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Found a cigarette in my sister's bedroom

had to physically hold myself back

Ever since I tried vaping and quit after I bought 4 I've been craving nic

I have NO IDEA what to do with my hands and mouth when I'm just chilling

it's like the vapes helped with a boredom I didn't know I had, now I know the boredoms there and I need to fill it

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So I was talking to my sister about my outfit for tomorrow...

it's gonna have this vibe^

Cuz I have stuff to do tomorrow and I want to look nice.

So one thing lead to another and I was saying "... my goal is to look like one of those skinny girls on pinterest" and my sister said "it genuinely scares me that you don't think you're thin right now"

This just made me feel sooooo good. The fact that you can see I've shed a few cm off my thighs or something.

But anyway, just to clarify I'm not that skinny guys. Where I live, most people would be classified as curvy, heavy, plus-size. So when I rock up wanting to look like a skinny pinterest-model looking-girly they all say I'm like pro ana which I'm not. (My sister is also a plus size person and no hate to her, I love my sister)

I've been sticking to a diet of 2 meals a day. Breakfast at 10:30am, dinner at 3:30pm. It's been working great for me.

Maximum 1 spoon of sugar a day, maximum about half the size of my palm in carbs(I rarely ever eat carbs but if I do, I stick to that). Eat mostly vegetables and meats. Drink lots of water (I'd say I've been drinking minimum 1L of water a day) and I add 1 teaspoon of apple cider vinegar to my water (make sure to drink with a straw so it doesn't damage your teeth's enamel). I haven't been exercising much because I hate it either but my weightloss has been good.

Let me know if you want to know what I eat day to day. I'll try to remember!

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I'm 139.5lbs??????

how I feel rn ^

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Found some amazing Th1nsp0 to keep us motivated!

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I'm so tired lol

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When I tell you this russian man .

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real

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sigh

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⊹ ࣪ ˖ʚskinny armsɞ˖ ࣪ ⊹

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Your mouth 🤝 my spit

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ME 👀

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I wish there was an ED summer camp so we could all meet up and ⭐ve together

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when my therapist asked me if I feel "too skinny"

- excuse me what? I could NEVER feel too skinny 🤨

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UPDATE

I'm now 64kgs (141 lbs)