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Saturday, 22 December 2018. 15:27.

Day 13 of MCAT Take IV.

Just a friendly PSA to stay hydrated and sane.

Good luck, friends. MCAT is terrible on even the best day. So stay strong.

-Z

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KITTY

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Wonderful tips! As someone who journals every day, it’s good to pass along the knowledge. Happy Journaling!

A Small Guide to Journaling by Eintsein

Something you may or may not know about be is that I journal. However, only recently have I gotten the hang of it and stayed loyal to the habit of journaling. Here are some tips and tricks on how you can journal successfully. Hope you like it :)

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Say it with me:

I’ve worked so hard and I’m not about to give up now.

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my skills include reading an entire page of an academic text without absorbing a single word

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19 December 2018. 11:52.

Day 11/12? Of MCAT Take IV.

Another day, another coffee shop. Just checking in.

-Z

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15 December 2018. 12:20.

Day 9 (I think? I don’t know anymore) of MCAT Take IV.

It’s been a month since my last original post. I’ve been on and off studying. I’m working with tutors now. I have a schedule. Just wanted to post that I’m still alive and staying hydrated. That’s all for now. I’ve wasted enough time today.

-Z

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This is absolutely the greatest thing I have ever seen.

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Love this story of PGY survival.

Growth

I have done this before

It was just past midnight and I was delivering a mom by myself. I had paged faculty several minutes ago that the baby was ready, but for some reason, neither my faculty nor my upper level residents had come. I waited. I stalled. I paged again. Still no one came. And it was time to deliver.

Seventy babies delivered this year, and I still have a second of panic at the moment of delivery. Then, what has been drilled into me kicks in, and I move automatically.

Protect. Pull down. anterior shoulder. pull up. protect. posterior shoulder. Place on mom. Clamp, cut, massage the uterus.

The baby cried, the room cheered. I smiled behind my mask.

The smile faded when I realized that something was wrong. There was too much blood. Where was it coming from? I have done this before. I felt the uterus. atony. Page faculty again. I called for pitocin as I pushed my whole hand into the vagina and placed the other on her abdomen. I squeezed the uterus, praying the blood pouring onto my shoes would stop. I have done this before. Pitocin was in. The uterus did not firm up. More pitocin, and get methergine. I asked mom, distracted by her baby, if she had hypertension. She said no, is everything ok? I replied as calmly as I was able, you’re bleeding more than I’d like but we’re going to take care of you. Give the methergine. Pray. Squeeze. Wait. The uterus began to firm and shrink. The blood slowed. I began to breathe again. I have done this before.

I stepped back, cleaned the vagina and noted bleeding only from a small tear now. I called for a needle. While I waited for the needle, faculty and my upper levels burst into the room. There had been two obstetric emergencies at the same time in different parts of the hospital and they could not leave those emergencies. I told them what happened, what I had done. They looked at me. You have done this before? Yes, I have.

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I am going to be okay. I’m going to hold on tight, try my best, and make it through this. we’re going to be alright.

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Girls don’t want boys. Girls want to glide down ladders in their own private library while their red cloak flutters behind them, owning swords and many chocolates, with fast WiFi at all times.

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I believe in free education, one that’s available to everyone; no matter their race, gender, age, wealth, etc… This masterpost was created for every knowledge hungry individual out there. I hope it will serve you well. Enjoy!

FREE ONLINE COURSES (here are listed websites that provide huge variety of courses)

Alison 

Coursera

FutureLearn

open2study

Khan Academy

edX

P2P U

Academic Earth

iversity

Stanford Online

MIT Open Courseware

Open Yale Courses

BBC Learning

OpenLearn

Carnegie Mellon University OLI

University of Reddit

Saylor

IDEAS, INSPIRATION & NEWS (websites which deliver educational content meant to entertain you and stimulate your brain)

TED

FORA

Big Think 

99u

BBC Future

Seriously Amazing

How Stuff Works

Discovery News

National Geographic

Science News

Popular Science

IFLScience

YouTube Edu

NewScientist

DIY & HOW-TO’S (Don’t know how to do that? Want to learn how to do it yourself? Here are some great websites.)

