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artists of 2025 so far

sufjan stevens

kali uchis

denison witmer

chuu

sabrina carpenter

charli xcx

troye sivan

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perfection

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how i'm feeling today

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carrie and lowell 10 year anniversary album drop day

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Everything I feel returns to you somehow

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get ur derp on

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february-april-2025 art

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DENISON WITMER

"shade ill never see"

if i dont make time for it.

it will never happen.

a tree falls in the forest

of my inner life

it doesn't make a sound

does anybody care

im busy planting trees

a shade ill never see

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some songs i've been listening to today.

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IM SCARED TO PROMOTE THIS BLOG.

IF I DO AND YOU ARE HATE READING THIS

I HATE YOU MORE.

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i cried while painting today, and not because i felt defeated. or like my idea wasn’t coming across well enough. 

once again in life, i feel grounded. happy about where i am, what ive accomplished. but i painted this painting knowing that im once again, going to be uprooted and thrown into the freezing ocean as i attempt to navigate these next few weeks of exams, that the routine of walking into the dimly lit class with (mostly) warm faces are no longer.

i finished my final painting for my sketchbook, and i thought id be happy but im not. 

i hate change. and im unafraid to admit that im going to miss my art class, and the people in it who make me laugh, who tell me that my art is meaningful, has touched them, or just that it looks pretty. 

im happy that the girl who copies me won’t be able to anymore though! 

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Sometimes, just wanting to tell them something that would have mattered to them, or ask about people and places only they would have known about, reminds us that they'll never hear us, won't answer, don't care. But perhaps it's much worse for them: maybe they are the ones calling out to us and it is we who can't listen and don't seem to care.