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[zadezy]

your twenties are Also about discovering that you’re not a bad person in all the ways you believed you were but you’re a bad person in completely new and exciting ways

[zadezy]

on the revolutions of the heavenly bodies (and james potter)

regulus black believed in the geocentric model.

everyone did. the earth was still. the heavens turned above. men sinned below and god watched from crystalline spheres. everything had its place.

he believed this, and he loved it.

not the church’s reasons, perhaps—but the order of it. the nested perfection. earth at the center, stars in their orbits, equations in balance.

and then he met james.

james potter arrived in kraków from somewhere brighter. florence, perhaps. or rome. it didn’t matter. what mattered was how he didn’t belong. not to the structure of the university, not to the rhythm of regulated speech.

he had no discipline, but he drew people with his warmth. he spoke in loose latin, laughed too loud in lectures. his thoughts were fast, messy.

regulus told himself he was above it.

and yet he watched him.

watched the way he moved without hesitation. watched the way others gathered near him.

in the evenings, regulus studied the sky.

he had done so since childhood — mapping orbits, charting planetary tables, measuring angles with instruments of his own design.

but the numbers began to falter.

mars did not behave. neither did jupiter. they looped backward in the night sky when they should have moved forward.

regulus added epicycles. then more. the model bent under the weight of itself. and still it failed.

he grew restless. withdrew from conversation. left kraków for frombork, where the sky was darker and the air colder. he watched longer. wrote more. tried every known correction.

and still, the planets betrayed him.

until—

quietly, without speaking—

he shifted the sun into the center. just to test. just to see. and suddenly the loops made sense. the math resolved.

it is not the sun that moves, he wrote. it is us. the earth is not the center.

he stared at that line for a long time. not for what it meant astronomically. but for what it meant personally.

he had been taught his whole life that the world turned around him.

but it didn’t. not then. not in kraków. not now.

he thought again of james.

the pull. the presence. the strange feeling.

he had not understood it. had tried to place it into proper orbit. into a model that matched what he believed should be.

but james had never fit.

he had been something else.

the first sign that regulus was not still.

that he was turning.

he wrote his manuscript in secret. de revolutionibus orbium coelestium.

he wrote about mathematics, order, elegance. he argued, step by step, that the earth revolved around the sun.

but in a private notebook, never published, he wrote:

i mistook you for chaos, but you were the still point — the unmoving sun around which I turned.

he died with the printed book at his side. the world would take a century to believe him. but the planets moved as he said they would. and the sun remained still, just as he had written.

and james—

wherever he had gone—

remained, in his mind, at the center.

[zadezy]

from the shadows

Harry's life was first turned upside down at fifteen.

After seven years of trying to adapt and almost succeeding, it is flipped once again.

--

Or Harry's life gets disrupted when a certain ghost from his past pays him a visit.

Harry Potter/Tom Riddle

Mature

for @quantumquilltomarrymort fest.

[zadezy]

I got a haircut a few days ago, and I have never felt more like me before. It's crazy.

[zadezy]

I love weird freak evan who collects bones and dissects shit and works in a morgue and has organs and dead animals in jars in his room

and I also love average loser evan who smokes and skates and kind of just hangs out and does art and is a nerd and lives in exclusively hoodies, graphic tees, and cargo pants

and I think these 2 things can and should coexist and maybe they’re even the same guy :)

[zadezy]

Im gonna be so real can yall actually talk about ways we can support trans women in the UK instead of giving all the attention to fucking JKR. I already know that Harry Poter sucks, I wanna know how to actually HELP people. Something something you have to love the oppressed more than you hate the oppressor

[zadezy]

reminder that trans women have stood and fought for women's rights for as long as there has been a fight.

trans women are not the people you should be pushing agains, they are the ones you should be working with to push against the systems that still harm women today. to fight against the medical discrimination and removal of bodily autonomy. to make the streets feel safe to walk and communities that give us strength.

bathrooms aren't the most important issue, bigotry is.

