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yamchaisawesome · 3 days ago
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Okay fine I’ll update the post. I see you newcomers with your love for the old codger and to that I say welcome in kids!
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So this guy somehow got better. Like, the only light in the otherwise bleak as fuck chapter 4. I was going with the theories that bro was going to show up somehow but this? I couldn’t have predicted just how peak it was. This is quite a bit longer than the original analysis but I feel like it will be worth it. I’m also going to assume you’ve gone through chapter 4 already.
Gerson in deltarune, unlike his more seam-esque undertale counterpart, takes the role of a badass old man shounen mentor figure. He starts off unassuming, more like a gag than a character with actual story significance. However, anyone who’s got enough context can already tell this is going to be big. He’s been foreshadowed both by the goner maker and Alvin at this point, and the fact this fairly minor character from undertale is getting this much attention implies yeah this guy has some stuff going on.
What we have going in is that:
A: He’s a dead man walking, literally and figuratively. Literally raised from the dead and likely not going to last that long due to his existence being reliant on a very sealable fountain.
B: If you know anything about Gerson, he knows way more than he lets on.
It is to be pointed out that literally all of this is optional. Someone who just sorta played undertale casually and didn’t interact with much in Hometown wouldn’t know anything going on. As such, Toby makes this guy’s deal clear throughout the story of chapter 4 while still taking advantage of the dramatic irony held by players in the know.
We get our first hint that the Old Man is more than a gag upon him literally breaking the prophecy in order to pave a new way forward. The imagery is pretty clear here as he helps the young’ins defy fate in order for them to get through the hell it has put them in. This behaviour continues as he keeps leading the fun gang “the wrong way” in order to help em solve puzzles and intentionally walks way slower than he can to mess with the gang, Susie in particular. This introduction to The Old Man is tail ended by him breaking another piece of the prophecy. Upon questioning him on this, he hits you with this old sagely wisdom. He believes that “A fairytale is a pretty little thing” but that the best way to navigate those stories is to “go between the lines”.
This idea of Gerson believing the prophecy is a story like anything else, and that it can be read and adapted a countless number of ways is his approach to freedom and feeds into both his wisdom and experience as an author. Let the story serve you and not the other way around, basically. This feeds very well into Susie, whose whole arc has been about shirking narratives about herself. Not just those of the prophecy but more relatable things. Those narratives that she’s not worthy of love, or just not good enough generally are a constant throughout her character arc.
The one she’s dealing with in chapter 4 is about her never being as good at healing as Ralsei. This sort of learned helplessness is likely predicated on her other recent failings, those being her not being able to save Undyne or get the code at the Holiday mansion, and her needing to rely on Ralsei to help one of her few friends in their time of need was just the final straw.
Before we get into the details of Susie and Gerson’s relationship, I’d just like to call attention to the fact that Gerson’s study is the only location that isn’t the signature “bright and blue” colouration seen in the rest of the dark sanctuary.
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I’d really like to stretch this and say it symbolizes the literal break from the otherwise bleak narrative that Gerson provides in this chapter but that might be too far.
Anyway, Jackenstein.
I love how this demonstrates Gerson’s background as a teacher and father so goddamn well. He understands the youth very well and instantly clocks the kind of kid that Susie is. His strategy of calling her a “coward” and basically rage baiting her into conquering her inhibitions and beating that narrative in her brain shows a pretty clear grasp on who Susie is in particular. He doesn’t try a fancy speech or whatever like he does with Kris earlier, he just fucking throws her attitude right back at her. Considering they met a total of 20 minutes ago, it goes to show just how good he is at reading people. We’ll get more of this with Kris later but that’s its own section.
He also encourages Susie to push past her narratives of what she can’t do with his letter, but that doesn’t tell us much more about his relationship with Susie. Instead, the letter demonstrates the flaws and regrets the Old Man has- particularly in his relationship with his son Alvin.
