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stomach just growled like it doesn't have my thigh fat to eat from

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Guess who’s back from the dead

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why is this thinspo for me??

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my cheeks are starting to get sucked in and I’m finally getting to the point that you can see my ribs when I lift my arms up!!!

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Reasons I want to loose weight

1. To look pretty in everything I wear

2. To feel confident in my outfits

3. To not feel ashamed when shopping

4. To buy a shirt and knowing for a fact it will fit

5. To be able to wear a size XS

6. To be weightless

7. To not have to worry about being picked up

8. Not having to worry about being carried

9. To see every single rib bone

10. For my hips to stick out

11. So my thighs don’t touch when I sit down

12. To have to cinch all of my pants tight because they don’t fit

13. To have to revamp my whole wardrobe

14. So people will look at me and notice a difference

15. The dizzy feeling

16. The attention that comes with fainting

17. The way my family seems genuinely concerned about me

18. To be able to shop online and not have to worry about the largest size being too small

19. To be the pretty and dainty friend

20. To have long, slender legs, like models do

21. To tryout modeling

22. To be smaller than my partner

23. To be cold all the time

24. For oversized sweaters to look cute

25. To not have to wear shape wear

26. So I can wear crop tops and not feel embarssed

27. To have control of some part of my life

28. To feel something

29. To see that number drop

30. To weight less than Taryn

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I just want to be physically loved too

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I’ve realized I’ve never had any support in my life nor will I probably ever. No matter what I do, I’m always the bad guy and nothing will ever change that

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What I learned from eating:

It’s better not to eat

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everything in this life that has ever happened to me has happened for a reason. every little fucked up thing that has happened to me, I’ve deserved for some other fucked up thing I’ve done

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I don’t understand what I always do so wrong

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i am literally an Angel u stupid cunts what the fuck

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Breakfast, iykyk

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the way this knife cuts through my flesh like butter is euphoric

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probs going to wreck my car later. hope it kills me

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I should most definitely stop talking so fucking much, I’m annoying myself at this point

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I’m not in the mood right now, ask again in 5 minutes when my entire personality does a 360 again

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time to hyperfixate on something so that my mind can gaslight itself again