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Do you understand the violence it took

to become this gentle?

@songs-of-venus

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“It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don’t want to lose someone, even if they don’t deserve our forgiveness.”

— Deb Caletti

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21.04.2025

hi guys i haven't slept since 8am yesterday :3

i was staying up to finish my electrochemistry tutorial and watch econs lectures which took me until 3am. after that, i decided that sleeping meant i wld not be able to wake up in time for school so i just stayed up all night.

wish i cld say i was super productive. we have an econs test on thursday so i attempted to study for it a little. (after a quick instant noodles break ofc). i took a nice 20min walk to the convenience store to get myself a monster. that was the first time i'd drunk a monster and i'd gotten the ultra paradise (+taurine, zero sugar). tbh 10/10 experience, i liked it.

got a bit more econs out of the way before school. we had pe first block and it was intense. for my morning pe module, i'm doing "group exercise" which is sort of like a spin class. it was sooo tiring but i was rly proud of myself when it was over. next week we're moving into a more martial arts / combat sort of training, which is interesting. not sure if i'm really looking forward to it as it looks very tiring but oh wells.

i realised i never updated tumblr about the chem test that i (possibly) mentioned a few weeks ago. i got it back last week and was 1 mark away from an A. i'm not too bummed as so many absolutely brilliant people ended up doing quite badly on that test. it was just abnormally hard and the marking was unnecessarily strict, i guess.

anyways, that was my day. im beyond tired and i'm gna sleep right this instant, goodnight!! :"D

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we’re officially 5 weeks from nsgs

(national school games)

time to grind!!!! i ain’t leaving the mats without a 5.0 on my koryo 💪🥋

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22.03.25 | 10h study day!

after the longest time of doing absolutely nothing, i got all my holiday homework as well as revision for a chem test done on saturday yay!!

also it’s wednesday now and i forgot to post lol. i had the test on monday and i think it went quite well! im happy with my answers and i still haven’t found any careless mistakes after comparing answers with my friends :”)

anyways. pics of the eats cuz they were good 😌

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it’s been raining over 24h i’m not even kidding…

🎧: paranoia – the mariàs

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this is pretty crazy to me

basically on saturday i was listening to a spotify blend i had with a friend as i wanted to find new music, and i found a new artist called Rae Nadya who was a 15yo sg artist. her vocals are really impressive and i love her songwriting too!

okay so coincidentally it was my other good friend’s bday 2 days ago and i was clicking through her insta stories and she reposted a story by a raenadya. so obviously i was like 🤨🤨 where have i heard that name before???

AND THEN I REALISED THE ARTIST WAS HER YOUNGER SISTER

idk if this is rly common elsewhere but this was just a mindblowing realisation for me idk

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17.03.25 | h3 is kicking my butt! we got back our first test and i got a 35% (in my defence id skipped 4 lessons and had gone in with zero studying) . . . i shall be using my march hols to improve my maths ability i guess :3 + we have a chemistry test on the first day back that i need to study for–

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girlie the photo of yr onenote shows the school name 😵‍💫

wait omg im seeing this so late... i mean i doxxed myself alr so its ok

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last week was actually so eventful, here's a quick rundown of everyth that happened cuz idk i felt like documenting it

03.08 — had half of my NAPFA (fitness test). went to a university with my ccamates for combined training with the university taekwondo team.

04.08 — had an econs test that i think i messed up. had a talk with a cambridge professor on admissions and other application process related things. celebrated my friend's 18th birthday!! was chatting with an old friend and we started discussing our mutual friend whom i was avoiding as i'd found out that she had said some hurtful things behind my back. my old friend convinced me to bring it up with her and clear the issue rather than simply avoid her.

