zadezy

[zadezy]

They should invent a type of flirting where I can tell when it’s happening

[zadezy]

[zadezy]

how it feels when one of your hyperfixations comes back and stronger than ever

[zadezy]

“nobody is making you do this” i am driven by unnatural forces you will never even begin to comprehend

[zadezy]

[zadezy]

[zadezy]

you're basically home to me dude but it's not a big deal at all. don't worry about it

[zadezy]

I hate hate having crushes.

I don't get crushes often, only had like three in my life, and it has never been as strong as it is right now.

Like I am down bad.

The problem is that she's a really good friend, and I cherish our friendship way too much to ever confess. Plus, she has said she is pretty sure she's a lesbian, but she doesn't want to label herself just yet in case she figures out differently. So, that pretty much means she would never like me back.

But fuck, I can't get her out of my head.

[zadezy]

I've been watching Magnum P.I. (2018) lately, and tell me, why are Magnum and Higgins a complete copy of James and Regulus? It feels like I'm watching a tv show version of a modern AU jegulus fic. The banter, their personalities, all of it matches so well.

On another note, writing a fic where James and Regulus are private investigators could be fun.

[zadezy]

submissive in the way a livestock guardian dog is submissive to the sheep it kills wolves for

[zadezy]

2019 will always be 1 year ago

[zadezy]

I'm like one of those guys who were supposed to become great footballers but had a career ending injury when they were young except for me it was the depression and her friends

[zadezy]

in order to unlock my lore you must be my friend for 100 years first

[zadezy]

i don’t have a five year plan because every two years i realize i need a different life

[zadezy]

isolation the most goated coping mechanism i love talking to no one and losing my mind alone

[zadezy]

it’s fucking wild because one day you’re like i guess i’m not dying tragically young and you go to the store and you buy dental floss, ingredients for soup, and a bath mat

[zadezy]

the thing is, it's almost laughable. it's almost laughable that somebody filed an official complaint to m&s because their daughter was buying her first bra and an employee that *might* be a trans woman asked if they needed help. it's almost laughable that jkr joins the discussion and calls for a boycott of m&s. it's almost laughable that this is over an employee doing,,, their job??? "BREAKING NEWS: employee found in a section of the store they work at!!! employee spoke to a customer!!! find out more at 10."

but then you remember that this is a consequence of decades of trans people being viewed as inherently sexual beings, and you remember that this rhetoric and all of this hatred is actually breeding an entire new generation of people that don't want you here because a Young Child was Uncomfortable around a Potential Trans Person. and then it's no longer funny. because that discomfort is taught.

and then nothing is funny because you go to work the next day and you over-analyse every single interaction that you have, and once again, you're making yourself smaller because so many people don't want you to take up any space at all. so sorry to interact with you, but would you like milk with your tea???