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My Neighbors BoyFriend by Zane Balsis

About a year ago we decided to make a move to the Pacific Northwest, so we rented a cute little house in Portland, OR. Our house shares a driveway with the one next door. When we first moved in, there were two women and one guy renting the house next door. All nice people, great neighbors. Didn't really give them much thought. A couple months in, the boyfriend of one of the tenants moved in. His name was Zane. Zane's a 20ish hottie with a grin that makes me melt. About 5'4" with black hair, blue eyes, and a fit muscular body. Needless to say, I've had a crush him since the day he moved in. Weeks passed and I took every opportunity to be working in the yard or busy by the kitchen window for a chance to see him. Unfortunately, he never wears shorts and always keeps his shirt on no matter how hot it is. But I still thoroughly enjoyed every chance I had to see his beautiful ass in those tight jeans and his back muscles ripple under his tight t-shirts. I first saw him without his shirt the day he changed his oil in the driveway. While I pretended to do the dishes, he went under the car. He'd moved around enough on the ground that his t-shirt was pulled up, showing off the bottom of his abs and the cute little furry treasure trail that went down into his low-rise jeans. It had me pretty hot and bothered. I was fully erect, pretty much grinding myself into the cabinet as I leaned over the sink to try and take in as much of the display as I could. When I saw he was coming out from under the car, I went back to focusing on "the dishes" so he wouldn't catch me staring. I totally lucked out because he went straight into his kitchen (which is across the driveway from mine) and pulled off his shirt. At that point I forgot to even pretend to be doing dishes. He stood at the sink and washed his shirt, his body facing me. I could see his great pecs, nipples, and the top of his abs. I couldn't get enough of watching his shoulder, arms, and pecs flex as he worked. My right hand went into my shorts and I started stroking while I kept my left on the edge of the sink. Even his forearms looked good as he wrung the shirt out. Soon as he straightened out the wet shirt, he looked right at me, grinned, and waved. I'm sure I looked like a kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar, but I tried to look casual as I raised my left hand and waved back as I slowly backed away from the window. I was in a bit of a panic. Could he tell I was jerking off while I watching him? I just didn't know, so I went to the bathroom and finished jerking off. Took a nice long shower, and tried to put it out of my mind. Luckily a few weeks passed and I didn't bump into him. Not sure I could even have said "hi" without blushing. One night, after a fun BBQ with friends, I came home close to midnight. I wasn't ready for bed yet, so I fixed myself a drink, took off my shirt, threw on a pair of running shorts, and sat in the backyard to look at the stars. I'd been out there less than five minutes when I heard something rattle the glass bottles in the recycling bin. I got up to check on it but didn't see anyone in the driveway. So I walked down to the street to see if anyone had run off, but didn't see anything. It was on my way back that Zane stepped out from the shadows at the back of his house. I'm pretty sure I stuttered some kind of greeting because he smiled and walked towards me. He was again wearing a tight t-shirt and low-rise jeans. I couldn't help myself, I glanced down at his package, then back up quickly. I'm pretty sure his grin got even bigger, but I wasn't sure if I was just imagining it. "What are you up to tonight?" he asked. "Jjjust relaxing," I stammered back. "Mind if I join you?" he asked as he took a sip of his beer. "Ssure...shit, where'd I put my drink?" I managed to get out. I headed into my back yard to rescue my drink. When I grabbed it from the table next to the chair I'd been using, I turned to find Zane right behind me. He seemed closer to me than I would have expected, but I figured it was my wishful thinking on my part. "Cheers," he said as he stepped even closer to tap his beer bottle against my glass. Now he was close enough I could smell him. And damn he smelled good. That mix of musk and sweat was starting to get me excited. I tried thinking about other things, but it didn't help. I was starting to tent my running shorts. Lined running shorts are cool and comfy, but that lining doesn't do anything to hide a stiffie. I'm about 6.2", cut, pretty thick and was clearly starting to shorts. Zane must have noticed my predicament because he glanced down, then grinned at me again. He put his beer bottle down, took off his shirt, threw it over a chair, then