#<- forgetting my own tagging system

[myloveforhergoeson]

taking icy’s lead and sending you the playlist thing for rames!

hi hi hi!! so excited to do this~ i was obsessed with your jelisa post and your answers hehe. normally i try to keep my playlists centered around the time the story takes place but if i'm allowed to pick, my taste is a bit more modern-ish lol! i do my best to put the chapter titles as little soundtracks to go along with the story, but that doesn't always work out. most of the time they're just reflecting the chapter content with the title, not the lyrics

opening credits: l.a. baby (where dreams are made of) by the jonas brothers!

perhaps i'm cheating by picking a song that's already an opening credits song, but i think if their life was a TV show/movie this would be so perfect for them!

meeting for the first time: tracks of my tears by smokey robinson and the miracles

not because i think it reflects their situation but because i think roxy remembers this as the song she first heard him sing. their meeting isn't really anything miraculous + not love at first sight, but i think if they were a movie it would be cute if this was playing in the background when they first meet :)

hey, i kinda like you: crush by david archuleta

super super rames; playing on the radio when roxy decides to ask james out as like a little peek into what's running through her mind

i’m going to kiss you now: dig what you dug by wallows

:) love this song its sooo so so rames, but especially right after they kiss for the first time and james tells roxy he loves the way she says his name. that scene was inspired by this song in the first place!!

falling in love: jump than fall by taylor swift

self self-explanatory and chapter title stealing again...

your place or mine: last man in the world by the band camino

:)

naked in bed: hands down by dashboard confessional

my one mistake is using this to title a dak centered chapter... but it is also so very rames

first fight: that's what you get by paramore

cheating again and stealing chapter titles... but i mean come on! that's basically what happens lol

maybe we should take a break: my happy ending by avril lavigne

speaks for itself i think... especially because rox is pretty far gone for him at this point...

i want you back: iris by the goo goo dolls

I KNOW I KNOW but just imagine it's raining and james and roxy are in the street and they're apologizing to each other after their break because they realized it was such a bad idea and that they're better together and they love each other too much to see the other hurt and the instrumental part is playing in the background AHHH

will you marry me: songbird by oasis

not only is this their song (to me...) but everything about it is just so loving and tender and i think it fits this section perfectly. while i don't know if james and roxy are marriage people just yet, i think i could see this being something rox walks down the aisle to or perhaps their first dance song :)

first child: cecilia and the satellite by andrew mcmahon in the wilderness

like the last one, i'm not sure if james and roxy are parent material lol and i don't know many songs about children, but this is one of my favorites :) i think if anything james would be a super cute girl dad (as i think all boy band members would be) and i could imagine him writing/singing a similar type of song :)

we’re getting older: 18 by one direction/act my age by one direction

<3 we can forget they're 17 when they start dating okay <3

if you die i’ll go with you: i'll follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie

if you've never heard this one you might want to grab some tissues. my hands are shaking as i write this.

end credits: the flower garden by joe hisaishi

im imagining the screen fading to black after their story ends while this plays and seeing the credits roll and GAH IM SUCH A MESS HELP!!!!!! (and now im imagining a howl's moving castle au so someone needs to take google docs far FAR AWAY FR OM ME but they fit those roles so well HELPPP)

[daenystheedreamer]

‘rhaenyra won’ she got eaten. she got chomped and eaten. all her sons died and one of THEM got eaten. the fourth got depression the fifth produced henry the eighth. and all the nuclear warheads went poof disappeared or got EATEN. do you guys think maybe the cannibal is like kind of a symbol. how theyre eating each other. ouroboros autofellatio. idk who knows

[the-magnus-protocol]

The Magnus Protocol will launch on January 18th, more info available here!

[sopsoppsop]

frost and flame study time

[cybercritterinyourcomputer]

writing this on a whim because my brain is torturing me about it for some reason and i figured what better place to go than tumblr [this is somewhat sarcasm]. i do not particularly know why i am writing/asking this but im chucking it out there to ease the thoughts so i can go to sleep

to any systems or whatever or really anyone reading who found this through the tags i put here, how did you know you were a system. or plural or how did you start questioning it how did you figure it out. bear with me its past 2 am my writing is atrocious . how did you know if you never knew before?

