rene-the-creature

[rene-the-creature]

M O T H :3

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[rene-the-creature]

“AI makes art accessible"

How much convenience bullshit

Do you have to be fed

To think something like this

Needs to be “accessible”

Art was designed accessible

All you need is a substance that transfers

a will

And a surface

“But I don't know how to draw”

Learn, useless

Fucking learn

How pathetic are you

That you refuse to practice and learn

“But I don't have any ideas”

Neither do we half the time

Art isn't something to memorize

You turn off your mind

And let your body begin

You will start to see

You need to retrain yourself

From this worlds erasure of creativity

Be messy and “bad”

We are too ingrained

Into the idea things have to be perfected

Every time the first time

To fail is to learn

Fuck your AI

It is the death of originality

It is the death of creativity

It is the death of humanity

-"AI 'art'" a rant- by me

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It wasn't walking on eggshells

It was walking on broken glass

Sitting on a bomb

Waiting for the blast

I had to walk it off

When I stepped wrong and the glass cut deep

It's not bleeding anymore

But the glass is still in my feet

It hurts with each step

But I know it'll hurt more to remove

They'll have to cut it out

Painless removal is impossible to do

The skin has grown over it

And the calluses are tough

The damage is already done

I don't know if just trying to take it out will be enough

Everyone expects me to be fine

Because now the ground is just dirt

But there still rocks hiding in the grass

And the glass embedded in my feet still fucking hurts

I know I'll get them removed eventually

But the wounds are deep

Some may be infected and they all will scar

And sometimes the blood still seeps

People notice the bloody trail I leave

They see my cautious steps

But no one bothers to ask why

They don't realize it still hurts they think it's just reflex

Some of the tendons are severed

Bones are damaged

This isn't a paper cut

You can't fix it with a damn bandage

-"shards" by me :) René

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I am not your little girl anymore

I lament what I am

But something killed her

And all that's left is this creature guarding her ghost

I have become something

Something that nauseates me

The sickness stuck in my head since I became this thing

This creature

I have become a monster

My minds way of protecting itself

I keep falling farther

Straying from what I used to be

I've become obsessed

With watching myself bleed

Every time I get a little empty or stressed

It stopped being a choice and became a need

You don't want to believe it

I don't blame you

I don't either but it is what it is

I’ve become a thing that I couldn't expect you to understand

Every time

I tell you something is wrong

You refuse to see

You don't understand

Every time I say something

You expect an example

As explanation

But you don't understand, that I cannot tell you this

I cannot just “talk out”

what is in my head, just to prevent

Another cut

Or another burn

I can't talk out

Things like this

Things I won't talk about

I would rather keep bleeding

I just need you to understand

That I can't talk about it

And just see me for what I am

Stop looking at me through rose colored glasses

-"what I am" by me, Rene

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Quietly fills the lungs with dust

Violently rips open the chest

Squeezes my heart in its fist with it's hand in my pants

Eases me into the arousal

Carefully corrupts my soul

Prepared for my denial

Chains me to my shame

Gains my submission

Forces it's cause to the front of my mind

Of course, because I must obey my infection

Makes me embrace my rot

Takes me to a high I can barely handle

Leaves me broken from the drop

Teases my body with pleasure

Tortures my mind with pain

Forces me to feel it

All consuming

Religious fall inducing

Unholy

Disgusting

Teasing

Pleasing

Leaving

Breaking

Taking

Draining

I hate it

I crave it

It ruins me and rewards me with punishments of pleasure

It's truth destroys me and lures me into its gentle ache

There is little left of me

Buried in the rubble of my morality

I have accepted the weight

The stab of the guilt

I'm alive because I'm a masochist

No matter what alternative you insist

I am not enduring

I just enjoy my suffering

-"guilt" -by me René

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"if you only focus on the beautiful, the rot you ignore will consume you"

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The text says "war is not a game to win, it is a tragedy, and everyone loses" incase my handwriting is too bad 😅

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I bit my cheek

Until my mouth filled with blood

Until my breath reeked

Of the rot of my love

The blood dried

Into poems on my lips

As my soul died

And my wings were clipped

I spoke my grief into pretty words

To hide the ugly thing hiding in my chest

Until my lungs were filled with worms

And my heart was a rotted abscess

I ignored the infection

That ate away at my mind

I kept my broken dreams like a sick collection

As I ran out of time

I screamed in silence

To control my rage

I smothered my violence

So it would stay in its cage

I begged my love to stay in my heart

To keep me hopeful

And guide me in the dark

But I was left unheard and unhopeful

I ignore the scavenger

As she picks at my flesh

It's not her fault she doesn't know what she devours

I convince my head

And not I lay here dead

my death rattle my art

In debt to my head

And in debt to my heart

An animated corpse

Covered in makeup and drenched in dread

Doing nothing but chores

And rotting in my bed

-"the bitter aftertaste" a poem by Renee, me

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toxic relationship songs that are relatable to non romantic relationships too>>>>

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There's something beautiful about the rain