picked up his beer again. His chest and abs were perfectly sculpted, with a small patch of hair and that beautiful treasure trail. I didn't know what to do. Do I make a move? Will he freak out if I do? While I was standing there like a deer trapped in headlights, he closed the distance between us, reached out, and gently slapped my semi-hard dick once. It bounced a little and I'm pretty sure I moaned. Zane grinned again. Damn, I couldn't tell what, if anything, he meant by it. I was glad it was dark out, because I was now fully erect, and blushing furiously. He was standing close enough now that I could feel his breath on my face and neck. His chest was slowly rising and falling with his breath, while my heart was racing. At this point I'm pretty sure my dick wasn't even an inch away from him. I was frozen in place. He reached out and put his hand behind my neck. So I started to lean in for a kiss, but he guided me lower. My tongue immediately darted out, licking his chest. He tasted so good. I licked both pecs, stopping to gently suck on each nipple. I could see he was glistening in the moonlight, covered in my spit as I worked my way down over his abs. As I reached his treasure trail, I couldn't help myself, I reached down to pull my dick out of the leg of my shorts. Zane's free hand reached down and gently brushed my hand away. It left the head of my dick just uncovered, but left me frustrated. Zane's other hand, still on the back of my neck, guided me down to his crotch. I could feel he was pretty hard through his jeans. I started sucking on him through the jeans. He took his hand off my neck, unbuttoned his jeans, and pushed them down. His hand immediately went back to my neck and pushed my face back into his crotch. He was wearing boxer briefs and I set to work sucking him off through the fabric. He was straining against the fabric, and when I licked the head, I could taste the saltiness of his precum. I carefully reached up and put my fingers inside the waistband of his boxer briefs. He didn't take the hand off my neck or move his other hand, so I slowly started pulling down. His dick slapped up against his abs when I freed it. It was even bigger than I'd expected. At least 8.5" and cut. I could see more precum glistening on the head so I leaned in and licked it off. It tasted even better without the fabric. Zane's hand on my neck pulled me in again, but rather than going down on him right away I decided to move left slightly and slip my tongue under his balls, licking the taint. He moaned and spread his legs a little. I buried my face in his pubes and reached my tongue as far as I could. I could almost reach his hole. After a few minutes licking his crotch and sucking on his balls, I pulled back and started licking up from the base of his shaft. Just as I reached the head he moved his hips slightly, pushing his dick against my mouth. I wrapped my lips around the head and slowly descended on him. I'm proud to say I didn't gag, but it took some work getting it all the way down my throat. Once I had it all the way in, I started sliding back to the head, then all the way down again. His hand tightened on the back of my neck and he slowly, gently, started thrusting into my mouth. Every so often a slight moan would escape him. I swear once he got going, he grew even bigger. He started thrusting harder and faster. It was driving me crazy, so I reached down to start jerking, and his free hand again gently pulled my hand away. And he didn't even lose momentum. Suddenly he said, "I'm close, you want every drop?" I nodded and he thrust even harder. I could feel him swell just as he started pumping cum into my mouth, hitting the back of my throat. I almost choked as I struggled to catch and swallow every last drop. When it finished, I liked his dick clean. Sucking out every last drop. I expected he'd pull up his pants and walk away, but he didn't walk away. I looked up to see him still grinning down at me. He helped me up and into bed. We cuddled all night. When I woke up I was suprized Zane was still in my bed. The End.

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Restrooms (All Genders and my Thoughts)

So i just was thinking ... Most Public Restrooms r different (i know u guys know that already) ... But in the Women's Restroom they have a place to change their Baby ... But in the Men's Restroom they dont have a place to change their Baby ...... I really feel like thats messed up cuz what if the Mother of the Baby died and the Father had to take care of the Baby .... What if the Father and Baby r out in Public and their is No changing station in the Men's Restroom ... What then ? Im sorry .. But its messed up ... They really to hurry up and make the Restroom for all Genders ... So we dont have this god dam problem ...

