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What a delightful Sunday surprise! 😊

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How I feel today:

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Jackson nights treat me well

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I've got my first big girl dining set!

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I have a book cover and it's beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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#tbt to when I wasn't so sure about sand

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#tbt to my 90's parents & my jet black hair

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STOP

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Also, with talking about it, I realized just how shitty of a summer I've had. I should be really proud of myself for holding it together. 

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I met my new therapist for the first time today, and it was one of the best conversations I've ever had.

I told her everything, starting from the beginning and following through all the way up to this past Friday. At one point, she turned to me, took off her glasses, and said, "You have the emotional maturity of a thirty year old woman. This is astounding." 

It was nice to feel validated, to be understood, and to be told that the people who are causing me pain in my life are actually doing wrong. That it's not all my fault. Sometimes, you never really know if you are or aren't a catalyst. I'm glad I'm not. 

She's also wanting me to get connected with writers in Jackson. I'm so shy, so this'll be hard to do, but I'm going to start making baby steps in assertiveness. You have to be if you want to make it in this industry.

Anyways, great session, great woman, I'm really thankful. 

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This is my desk, with a plant I've managed to keep alive.

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First Fenian's karaoke session in Jackson, all thanks to this girl @sloanewho

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Finally got around to updating the website with my latest writings. Give it a whirl. 

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Sometimes, it takes the honest-to-god-painful-stabbing-truth to realize you have to move on from a situation. Does it hurt like hell? yes. Does it make you want to wallow? of course. But after a few hours, even, you feel better about it, and proud of yourself. We all deserve to be truly loved, and I believe it's a real thing that anyone can and will find one day. Taking a lesser love isn't the right thing to do in any circumstance. Sometimes, though, it's hard to tell yourself that you're worth it, regardless of your beliefs, of your feminism, of your outward self that may seem confident and put together. It's still hard walking away from something. And that isn't because you're weak, and it isn't because you don't respect yourself. It's just human, and a mixture of fear and loneliness and wavering faith. 

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In the past week, I've moved back to my hometown, discovered the pleasure of living alone, bought patio furniture, actually *nailed* things on my own, managed to keep my job, fallen in love with Whole Foods and its glorious bounty, and thrown the ingredients of a curry into the crockpot for dinner tonight. I may not be superwoman, but I'm still pretty pleased.

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Tucker likes the Uhaul

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Who has a Xanax? I need one for moving.