whokilledlukas

[whokilledlukas]

I'm never gonna have the experience of being a son, one of the boys, just a guy.

But that's literally all I want.

I want a boy childhood

I want to go exploring outside as one of the guys

I want a boys room

I wanna go swimming

I wanted to be the 5yr old boy who got given toy cars and dinosaurs at Christmas.

I know these are all stupid and stereotypical but I still want them.

I just feel so sad that I'll never get that childhood, or cis experience.

[whokilledlukas]

I just want a twirly mustache, is that so much to ask?

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Ow owie dysphoria tears crying pain suffering so lonely family not understand sobbing gasping help owie owie transmasc dysphoria want to rip off skin aahhhhh

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real T-T

My worst fear is my parents finding any of my online shit

[whokilledlukas]

Don’t worry I found it. Phew 😅

Ummmmm chat my little tin full of plasters and blades has disappeared what the fuck

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Why is my voice like that broooooo

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Oh great my binder has also dissapeared

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Ummmmm chat my little tin full of plasters and blades has disappeared what the fuck

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Shetoldmeilookedniceaaaaaaaaaaaaagggghhhhhhimgoingtoexplode

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Yes I’m posting to distract myself from the other thing that’s happening right now that is going on currently at this moment today here now

[whokilledlukas]

Let’s play: Did my mum see my scars or not??

wow this game is soooo fun 🤩

[whokilledlukas]

take me for what I am

who I was meant to be

and if you give a damn

take me baby, or leave me

[whokilledlukas]

Group diy lobotomy at 7 bring your own tools

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It’s midnight where I am, but I guess I’ll work out anyway. It makes me feel manly, plus I need to shut up the calorie thoughts and pretend like I’ve done something to combat the amount I’ve eaten today.

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I’m being dramatic, I probably just need to cvt myself and then I’ll be fine.

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Ugh I feel like I never stop saying “do better” to myself but I never actually end up doing shit because I’m lazy af

[whokilledlukas]

chat I may have over eaten today. tbf I wasn’t restricting but I’ve been off my game lately and now I feel like shit. Just gotta start from now. Do better