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“Do you ever know how you feel, but never what emotion you’re feeling?”

Depression

As I lay on this bed, I feel all of my energy as it’s sucked away from my body. I feel stuck, like I can’t get up no matter how hard I try. Almost as if I had been glued to these sheets. Everything is too much yet I still feel nothing. I feel as if I am nothing.

Failure

No matter what I do, I can never do it right. Overworking for success, but overall it’s a waste. I’m know I’m destined to have the gold right at my fingertips, but it slips out before I can get the chance to grasp it.

Deception

I looked up to the man that said he would protect me. He said I was everything to him and he wouldn’t let anything happen to me. I trusted him. I trusted him so much that I didn’t see the strings he used to control my every move.

Hunger

This life is so boring and repetitive. Everyone has to be the same or else they’re shunned from the world. I want something new, something flavorful, something I can sink my teeth into. I want something I can be happy to live for.

Freedom

The wind grazed my skin as I took my first real breath in what feels like years. I can finally walk without the strings trying to hold me back. I can finally love what I want with the fear of ridicule. I can finally be me.

Chat this was for a school assignment 😓

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W.I.P of a creative writing assignment I started

“The night sky that usually lit up my mood with its stars made me fill up with dread that day.

Running through the parking lot, the crunching of the leaves feeling like bullets shooting my ear drums.

But I couldn’t even focus on the sound; I couldn’t focus on anything around me.”