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YES, PLEASE!

I wrote Enid's ring fingernail being black alllllll the way back in chapter 21 of Home and Away. Not saying I manifested or that I'm a wizard, but if the show could manifest other shit that happened in that story... I wouldn't complain. Like, maybe KISS HER, WEDNESDAY.

I NEED ANSWERS.

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Wednesday: She is such a disastrous excuse for a werewolf, I cannot believe I am going to marry her.

Divina: I mean... you don't have to?

Wednesday, watching Enid throw a table because she lost at Uno: Oh no, I'm going to. Happily.

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“There are two types of people you will meet in your life. One will run a finger down the index of who you are and jump straight to the parts of you that peak their interest. The other will take his or her time reading through every one of your chapters and maybe unfold corners of you that inspired them most. You will meet these two people; it is a given. It is the third that you’ll never see coming. That one person who not only finishes your sentences, but keeps the book.”

— Unknown

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You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

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Enid's the top one. Wednesday's the bottom one. Yes, in more ways than one.

in english we say: "I love you."

but in poetry we say: "I see you everywhere, in the stars, in the river, to me you're everything that exists; the reality of everything."

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I have come up with a better metaphor than “you can’t pour from an empty cup” for burnout. You can’t boil an empty kettle. Pouring from an empty cup just gets you nowhere. Trying to boil an empty kettle can ruin the kettle, the stove, and burn down your house if you keep trying it.

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This says it all.

Do you ever read such a fucking good fanfic that your brain thinks it's a canon and when you watch the original show again it's just like "nah that's not how it is. That's just a bad fanfic" ?

Or is it just me...

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- j (x), i have time

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''Torimodo senu haru ni guren no hana ga saku'' (Crimson flowers bloom in the springtime we cannot get back) -the GazettE - Guren

I still cannot believe that you are no longer here

Thank you for being a part of what saved me, a part of what said the things I couldn't say and expressed the feelings I couldn't express. Thank you for being such an inspiration with your talent. I will forever remember you when I pick up my instrument again, the same that you played, the same I wanted to play because of you.

I'm so glad to have met you once. That I shook your hand and said a few words about your importance, even if it was but a fleeting moment. You gave me an enthusiastic smile and a thumbs up, and I will always remember it.

Gazerock is not dead, and it will be for forever like you wished, in our hearts.

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THIS. FUCKING 100%. THIS.

you know what makes enid such a loveable character? she’s deceptively complex, and the specifics make her so fucking precious. LET ME PROVE MY THESIS.

when enid is first introduced in the show, we might be inclined to think that she’s merely a shallow representation of the polar opposite of wednesday—colorful, peppy, social, loud. but she’s so much more than just wednesday’s antithesis. and you see that from their very first interaction.

enid, clearly excited and optimistic about meeting her new roommate, rushes up to greet her with a huge smile and outstretched arms (already, a sign of her kindness). but the very second she realizes wednesday doesn’t want to reciprocate, she holds off. this might not seem like a big thing, but it’s extremely telling. for one, it shows us that before everything, enid respects wednesday’s boundaries. wednesday, who she doesn’t even know yet. and she continues to honor wednesday’s disinclination to hugs, repeatedly, until the final scene. it also indicates that she’s not ditsy or cluelessly abrasive like some other characters who share her disposition. enid is genuinely, thoroughly kind, and it’s striking.

however, as the scene continues and enid gives wednesday a tour of nevermore, it becomes clear that even though she is kind, she isn’t a one-dimensional people-pleaser. she doesn’t hesitate to give wednesday’s attitude right back to her. like when wednesday expresses annoyance over the name of the quad and enid tells her that “the whole snarky, goth-girl thing might’ve worked at normie school, but here, things are different,” and when wednesday shows disinterest in “participating in tribal adolescent cliches,” enid tells her to“use it to fill your obviously bottomless pit of disdain.” is enid sweet? yes. and is she (not so) subtly trying to impress her cute brunette roomie with her knowledge and interests? also yes. but what she’s not about to do is let wednesday sass her without matching her energy. it’s almost a playful kind of banter (i would say borderline flirtatious), and it’s one of the reasons wednesday is instantly drawn to her; enid isn’t afraid of her, or uncomfortable around her, or put off by her unfriendliness; instead, she’s able to interact with her in a way that keeps wednesday on her toes. this, combined with the way enid continuously respects her boundaries, is a dichotomy that wednesday finds irresistible, and it’s why she can’t not treat enid differently than everyone else. and it’s a big reason why she falls for her.

