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My worst nightmares rolled into one pic 😭😳👌🏻😂

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Yeah… Decided to make Marinette too :D  

I think I went a little crazy on the color but Ladybug has the power of life so why not? 😛

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Have you ever searched for something for so long that you lose yourself looking for it?

So here's why this is going to be the first thing I write on here. As human beings we are known to be inquisitive and curious creatures (well some of us, the rest happily sit in front of the TV 5 hours a day, repeating ground hog day for 70+years and call that life). 

I'm not judging people on their choice of lifestyle because once upon a time..I was one of them. Okay so when I was 23 and studying Counselling, I met a few interesting people, one if particular. He unveiled my eyes to the naked truth of the world today through a documentary. And no I'm not going to get into conspiracy theories even though I do enjoy them. After that, I honestly had so many emotions happening all at the same time, I honestly felt so sick and angry at myself for being so blind and ignorant to what was happening all around me throughout my life. I also felt really sad for the world, because everyone was asleep, literally. So blinded by daily routine, conditioning to even notice what the fuck is really going on. I realised I was a sheep, who was conditioned to thinking that staying in the herd was the best and only way to live my life when it was THE WORST THING TO DO. I wanted to be like everyone else and fit into the HERD,abandon the true me to be a mere copy of what someone else wanted me to be. 

Anyway, one day after study I was invited to a girls place with some other people in the class to “chill” at her place. She was intelligent and had an array of topics you could delve into with her. Also...she smoked a lot of weed. Like a lot! Anyway I went because most of the people that went were interesting and funny and I wanted a good laugh. Cut the story short, everyone was having an amazing time, making jokes laughing really enjoying themselves. This part of my life I was really against drugs of any kind, but for some reason I had an impulse to smoke it. So I did, and firstly laughed my ass off omg! It was an interesting feeling which I liked, it was something familiar but so new at the same time. (Btw folks, I have never touched any other “drug” besides weed). At one point I understood what auras were, and what souls were and that we were all connected (corny and typical hey) but seriously that night shaped my life forever. That morning after smoking, I went to Coles to buy some yoghurt, I hadn't slept the whole night btw, anyway, I walked into the dairy section about 10 people were standing going about their business like me and all of a sudden each and every single one, in that split second looked at me directly, I could feel all of their souls and it was like their souls were looking into me and we all knew each other. THATS WHAT DRUGS TO DO KIDS! Was it a positive experience for me? yes. Does that make me a weirdo? possibly, but I honestly don't care what people think, I just want to share my story in hopes of connecting to people who are like me :)

And that kids is what started my journey to find the truth, God, what we are all doing here and of course finding my purpose in life.

After that I started reading a lot, trying to soak in as much information about life, the world, the universe, people, events, business, lifestyles, consciousness, drugs, meaning of life, energy, vibration, Jesus and God.

After being on this journey for quite a long time I have come to realise that it is never ending, we are never going to know the whole truth. We are here to experience life, make it our own, understand the way the world works accept it, live in the moment, love one another, forgive each other as no one is perfect. We are all perfectly imperfect. God doesn't punish us, instead he/she loves us and wants us to be happy and create our lives as we see fit even if its “wrong”. If god created everything, then he created the bad as well. Using our imagination is key to living in life. In some form we are creators, we are made in the image of God the creator. And at the end of knowing all this you will still be confused, at least I am. 

Until next time folks! 

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