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What does addiction look like? It looks like a girl who is broken, lost her way, sad, damaged. The day I walked away was the best day of my life but it wasn't easy. Walking away meant I had a lot of things to face, on my own & that was terrifying. I didn't think I could do it. There were times I fell back down, lost my way again. But I fought like hell & finally escaped. I finally found the light at the end of a dark tunnel. I couldn't do it until I was ready. I had to make the conscious choice to walk away & be strong enough to stay away. Something clicked in me one day & I started thinking about how much it was really costing me in all aspects of my life. I started seeing just how much of a toll it was taking on me. I looked at the people around me, looking at myself, looking at my life, & something hit me... I stopped & I prayed. I told God I didn't want to live that way anymore. I needed help. I needed guidance. I had some slips here & there but I kept the faith & I kept having to make hard decisions in order for me to grow & be set free. I started making changes. I didn't want to live in that haze anymore. Just letting my life pass me by. When it finally happened, it felt like such a heavy weight came off off. I could breathe. It was quite a rollercoaster ride, but the best decision I ever made. Almost everything had to change though. My environment for one. I had to face difficult things & work through them instead of masking it, learn to be alone, & really work on my inner self. That took quite some time, let me tell you. It's not always easy to be honest with yourself, to cut people off, to work toward making major changes in your life. I had to set aside the fact that some people will still look down on you, still think you're that same person, talk about you even over the years after. Build yourself so strong that you allow it to roll off your back. It's a tough pill to swallow but you can't help how they think or feel. The only control you have is over yourself. You are never alone. I am always here. If I can do it, I know you can. Want it for yourself bad enough that nothing can stop you 🌻🤍✨ https://www.instagram.com/p/CbLip-CPBqW/?utm_medium=tumblr

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The relationship you have with yourself SHOULD be the most important one in your life. Unfortunately, in most people's lives, this relationship is always put last. How would I know? Because 90% of my life, that was me. People pleasing. Putting everyone else first. Putting what everyone else thought above what I thought. Doing for everyone else but never doing anything for me. Always giving my time & energy to people who didn't deserve it or who didn't reciprocate. I gave & gave until my tank was empty. I always thought it was selfish to put myself first. Not to mention, being put last was just something I was used to back then. At the end of each day, I always felt like I had nothing left to give. Sometimes it was just that I was always texting/calling people, checking in, going out of my way to do everything I could. But most of them didn't do the same for me. Sometimes it was spending all of my time with people I cared about for them to not be able to make time for me. How could I possibly put myself first when I didn't even care about myself? I didn't like anything about myself? I couldn't look in the mirror without feeling less than? That's where I had to start... Self care 😌 I started with small things every day. (Baby steps DO matter - just so y'all know) I had to learn to put myself first & be strong about it. Stop backing down from the things I felt strongly about. Picking & choosing my battles. Learn how to respect others but not allowing them to disrespect me. Etc. I was always the person who caved... I could say no about something & then someone would start to pressure me or try to make me feel guilty about it then I caved & did it anyway. I knew that any time I canceled or said no, people always acted a certain way toward me afterwards, or I'd end up losing the relationship entirely. I just didn't want that. So I just kind of went with whoever I was hanging out with at the time. I never spoke about the things that I really cared about/believed/thought/felt. I stayed silent to avoid conflict. I had to become mentally stronger if I wanted to see any change in my life... 《 CONTINUED IN COMMENTS 》 https://www.instagram.com/p/Ca5eZqRvSzX/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Did you know... 🗨 Poor gut health can disrupt the health of our microbiome? 🗨 Gut health & mental health are actually interconnected? 🗨 About 95% of the body's supply of serotonin is produced in the gut? 🗨 About 50% of dopamine is produced in the GI tract? 🗨 When your microbiome is disturbed, it can disrupt the production of serotonin? 🗨 The gut microbiome is more sensitive than most even realize? 🗨 62 million Americans every year are diagnosed with a digestive disorder? 🗨 Estimated 1 in 5 Americans suffer from mood disorders or other mental illness? 🗨 70-80% of your immune system is located in the gut? 🗨 20-30% of our thyroid hormones are processed in the gut? 🗨 The balance of bacteria in your gut is connected to certain diseases like diabetes, obesity, high blood pressure, heart disease, etc.? 🗨 Our gut serves as a protective barrier to keep unwanted food particles our of circulation? 🗨 The balance of bacteria in the gut can affect reproductive & fertility health in males & females? Most either don't know about the importance of gut health or simply just don't care. If your guts not healthy, you're not healthy. Recently, I found this amazing enzyme based supplement that helps my body break down food, remove waste & bloating, improves nutrient absorption, & may even help with weight loss. I absolutely love what it's done for me & so many other people. I've been struggling with bloat for longer than I'd like to admit. Regardless of how well I was taking care of myself, I still couldn't get that bloat to go away. Because of the bloat, I was miserable every single day. I couldn't even get out of my own way most days. I was having a hard time doing anything... exercising, getting myself motivated, even something simple like sitting down & playing. All I wanted to do was just sit around because I felt so bad. But not moving around only made it worst on me. It was a double edge sword. Every time I ate? It got worst. It didn't matter what it was that I was eating, I would bloat up to the point of discomfort. Some days I would just cry. I didn't know what was going on & I definitely didn't know what to do. 《CONT. IN COMMENTS》 https://www.instagram.com/p/Carxp-BLAZq/?utm_medium=tumblr

