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Dark Academia Lifestyle

Remain an enigma, talk less about yourself. In social situations, make it a game, even if you are a rather social person, to shroud yourself in mystery. If others show interest in you, answer vaguely. Disappear at specific times. Reveal little of your background. When you do speak, speak in riddles or quotes. That isn’t to say you should never speak up in class or in debates, have opinions and remain socially active; however, keep people guessing a lot of the time, and, if you’re really into it, only speak when spoken to.

Wear vintage clothes, elegant accessories, monochrome colors. Emphasize sharp features with purely dark or light colors and jewel tones. I usually find nice vintage clothes at random thrift stores. Keep an open mind.

Listen to jazz and classical music. Listening to older, more tasteful music brings a spark of elegance to your life. I, personally, like to hear the used jazz vinyls crackle. There are multiple types of dark academia; to me, jazz demonstrates the erratic artist spirit of revolutionaries, while classical music possesses me with the sophisticated spirit of a Classicist who has preparing tea down to a science.

Light candles. Doing things such as writing, reading, and getting ready for bed by candlelight makes it seem thrice as elegant and academic… going to sleep so late never looked so enticing. On the other hand, you could wake up before dawn, light some candles, and study or read. 

Stay ahead in school. Read your textbooks ahead of time, write essays about anything you’d like at all, just for practice. If you’re learning about something in science, devise experiments to illustrate the concepts to yourself and make them easy to remember. If you’re reading a book in English, read a handful of articles about the author beforehand to prepare, write down quotes from the book, make essay pitches, write to your heart’s content a critique of the book, an analysis of the book, of gender roles in the book. In history courses, find articles about the subject matter, annotate them, and write about them. If you’re taking a math class, devise applications of the concepts and solve problems of your own creation.

Go to libraries, museums, bookshops, and coffee shops. These are all really good places to sit in the corner and read for hours on end. Not only do you get Mysterious Points but you get an aesthetic environment and (hopefully) some peace in which to devour literature. I know that in the upcoming term, I’m going to be in the library from opening time to closing time every day.

Make Ancient Roman or Greek food. To be honest, the food was of so much better quality than it often is today, so I would suggest looking into some ancient cuisine archives to look for some recipes for your dinner party. Not only is it most of the time much better than modern food, but it’s also much more elegant. Not to mention it is fun and enlightening to try recipes which are perhaps completely foreign to  you.

Have routines. Perhaps your life is erratic, but you can feel some semblance of order and elegance by creating rituals for, perhaps, everything. You might start the day off with a walk around the neighborhood or a nearby pond. I start my writing sessions by 1) playing jazz 2)opening my windows 3)reading Belief and Technique for Modern Prose 4)chugging a whole glass of water really fast 5) breathing violently. Feel free to make up really weird Winding Down routines, like, I don’t know, closing all your windows, stripping down, and meditating for 20 minutes before you go to sleep. Literally anything. It doesn’t even have to be useful, it just has to be strange.

Hang stuff up on your walls. Postcards, paintings, drawings, poetry, snippets from books, moodboards, your routines, lists (places you want to go, people you want to meet, things you want to do), playlists. Make it yourself and make it chaotic and, most importantly, make it aesthetic.

READ. Read anything and everything educational. Do it. Just, don’t pick up your phone for 3 days because you’re reading, just ignore everything else. Good things to read would be: feminist literature, nonfiction, mystery novels, Rebecca by Daphne Du Maurier…

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i was today years old when someone said brown is just darker orange and i cannot stop thinking about it. are you telling me, my cATS, ORANGINA AND BROWNIE ARE SAME IN COLOR?? how do i name cats anymore???

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it’s crazy how much i relate to this.

my ideal gender presentation is to be feminine in a masculine way, like i would want to be amab with long hair and painted nails and jewelry. but. im afab. so if I grow out my hair, if I paint my nails, if I wear jewelry... to others, im just........ feminine. and it sucks. in order to keep being androgynous i am literally the opposite of what I want: afab with masculine haircut and clothes and whatever else. :(

Submitted July 3, 2023

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Autism: i need routine or i will scream

ADHD: i need spontaneous activities daily or i will scream

AuDHD: i WILL screammm

Autism: If something changes, I will cry.

ADHD: If nothing changes, I will cry.

ADHD/Autism comorbity: I will cry.

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end of the f***ing world was like tragedy and chaos had a child by fluke and made all of us traumacore heads relate to it.

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i read this post a while ago about non physical compliments. and this one woman had described some of the things which touched every heart cell of mine. she said some things i like about myself that are very non-physical are

- if it ever get to a point where it is you vs me, i hope you win.

- i don’t like getting embarrassed at all. but if it makes you laugh, i’m okay w making a fool out of myself once in a while.

- i get terrified when i have to do new activities but i end up doing them anyway.

- i am a great mother to many stray animals. i pet and feed them regularly. i think they’re fond of me now.

i would like to add some of my own here.

- i randomly remember details about people in my life, like their birthdays or their favourite song. and on some days i text when i remember it.

- i donate small amount randomly to NGOs i believe in

- i am honestly not v fond of kids but i try my best to make them feel safe and happy when i am around one

- i hold doors for people unprompted because sometimes i know they need it

- i am that one person in the group who will hear you out when the conversation deviates from you and others make you feel unintentionally ignored

what are non-physical compliments you will give yourself?