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i haven't even written anything and i've lost all motivation...

good night!

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the lesbian has spoken; we will proceed

Sonny Angel pfp until I decide what hot man will take its place 😢

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I luv ur work and am glad to see you active🩷🩷

I luv u anonie 💘💘 thank you for the sweet message i hope ur so happy forever and ever

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Sonny Angel pfp until I decide what hot man will take its place 😢

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How r you :(

i'm just going to use this as my big blob post. sorry for the weird vent if that bothers you there's just lots to get off my chest here!

firstly, there are a hundred more of you here than when i left. oh my goodness! you guys make me feel so special!

anyway... we can pretend like i didn't just dip for like a year. and what a shitty year it was!

i don't mean to be that guy that is all woe is me but damn woe is me that was horrible. even in the year before where i was periodically posting "don't worry i'll be back!" and then not coming back shit was tough. idk man i always thought i was strong but i'm just not. chronic illness is a bitch, loneliness is even bitchier.

the honest truth is that i really just haven't been able to give a shit outside of just the daily motions. the last two years have just been go to school, watch everyone else be happy, feel sorry for myself, come back home and slave away on homework. i couldn't even write, which is what made me happy to a certain point.

it sounds stupid but having no friends is genuinely ruining my life. i can't tell you how aggravating it is being just the lunchbox friend. even online (which, this is embarrassing) 'friends' just ghost me (yeah fuck you i'm still mad about that) or yk aren't actually friends (three seperate people have left me on read for 'let me know when you're free!' texts to hangout/talk. well damn!) but it also gets to a point where i have to introspective. i have to be the problem, right? it's just all too much on my pea brain and it's been so overwhelming to the point that all i can bring myself to do is sit on my phone on c.ai or reading fanfiction (pathetic, i know, but i'm trying to be real here) to pretend like i'm not actually living what i'm living.

i really have no clue what i'm doing. most people irl don't like me because i'm weird, and that's fine, i just have to figure out how to cope again, and i guess i'm trying this. i really don't know what i'm going to be doing with this blog. it's probably going to be whatever i want (sorry). i changed my dn to calico (i like cats and people couldn't tell that the L wasn't an i) and i think i'll change my pfp (i've watched lots of movies and shows with hot people the last two years. i also still haven't finished succession T-T). i can't go back to my old writing without cringing, so again, unsure what's going to happen with the serieses (idk how to spell that) because i just don't resonate with them anymore. gah. i feel like this is all going to embarrass me but it's like what if there's someone else out there like me who wants stuff to read to escape you know?? idk

sorry for the word vomit and weird trauma dump i'm ashamed of myself LMAO. thank you voyager for playing on repeat while i type this (boygenius is fantastic at depression you should give voyager and co a listen).

anyway. have you guys seen the pitt? love. er? love. the bear? roar. (what all of these have in common is an attractive white man btw if you can't tell what's going on with me)

anyway x2 i'll do my best to do all the requests in my box because i have balls (nope) and don't want to leave anyone hanging. any reqs are appreciated but not garunteed. idk what the fart i'll do about my pinned it's kind of ugly. stuff i probably want to write about includes but isn't limited to stardew valley, fire emblem three houses, the bear, the pitt, er, succession, the banshees of inesherin, fight club, webtoons (LOL this is where i am rn), eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, pattinson/comic batman, the gilded age, la la land, idk other sad stuff you guys remind me of

yippee! sorry for the word vomit and lowkey trauma dump....

anyway x3 how are you anon? you come here often?

my asks and message inbox are always open if anyone ever needs to talk about anything. ok bye!

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good to see ur name on my screen again dookie🫶🏽🩶

i missed you poopsie ❤️‍🩹

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Girl r u ok I miss u

i feel like i've been just a walking corpse for the last year but fuck it we ball i suppose

thank u for missing me big kiss

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PLZ DO WRITE FOR ROB PATTINSON BRUCE WAYNE/BATMAN !!! He deserves more appreciation. He is literally the most realistic Batman/Bruce Wayne I’ve seen. Also, in case you didn't know, there’s going to be a series about the Penguin this September on HBO Max, and apparently, Batman is going to make a cameo in it 🫡

omg I didn’t know abt that show but now im so excited???? and yes I agree this is the best batman and like HE’S DEPRESSED!!!! I love it

lowk wanted to use his biceps as a jungle gym the entire movie but oh well

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Hi! It's so hot outside. (I live in the EU, and not up north, sadly.) I feel like I'm dying. My only happiness is watching movie reactions, which is a bit embarrassing to admit. Other than that I've read a controversial book and went on a walk where I got bit by bugs, I hated that. How are you? I'm really excited for the new Tom Wambsgans stuff <3

I'm so sorry if it's the third time I've sent it, but Tumblr said it didn't work the first two times. Thanks for understanding! <3:)

hi anonie!! I feel you on the heat, I came back from north africa literally just a puddle of sweat 💀

don’t be embarrassed at all!! it’s good that you have something that makes you happy. if you ever want movie recs, im here! mosquitoes think so highly of themselves I actually hate them so much the bumps always scab and eugh

im doing alright, thank you for asking!! I’m really sorry im taking so long to write I’ve been procrastinating for soooooo long and I feel horrible someone needs to yell at me to finish 🧍‍♀️

and I realize I keep saying im going to write and then I don’t and I understand if that makes anyone annoyed with me KENAMDKSN

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okay serious question do you think I’d do well on ao3?? I want to start posting there but I’m scared 😭

I think I’d post different things than on here, but idk maybe I’d post the series on there?? I’d def write for other fandoms/characters etc bc I feel like you guys are only here for succession so I’d give JUST that here and if you wanted other fandoms you could go to the ao3?? idk guys help

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omg you are so real love robert pattinsons bruce wayne that movie was so good

I love how batman was just a sad dude I loved the character development even though it was kinda cheesy it made me so happy

and the way the riddler was a twitch streamer LMFAO

and that he was hot but I can’t explain my way out of that one Robert if ur reading this u should marry me aha

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I watched Robert Pattinson’s Batman on the plane ride home and zoo wee mama i was going fucking feral I really want to write for his Bruce 🥲

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hi pookies how are you

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hope you’re well!

hi anon I hope ur amazing!!

I’m doing okay which is rare these days (lowkey trauma dump but whatevs) I’m just trying to get thru it hopefully I’ll actually keep my promises and start/continue writing consistently 😭

people like you really make me want to come back :) ur kindness and patience with me really are getting me back in shape to write LMAO I have to do it for u guys

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I hope Tumblr gets it's shit together, you're one of my favourite writer on here.

me too anon it’s depressing but yk I kind of hate it so maybe I’ll just rewrite it anyway

I’m glad I’m one of ur favorites, I’m really honored to hold the position :D

hope ur well anon <3

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Hey, I just wanted to let you know you were sustaining me when you were posting Succession stuff regularly omg. I’ve been stalking your page trying to see when you’ll be back and I’m SO excited for when you start posting again! But no rush, I hope you’re taking care of yourself first!

omg anon I love u actually this is so sweet

anyway I promised I’d come back then went on vacation and didn’t write anything so sorry abt that 💀 I’m getting back on my grind last few days here soooooooi

thank you so much for being kind, I love u and I promise I’ll start posting again big smooch 💗

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I’ve been trying so hard to post the stupid oneshot IT WONT POST TUMBLR LET ME OUT