"learn you history, black trans women fought for me" - chant at an anti posie Parker/terf rally

[zadezy]

james who joined the death eaters for regulus that, when he gets captured by the order, breaks out into a wide grin when “prongs” accidentally slips out from sirius’ mouth because no one’s called him that in merlin knows how long

[zadezy]

Timeline

Now that all participants have confirmed their dates, we will move on to the next course of action. The event timeline for BOTH corpses will continue as follows: Formatting | Date — Team A & Team B

March 30th - April 13th — @chaos-bear & @riverxsong-ao3 April 14th - April 27th — @chiocchi & @laserswordtraining April 28th - May 11th — @cealesti & Anna_Hopkins May 12th - May 25th — @zadezy & @yourmarked-one May 26th - June 8th — @halfbluemoons & @houndsofheaven June 9th - June 22nd — @virginboysss & @tomarry65 June 23rd - July 6th — @arcturus-night-star & @iveriee July 7th - July 20th — @admiringtheskies & @rowena-rain July 21st - August 3rd — @blackseatwenty & @viery August 4th - August 17th — @issawitchy & surprise guest! August 18th - August 31st — @take-the-unknown-road-now & @known-concepts September 1st - September 14th — @sentinel04 & @curioushabitforarivergod September 15th - September 28th — queasy & @aitafrog September 29th - October 12th — @silverandbluephoenix & @valkyrie-chemist October 13th - October 26th — @justcasuallylurking & @tommarvoloriddlesdiary October 27th - November 9th — @theonceandfuturequeenoftarts & @marrythemonstersao3

Please feel free to contact me with any questions or consult our event breakdown post here.

The event will officially start on March 30th!

After the first person on both teams has completed their contribution of the corpse, the next person on their team will be contacted on April 14th and given the last five lines of the fic or a cropped portion of the fanart. This chain will continue until the corpses inevitably finish on November 10th.

The corpses will be posted shortly after! They should be up for everyone's viewing pleasure by November 17th.

A gentle reminder that if anything arises in the meantime that changes your availability, please let me know as soon as you can. With enough notice, we can make a quick and painless swap with someone further down the list. This way, everyone still gets to participate.

Thank you, participants, for your patience! Let's go out there and make TWO most exquisite tomarrymort corpses.

[zadezy]

it is NAUTTTT naive to expect support 😖😖 tiktok is now on their "well its jkrs fandom what did you expec-" BETTER ‼️‼️‼️‼️ we expected Better.

trans people expected Better. More. Anything Else.

like yes,,,, there is a risk. there is a risk when you join this space as something jkr hates that you will encounter harm. much like how we take that risk just by Leaving The House.

but ultimately,,, discussions about jkr are not about changing bigots minds or fighting off transphobes - they're about encouraging the supportive voices that have been quiet against the hate to be louder. louder than the hate is allllll anyone has wanted, and it is Not Naive to expect those that say that they support us to actually,,,, support us.

[zadezy]

Match - @into-the-jeggyverse - wc: 530

James is beaming when Regulus walks into their apartment, phone in hand, eyes glinting with a mix of excitement and barely restrained laughter.

"We're a match made in heaven," James declares, grinning from ear to ear.

Regulus raises an eyebrow, pausing to toe off his shoes. "What did you do?"

James plops onto the couch, patting the cushion next to him in invitation. "Took a quiz."

Regulus sighs but crosses the room anyway, sinking into the seat beside James. "A quiz."

"A relationship compatibility quiz!"

"Oh, Merlin."

James turns his phone toward Regulus, showing a brightly colored webpage with the bold, mocking headline: Your Compatibility Score: 38%—Not Doomed, But Not Great!

Regulus blinks at the screen, then at James. "Are you serious?"

"Yes, and apparently we're not. Or at least, we shouldn’t be." James wiggles his eyebrows. "According to BuzzQuizly, we’re a disaster."

Regulus snorts. "Did you answer the questions properly, or did you choose the most chaotic option each time?"

James gasps, placing a hand on his chest as if wounded. "I answered them honestly!"

"James."

"Okay, mostly honestly. But when it asked, 'Do you prefer deep, meaningful conversations or lighthearted banter?' I put banter because obviously, we banter."

Regulus shakes his head. "James, we literally stay up at night discussing philosophy and the meaning of existence."

"Yes, but we do it while bantering. That should count as both!"

Regulus rubs his temples. "What else?"

James scrolls. "Oh! This one's good. 'Do you believe in soulmates?' I put yes, because duh. And then it asked, 'Do you think your partner is your soulmate?' and I also put yes! So, points for me."

Regulus hums. "And yet, 38%."

"I know! Rude, right?"

Regulus takes the phone, scrolling through the results. "James, you said we have completely opposite interests."

"We do—I like Quidditch, you like reading about dead philosophers."

Regulus stares at him. "James, you read more than I do. Half of our furniture is bookshelves, and most of them are yours."

James hesitates. "Okay, but—"

"And you love my existential ramblings."

"I do, but—"

"And we both like the same music, the same films, the same—"

"Alright, alright! Maybe I misunderstood the question." James crosses his arms. "I just thought they meant, like, core interests."