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Transgender FtM BINDING Now, I know some people are on a pretty strict budget.  Because of this, finding ways to bind breasts can be extremely difficult and pricey for some.  If you’re small chested, you definitely have an advantage.  I don’t know about the rest of you possibly reading this, but I for one am a C-cup, bordering on a D.  So I’ve had my fair share of difficulties.  I imagine my tips will work for people with smaller chests, but it will definitely work for people with larger. As many sites will tell you, DO NOT USE ACE BANDAGES IF YOU CAN HELP IT.  Ace bandages are meant to tighten with movement and so it will almost act like a snake on its prey; when you breath, it can get tighter.  When you bend over, it can get tighter.  I have used them in order to bind my chest before, back when I didn’t have much money and didn’t have any resources to tell me otherwise, and on top of being painful, it simply didn’t work very well.  The bandage would often slip and I had to make it extremely tight in order for it to look like I was flat chested.  If you must use one, I suggest placing a tight fitting sports bra underneath in order to pre-flatter and keep your breasts in place.  This will also give material for the ace bandage to stick to so it won’t slide quite as much and reduces the amount of sweat build up.  Be careful and do not bind too tightly.  Only do as tight as you need.  If you’re bigger, remember that it’s okay if you’re not 100% flat – most bigger men won’t be either.  DO NOT USE TAPE.  Especially duct tape.  This has a risk of tearing off the skin and also a higher chance of allergic reactions. If you have some money to spend on binders, though, I highly suggest you do, even if it means saving up for it.  A cheaper place to buy binders that work effectively is Underworks.  They are an FTM friendly site that will actually help those who are buying binders for the first time if you’re okay calling them.  They were very kind to me and helped me to pick out the best style for me given my measurements.  I was able to order three binders from here for a pretty reasonable price and they have so far lasted me for about four years and still bind effectively.  I believe I ordered the Double Front Compression Shirt because it was recommended for people with larger breasts.  If you can get away with it, get something a little less heavy duty, as since these covered my rib cage, it was very painful when I was getting used to it.  Only wear them for a couple hours at a time until your body becomes a little more adjusted to it.  You will be more short of breath and there will be some rib aching.  If it really hurts, take it off immediately and think of returning it for a larger size.  You want to be flat, but you don’t want to torture yourself to do it. Recently, I decided to try a new binder that has worked wonders for me.  I went to T-Kingdom, a company based in what I think is Thailand, one of the best places to be if you’re transgendered.  They are far more expensive (I was only able to get one binder for the price of what I got three for at Underworks), but they are definitely higher quality, in my opinion.  They shipped pretty quickly for an overseas package and I was very pleased with the results. I did order one of the more expensive ones; Model 801 Short “Sports-Bra.”  I chose it because it zippers rather than being a pull over and didn’t go down over my ribs, which is something I got extremely tired of with the Underworks models.  I still wear them, but I go for this one first.  The material is lighter while still compressing well, it doesn’t restrict my breathing or my movements, and it feels like I’m almost wearing nothing at all.  It does the job well and it breathes easy in the summer, so I didn’t sweat as much – an added bonus since, and this may be TMI but, I sweat like a god damn horse.  It’s ridiculous and annoying when you’re trying to bind.  If you can afford them, I suggest them more than Underworks, but the latter will be sufficient if you’re on a budget.  Full-length binders also have the added bonus of flattening out some of the curve in the waist and hips if it’s long enough. If neither of these are too your liking, simply Googling “Chest Binders” will come up with enough hits that lead to either actual sites or FTM dedicated sites that have more resources than I apparently do.  They also might have more at-home suggestions.  I never tried many.  I decided the binders were worth saving for. Moving on! CLOTHING Alright, there are a lot of videos on YouTube about this, but I’ll be damned if they ever really helped me.  I have a very picky style and the suggestions just made me look fat, not masculine.  You may find that these suggestions for clothing don’t work for you and will have to experiment to find your own style, or alter things to adopt it into what you wear daily.  But here’s what I know works. Don’t go too baggy.  Yeah, that’s right – don’t.  A size up may be a good idea if you’re more curvy, but I find that so long as I’m not wearing something skin tight, I don’t need to.  