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In the light world, both in the epilogue of chapter 2 and the prologue for chapter 4, it’s pretty clear that Alvin has a narrative of inadequacy all his own. This is the idea that his writing will never outgrow his father’s, or even be any good at all. Apparently, it’s to the point where he doesn’t even write any of his own sermons, just reusing the work of his father. This could be part of the reason Gerson feels so strongly about breaking that narrative in Susie, in order to atone for what he has done. Given the themes of religion in chapter 4, both his tutelage of Susie and letter to Alvin both could easily be read as Gerson using this miracle in order to redeem himself in his own eyes and cleanse himself of “sin” even in a religion that lacks it. The delivery of the letter is also important. Susie, with her own inexperience, was able to deliver the letter in a way that got the point across better than Gerson ever could. With its unintentional grammar and spelling errors, it demonstrates to Alvin how “Long as you got the point, the words don’t matter” in a way that Gerson’s usual prose simply can’t achieve. Iron sharpens iron, student sharpens student.
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Anyway, I know what you fuckers are here for. You don’t want unsubtle literary analysis of a dead old man and his kids! You want hype moments and aura, you want the hammer!
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Well too bad, we gotta get through the tea party scene first!
First thing we need to talk about is how in sync Susie and Gerson are here. Like, they’re bouncing off each other and absolutely loving life! Susie might not be a talented writer but, as Alvin would say, she has “a flair for entertainment” and the Old Man loves a good story!
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Next thing is Kris. If you let them refuse tea, Gerson offers the poor human an apple, which is known to be a big thing of theirs. There’s also his weird route dialogue, in which he gets that something’s wrong in spite of a general lack of words exchanged and tries to encourage and console Kris. This once again shows his knack for reading and guiding people, and frankly it’s really sweet that he’s trying to help them through our rampage.
But enough of that. You know what time it is!
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The Hammer of Justice is ringing!
This is my favorite fight in the game, and honestly the shadow crystal fight that I think is most integral to the story. It’s as easy to learn about as Spamton’s if not easier and makes his turtle ex machina against the titan make a lot more sense.
The more I fought this guy, the more I came to appreciate the lesson he’s teaching. If I have one word to describe this fight, it’s forgiving. Gerson lowering his damage to match Susie’s current HP and banning items in order to get her to heal more and get some practice in just reminds you that this isn’t a fight against some insurmountable threat like the Knight or a crazed omen of what could be with Spamton, but an ally that’s here to help you learn a thing or two.
As an aside, the fight is so goddamn hype. The lore drops and inspiration we get from Gerson’s dialogue, the fact you can skip some attacks if you impress the Hammer enough with your spells, the goddamn rude buster ping pong you play with him, the music, THE MUSIC!!??? Absolute peak fiction, no notes. The fight brings an atmosphere like no other.
It also answers a question that hardcore Gerson fans like myself wondered: how badass was Gerson at the height of his career? The answer: VERY. Bro doesn’t even use the shadow crystal and is still strong enough to be up there with the other secret bosses. A very satisfying moment for all us Hammer lovers.
I legitimately cried when I beat him for the first time, especially after the final dialogue that summarises Gerson Boom as a character: a lover of stories and one that knows just how mutable they are.
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Utter Chad right here.
Now to move onto his impact

The reveal that he is in fact a dead man walking isn’t a surprise for the attentive but is still a shock to the system after becoming so attached to the crusty bastard, especially for Susie. Her clear horror and mourning for a man she technically never knew in life is gut wrenching, and the fact that she basically goes around chasing the guy’s ghost for the entirety of the second sanctuary is reflective of her general fear of abandonment by those she cares about.
This makes his triumphant return at the end all the sweeter. I cheered when I saw him for the first time as I watched him and Susie absolutely wreck the Titan.
I have no idea how Alvin will react to the letter in Chapter 5 onwards, or if Susie will incorporate the Old Man’s motif into her own music at some point, but I hope so. Gerson deserves the legacy, Gerson deserves it all.
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Anyway, thanks for reading all this! I saw how much you all liked this old post and wanted to do a follow up that does the new stuff justice!
I feel like Gerson is under appreciated. Like, he’s surprisingly well developed for how little time we get with him.