i dont think im plural, but something wormed its way into my brain today or yesterday and i dont know why or when and and its not the first time this has popped into my brain i think. the thought of what if what if what if but im me. its my me it there its me its my thoughts and there is no other people in my brain just me myself and i. its not quiet it never is but it is just me

i think a clearer question i want to ask is: how can you tell if something is just dpdr[because i fear i may have that, unfortunately it is very likely] or this? this as in osdd or did or whatever

it would appear simple but unfortunately for a lot of my life my sense of self has been so broken and so messy because. fuck all everything happening i guess but its just me, truly. i talk to myself, i draw different versions of myself together, i split myself into many parts to cope with things, to highlight the different parts of me, variants. the wolf, the puppy, the robot, the hermit, the hollow, the dragon, and whatever the Me is i dont know who or what i am when im so many things and nothing at the same time. i didnt completely think about this but also how heavily i relate to certain characters in media but this may just be a nonhuman thing. i see so much of myself in certain characters and so much of them in me sometimes to the point where i dont know where i start and they end. but again i think that is just a nonhuman thing or a coping thing. because its still just me here

where does the age regression and nonhumanity start and where does it end when i rely on my creations of myself to keep me afloat. i only talk to myself through thinking and drawing, i dont talk to anybody else in my head, its all me. and unfortunately theres a pattern where i learn of something and i think about it and i go, "oh, no, no no, that is absolutely not me, never would dream of it! even thinking that i could be that is a crime to all the ones that truly have that!" and then it ends up being too true. the depression, the adhd, the age regression, the therianthropy, the hard denial of abuse, the hard denial of possible autism. my friends speculate i have ptsd or cptsd. i dont want to go down that line of thinking with this, i *know* i dont have it, but the fear

its annoying because ive never really been here present in my body im never really here and the horrors dont end and theres always been something wrong with me but i know its other things. i wont share the details, but the situation ive been in the past 8? months has been horrible horrid no good on my brain i hate being awake. and it feels like someone else took the reins but im still feeling the hurt i still have the memories but they dont feel like mine. my memories have never felt like my own but theyre mine and i have to write everything down or i will forget. i go to work i listen to family shit on me i go to work i do something all day but its not me im still in my room playing a game in my pjs but that was almost a year ago but im still there but i went to work but it wasnt me

because my mind is empty, its just me. it really truly is just me. i think im just lonely. and hoping someone could take me away from everything im always going through or for someone to be there. in my head

there was never anything to make me think this before, a couple times i have but years ago, for no reason, im quite sure its just me. i had imaginary friends as a kid which is normal for kids. i still kind of do but its just me talking to me, im saying two things. i think i just have a lot of possible trauma[i dont believe im traumatized but my friends are quite firm that my entire life has been a shitshow since i was born] and a lot of coping mechanisms plus the fact that i have to pretend for my family and me being trans and me being nonhuman and me so its mostly just that

i dont really know what exactly im even asking. i think im just throwing out a bone and praying for someone to go "yeah dude thats normal youre fine, youre normal" and for my brain to stop ruminating and its annoying. or for someone to ease my curiosity and fear and dread. im throwing out a bone, im begging for someone to glance my way, im begging for someone to tell me its okay. not the begging to be okay but to say that my brain is okay and that my life is okay

[moe-broey]

GOD SORRY. I am just SO fucking ALL OVER THE PLACE. I'm definitely struggling w like, wanting to do Too Many Things all at once. Head too full, running in circles about it.

So I'm just. Gonna drop ONE (1) very messy low-poly sketch in full, I do really wanna continue working on it bc I def feel like it'll be esp pretty in color, BUT. I'M ALREADY WORKING ON SOMETHING ELSE I'm planning on coloring.... some OTHER impulse shitpost comic............ I'd LIKE. To maybe get one thing off my chest and mind so I can exclusively focus on the other.

Okay. Slides you this.

Like it's a dumbass shitpost but this particular post has lived in my head for a while. Actually. As something Freyja would say to antagonize Moe.

Like... my idea here is Freyja is realizing her target has changed. She's trying to reach into the insecurities and fears of her new target. She has No Idea what "on-line" means. She's also an otherworldly goddess with a haughty holier-than-thou attitude and she's largely just entirely incomprehensible.

I think... for reasons you may be able to guess. Beyond the general plot points we're following, here. Freyja, on a personal level, ESPECIALLY has something she wants to "prove" to Moe specifically. She has a wounded ego and it's showing. She's just lashing out, really. And Moe happens to be a really convenient target, on top of her main goal (trapping the Order in the nightmare realm). Spoiler Alert: Her first attempt does backfire. Counter Spoiler Alert: She very quickly bounces back and, correctly this time, determines just what might be Moe's greatest weakness.

Also.

The Panic RAPIDLY beginning to set in as you realize that is NOT your brother that's your fuckass healer who's always on the back lines For A Reason who's always saying The Wrong Thing and is always just So Scareds.

Again, low-poly for now, but I esp like Sharena's pose!!! She's VERY MUCH dashing in like, ooohkay I don't know what to expect but if you're Moe now I'm worried about you fighting A Real Battle with a sword. Let me make up the difference! Please.

Inspo if I fucking. Forget to ever return to this (very possible given how I am.)