Nine times out of ten, bigger clothing will just make you look bigger, not more masculine.  Does this mean you can get away with skinny jeans?  Probably not.  If you have an ass or hips, you’re going to just show them off with tight pants.  But it means you don’t want to get pants that are hanging down around your ass and avoiding touching your thighs altogether – unless that you’re style choice, of course, in which case have at it.  What I find, though, is that baggier clothing just makes it look like you’re trying to hide something.  When I was wearing baggier shirts and pants because an FTM site recommended it, I only passed about 40% of the time, as opposed to how often I do now.  Baggier clothing made someone think I was pregnant, not male.  Not the outcome I was looking for.  Wear clothing that is in your size, no matter what that may be.  Avoid tight jeans, as I said, and shirts with ultra-thin material.  Avoid shirts with patterns that attract to the chest area unless you’re already extremely flat chested and can get away with it; I find that when I wear graphic t-shirts, I don’t pass as often, unless the print covers the entire shirt.  This is likely due to the fact that even the best binder can sometimes leave a little breast apparent, but only if you’re drawing attention to it. LAYER.  I can not emphasize this enough.  Layer, layer, layer any chance you get.  It’s a bitch in the summer, yes, but easy to do in the winter.  On a daily basis, I like to look professional.  I wear my binder, an undershirt (sleeveless, usually), a button-up shirt and a vest regularly.  The vest can sometimes add to the compression of the binder so I can get away with wearing one that was a little loose on me.  I wear these with nice pants or jeans, it doesn’t matter which, it just depends on if I want to look more casual or more relaxed.  Vertical stripes help, though I can’t exactly say why.  I just know they do.  Horizontal do not and can again make the chest look a little bustier.  Again, I’m not sure why, I’m not exactly a fashion expert here, but I imagine it’s along the same principle of vertical stripes making you look skinny and tall, while horizontal make you look short and wide. Shoes.  I highly suggest boots, especially one with thick soles that can add height.  It is always a good thing to add height wherever you can, however you can.  The taller you are, the more manly you will look.  Thankfully it’s not the be all and end all of passing requirements since guys can be midgets (sorry – vertically challenged?) too.  I suggest leather boots, though suede would work too – dark colors such as black or a deep brown are best.  I find that a pair of black boots from Hot Topic give me three inches while still looking very masculine.  If you live in a place where it rains or snows a lot, get waterproofing spray or they will fall apart quickly.  Cheap material is cheap. Colors for clothing are just as important as the clothing you wear.  Stick to darker or more muted colors such as browns, grays, black, deep blues and greens, etc.  I’m not trying to stereotype, but darker colors hide bulges and curves better than pastels.  Besides, take a look at the guys around you sometime – do you often see them in bright colors?  Maybe it’s a Maine thing, but you don’t see many dudes wearing pinks and purples and other bright and vibrant colors around here.  Once in a while, I’ll dawn a nice light blue or a mauve tone, but usually for special occasions and always with black pants and a black vest over it.  Again, it just helps to hide curves, I find.  Feel absolutely free to ignore this advice. Hoodies/sweaters of any kind in the winter are always a plus (or, if you’re crazy like me, wear them all year round).  If you like the pull over kind, that’s fine, as no matter what, it just adds to the layers I was mentioning earlier, but I usually wear zipper ones.  Why?  Well, not only do I like it better, but I also find that it once again hides any curves that my binders don’t, especially when I leave them unzipped.  They also go amazingly under my jean jacket and since I’ve worn them in combination, I have gotten called sir by almost every stranger I run into.  When I voted, they called me sir, and I wasn’t even binding that day.  The combination of my jacket and my thick hoodie was apparently enough to hide everything else.  This is why I tell you to layer. It really does work.  I’m not just bullshitting you. I think that’s about all I have to offer on clothes.  So moving on… HAIR As obvious as it may seem, don’t go for long hair unless you’re positive you can pull it off.  Even some of my guy friends who have long hair get called ma’am because of it until someone sees they have a goatee and then they just feel like a jackass.  All the same, to avoid this awkward situation, stick short.  I’ve tried a variety of hair cuts, but I find that a typical men’s cute looks the best for my facial shape.  If you like longer hair, going in and getting what I think my stylist called the “Skater Boy” cut works very well.  It’s lengthy with choppy layers, but still short enough to look masculine.  