In undertale, he’s effectively the monster equivalent of an old man doing a massive yard sale, getting rid of shit he doesn’t need. However, due to his old man status “studying history sure is easy” and so he’s the only guy who tells you about the prophecy of the angel and the delta rune, as well as about Boss Monsters.
He also casually mentions he was a war hero back in the day, the Hammer of Justice. Now, two of the items in his shop are the torn notebook and cloudy glasses. These are both items belonging to the human soul of perseverance. Now, he could’ve just picked them up from trash zone, buuut it seems just as likely that he killed that human himself.
This is possibly why he is not in the least bit scared of you on the genocide route. Like, at all. He spits such raw lines as “I wouldn’t buy your chitzy garbage at knifepoint”. He also seems oddly self aware, like more than sans, saying he knows the player cannot kill him while in his shop when threatened. This absolute mad lad will charge you full price for his wares and there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it, and he fucking knows it.
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Utter Chad right here.
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angel-writes-skz-here · 2 days ago
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Seduction
Prof! Minho x Student! Reader Synopsis: Minho's in town for Christmas break and he's got some questions that will need answers. Warnings: SMUT, unprotected p in v (Shocker! Fr be safe) oral (both rec.), fingering, pet names, soft Minho, romance. A/N: Christmas in June, my sweets! I apologize for the wait! But chapter 5 is here! I'll try to have chapter 6 out soon! Just bare with me! Ignore any mistakes, I'll proof read again later. Merry Christmas in June, y'all!! 😉 Xoxo💋
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Merry Christmas
The sunlight from the morning peers in through the curtains of your living room, waking you up. You feel a pair of hands around your waist, the memory of everything from the previous day flooding back. You smile to yourself as you feel Minho shift in his sleep. Your hand lightly goes on top of his; cradling it.
You gently turn in his arms, his face looking peaceful as you study it. You smile as you notice his brown hair in his face, his lips slightly agape and a small bit of drool on the pillow underneath him; the way his body subconsciously contorted to fit yours swells your heart.
You run your fingers through his hair gently, watching him stir and a small smile creeps onto his face. You breathe out a giggle before his eyes slowly open. You both smile at each other; it’s like you’re in your own little world.
“Good morning,” you whisper.
“Good morning,” he smiles.
“I have some shopping I have to do today,” you mention as your eyes scan him.
“Can I come?”
“I’d love that,” you smile. The two of you get up and as you head off to your room you notice Minho grabbing his keys.
“I left my stuff at the hotel last night,” he mentions sheepishly.
“Thought I might kick you out?” you playfully ask.
“I wanted insurance, yeah.” He shrugs honestly. You smile and nod understandably.
“Well, you can get your stuff, because you’ll be here with me this week,” you smile as you walk up to him, cupping his cheek.
“If you want to be, that is,” you whisper and he grins.
“No where else I’d rather be.”
He pecks your lips before leaving to grab his things.
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The two of you arrive at the mall, hand in hand, walking around. It's nice to be out in public, together, physically showing affection for once.
“It’s so busy,” he comments.
“Yeah, Christmas around here isn’t nearly the same as it in Korea,” you inform him.
“How so?”
“Eh, it’s more family oriented, everything practically shuts down. People spend time with family at home opening gifts, sharing meals together, it’s really nice.” You smile sentimentally as you walk into the next store, making the final purchases for your family.
“So, am I allowed to join your American traditions?” he asks cautiously.
“I don’t see why not, my parents and I do Christmas at their house that evening and on Christmas Eve. So, we can do dinner and I’ll let them know I have a friend joining me.” You say as you pull out your phone to send a quick text to your mom.
“Friend?” He quirks a brow with a smirk.
“I think it’d just be easiest to say friend, for now, I mean, I can’t say, “hey mom here’s my former professor from Korea that I fucked before he was my professor,” you say and he nods with a small chuckle. He peels off from you a little, looking at a few things, as you finalize your purchases.
“Ready to go?” you ask, bags in hand, grabbing his attention from the clothing rack.
“Huh, oh yeah. Let’s go,” he smiles.