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The truth is... We all have to find what's right for us. What's TRULY right for us. Not what's right for everyone but us. Not what's right for your parents, for your family, for your friends, for your followers. That part is up to them. We've got to learn how to let go of all of the outside noise & the endless mind chatter. We've got to stop worrying about what everyone else is going to say or think. Of course always take others advice, listen to them, respect them. But don't take on their beliefs, thoughts, opinions, etc. as your own. You should always be #1 in your life. It's okay to be completely selfish when it comes to you & your life because this is the only one you have. Trust me, I've done that my whole life. I had a serious case of people pleasing. It got me absolutely nowhere. And honestly, in the midst of it all, I lost myself. I had no idea who I really was vs. who I was being for everyone else. If that makes sense. For a long time, I thought people pleasing was the same thing as helping people & treating the people you love good. You've got to do things for you too. You're not helping anyone, including you, by always taking care of everyone else all of the time, constantly worrying about what everyone else feels/thinks/says, making choices based on someone else, always being scared to do or say something because you're afraid of what they will say or think. It's not healthy to live that way. Of course, always respect others but not to the point where you drown yourself out. Does that make sense? The amazing thing about growth & boundaries is that, it will automatically weed out the people who aren't meant to be in your life & you'll start to attract the right people who are supposed to be there - the people who will respect you, love you for who you are, support you, support your dreams, respect your boundaries. The people who will always be there to lift you up & encourage you. They want you to succeed. They want you to grow. They want you to be true to yourself. Now go be yourself girl!!! It's okay. Give yourself permission to ✨🤍🌻 《 LINK IN BIO FOR MORE 》 https://www.instagram.com/p/CantnXtrDJm/?utm_medium=tumblr

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❝𝐆𝐨𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐝 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐰𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 & 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 & 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐮𝐦𝐩𝐡 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦.❞ https://www.instagram.com/p/Cai9sDRNb0o/?utm_medium=tumblr

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🤣🤣🤣 #momlife I guess my lungs are in my arm now 🤷🏽‍♀️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CaQhwpgrQOJ/?utm_medium=tumblr

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❝𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐲; 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮.❞ It's happening!!!! 🥳 And in such a BIG way. More people than EVER before are making money online 👩🏽‍💻 Ohhhh & let me tell y'all, I don't think it's slowing down any time soon 📈 Quick question... Did you know that consumers spent $861.12 BILLION online with US merchants in 2020? That's ⬆️ 44% according to Digital Commerce 360. That's the HIGHEST annual US e-commerce growth in at least 2 decades!!! 😱 I don't know how crazy that is to you, but for me, I was mind blown 🤯 I can't tell y'all just how blessed I feel to be connected with a SIMPLE (that's my favorite part, haha) proven system to build my own online business... Naturally. Authentically. Just being my true & aligned self 🤍 Doing what I love. Helping more & more people every day - health wise & financially. With 50% commission, bonuses, helpful people, plant based products... Who wouldn't want in? Are YOU online? 👩🏽‍💻 If you're reading this, I'm assuming that you are 🤪 You don't wanna miss out on this. & I can show you how 🥰 https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ0FX87v8gi/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Today... I'm celebrating 🥳 I finally got back to the gym last night🚶🏽‍♀️I've been missing it these last 2 weeks, honestly. I shared my 90s gym jams on my last reel if you wanna check it out. Promise you wont regret it 😂 It's a good thing I had to wear a mask because I was jammin' under there 😷 My goal was 2+ miles last night & I did it! 🙌🏼 I felt so good after, too. Jello legs & all 😂 I'm glad Spencer kept asking me if I wanted to go with him. I'm glad he helped me to face my fear of going to the gym. I'm glad I got over all of that anxiety. I owe it to him for not letting me run away because he knew I really wanted to do it. Sometimes, you just need that little nudge & support 🥰 I started exercising more at home, going to the gym, & eating better because I've been so uncomfortable & exhausted. I could tell it was from how I was treating my body. And honestly, I wasn't treating it well at all. Trust me, I don't do hard core exercise & work out routines. I choose some exercises I like, I do them for as long as I can & that's about it. Hey, I'm here to be real with y'all, not sugar coat it 🤷🏽‍♀️ I've been so bloated that it started to just get really bothersome & take its toll on me. I needed to do something. I needed to make some changes. Even with the little changes, I was still struggling. I didn't understand what was going on. I was frustrated & emotional. I started to feel really down on myself & helpless. But I was determined. I wasn't about to give up. My mama didn't raise no quitter 💪🏼 After hours & hours of research, I started feeling like I was struggling with gut health problems. That's when I found what I call my gut magic 😂✨ Even with 2 weeks of no gym, my bloat started coming off just because of this 1 tiny little change in my everyday life. Sooooo worth it! 🙃 I was at 206 last week. Before I went to the gym last night I was at 198. After the gym, I was at 196 🥺 (Cont. in the comments 👇🏼) https://www.instagram.com/p/CZko6GsPWvL/?utm_medium=tumblr