[aether-friskarts]

I recently made little png guys for Discord Reactive :D

the first one is for my friend @solarianmage and the other one is for meeee :3

I might make more in the future, like for other friends, but i have not done that yet

This is their sona, Xael, who I hadn't drawn before so that was fun to do :]

This little sona design i literally made just for this, but tbh i like it so i might stick with using it for stuff? maybe ill make a version of this that i can use for my lets plays or something xD (which im suuuper behind on btw, I just lost all video making energy for a while i think)

[ragnars-tooth]

Anyone remember that time i said i was going to make a short animation for the fic i was working on. and then i never posted it?

here are some of the frames bc i had to clear space on my ipad to get it to function. the visuals are done (and have been since august 😍) but it doesnt have any audio and it makes me cringe 🫶 so you're never going to see it unless i learn how to make music <3<3

[all-thestories-aretrue]

I started Forgetting Ashville and immediately went oh these people are fucked up, aren't they?? 😈😈

[contractbound]

the dilemma of wanting a straightforward, easily accessible tag system versus the fact that something too straightforward puts what you post out in the wild for strangers to see.

[thefleetsfinest]

❛ you want me to make you some coffee? ❜ one more linda

It had been a long day, and honestly the last thing he probably needed was a cup of coffee.. but there was still so much work to be done and they were the only two who could get it done. ( Okay, maybe that bit isn't entirely true, but that was what he was going to go with if they were asked. Not that anyone would be. )

"Only if it ain't any trouble Darlin', I'd hate to see you go out of yer way for little ol' me." He glanced up from the mountain of paperwork that he was attempting to bring SOME sense of organization to in the clinic. Leonard had made it a bit of a life mission to get the entire clinic's files organized and secured in a safe and easy to access location, which wasn't exactly the easiest thing to do considering most of their clients had secret identities or aliments they don't need everyone knowing.

Leonard stretched back in the rolling chair a bit, his arms reaching out towards the ceiling as far as they would absolutely go. ( A groan definitely escaping in the process, but what did you want from the guy? He was getting a tad older.) It was definitely time for a break, and his back was determined to make sure he knew.

"You sure I can't WOO you into calling it an early night and get a hot bath in while I finish up here?" He knew it was a long shot, the two of them had always been a 'Do it together or not at all' kind of couple, but he couldn't help but worry about her needing to get off her feet a little more now that she was decently in her second trimester.

[hyenabrainedpup]

Sidenote if you wanted to see more of my art in a semi organised way i have an acc for it on instagram <33

Ratbonesart same as my main on here :)

[mylucayathoughts]

I don't get it.. what's taynick about the pic with the sheep?

Hello dear 👋

if you mean this photo, I tagged it taynick so I can find the posts on my own blog that are connected to them.

[raplinenthusiasts]

if you don’t mind me asking, why do you not tag the same people in every gifset you create? i have a tracking tag and i love creators using it, and you’ve used it a couple times but i noticed not lately. of course i’m not forcing you to use it, it just makes me sad cause i don’t want to miss anything you post! ofc you’re not the only one who’s doing this, but i was just curious if there was a particular reason or you just didn’t care?

oh nooo, I can’t speak for other people but for me it’s about the limited number of 20 tags that tumblr restricted, any tag after first 20 is not seen in the system!

I use general tags and then usually I just try to tag people that are tagging me in their posts and also bigger creators than myself (one reblog from them makes big difference for me). Other than that I sometimes change track tags depending on which member I giffed? And sometimes when I’m not particularly satisfied with gifset I’ll just use general tags 🫣

[tinymilkcarton]

for my own dumb brain:

art tutorial = someone explaining or doing a how-to

art reference = an art piece or video that has elements that i'd like to understand and play with for my own art process (for things like shading, or painting or colours, etc)

art insp = maybe used for more broader things like aesthetics and feel, things that hit Just Right but may not have direct elements I want to reproduce

photo reference = real-life references captured in photography

[oc-place]

once you're stripped clean, what's at your core?

Tagging @jennathearcher because we decided to see what we both got for the OCs so yep

Jen:

rippling sunset you’re the nicest person i’ll ever meet, probably. with an undying passion to protect those who can’t protect themselves, you’re energetic and bubbly to a fault. it’s cute, watching you run around trying to tie up loose ends. i feel bad for you — out of everyone you know, you probably have some of the deepest trauma, more than anyone’s aware of. this isn’t something that you want attention for at all, and you’d really just rather forget it exists at all… even then, it seems like you can never escape it. i wish you a pleasant rest of your life, full of rippling sunsets and free of prying eyes.

Dawn:

flightless bird the thought of your found family is what motivates you in your own little world. you touch the clouds, and the soil gives way under your footprints… this is utopia. if you were to erase one thing, it would be your memory. experience is important, but ignorance is bliss. identity, in heaven, should give way to happiness. you'd give anything just to sit by the swings and eat ice cream, but this isn't that kind of world. you have to get up and wash the dirt off of your scraped knees. i think you have an escapism problem.