“Hey, do me a favor, take these to the car, would you?” you ask as you round a corner. He smiles and nods, heading out to the car giving you enough time to slip into the jewelry store. There’s no way you were letting him go without at least one gift on Christmas morning.
You glance at the watches, finding the one you think would suit Minho the best. You purchase it quickly and you feel your phone start to buzz.
“Hey,”
“Hey, I um, I think I’m lost.” He chuckles looking around not seeing you.
“Ok, well I won’t be long, can you get back to the car?” You ask as you eye the lingerie store.
“Yeah, are you sure you want me to wait?”
“Yeah, I’ll be out soon.” You smile.
“Ok,” he says simply before hanging up.
You walk into the store, instantly spotting the red bow tie lingerie. You smile as you think to yourself how sweet it would be, making love by the fire place, the warmth of the room surrounding you, the two of you together finally on the same page, no one trying to hurt the other, the only thing on either of your mind’s simply being pleasure and closeness.
You quickly purchase it along with a new bottle of perfume, smiling to yourself like an idiot. You make your way to the car, hiding the watch in the lingerie bag.
“What did you buy?” He asks, rolling the window down as you head to the trunk.
“Some perfume I found on sale,” you say simply. Minho feels a slight disappointment but masks it and nods.
“Let’s get home, I still have to wrap,” you say as you enter the car again.
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The night goes by quickly, Minho ordering pizza and, poorly, helping you wrap gifts. He gets into a fight with the tape, flicking his hand like a cat, only getting it stuck worse to his hands and now sweater. You can’t contain your giggles as you watch him and catch his hand, the heat from the small fireplace hitting your back.
“Have you ever even wrapped a gift before?” you ask through fits of giggles.
“Yes,” he pouts, his brown hair falling in his face.
“Well why don’t you get me some more wine,” you say as you get the tape unstuck. He purses his lips and hops up with your glass.
“Want some more pizza?” He calls from the kitchen.
“Uhhh,” you say as you fold up the last corner on the gift, “Yes please!” you say as you place it under the tree.
“Now tomorrow is Christmas Eve,” you remind him as he brings back your drink and pizza and sits down.
“Meaning we spend the night at your parents’ with family watching movies, baking cookies and having a good meal. I remember.” He says confidently. You smile.
“Good boy,” you wink and he quirks a brow.
“Excuse me?” he says as he moves the wrapping paper and backs you onto the floor.
“I said. Good. Boy.” You punctuate each word with a tap to his nose. He smiles down at you, eyes traveling between yours.
“I’m happy,” he whispers softly. You smile at him, stomach twisting with excited anxiety.
“Me too,” you whisper as you notice the light from the fire casting a golden glow on his face. Minho gently presses his lips to yours, sighing against you.
Later that night, once you’re sure Minho is asleep, you’re able to wrap his watch, hiding it towards the back of the tree so he wouldn’t notice it.
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The next night you’re surrounded by family and friends, something about it feeling more nostalgic than you remember years previously. The laughter, the young kids running around and watching the Santa tracker; all of it feels warm, familiar, almost final.
Everyone welcomes Minho with open arms, practically making him feel like part of the family.
“So you two met over in Korea?” your mother asks as she stabs a piece of food with her fork, her eyebrows raised suspiciously.
“Yes ma’am,” Minho answers.
“How?”
You smile nervously at your mother.
“He offered to tutor me for this psychology class I had gotten behind in, and we just hit it off. Became friends and kept in touch.”
“So, you shared the same class?”
“Yep,” you smile.
“Funny I never heard you mention a, Minho,” she says cautiously hoping she pronounced it right and Minho nods, “before.”
“Oh yeah, well it was a last-ditch effort to stay but ultimately I thought it better to come home and ya know, I’ve been busy since I got back.” You smile and eat your food nervously.
The dinner continues on, everyone having wonderful conversation, so much so you don’t hardly eat. Except for the few bites taken earlier so you could stuff your mouth and not have to talk to your mom.
As the family begins making cookies, Minho whispers in your ear.
“I’ll be back, ok?” You look at him concerned, not noticing your mother’s watchful eye.