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⚠️❕️ A T T E N T I O N ❕️⚠️ If you come across this post, you were meant to see this, take a second to read this short message, if you're able to 🙏🏼🤍 If any of these things resonate with you ladies, leave your favorite emoji in the comments 💫 ✔️ Struggled with anxiety/depression or currently struggle with anxiety/depression. ✔️ Struggled with emotional eating or currently struggling with? ✔️ Do you struggle with your weight? Gut health? Hair growth? Bloating? Etc. Or have you ever? ✔️ Do you practice self care? If not, is it something you'd like to start practicing? ✔️ Are you a mama? ✔️ Have you ever struggled with any sort of addiction? ✔️ Have you ever dealt with abuse? (Mental, physical, şəxųąl, emotional) This goes for any & all relationships - friendships, family relationships, romantic relationships. ✔️ Do you or have you ever lived a self destructive life? ✔️ Have you ever found yourself searching for a safe place to talk & get support? Or a place where you can share your stories to help yourself & others? A judgment free type of place? ✔️ Are you into meditation? Personal development? Inner work? Human design? If not, are you curious about any of it? If ANY of these resonate with you, even just one, I'd love to know. 💌 If this is or was you, I'd like to formally invite you into my free, private, women's support community (Yup, women only. Girls rule, boys drool! 🤣) 💌 I invite you in so that I can share my stories with you along with what's helped me along the way. 💌 I invite you in so that you can share your stories & what's helped you. Or just share some inspirational stories/quotes/memes. 💌 I invite you in if you have a good sense of humor. We all love to laugh. And laughter IS the best medicine, right? Come in & share your funniest memes. Or stories. 💌 I invite you in to connect with other women who have gone through the same things. 💌 I invite you in for support & accountability. 💌 I invite you in so that we can all overcome our pasts, grow, & bloom together 🌻 I can't wait to see you there 🤍 Click that link in my bio, or leave a short message below & I'll send it right on over to you 🙃 https://www.instagram.com/p/CZXEHteLwTW/?utm_medium=tumblr

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"𝘊𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘦𝘥𝘨𝘦." -𝘈𝘭𝘣𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘌𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘪𝘯 This year is going to be life changing! I'm claiming it. You... Yeah you... Claim it too. I took a leap of faith, something I was really scared to do but at the same time, felt so excited about. A leap toward my future. A leap toward financial stability. A leap toward helping more people. A leap toward a healthier life. A leap toward my overall wellbeing. I even started going to the gym this year - something I was absolutely terrified of. This is the year for change & growth. Who's ready? Let's do this! 2022 doesn't stand a chance against us 🙌🏼 { link in my bio to further connect with me & learn even more about what's coming! } 🌻🤍✨ https://www.instagram.com/p/CZHvRFKLZce/?utm_medium=tumblr