Regulus scrolls again, then exhales sharply. "James."

James winces. "...Yes?"

Regulus tilts the screen toward him, revealing the question: How do you and your partner resolve conflicts? James' answer: We don’t. We battle to the death.

James coughs. "That was a joke."

Regulus gives him a long, unimpressed look. "You know how algorithms work, right?"

"Loosely."

Regulus rolls his eyes, tossing the phone onto the coffee table before shifting to straddle James' lap, fingers threading through his hair. "You are, without a doubt, an idiot."

James beams. "But I'm your idiot."

Regulus sighs but doesn’t bother hiding the small smile tugging at his lips. "38%," he muses, tilting his head. "Should we break up?"

James gasps dramatically, hands flying to Regulus’ waist. "You wound me."

Regulus leans in, brushing his lips against James’. "Mm. Maybe you can redeem yourself."

James grins against his mouth. "I knew we were a match made in heaven."

[zadezy]

Okay 6th year gryffindors learning the patronus charm and James is one of the first to get it (after Lily and Sirius, remus found an excuse to sit it out bc he didn't want to risk the class seeing a wolf and putting things together). They've already done the theory so they know the whole 'reflective of your soul' or 'changes to represent a loved one, especially if they are your happiest memory' and when they eventually manage corporeal patronuses, James' happens to be a lion.

A big, prowling, majestic lion. Most of the room are impressed and a little jealous but not too shocked by it, they automatically assume that it's the animal which most resembles him because...gryffindor lion. It doesn't get much more James potter than that. But his group are very confused. Patronuses were supposed to match animagi and they'd already managed that one, so they had silently accepted that it would be a stag. So when it isn't, they have to hide their shock. They sort of brush it off after a while because James is similar to a lion so maybe it's just something to do with strength in the memory he chose?

But James knew the second the lion looked at him that it wasn't his animal. He would always be a stag, he knew that much for sure. This was Regulus. Cor Leonis. The lion, brave, strong, and powerful but cowering behind the powerful women in his life and 'lazily' biding his time until he has no choice but to do something. More importantly, James loved him, and nobody was supposed to know. His patronus has shifted from a stag- prideful and representative of James as an individual- to a lion- a symbol of his love, power and courage. And he is the only one that knows.

[zadezy]

*guy who is very clearly going through. something* oh yknow. just a little tired haha

[zadezy]

periodical reminder that if you are in the marauders fandom, and you consider yourself anti-jkr + anti-transphobia, you cannot ethically engage with any form of official content, merch or ‘experiences’ (i.e studio tours etc).

any money that you spend on jkr’s IP could legitimately be used to fund transphobia through her donations to anti-trans charities.

you may consider yourself anti-transphobia, but by voting with the money in your pocket, you show where your true affiliations lie. you show whether or not you value your entertainment over trans lives.

supporting jkr in a ‘marauders way’ or an ‘atyd way’ means nothing when that money all just ends up in her pocket.

so please. you don’t need a reboot. you don’t need a marauders series. you don’t need that official hp merch.

there’s a whole world of free fan created content out there to explore. enough for a lifetime.

perhaps start there.

[zadezy]

Give me reg refusing to have sex and being utterly disgusted by it because he’s trans and he can’t see his body in that sorta way

Give me James not caring one bit that Regulus never wanted anything more than just talking and sometimes cuddling

Give me regulus crying to Evan (who’s also trans) about how disgusting he feels about himself and Evan understanding and being super open about how he gets through it and that helps regulus.

Give me regulus getting to a point like 6 years into his and James relationship where he felt safe and comfortable enough in himself to have sex

Give me James checking in on him before, during and after the entire thing and then give me James not caring that they go months without having sex and he’s just happy that reg is becoming more comfortable in his body that he can start to want things

[zadezy]

Ao3 does not need an algorithm, you're just lazy

Ao3 does not need a 1-5 star rating system, you just want to bring down authors writing for FREE

Ao3 does not need automatic censorship, it is an archive, therefore anything can be posted

Writing or reading about something illegal does not mean the author nor the reader condones it, if that were true, you could never read a story involving anything negative

Purity culture is ruining fan culture and you all are fucking annoying

[zadezy]

You guys know how we have the head canon that James starts to doubt his sexuality in his early years because he has a tiny crush on Remus? 

Well, as soon as the beginning of their sixth year, he would look at Regulus who hit puberty in such a way that only The Black Family would be able to have, that he just turned into the beautiful creature James had laid eyes on. He would have taken one look at Regulus walking beside Sirius at the train station and gone “Yeah, no way I’m straight”