“Are you ok?” you ask quietly and he nods, desperate to kiss your forehead but he resists, simply squeezing your hand out of sight of the family.
“I won’t be long,” he says and grabs the car keys. He leaves without another word.
Sometime later Minho returns, helping decorate the cookies with your little cousins, the sight swelling your heart as he helps them pipe the icing. The kids pick on him a little and he laughs, getting them back, starting a mini icing war that ends with you having to clean both Minho and the kids up. The two of you smile at each other, the moments between you still surreal.
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“We’ll see you guys’ tomorrow afternoon, ok?” your mother says before kissing your cheek and hugging Minho.
“You treat her well, you hear me,” she whispers in his ear firmly. His eyes widen slightly and he looks at your mother.
“I’m sorry, I,”
“We’ll see y’all tomorrow.” She smiles like nothing was said, bright and happy, and helps you out the door.
“What’s wrong?” you ask noticing the paler look on his face once outside.
“She knows,” he says.
“She thinks she knows.” You correct.
“She always was good at that though. Picking up on the little things. But it doesn’t matter,” you shrug as you approach the car.
“The only way she’ll know, is if we tell her.”
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You pull into your driveway, and Minho instructs you to stay put until he comes out to get you.
You quirk a brow at him as you watch him run inside and you giggle as he runs back out soon after and opens your door for you; helping you out of the car like a gentleman.
“What the heck are you doing?” you giggle. He doesn’t answer just leads you inside out of the cold.
When the door opens you notice your living room fire place is going, candles are lit and there’s soft instrumental music playing. You stop, your breath catching in your throat as you feel Minho’s hands rub up your arms and help you slide off your jacket.
“What did you,” you look back at him, a soft expression on his face.
The room is covered in candles, the fire place going, drinks and snacks out for you,  and fairy lights strung around the room.
“I had an idea and wanted to surprise you,” he smiles and pecks your lips before putting your jacket up for you. You walk in, the scene intimate, suddenly remembering the lingerie you bought.
“Give me a few minutes,” you smile and run back to your bedroom. You clean up a bit, get yourself dressed and spray on some perfume before you walk out in a silky red robe, and Minho’s brows raise.
“Wow,” he says and you watch his adams apple bob in his throat. You smile at him your heart beat erratic as you slowly step into the room.
“Technically, you don’t get presents till Christmas morning,” you tease, “But I figured in Korea, it’s already Christmas Day.” You walk up to him, wrapping your arms around his neck and his hands come to your sides, holding you close as he dips his head down, connecting your lips. Your fingers tangle in his hair and soft moans are exchanged.
You step away from him, slowly undoing your robe revealing the outfit you’d bought earlier that day.
Minho’s breath catches in his throat as he stares at you, and the silk ribbon that leaves little to the imagination. You let the robe fall off your arms into a puddle on the floor.
“Well,” you pause, “Come unwrap your gift,” you smirk as he races over to you, your lips reconnecting in a heated kiss and a soft giggle escapes your lips at his excitement.
Minho’s hands are steady as he looks down, your foreheads together, and he undoes the ribbon, watching it fall off your chest.
He whimpers at how beautiful you look. Truthfully, he’d forgotten just how beautiful you really are and his hands cup your chest, thumbs brushing over your buds as your head falls back, soft moans coming from you.
“Come here,” he says and places you on your back, the heat from the fire place keeping your frame warm.
“You’re so beautiful,” he says as his eyes travel down your body, noting the small piece of what the store called ‘underwear’ is covering you. He kisses your lips again, taking his time, worshiping, loving your body as his lips slowly travel down to your jaw then your neck. His teeth graze your skin, drawing goosebumps as his tongue flattens over your skin, a soft moan leaving you. You feel him smirk against your skin as he leaves open mouth kisses down to your collar bone, softly sucking at your flesh. You squirm beneath him as he kisses his way down to your breast, flicking his tongue over the hardened bud. You bite your lip, watching as his mouth closes around it, sucking slightly as he kneads the other with his hand, sending waves of pleasure to your core.