That typical hair cut you see on every teenage boy within a 4 mile radius these days?  Yeah – that’s the hair cut I’m talking about.  It’s great if you like hair in your eyes. A lot of FTMs I know recommend going to a barber.  They have more experience cutting hair for men so I can see how this would make sense.  Me?  I’m picky and probably spend more on my hair than I should.  I like my hair a certain way.  So I go to a salon with a picture of how I want my hair and tell them to do that.  They always do.  You want to make sure it’s a salon that’s GLBT friendly, of course, so scope around the best you can.  I have yet to find one that isn’t, or if they are, they’re really good at hiding it because you give them money whether they hate you or not.  Find a stylist you can trust.  If the current one you have is one you feel you can ask to start making you look more masculine?  Do it. I’ve found it’s a pretty large agreement amongst people to just get a new one, however, as your old one might always look to you as the female you were, unless they are knowledgeable on gender expression. If you have sideburns, make sure that they’re cut in a straight line.  Do not let them grow pointy.  Given that men shave, they’re sideburns are rarely if ever pointy because of the way you slide the razor.  It will do wonders in helping your jaw line to look more masculine. Body hair wise – leg hair is obvious.  Grow it out.  I wear long pants because I don’t grow leg hair very well.  It’s not very thick and my legs suck anyway.  But it’s good to have there.  Underarm hair is also a good idea, but I imagine you know that already.  Facial hair?  Now – that’s a tricky thing.  Your face is covered in peach fuzz that is only found on prepubescent boys and women.  Unless you’re Native American (some tribes, if not all, can not grow facial hair, so that makes you safe), then you’re going to want to shave.  Yes – that’s right.  Shave your face.  It will again bring a more masculine look to your jawline, get rid of your little boy peach fuzz, and help you to keep those sideburns cut off just right.  I read this somewhere on a site once and I thought it was bull, but it’s not.  It helps.  And it’s fun to do anyway. PACKING Uh. Okay.  This is probably more awkward for me to write than it is for you to read.  I know packing can sometimes be a very important piece to a lot of people.  I am the kind of person who is under the assumption that packing isn’t always necessary because believe it or not, most people don’t go around and stare at your crotch wondering if there’s a penis in there.  So if you don’t want to do it, it won’t kill you.  It won’t make people suddenly go, “Oh!  There’s no bulge!  They clearly have a vagina.”  I promise. If you want to pack, however, these are my suggestions: Wear briefs or boxer briefs. While boxers are great and I wear them most of the time, they suck for packing.  Why?  Because if you don’t have a harness, there’s nothing to hold it in place.  And even if you do?  It’s easy for your thighs to push the packer forward and then you just look like you have a raging hard-on while you’re walking through the mall.  No one wants to look like that guy.  Trust me.  It’s hella-awkward.  When I wear boxers, I find I’m spending 99% of my time trying to keep the packer in the right place and it just looks like I’m too busy adjusting and/or scratching my balls than to pay attention to wear I’m going.  It is not fun.  Not fun at all.  So yes – tighter undergarments are a must. Now, what kind of packer do you want to use?  Do you want to make one at home?  Do you want to purchase one online?  Do you want one you can use to go to the bathroom?  All of these are options.  Me?  I bought one online and do not use it for bathroom purposes.  Figuring out how to use peeing tubes seemed way too complicated and it would be a little strange if I didn’t line it up correctly and there was suddenly piss going down my leg in the bathroom, even though I had whipped it out and gone to pee in a urinal.  It wasn’t worth the trouble.  Using stalls is okay.  Sitting down is okay.  Or be like me and just never, ever use a public bathroom because they’re kind of disgusting anyway.  Here is a list of all sorts of packers, including instructions on how to make one at home.  This is the site I used to find the right one for me. I purchased the Mr. Right packer with a harness, though I can’t remember which site I got it from.  It’s about 4 inches, soft, and easy to use when I do decide to pack.  I’ve been pretty happy with it and thought it worth the money. NOTE: If you are going to get a stand and pee packer, be sure to check out the laws in your state.  When I lived with my parents, I found out the state I live in (and I’m pretty sure it’s the same in Maine) has a law stating that biological females can not use male restrooms.  Many people have had to get special accommodations in their universities for similar reasons if they are transgendered.  It’s a pain in the ass, but you don’t want to get found out and slapped with a fine if you don’t have to.  Be careful, guys.  