sk1n-n-bone

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THERE IS SO MUCH GOING ON!!!!

i’m moving into an apartment with my boyfriend this week, for university. and let me tell you i am losing my SHIT. voices are back and listening always.

but i’ve never been this skinny, and i love it. currently at 106 lbs (48.1 kg) and im so close to my gw (100-105 lbs // 45.4-47.6 kg) :33

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i forgot my headphones at home, there’s nothing i hate more than being alone with my thoughts.

i’m losing it.

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😭😭😭😭

Do you think the monkeys on the bed gave a fuck about what the doctor told them? No. They kept jumping.

Keep going. Lock in twin your gw is near.

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i’ve decided to go off my medication

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i got a new job that i start wednesday

going into my orientation, she asked me my shirt size for my uniform, saying “small” felt magical

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i’m 18 next month, i’m thinking of going off my meds (bc i’ll have medical independence)

everyone in my life (dad, siblings, bf, friends) wants me to stay on them. but i feel so sedated. i feel like even though my therapist quit, i’ll be off meds, and moving to college, i’ll be able to handle it all.

should i get off of them?

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seeing results is so gratifying i just wish it would happen faster

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my therapist literally quit her job.

just my luck! anyways i’m hungry for a gun in my mouth

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texted my therapist at 2 am bc i was in a breakdown state, life is a trip bc now im fine and have been up and drunk for almost 2 days

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bikini season is like 4 months away LOCK IN

♡ ♡ ♡

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i am locking in

monday-thursday : no more than 350-400 cals

friday-sunday : no more than 700 (i’m with my bf)

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i ♡ purging

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me after telling myself im clean from $h just to get an 3d

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finding out i have the same diagnosis as selena gomez, mariah carey, halsey, and david harbour is oddly comforting..

…only to find out it’s the same disorder van gough, kurt cobain, amy winehouse, and kanye have so…

literally who am i supposed to be

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i am drowning in this suffocating world.

the violent hands that never leave my brain; with every touch i receive i think of him. i am my mothers daughter, her face on mine; allow me freedom from this depravity. meds meds meds, “therapy works, just have an outlet”; i am my mind and i am no longer me. thinner and thinner, rotting away at the bone into something beyond my skin. the chemistry in my mind morphs and winds, leaving me supposedly stable, is it truly stability or am i just distracted?

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people when they hear i have an smi (serious mental illness):

😊🥰💕🍪🥛✨💐

vs

the same people when i start showing signs of the PREVIOUSLY KNOWN ILLNESS:

😒🤬🌪️🧟‍♀️🗡️🙄🫤

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LOL updates they put me on meds and i feel vv sedated but it’s only been a week

diagnosed with bipolar 1 tho so FUCK

psych eval is tomorrow, i’m so nervous i feel like throwing up but i already purg3d everything in my body so i can’t do that…someone send help if i get admitted i’ll comeback in 2 months with an update 😍