wikiHow

Wonder How To

instructables

eHow

Howcast

MAKE

Do it yourself

FREE TEXTBOOKS & E-BOOKS

OpenStax CNX

Open Textbooks

Bookboon

Textbook Revolution

E-books Directory

FullBooks

Books Should Be Free

Classic Reader

Read Print

Project Gutenberg

AudioBooks For Free

LibriVox

Poem Hunter

Bartleby

MIT Classics

Many Books

Open Textbooks BCcampus

Open Textbook Library

WikiBooks

SCIENTIFIC ARTICLES & JOURNALS

Directory of Open Access Journals

Scitable

PLOS

Wiley Open Access

Springer Open

Oxford Open

Elsevier Open Access

ArXiv

Open Access Library

LEARN:

1. LANGUAGES

Duolingo

BBC Languages

Learn A Language

101languages

Memrise

Livemocha

Foreign Services Institute

My Languages

Surface Languages

Lingualia

OmniGlot

OpenCulture’s Language links

2. COMPUTER SCIENCE & PROGRAMMING

Codecademy

Programmr

GA Dash

CodeHS

w3schools

Code Avengers

Codelearn

The Code Player

Code School

Code.org

Programming Motherf*?$%#

Bento

Bucky’s room

WiBit

Learn Code the Hard Way

Mozilla Developer Network

Microsoft Virtual Academy

3. YOGA & MEDITATION

Learning Yoga

Learn Meditation

Yome

Free Meditation

Online Meditation

Do Yoga With Me

Yoga Learning Center

4. PHOTOGRAPHY & FILMMAKING

Exposure Guide

The Bastards Book of Photography

Cambridge in Color

Best Photo Lessons

Photography Course

Production Now

nyvs

Learn About Film

Film School Online

5. DRAWING & PAINTING

Enliighten

Ctrl+Paint

ArtGraphica

Google Cultural Institute

Drawspace

DragoArt

WetCanvas

6. INSTRUMENTS & MUSIC THEORY

Music Theory

Teoria

Music Theory Videos

Furmanczyk Academy of Music

Dave Conservatoire

Petrucci Music Library

Justin Guitar

Guitar Lessons

Piano Lessons

Zebra Keys

Play Bass Now

7. OTHER UNCATEGORIZED SKILLS

Investopedia

The Chess Website

Chesscademy

Chess.com

Spreeder

ReadSpeeder

First Aid for Free

First Aid Web

NHS Choices

Wolfram Demonstrations Project

Please feel free to add more learning focused websites. 

*There are a lot more learning websites out there, but I picked the ones that are, as far as I’m aware, completely free and in my opinion the best/ most useful.

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a gentle reminder that you aren’t a disappointment. you aren’t a failure. no one knows how hard u try and you’re doing so well. you deserve so much better.

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16 November 2018

Days 5 & 6 of MCAT Take IV.

I’m writing this post several days of studying. I had taken a picture of Day 5 on the 13th, but for some reason, I’ve been unable to post it, and I’m tired of trying to figure it out, so y’all get a text post. 

It’s been a rough couple of days. Getting back into the swing of studying really sucks. I hate studying for this stupid test. It makes me feel like an idiot, honestly. I had to take a mental health day or two, especially because I think I stressed myself out so much, I gave myself a massive headache that didn’t go away for several days, which severely affected my stress level even MORE.

And we had a massive snowstorm on the East Coast, and I ended up stranded for over half a day at my brother’s house without my stuff. Which is an excuse, I know, but I’m taking it. 

Like I said, it’s rough getting back into this. Finding the motivation to do this another time isn’t easy. I got a tutor, as I mentioned in a previous post, but I’m not sure if I like the ways she works. I’m trying out another tutor in a few days, so I guess I’ll see how that goes. 

But I don’t know how to go about studying this time. I started by just getting a schedule for the week from that one tutor, but she’s kind of unreliable, and I work best with schedules and planning, and she’s not giving me that, so I’m a little frazzled. I resorted to studyschedule.com, which is a great website, but not the best when you’re switching around what resources you have and what you want to be doing each day. I don’t know. I’m feeling lost again.

I just spent a few hours at my local Panera but I did nothing. I did one chem passage. That’s it. The rest of the time was spent clearing my inbox, fixing my calendar, trying to work out my own kind of schedule. 

I’m stressing and I don’t know what’s happening with my life. 

Anyway, that is all.

Thanks.

-Z

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cool girls are everywhere but its such a challenge to find one guy thats like mildly interesting to talk to……. it’s like they all have the personality of an actual adidas sandal