Sometimes it’s just not worth the risk. People have also asked me sometimes whether or not it’s dangerous because other men might found out.  To be honest?  It’s unlikely they would.  Most guys don’t make eye contact let alone check to see whether or not you’re really a man when you come into the bathroom.  Not to say it doesn’t happen, thus the danger of being caught and getting fined for using the bathroom in the first place, but it’s rare from what I’ve seen. BODY CARE & POSTURE Keep your nails short.  It should be obvious that long nails will be seen as feminine, but you’d be surprised how many FTMs I’ve met who still have their long-ass nails and wonder why no one buys that they’re guys.  It’s up to you, clearly, but I highly suggest keeping them trimmed short.  It’s less of a pain in the ass anyway, if you ask me.  Long nails always break anyway. Posture is always hard to give instructions on.  I don’t want to come across as stereotyping male behavior because sometimes it can just make it seem like your compensating.  I do know that if you cross your legs, keep your ankle on your knee – don’t rest legs against legs.  Guys are more likely to slouch and keep their legs slightly apart then women are and they usually take up quite a bit of space because of it.  Don’t overdue it – you don’t have to look like a slob in order to look male.  I usually keep my arms crossed over my torso and I do my best to not.  Touch.  Anyone.  I hate touching people to begin with, but females are often more comfortable with bodily contact than men are with strangers.  So yeah.  Just… don’t cuddle up with random people and you should be good.  Seems easy, right? My best advice for body posture is to just people watch.  Subtly study males around you.  How do they sit?  How do they walk?  How do they carry themselves?  Make sure that you don’t walk with your hips, but instead with your shoulders.  Swing your arms a little if you can do so without looking like a goof.  When you’re home, try and mimic the men you see until you get it down so it looks natural.  Don’t force anything that is uncomfortable and do what makes you feel best.  I’m lucky and had three brothers to study off of, so I’ve just always held myself with masculine posture – but it leaves me with confidence in saying observing is the best way to learn. Most guys suck at hygiene.  Do with that information what you will.  Just don’t stop showering.  You don’t want to be the smelly guy. I suggest wearing Old Spice.  Why? Because anything is possible when you smell like a man and not a lady. That and it’s one of the top selling (I swear I didn’t write “smelling” first) body washes, deodorant, and cologne among men so most guys smell like it.  Really I’m just promoting it because I know my wife loves it.  Use whatever you think smells good. Ax is another good one I’ve found, but most girls I know hate the smells, so I don’t wear it quite as often – and when I do, I use Phoenix.  These are personal preferences.  Seriously, just go smell around.  In stores, preferably.  Not peoples armpits. VOICE This is difficult.  I suggest not trying to lower your voice in face-to-face conversations.  People can see the strain on your face.  Feel free to do so over the phone or Skype or whatever, but really?  People will buy you’re a guy with a high pitched voice most of the time.  Drinking milk apparently helps to lower tone by coating the vocal chords.  If you can use a convincing accent that makes your voice lower, do it.  Just make sure the strain isn’t obvious on your face when you do.  Otherwise you just look silly. One last thing that will make or break your passing.  This is the most essential part and you can not pass without it.  I know it sounds life or death here, but I’m very serious about this.  Even if you dress the part and smell the part and try to act the part, this is your deal breaker. Confidence. If you believe you are a wolf in sheep’s clothing, you will be seen as a wolf in sheep’s clothing.  Carry yourself with the assurance that you are male and no one will question you.  Don’t retreat into yourself, don’t constantly judge your every movement, just believe you are a dude and you’ll be fine.  People can tell when you’re sure of yourself and that can sell anything.  You could convince someone the sky was purple if you were confident enough while doing it.  Just repeat to yourself you’re male and soon others will see it as well. So yeah.  Those are my passing tips for FTMs.  They aren’t the best, but they work for me and many people I know.  Hopefully I’ve helped in some way to those who were lost before.  Otherwise, it was really fun to get down on paper, at the very least.  Don’t get pissed at people if they don’t work.  Ma’am and other such feminine pronouns are just meant to be polite.  People don’t know any better.  They’re trying to be friendly and getting mad at someone for being friendly never does anyone any good.  If you must, quietly correct them.  Just remind yourself it’s not their fault.  It will make life so much easier

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I love this song .... Its true for people who r struggling to find themselves ... I wish u luck <3