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violently purg3d and it came through my nose. absolutely horrific !

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at the end of the day it’s me & my Diet Coke.

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why can’t I be 45kg again like I was a few years back.

with the thigh gap.

the boney arms and legs.

i could count my ribs.

but then i decided to ‘get better’ and ruined everything.

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almost at 24 hours without eating !!! hoping to try to get to 48 this time.

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i feel more disgusting eating than i do with my fingers down my throat and i feel as if this may be an issue.

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just got a cig i guess i’ll see whether or not smoking helps with this shit.

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feeling stressed. might cvt. might burn. might ⭐️ve. might start smoking.

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thinking about burning myself with a match.

never burned myself before so it’d be new.

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this year is my year.

i will finally go all for it.

i won’t overeat multiple times a week.

i’ll do daily exercise.

I’ll eat less sugar.

i will reach my goals.

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I AM SURE

You are sure you will lose weight

You are sure you will lose weight fast.

You are sure you will drop kilos.

You are sure the number will go down.

You are sure you will f@st for longer periods.

You are sure you will stop b!nging.

You are sure you will r3strict more.

You are sure you will prg when you need to.

You are sure your metabolism will speed up.

You are sure hunger will go away.

You are sure you will see a thigh gap soon.

You are sure you have the self-discipline to f@st.

YOU GOT THIS. KEEP GOING. YOUR STRONG ENOUGH.

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when I’m going through it, i don’t ask for help.

i slice and dice and then post about it on tumblr.

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i need to be so skinny that im not even a person. just a sheet of thin skin draped over bone.

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trying not to cvt all over until february at least.

just small ones in less obvious places until they trust me again.

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“flavour fades, fat stays!” after knowing I just ate enough to feed a family of six.

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‼️ TW: BLAD3. ‼️

think I’m about to relapse soon.

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once my body is as sick as my mind is maybe they will take me seriously.