“Min,” you moan. He looks up at you through his lashes, gently biting the sensitive area. You hiss, watching him smirk as he lets go, giving the same kind of attention to the other; not in a rush. Savoring you like you’re his last meal.
He kisses down your stomach, lips dragging against your skin; peppering kisses at your waist line, teasingly. He can see the wet patch on your panties, and he chuckles to himself.
“You want me, don’t you baby?” you nod with your lip between your teeth as you watch him.
“Please,” you beg and Minho closes his eyes at your breathy tone, feeling his pants tent up. He removes his shirt quickly before settling between your legs, kissing up your inner thighs, nipping at the doughy flesh.
Your hips left near his face on instinct, and he hooks his fingers into your panties, pulling them down and discarding them to the side. His tongue is warm and wet against your core, and you both sigh as he makes contact.
“So good,” he whines into you, nose bumping your clit as he takes a deep breath. His tongue works magically, hitting all the spots that make you tick, watching and listening, figuring out your body; making it his mission to know it like the back of his hand. He smirks as his tongue circles your bud, feeling your hips roll against his face.
“God, Minho,” you gasp as his tongue enters your hole and your back arches off the plush rug underneath you. You grip onto his hair and roll your hips as his tongue goes in and out, tasting- treasuring you.
“Wanna live here,” his voice is muffled against you. His breathing gets ragged as his hips start to grind against the ground, desperate to get friction. His tongue moves to side, adding more a little more pressure, the two of you making eye contact. He reaches for your hand, rubbing circles onto the top of it.
“Minho,” you whimper as you feel the coil tighten in your tummy. He adds two fingers with his other hand, curling them up and he pumps them in and out, quickly matching the speed of his tongue making your head spin.
“Please keep going,” you whine as your hand goes to your breast to stimulate it, causing you to buck your hips as Minho swipes his tongue harder against your clit.
“Fuck I’m gonna cum,” you whimper.
“Cum for me, kitten. Cum on my tongue,” he mumbles against you and you cry out as the tightening in your stomach explodes, your body arching as he takes you through it, never stopping or slowing down.
“Such a mess,” he moans into you as he cleans you up. Your hips buck when he brushes your all too sensitive clit. He kitten licks, moaning at the taste and your face flushes.
He hovers himself over you, kissing you; allowing you to taste yourself with his chin and lips still glistening.
“Fuck I want you,” he groans as you palm him through his pants. He pulls back to undo his pants and slide them down along with his boxers. You sit up and your hands reach for him, tongue flattening as you tease his slit.
“Oh fuck,” he moans as his head is thrown back. He moves to sit down, your legs intertwined as he watches you. You pump a few times with your hand, watching him. His eyes flutter close as you squeeze him, teasing the slit once more with your thumb.
“Fuck stop teasing me,” he breathes out a laugh. You oblige, slowly sinking your head down.
You hear Minho sigh and feel his hand come to back of your head, resting in your hair. You swirl your tongue around the head as you come up, sucking on it harshly, causing his hips to buck.
“Fuck if you do that I won’t last,” he growls. You bob your head up and down again, creating a steady pace, Minho’s hips bucking up into you every once and a while. You pump what you can’t fit in your mouth, his moans and groans causing more arousal to puddle between your legs. You moan around him, sending vibrations through his body. He chokes out a moan, head tipping back as you hollow your cheeks and suck faster, desperate to get him to his release.
“Fuck you feel so good,” he whines as you feel him twitch in your mouth.
“God keep going,” he groans as you begin to taste more and more of his salty precum on your tongue.
 “Ah shit, fuck I’m gonna cum.” He says and you moan, encouraging him and he does with a loud groan. He paints your throat a shade of white as his ropes spill down your throat, making you swallow everything, happily.
He gasps for air, chest rising up and down. You giggle at him, seeing his fucked-out expression.
“Something funny?” He asks a playful glint in his eye, and you simply smile at him as he gently tackles you back down to the floor.
“My girl,” he whispers before sliding in slow, eye contact being made the whole time. When he bottoms out the both of you sigh, the feeling other worldly as you feel the stretch and he feels the warmth of your body.
