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there are so many numbers that are just too big for us to ever know about. what about 2↑↑↑,↑↑↑,↑↑↑1,999,999,999. nobodys ever even seen that number. must be nice honestly. lonely but nice. i think theres a dark comfort in loneliness. ive always been complimented on my abilities to fit in tight spaces & launch fireballs and these powers have left me deeply affraid of committing to relationships with people. thats all. goodbye

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Chrétien de Troyes, Perceval (c. 1190)

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it's just gonna be "decentralized social processes are inefficient and don't deliver" vs. "centralized social processes are easy to coopt and abuse" for the rest of time without anyone actually attempting to mitigate those weaknesses, isn't it

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life

surely

it’s more

than these

small snippets

of nothing

hey

this was no where

in the

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I am also from a water soluble family! When I was a child, we had to share the bath water out with the whole family, for we were but tiny penniless waifs. I remember once, my eyes got mixed up with my grandmother’s, and she would not give them back because mine worked better! I had to go to school wearing her glasses and everyone had a go at me :/ ah well, I had the last laugh because I pushed grandma in a koi carp pond and nicked my eyes back while she was in her liquid state.

Oh wow so crazy. My mum bathed me and my brother together when we were children and we have no idea which eyes originally belonged to who. Neither of us has a prescription though so it never bothered me.

Did you manage to get your grandma out of the pond or is she still there? It sounds like it could be a nice retirement, depending on the koi.

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LUCILLE CLIFTON

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do you facebook do you face the book or put a face on the book face hooked by hook or by crook not so good on the outlook this inside overlooked misunderstood how does it feel to be hashed and tagged filter and brag to be favourited and followed how to scream into photos deny your pain just to feign all campaign and chicane entertain just to sustain between pixels and resolution roam each half circles seeking to be full all this talk about freedom all this talk about freedom all this talk about freedom all this talk about freedom still wanting every surface is always we are no longer what was slightly surreal but sufficiently convincing all this talk about freedom acceptance of petty offerings, small things add weight on us, and we are still left waiting

for an end a yes to this

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Rural Boys Watch The Apocalypse (rough draft) by Keaton St. James

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imagination (1963) - harold ordway rugg

"chekhovs cat / schrödingers razor / occams gun"

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Japan's beautiful fish stamps from 1966-1967

featuring: Masaba (Pacific Mackerel), Sake (Salmon), Ayu (Sweetfish), Unagi (eel), and Torafugu (Tiger Puffer)

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I haven't been arguing with my wife lately I do not feel life, or death Rub up against my ankles. And we eat toast harmoniously We install our software updates on time And I have not recently stormed out the front door to the unblinking midnight air so vast that it cannot see me with it's naked eye Nor stumbled shivering back to her to find out if I'm still welcome in my only home

Yet we don't despair. Snow thaws. And a bear that sleeps all winter wakes up hungry

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People are asking so I thought I'd explain some of the details:

1. It's on my dad's side of the family only - I don't get it from my mum.

2. Dissolving in water feels really relaxing and complete. You do kind of feel like you're going to leave yourself behind but it's okay because you're in the bathtub and you're not going anywhere.

3. Getting out of the water is not relaxing it sucks

For those asking if I'm ever tempted to leave life as a dry person behind and live unconstrained in the waterways, not really? Some reasons why:

This is the sort of thing I might consider in Switzerland, but the water quality in UK rivers is so terrible right now it's out of the question

I would have to leave my eyes behind

If I'm too dilute my consciousness will start to dissipate and that's quite a big life decision

My younger sister does talk about this kind of thing from time to time. When we were kids she asked me to pour her down the slide. She was pretty small so we found a 40l bucket for her but once it was full it was too heavy for me to carry. She says it still felt good to be outside in the sun like that.

We take very long baths in my family because we're water soluble and it can be thermodynamically very expensive to extricate oneself from solution.

My father lost an older sister to the bath drain when he was young although he doesn't talk about it very much. When her parents (my grandparents) decided the bath had gone on too long and broke in there there was no sign of her except her two eyeballs rattling around in the bath tub.

I like to imagine that one day she reconstituted on a beach somewhere but she never came back for her eyes.

Anyway I need money for medical treatment so I'm selling them. £700 + shipping to wherever you are. They're in good condition + I'm told she had no glasses prescription and good colour acuity. [Please don't purchase these to consume as food! Even though I never met her she was my aunt and I don't want these to be eaten by a stranger]

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We take very long baths in my family because we're water soluble and it can be thermodynamically very expensive to extricate oneself from solution.

My father lost an older sister to the bath drain when he was young although he doesn't talk about it very much. When her parents (my grandparents) decided the bath had gone on too long and broke in there there was no sign of her except her two eyeballs rattling around in the bath tub.

I like to imagine that one day she reconstituted on a beach somewhere but she never came back for her eyes.

Anyway I need money for medical treatment so I'm selling them. £700 + shipping to wherever you are. They're in good condition + I'm told she had no glasses prescription and good colour acuity. [Please don't purchase these to consume as food! Even though I never met her she was my aunt and I don't want these to be eaten by a stranger]

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My parents were so kind to me when bad things happened that now when bad things happen I look to the heavens waiting for my little reward.

Today I drove past a horse in the cold and wind and rain and I thought "who is going to give this horse a blanket and a sugarcube for being such a brave horse".

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