05.08 — had rather brutal taek training in the morning. asked to meet the aforementioned friend to chat with her. which ended up being an absolute shitshow and i was sobbing in the middle of the canteen ... ended up cutting her off after that

06.08 — had a h3 maths test that went pretty badly. but also i met a guy in my h3 class that's lowk cute loll. also i ran into the aforementioned friend again and it was rly awkward

07.08 — had the other half of the fitness test. had taek training again but it was super chill it was lowk a stretching session for half of it and then we went straight to showcasing instead of having intense PT like usual. went for econs tuition that night

08.08 — taek competition D-DAY!! i left the house at 545am and got back home at 8pm. oops

lol yeah that's it i guess. im totally not typing this in the middle of physics class.

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she’s so valid for that

same

sorry babe

Electromagnetism and Electomagnetic Induction are inducing self-destructive tendencies and suicidal thoughts within me. I asked my friend if I connect myself to a conducting wire connected to a power source, wld be i able to get electrocuted and die?

Girlie told me with a straight face that her knowledge in this topic was so bad she couldn't even answer me.

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haven't updated in a while lol idk i'm slackingggg

kms

um i deleted insta i guess so hopefully i get back on track?

had some friendship issues which messed me up too :"(

anyways my taek competition went well and we really improved a lot so i'm proud of us. i have 2 weeks till my tests begin and i really need to lock in man.

this morning they were giving out 'academic awards' for last year and nearly half my class got it (am in one of the better classes) but i didn't. it feels really awful ngl esp since i had a little quiz during chem lesson and my bestie who got the award was complaining that she was 'stupid' cuz she cldn't do the qn. idkk

a lot of the really really smart kids didn't get it either cuz it's really about being an all-rounder (i suck at writing essays) but it's also just demoralising when half the class gets it and you don't. aaaa motivation to lock in i guess :""

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thanks hun 🥰

what are some things u recommend one educates themselves on?

-a 17yo girlie who wants to start broadening her interests and knowledge

you guys are seriously so amazing

you're going to do great things

here are some suggestions for you angel, no specific order and off the top of my head. The ones I bolded are the ones I wish I would have learned when I was 17 <3

Emotional intelligence

Healthy boundaries

Finance/stocks

Mindset & resilience

Classic literature

Learn a new language

Philosophy

Time management and productivity

Learn about different cultures

Arts & Classical music

Health and nutrition

Wellness

Ai and tech trends

Environmental science

Psychology and human behavior

Marketing and branding

E-commerce and passive income

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01.03.25, saturday

start of the month matcha run

journaled and came up with goals for the month

studied economics – consolidated the macro chapter

i did other stuff but i’m posting this so late that i don’t rmb what it was LOL

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03.03.25, monday

every single time i have a significant-ish event with taek, im just so dang grateful that this is the cca im spending my jc-life with. these wonderful people who never fail to make me smile and i can be so comfortable around (even if im lowk inflexible and not up to standard)

anyways combined training today was so bombz: we grabbed dinner tgt first and strolled over to SIT with the most gorgeous sunset as a backdrop 🔥 training itself was w tiring but that’s probably cuz i had my napfa run earlier today. afterwards we took pics ofc (won’t post for privacy reasons) and took our time walking to the train station while listening to music and chatting. so much love for my taekkies<33

anyways i have an econs test tmr im so cooked!

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this march we're locking tf in !!!

girl, lock in! 📓🍵🩰

UP your water intake! no more bloating here.

7-10k steps a day. move. your. body — walk, chores, park farther. don’t take shortcuts, do it all!

probiotics, protein, fiber.

prioritize whole foods.

educate yourself for an hour a day. NO EXCUSES. listen to podcasts/youtube videos/audiobooks. read an article or book. learn how to cook better or take care of your skin type. just learn something! don’t let your brain be wasted away. it CRAVES growth.

HAVE ADMIN DAYS. make your to do lists, set 3 priority tasks and set 15-20 minutes of uninterrupted time to tackle them. boom.

stop aimlessly shopping. you have everything to need to live. save up! your future self will thank you.

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so i was recalling why i named this blog white-flwrs for a moment

it’s literally just an olivia rodrigo song. i created this blog 2 years ago.

but it looks so pretty so i’m not changing it