“God this feels perfect,” he whispers in your ear.
“Like you’re made for me,” he says as he starts a slow pace, thrusting slow and deep, making you feel every inch of him. You look into his eyes as he does, bodies and souls connecting as one.
“You take me so well,” he mumbles before planting a kiss on your forehead, resting his forehead on yours as he starts to pick up the pace, causing you to gasp and your mouth to make the ‘o’ shape, your back arching you into him.
“Feel good?” he asks in your ear.
“So good,” you whimper arms coming around his shoulders, nails slightly digging into his skin. His head falls to your shoulder, nipping at it.
“Minho, fuck,” you gasp as he hits your sweet spot hard.
“Yeah, baby?” He asks.
“I wanna ride you, please,” you whimper as you feel him slow down. He gently pulls away from you, only to pull you with him in his lap, helping you position yourself on top, slowly sinking down on him.
You whimper in response, and he holds you close, bare chests touching as you take a moment to get comfortable.
Slowly you grind your hips, bouncing up and down, causing your chest to bounce in his face. The new angle has your world stopping. Time doesn’t exist, life isn’t real and Minho is the only thing keeping your tethered to earth at this point. Quickly you begin to feel the coil in your stomach.
“Fuck you look so beautiful using me like this,” he says before sucking on your chest, one hand coming down to rub your clit making you scream as you hold onto his shoulders.
“Cum for me baby, cum on my cock,” he says and brings you down for a fervent kiss.
“Minho,” you whimper against his lips and Minho’s hand comes up to your throat, squeezing lightly.
“Fuck,” you let out in a high-pitched voice as your body explodes causing you to shake, and Minho thrusts up into you as he notices your rhythm failing as you go through your orgasm. You gasp for air once breathing becomes possible again, and Minho finishes right after you.
You’re both breathing heavily as you come down, sitting together, bodies as one, holding each other.
You hide your face in the crook of his neck, suddenly feeling very vulnerable.
“What’s wrong,” he asks, a slight chuckle in his voice.
“Just want you,” you say against his neck.
“I’m not going anywhere, baby girl.” He whispers into your hair as he kisses the top of your head. The two of you sit together for a moment, the low hum of the music creating a nice ambiance. Minho checks the clock and smiles.
“Merry Christmas, baby.” He whispers in your ear. You pick your head up, and look at him slightly confused.
“It’s midnight.” He smiles as he points to clock hanging up on the wall. You turn your head and check it.
“Merry Christmas.” You smile at him before pecking his lips and disconnecting your bodies.
Minho helps you get cleaned up grabbing a towel and warming it with water. Gently wiping between your legs and wiping himself off.
“How about a bath?” you suggest as he slides on his sweat pants.
“Actually, I wanna give you your gift.” He says as he hands you your robe.
“Huh?”
“Well, one of them,” he mentions as he unzips his suit case.
“It can wait till morning.” You try to stop him.
“Actually, it can’t.” he says as he pulls out an envelope and hands it to you.
“What is it?” you smile.
“Open,” he encourages and you pull out a certificate, your heart swelling and your breath catching in your throat.
“Minho,” you whisper as your read the paper. He smiles nervously.
“Come on, we should be able to see it.” He takes your hand carefully, grabbing you a pair of pants and a coat and you step outside into the quiet night. You look up into the sky and see it, your star.
“There, right beside the big dipper handle, you see it? Just beside it, shinning bright.” He points and you smile.
“I can’t believe you had a star named after me.” You whisper as you hug his side and look up at it.
“No matter how far apart we are, we can always be connected through this.” He whispers as he kisses the top of your head.
“Thank you,” you whisper and share a sweet kiss before heading back inside.
The two of you opt for a shower, washing each other off along with the sticky remanence of earlier activities.
In bed the two of you are curled up, staring at each other.
“So what does Christmas day look like?”
“Similar to what we did, but we get to have our own celebration in the morning.” You smile as your thumb rubs his cheek.