The feeling of safety

As the water droplets caress my skin

Gently and loving, calming me within

There's something dangerous about the rain

The way it erodes stones

Makes the rivers swell and rage

Washes lives away

There's something calming about the rain

The patter against the roof

The cool breeze

Rustling the leaves of the trees

There's something nurturing about the rain

The way I feel alive in the storm

The way it brings out the colors

Gives life to trees and grass and flowers

I like to move with the rain

To sing with the wind

Scream with the thunder

To let the lightning fill me with wonder

There's something about it

To dance in the rain

To let the wind twirl you around

To have your bare feet on the muddy ground

To feel your body

So viscerally

To be in the moment

As if you could never leave it

There's something sacred

About dancing in the rain

About feeling the sky kiss your skin

And caress your body

Something sacred

About feeling cleansed

That rush

Of clean energy and joy

There's something sacred

About twirling with the wind

And singing with the thunder

And dancing in the rain

- "the rain" by Renee (me)

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it's hard to keep promises

When the air feels like molasses

And it's hard to keep promises

When your life is lived in autopilot with rare conscious flashes

It's hard to keep a promise when you’re trapped in your skin

It's hard to keep a promise when your lungs won't fill

It's hard to keep a promise when the world is closing in

It's hard to keep a promise when you run out of will

I'm always breaking promises

It's one of my worst faults

I say it won't happen again

And again it's my fault

I don't know what to tell you

Except don't raise your hope

I don't know what to do

Except try to cope

- "broken promises" by Renee (me)

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Caffeine

Drink it until my hearts skipping beats

To feel that illusion of a rush

The disassociate until I forget to breathe

Porn

Watch it or read it when the lights are dim

Over Consume it until it means nothing to me

Touch myself until my hand is limp

Pain

I cut myself to feel

To watch myself bleed

For the twisted pleasure and a reminder im real

I overuse every cope every crutch

I abuse my body until I'm satisfied

I abuse my mind

I'm never fucking satisfied

One day I'll go too far

I'll stop staring at that proverbial clif

I'll stop holding myself back

And I'll take the swan dive off it

I can't function

Not without something

A responsibility to hold me down

Something to reel me back in

I'll fuck myself over

Again and again

Until I've realized

I've reached the end

I'll risk it all

For a little adrenaline

God help me

I'm an addict and I'm giving in

Pray I never take a drug

I'll be done for

Screwed forever

I won't be able to close that door

Save me

I'm a slave to vice

I'll do anything that all

I'll kill myself for any high

-"vice" poem by Renee (me)

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She loved me like a child loves a butterfly

She saw me and loved me

But she did not think of my health

Of my life

Of my needs

She caught me in her hands

The oil damaging my new fragile wings

Her grip too tight

My small body confined

My growth stunted

She put me in a jar

With nothing

Not a flower

Not a hole in the lid

So she could watch me struggle to fly

She mistook my frantic fluttering for joy

Mistook my exhaustion as normal

Mistook my flying into the glass as a mistake

Ignored my suffering

Because she had nothing but me

She had me trapped

Watched me slowly starving

Watched me suffer

As my wings meant for the open sky

Carried me around the tiny space I was given

She talked

Words I drowned out

Words I ignored

Constant

Incessant

She held me too close

Closer than I ever should've been

Made me satisfy the wrong emotional needs

Didn't notice or care when she made me bleed

When I was dying slowly

-"she loved me like a child loves a butterfly" a poem by Renee (me)

It's about how my grandma who raised me let her mental illnesses affect how she raised me

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She's so far from me

I want to kiss her sweetened lips

Feel her skin and touch her body

I've yet to experience such a privilege

I crave her like a drug

I need her touch

I can't function without her

I need her too much

I want to taste every inch

Memorize her form

She's the strongest temptation

Lust and love mix, they make me warm

I want to see it

The way her legs shake

The way her toes curl

The way her body quakes

When she's right on the edge

I want to feel her tremble

See her back arch

As I watch her unravel

As I ruin her with my hands

With my tongue

I want to feel her nails drag down my back

And feel them draw blood

As she falls apart

I want to see her face

As I push her over the edge

Watch her lose her grace

I want to see her eyes roll back

And her mouth fall open

Hear her cry out

As I take her higher than she's ever been

I want to break her

Push her over the edge again and again

Be the only source of her pleasure

Kiss her skin

I want to please her

Until she cries and she begs

Because she can't take anymore

Of my mouth between her legs

I want to worship her

Like a goddess

My hands and lips all over her body

Sin for her like I'm godless

I want to fuck her

Let her feel every bit of love and desperation

Every last bit I've felt

Because she's god's greatest creation

This must be my punishment

Her kept from me through everything

Her a state away or a country

Making me feel this sting

But that doesn't matter

Because it's only a matter of time

Before I can have her

Then it won't matter what mountains I have to climb

It's only a matter of time

Before I can take what's mine

Before I can love her and break her

Body and mind

I can't fucking wait

I feel like a junky

She's my drug and I need a hit

I can already see it I've got a ring in my hand down on one knee

It's not till death do us part

I'll love her till my soul fades from eternity

In life and in death

My heart is hers and hers belongs to me

-"savanna" by Renee (me)

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I make interesting people into magic cards. Here.

Thanks

[rene-the-creature]

I used to be loud

I used to laugh

I used to scream

I used to be fast

I used to run

I used to be free

I used to cry

I used to get angry

I used to feel

I learned to be quiet

I learned to bite my tongue

I learned to silence me

I learned to slow down

I learned to stop

I learned to let everything be ahead of me

I learned to be numb

I learned to ignore the ache in my throat

I learned to smother the burning feeling

Now I'm safe

Now I'm comfortable

Now I'm free

I still have to change

I still have to unlearn

I still have to heal

- "used to be" poem by Renee (me)