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just a post to say that i'm taking requests for bnha headcanons and reactions!

not drabbles or 'x reader' but rather along the lines of 'bnha character/s react to their s/o...' or 'bnha character/s would probably like this in a certain event or au' and the like

(these will definitely help me in the character study aspect for my bnha future fics so please don't hold back!)

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i'm thinking of working on a major fic series centering around the todoroki family with emphasis on shoto, dabi and endeavour. thing is though, i need a group of people to aid me with their input as i brainstorm and plan whilst beta-ing along the way.

i'm planning on making this an arc by arc fic series so is there anyone who wishes to be a part of this?

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a drinking game where you take a drink every time Lan XiChen closes his eyes in response to any emotion he doesn’t know how to process

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jin guangyao’s death scene in the novel reads all like “he led lan xichen to nie mingjue’s coffin so they could die together and then, at the last second, he changed his mind and pushed lan xichen away”

and I call bullshit

that little snake didn’t change his mind

he led him there on purpose. he made it look like he wanted lan xichen to die with him on purpose, and he pushed him out of the way on purpose.

think about it, who, aside from lan wangji knows lan xichen the best? lan xichen has been manipulated by jin guangyao for so long, that he knew exactly where to strike to break lan xichen once and for all  

this is why he reminded lan xichen of all the times jin guangyao had helped him, had helped his clan, had essentially saved his life. all jin guangyao is doing in that last scene is adding one more life debt to the burden of gratitude lan xichen is already carrying, because he knew that the honorable, pure, and infinitely forgiving zewu-jun would literally shatter under the strain

that little fucker was like, “I’ve given you everything including your life, and you killed me, so live with that if you can”

people talk about jin guangyao‘s last moments as if he redeemed himself by saving lan xichen from a situation that he put him in in the first place

and that’s bullshit, because he knows, and we know, that lan xichen would have preferred to die rather than live with the truth

in the end, jin guangyao is no different than xue yang. they would both rather utterly destroy the person they love, then admit that they’re not worthy of being loved by them

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Me: I'm sorry, I can't hear you over the fact that Lan Xichen's kindness, trust, and naiveté are not character defects, nor should they be used to justify him being ruthlessly used and manipulated by people he loved and trusted. In my opinion, that type of reasoning is pretty gross, and I have no interest in engaging with it.

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do you ever think about the fact that Lan Xichen, after that whole Meng Yao fiasco and voluntary seclusion is pretty unlikely to have kids, and that Lan Wangji is obviously not gonna have any of his own but that he has adopted Lan Sizhui so chances are pretty good that Lan Sizhui, the only surviving child of the Wen clan, will one day be the Lan sect leader?

I think about this a lot. 

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I really need to know more about Lan Xichen post-canon

you can’t just be like, he withdrew into meditation blah-blah and then just leave it there

lan xichen is the one who told wei wuxian the story about his parents. 

he actually asked wei wuxian if he thought qingheng-jun did the right thing. 

when wei wuxian says he doesn’t know, lan xichen even asks what would be the right thing to do, and still gets no answer

it’s a neat bit of foreshadowing to meng yao’s and lan xichen’s relationship and meng yao’s betrayal, but it just leaves me more unsatisfied with the ending

people always point out the parallels between qingheng-jun bringing his wife back to cloud recesses despite the crime she committed and lan zhan doing the same thing with wei wuxian, but to me, that totally fades next to lan xichen explicitly trusting someone (or falling in love with someone, depending on what interpretation of canon you prefer) and finding out that person has been a stranger whose behavior and motives are nothing like he believed them to be

to me, the parallels between qingheng-jun and lan xichen are much greater, but we’re left with the same unsatisfying ending 

lan xichen, who was still tempted to acquit meng yao of his crimes, even after hearing them all in excruciating detail, should have (at the very least) come out of that experience with a greater understanding of his father’s motives

at most, there is a veritable wealth of lan xichen’s character development we never get to explore. his entire world view has been drastically changed, all his beliefs shaken to their core, and he is bound to be permanently altered by the entire ordeal

i’m not asking for his happy ending, but i just expected more

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I wish we got more Lan Xichen and Xue Yang interactions like what happens when infinite kindness and patience meets unfathomable cruelty I need to know

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lan xichen: anyway i let wangji bring you back to the cloud recesses to keep you safe now that the whole cultivation world knows you're wei wuxian

lan xichen: did i ever tell you how our father brought our mother back to the cloud recesses to keep her safe from the cultivation world?

lan xichen: *flute solo*

lan xichen: please use your one braincell to connect the dots

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now let me tell you what I’m really upset about and it’s fucking lan xichen bc it’s always fucking lan xichen

i had a nice little rant about the fact that jyg is a vindictive little snake who intentionally wanted lan xichen to suffer for the choices he made as much as humanly possible 

but what really gets me is nie huaisang 

nie mingjue, lan xichen, and jin guangyao were sworn brothers. then jin guangyao went and killed nie mingiue practically under lan xichen’s nose and with lan xichen’s unwitting help

to nie huaisang, who probably looked up to lan xichen, that must have been the worst betrayal ever, and I doubt he gave three shits that lan xichen made his mistakes in ignorance 

when you lose your only brother, your only family, you probably aren’t going to go poking into the motivations of the people who contributed to that loss, you’re just gonna be pissed and ready to fuck up everyone even remotely responsible

nie huaisang’s intricate plan was focused on taking down jin guangyao but he used lan xichen’s hands to actually kill him, just like jin guangyao used lan xichen’s hands to kill nie mingjue 

and it’s a nice bit of poetic justice, brilliantly done from a storytelling point of view but

did lan xichen really deserve all that? just for wanting to believe the best of people, for trying to give everyone a benefit of the doubt, for caring so much about a person he considered a brother that he refused to think the worst of them until he had irrefutable proof?

in any other narrative, these character traits would be considered a virtue, and yet, lan xichen ends up the one suffering the most for them, and it breaks my fucking heart

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So in the official translation, Nana says at the end : "Let US handle this."

Huh.

*continues to sip tea while grinning*

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before you write: THINK!

is it Tender?

is it Homoerotic?

is it Implicitly homosexual?

is it Noticeably repressed?

is it Kind of gay?

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blackpink's 1st full album is something that blinks have all been waiting for for over 4 years! and it doesn't disappoint but exceeds instead! that's what i love about my girls 💞🖤💞

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when i say i need more of actor rosé and jisoo i mean I NEED more of actor rosé and jisoo

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AYO IN PRETTY SAVAGE JISOO SINGS BLACKPINK IN YOUR AREA WE FINALLY GOT BLACKPINK IN YOUR AREA JISOO

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everyone put some respect to jisoo’s name bc she deserves it

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finally blackpink exposed themselves as the villains everyone is trying to make them look like. “born skinny bitch”, “we wear similar clothes but we are prettier”, “we’re some bitches you can’t manage”, “yeah maybe i’m the problem”. yeah you better run fuglies before they hurt you with their high heels