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It's easy to be negative, it's also easy to not realize you're doing it ir to be so used to it that you don't think anything of it. Guilty as charged... Not so long ago either. "I'm always getting cheated on, so I might as well start cheating." "I'm always getting treated like ___ so I'm better off treating everyone that way." "Someone treated me like ____ so I'm going to go back to being the old me" Really? All of the work you've done on yourself & you're gonna go back? No girl. Honestly, that's what attracts more into your life. What takes real courage & strength is to wake up every day & declare that nothing is going to stop you. See how much changes then. We're not perfect... We're supposed to feel anger... We're supposed to feel sadness... We're supposed to get frustrated... Things are gonna be a mess sometimes - it happens. But we're NOT meant to hold onto these things forever or let them dictate our lives. We're supposed to feel it, acknowledge it, & let it float away in the clouds. We're supposed to learn from it & grow from it. It's all energy. Everything is. & energy is supposed to move. So move that negative energy out. If you think you can't, like I thought, you actively have to search for ways that are right for you, to make that possible. It's good for your soul & your soul matters the most. After a while, when you hold onto all of this mess, it will all start to pile up. You will feel like you're running on a treadmill, never getting anywhere. If you don't feel that way already. If you act miserable all of the time, like you don't care about anyone, like you're life sucks, then that's what your life is gonna be. & trust me, I know when life isn't going so great, even for long periods of time, it's hard to be positive or happy. But, being negative all of the time was eating me alive & I didn't even realize it for so long. I wish I had know what I know now, YEARS ago. So much would have been different BUT I also wouldn't have experiences the things I had & learned what I did to lead me here. I don't want to be 40, 50, 60+ & a miserable person, living in self pity, & self destruction. I don't want [continued in comments] https://www.instagram.com/p/CXZMP77PiX2/?utm_medium=tumblr

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REMEMBER: forgiveness is for YOU not for them 👌🏼 It's for YOUR peace not theirs ☮ They never even have to know you've forgiven them, unless of course, you choose to tell them you have 🤷🏽‍♀️ They don't need to know for forgiveness to work - it will still work regardless. Because it's for you 🤍 Forgiveness does not mean you're accepting their behavior - you don't have to 👌🏼 Forgiveness doesn't mean you're saying it's okay what they did - it's not okay what they did 👌🏼 And yes, forgiveness takes time, its a process. But you'll get there. What forgiveness says is that you care enough about YOU to not walk around, feeling heavy & weighed down by hate & anger all of the time 😌 Forgiveness means you want peace & we all deserve it, but it's up to us to make the move & be willing to try 🤍 The same goes for self forgiveness... Forgiving yourself doesn't mean you're condoning your behavior. Forgiving yourself means you accept that you did something wrong but you deserve peace & growth just as much as anyone else 🌱 Forgiveness means you let go & move forward. Forgiveness means you won't let whatever the experience is, hold you back or determine who you are. Forgiveness means you're taking back your power & won't let those people or experiences drown you anymore 🤍☮ https://www.instagram.com/p/CXHsZWzrYPi/?utm_medium=tumblr

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You may not understand the reasons. You may not see them for a long time, or ever. We're not meant to know these things. We're meant to keep the faith, to trust, to have hope, to learn, to grow. You may think you're being punished for something or that God doesn't love you but He does. Why would He punish you for your sins when He sent Jesus to die FOR our sins? You keep attracting these negative situations, people, environments, etc. Because that's what you keep focusing on. Focus on the good, what you DO have, who you have, etc. & that's what you'll be blessed with - more good. Instead of praying & asking why XYZ happened, why so & so has something you don't, why God doesn't give you more, start focusing on what He has already given you, who He has already given you, what He has already brought you through. Shift that mindset & everything will change. ✨🤍🌻 https://www.instagram.com/p/CWjUNs1PWdW/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Small mindset shifts can lead to big changes & growth within your life. "Why is this happening to me?" ➡️ "How is this happening FOR me?" Speaking negatively to yourself, to others, about things, etc. Only speaks it further into existence. That's why we all as individuals, have to learn to realize when we need to shift something within our lives. What is something that's happened to you recently that you need to shift? For me personally, one of the biggest ones I needed to shift was feeling sorry for myself, leading me to not writing anymore (the thing I love to do so much) For example: when I started to throw in the towel, I was telling myself that no one cared, no one wanted to read my stories, I was never going to get anywhere, etc. What I needed to do was ask myself, how do I find a way? How do I make a way? How can I stop focusing so much on the money aspect & more on the reason why I started to begin with... To help others. Boom! 💥 Bigggg mindset shift right there. And it changed everything. ✨🤍🌻 https://www.instagram.com/p/CWTMfWdr-CV/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Wrote this post on the book a while ago & thought it would only be right to share with my IG family also. Please remember this. If I could bounce back from sexual abuse, emotional abuse, trauma, bullying, addiction, cheating, cheated, & soooo much more -- you can bounce back too! Don't give up. And ladies, if you feel that you have 0 support, please feel free to check out my support group for women. The link is in my bio 🤍 https://www.instagram.com/p/CVS8WJJLFED/?utm_medium=tumblr