enid’s complexity only deepens when we discover that she can’t wolf out. we find out that she’s terrified of being alone, and as we get to family weekend, we see the dysfunctional dynamic she has with her parents. it becomes apparent that enid herself is a dichotomy; she presents herself to her peers as confident and bubbly and full of optimism, but the second she’s alone with her family, we see a glimpse of her truest self, who she is behind the mask—weary, sad, almost demure, responding to her mother’s criticism with a tired kind of acquiescence, “that’s me, a huge disappointment.” enid isn’t at all what we might have initially thought her to be, and to see her deal with not measuring up to her family’s standards makes her all the more authentic and relatable.

considering all of this, enid’s duplicity contextualizes her delicacy with wednesday in a way that is uniquely captivating. because enid has every reason to close herself off to other people, especially to her roommate who doesn’t even seem to like her, but she doesn’t. in fact, she goes above and beyond trying to befriend her—promising to keep her secret about nero, seeing her off with tyler at the harvesting festival, inviting her to multiple social events, expressing an interest in “bonding” when she took her dress shopping, organizing a birthday surprise for her, knitting her a snood in her signature colors, and even pulling one over on weems so that they could have a girl’s night out. so when she finds out that wednesday has deceived her, she’s rightfully upset and extremely hurt. during the fight scene, all of this comes out, and for the audience—much like for wednesday—enid’s anger is pain-inducing. we see the strength of her vulnerability in that moment, we see her reach the end of her rope, as it were, because deep down enid is just plain exhausted. and that’s what makes her really real. i see the humanity in her so clearly, and it makes me want to cry. it makes me want to reach through the screen and comfort her like wednesday couldn’t in that moment.

but as we know, enid comes back for wednesday. why? because even after everything, even after the betrayal and the snide remarks and the silence, she still wants to take care of wednesday. she still wants to be there for her, to protect her and be her friend. without waiting for an apology from the person who wronged her, she came back. and if that doesn’t make you love enid sinclair with all of your heart, nothing will.

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Wouldn't have it any other way~

you have to make it homoerotic and weird

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queer is such a good word. im queer as in fuck you. queer as in odd. queer as in fucked-in-the-head. queer as in i hope you choke on it. queer as in a slur i laugh at. queer as in not like you. queer as in none of your business. queer as in a line in the fucking dirt. queer as in we’re here. get used to it. queer as in this is who i am and what i am. queer as in im different and i dont fucking care. queer as in with or without you i exist and ill keep doing it. queer as in queer

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Wenclair in Two Words

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YOOO, they did it again! I love Life Is Strange, and this portrait of Max is just insane! Especially her eyes, just *mwah, chef's kiss 🤌🏻. This needs more likes and reblogs, I swear to god!

Made a traditional artwork of Maxine Caulfield, better known as Max as played by Hannah Telle in Life Is Strange using Graphite and Colored Pencils in the span of 31hrs! :)

Finally after exactly a month of working on this, I present to you my first ever colored traditional artwork & with it, so begins a new era of portraits by yours truly!!

The butterflies were originally going to be colored in digitally as I wanted to keep & portray the significance of their color but my parents ended up surprising me with the colored pencils & you can see the rest!

I love how the artwork has turned out, not to toot my own horn or anything but I am sooooo happy & proud of the coloring, the butterflies aren't very detailed cause my goal rn was to understand the pencils & get a feel for them. I love how Max has turned out, I'm very happy how the artstyle looks like a more realistic version of the game's style & her eyes have to be the best I've drawn, the way they look so glassy & the way I've drawn her eye makeup! I also love the composite of this, the way Max is "frozen" in black & white whilst the colored butterflies surround her & moving whilst it all looks like a photograph, it's just *chef's kiss*!!!

Oh, & this is my first time drawing a landscape traditionally, which was very cool!

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ME FUCKING TOO

Pandora, Chapter 3:

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Love me a long post of badass women~ And the fact that it's Miss Piggy at the end

Also, my addition to this list would definitely be Alice from Resident Evil 💘

“You fight like a girl.”

I’m sorry

I didn’t

realise

that 

was 

a

bad

thing

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Untitled, Tathève Simonyan