#derealization

[nofuckingideawho]

whether I'm real or not is still up for debate

[oddysseus-ship]

Watching this while listening to headlock by pure coincidence= chef's kiss

[ladycatashtrophe]

"Wow, you're so self-aware! It takes most people years of therapy and dedication to get to that point." Thanks, I constantly feel completely disconnected from my physical being and the material sensation of my body, brain, and spirit/soul is so overwhelming that I often have to see myself as an objective third-party instead of an integrated entity. Father son holy spirit and all that.

[braaainwaaash]

[softytothecore]

[missing-childhood]

I am my own downfall. Over and over, the cycle repeats.

[liminalfireside]

[iceekingintl]

ɢᴏ ʙᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ

[damien-devil-art]

[wemadehell]

[chaotic-orphan]

YESSSS!!!! Absolutely!!!! I agree, I didn’t even think of this in a whump context because it fucking sucks when you miss a single dose of meds—

My symptoms are usually:

Danny Phantom go ghost: literally feel like I’m floating, not grounded in my body, *cue derealisation and depersonalisation*

Lack of appetite

Total and complete exhaustion, holding a conversation is a Herculean task or keeping eyes open — lots of potential to fuck with a whumpee like this

All senses are in slow motion, like, lifting a hand is like you’re wading through water — again, fuck with whumpee because they will not be able to defend themselves

Increased paranoia and mania— will get random bursts of energy for ten minutes between the zombification

Dumb brain, slurring/stumbling/stuttering over words, getting confused and frustrated from not being able to communicate properly

Increased forgetfulness and after you take a pill, murky and patchy memory of what happened when you were without it — let your whumpee wake up with new bruises/cuts and not know how they got them, put them in a different room and let them think they were rescued

But this is all from missing one dose, if you miss more, the symptoms increase, especially weakness, exhaustion and paranoia— and you start to think that the pills are the things that fucked you up in the first place (it’s like your brain is trying to eat itself) and you can’t process anything

I would lovvveeee to see more of this in whump!!!!

y’all whump folks are gonna eat this up lol

alright so i enjoy reading whump as much as the next guy and an experience i frequently go through is withdrawal from my medications but i seldom see much of that

i’m actually in withdrawal right now cause i forgot to take my antidepressants yesterday and it leads to a lot of fever like symptoms, at least for me

I’ll give y’all the list i can think of as of right now i might append it when i’m feeling better

hot flashes

upset stomach (this could just be me not being in the mood to eat tho)

dizziness and nausea

light sensitivity

irritability

so yeah not along the lines of any substance abuse, just think abt your characters who have medicines they NEED to take but for whatever reason they didn’t (forgetfulness like me or maybe they don’t have access to them)

more often than not i think of seongji in relation to this because he’s established to take medicines for his condition. i relate to him greatly (aside from being any good at kudo or ssireum) and do like writing/reading about him going through rough shit and subsequently getting help from either the kids or other kings (jichang’s a favorite of mine).

just some food for thought.

i apologize if this wasn’t entirely coherent as i’m not entirely there at the moment and if i’ve mistagged anything please let me know

[cosmicconstruct]

I promise I'm really smart it's just all my best thoughts get lost in The Fog

[moriintus]

[braaainwaaash]

[softytothecore]