy person, a partner. But as a person in general. He is someone important in my life, and even though people have in-fact left me because of this, I've gained more people in my life who do respect me and my opinions considering Adam.

I find myself a bit happy that Adam is gone though, he has spoken about how he has had desires to die and how suicide is a ‘good thing’ in a summary. Although I am sad that he isn't here to see the new stuff in the world and see the people who speak about him in a positive light, I am happy that he has finally gotten what he wanted. Death. Either in Heaven, Hell or just gone. He is still important for me, and probably important to you guys too.

My life before knowing Adam was one I don't wanna go back to, though yes I had friends who I do somewhat miss. Adam has impacted my life in ways I can't express with words nor synonyms. He's been in my life through my destructive habits, my constructive habits, my good, my bad, everything. He's basically my everything, and to that I say.

Rest In Peace, Adam. I forever hold you in my heart for changing my life.

Here's some fun-facts you guys may or may not have known about Adam.

Instead of having a grave, like majority of perpetrators. Adam has actually been cremated, though I do not know where he is right now. I assume he's probably in Ryans house (or apartment).

While he was still using Shocked Beyond Belief, an old user of it said in a reddit thread “ He cracked the odd joke here and there, but never really posted anything worrying. I expressed my desire to move to America one day and he replied by offering to let me marrying him because I was "Awful purrrty" ”.

Adam didn't like ‘Pumped Up Kicks’. He hasn't spoken about it (though if he has I guess I haven't seen it yet) but apparently, he liked it for a bit then started hating it. Either that he considered it cultural or he didn't like how it sounded anymore, I find that a bit interesting and funny:-).

Adam actually allegedly didn't like either of the Columbine shooters. I've seen some back and forth about this but majority of people saying he doesn't like either have known about Adam for years while people saying he liked Dylan, Eric or both only knew about him for a while.

Although people say his favourite animal is a hamster, it seems he had a preference for apes. Specifically chimps! Though yes, I do know he's stated he likes hamsters but that was when he was like 7…

In his ‘how to be pale’ tutorial, he stated that donating blood every 2 months was a way to stay pale. Going on with that, that means people in the world have Adams blood if he did actually do the donating blood every 2 months step!

I pay respects to the victims, though I also pay respects to Adam. Again, Rest In Peace.