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made this last year and never shared it publicly. style has changed a LOT since then. let me know what you think. (read left to right)

you can have it in pdf form from itch

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saw a tiktok edit of them to hozier

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When I grow up I wanna be upper middle class.

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t-...to-...toasty s'more mushrooms.....

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Everyone is so weird about people who cry easily. Fellas, is it evil and manipulative to *checks notes* have an involuntary stress response?

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Byzantine Miku edited by my mother

edit: mom says this is the first time she's gotten a thousand likes or comments on anything, she is @ ikonimaalari on instagram if you want to see what she usually does and also she now knows what serving cunt means

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Environment vis dev I made a few years ago, for a recently axed animation development project 💔💫

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Dogs have had many jobs throughout history, in this case: Revenge.

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Since the OP made their post unrebloggable (and blocked me. Both actions they are well in with their right to do)

I'm going to make my response it's own post because I think the point is important

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As someone who is autistic and has BPD and CPTSD and loads of trauma yes you sometimes need to change how you interact with others to keep people around

When I was 13 I hit the few friends I had when I was angry

I had to change that in order to keep those friendships

When I was in my early 20s if I was losing an disagreement with my husband I would threaten to kill myself. My husband told me it hurt him and was cruel and manipulative behaviour, because it was.

So I worked hard to change that to keep my relationship

It's easy to say "I shouldn't have to change for others" and that's true to an extent. You shouldn't change your interests or passions or dim your light. And you should have space to be imperfect and flawed and not have to pretend your ugly bits aren't real. But if something you are doing it causing other people harm you kinda need to change that.

That's called "living in a society"

People adapt to each other and make space for each other in their lives. You adapt to them and they adapt to you

You start being more diligent about throwing away the empty toilet roll because it really bothers them. They start warning you before they run the blender because you hate loud noises

I stopped threatening to kill myself because I was mad I was losing an argument and my husband stopped being so vocally judgemental amount media he personally dislikes

There is a certain type of person who heard the phrase "your emotions are valid" and took that to mean "my emotional reactions and my behaviour are always objectively correct because my emotions are valid and if you have an emotional response or react to what I'm doing negatively then you are wrong and you can't be hurt because my emotions are valid"

And that's a recipe for disaster

Your emotions are valid to feel. They are how you feel and there are reasons you feel the way you do

However, your reactions and behaviour are something you can learn to control and can be irrational

We live in a society and we as people change each other as we interact and that isn't necessarily a bad thing

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vampire miku!!!! ❤️🦇💟

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not sure if i've breathed since watching chappell roan's performance last night

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A pair of periwinkle blues

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CATCH YOU THIS TIME!

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filipina miku!! my mom helped me with her outfit ^_^

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Whenever an ugly feeling arises in me, maybe resent, greed, insecurity, etc. I just have to laugh and think to myself, this is what being alive is and I don’t deny my capacity for ugliness, in fact I store my faith in it because that same awareness of my own ugliness is the place I go to when I am aware of my own beauty. I have all the time in the world to sort it out, that’s the thing with self trust. I don’t hide from others and I don’t hide from myself, where there is ugliness I observe it and I don’t turn away.

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Still playing around with it, but here’s my Hermes design!!!

And something extra BEJSHEJ //hits play on Wouldn’t You Like