“And we get to watch cheesy Christmas movies and make breakfast and just chill the first half of the day.” You explain. He smiles and nods kissing your forehead.
“Good night,” he whispers.
“Good night,” you say and close your eyes.
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The next morning you wake up to the sound of pots and pans banging together. It’s just past 7am and you slip on your proper pj’s and slippers and quietly watch from door way of the kitchen as Minho tries to figure out your appliances. He’s going back and forth from his phone trying to figure out how to make you something.
You watch as he puts the eggs in a bowl then looks back to his phone. Grabs the bread; back to his phone. Then whisks the egg, back to his phone and repeats the process until he has an egg-soaked piece of bread ready for the frying pan.
“Morning Master Chef,”
“Aish!” he jumps and drops the bread into the pan.
“You scared me,” he says you smile as you walk over to him and look at what he’s doing.
“Nah, no, back!” he says swatting the air with a spatula.
“Woah, what’d I do?”
“Go to the living room, I’ll be there soon.” He motions for you to leave. You smile to yourself as you turn on the tree, noticing a few more gifts under it than what was there when you went to bed.
You quirk a brow but wait for Minho to finish breakfast as you turn on the tv. Not long into A Christmas Story Minho brings out breakfast for the two of you; French toast with syrup and powdered sugar.
“It looks delicious.” You compliment and he watches as you try the food. You moan as the sweet taste hits your tongue. Eyes shutting.
“This is so good,” you assure him and he smiles, feeling relieved he did it right.
“I added some vanilla to the egg mixture for added flavor.” He explains.
“Recipe?”
“Did that one on my own.” He says proudly.
“Thank you, baby,” you smile as the two of you eat and half way watch the movie.
“So, places really do shut down today?”
“Mhm, you’ll see it later when we go to my parents’ house.” You smile.
After breakfast you help Minho clean up the dishes and the two of you sit down in front of the tree.
Minho distributes two boxes your way, and smiles.
“What in the world have you done?” you giggle.
“Just open them and see,” he smiles, innocent excitement taking over. You nod and grab his gift from the back.
“Here’s yours.” You smile and he looks flabbergasted.
“When did you,” he looks up at you confused.
“Yesterday,” you shrug.
“You go first!” you say and motion for him to go. He’s about to argue with you but instead doesn’t fight it and tears the wrapping paper off the box. He opens the box revealing the sleek and stylish watch. He pauses for a moment, emotions trying to get the better of him.
“I remembered how you always wore a watch to class,” you begin, “And I remembered our last night together, I saw it on the night stand and it looked warn. So I found this,” you mention and he doesn’t speak for a moment, shock over taking him.
“If you don’t like it we can take it back and you pick out what you do like,” you ramble and Minho leans over and kisses your lips.
“Shut up, I love it.” He says still in disbelief at the beautiful gift. He carefully takes it out of the box and puts it on.
“It’s beautiful, y/n. Thank you,” he says lowly. You smile, proud of yourself.
“Ok, he says as he blinks his eyes quickly, “You’re turn.”
You pick the box up with the red wrapping paper and undo it, revealing a small box. You open it to see a chain with an ‘M’ initial on it. It has your birthstone in the bottom right corner and his in the upper left. You grin as you hold up letting the light hit the jewels.
“When did you find this?”
“I found it in a shop a month ago, when I started planning my trip here,” he admits, a light blush painting his cheeks.
“You held on to this for that long?”
“Kept it nice and safe, yeah.” He nods.
“It’s beautiful, put it on me?” you ask as you take it out of the box.” He nods and you position yourself on your knees and allow him to drape the jewelry on your neck and he clasps the necklace together.
You smile as you look at the last box. You take the paper off the box and open it, revealing a delicate key.
“What, I have the key to your heart?” You giggle sweetly.
“No, well yes you do, but that’s a key to my house.” He says slowly. Your heart rate speeds up.
“What?” you ask, voice slightly pitched.
“I want you come back with me,” he says as he takes your hand. Your brows raise and your mouth falls open slightly.
“What do you say?”
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denial-permanente · 2 days ago
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Hello Mrs Edge and Tom. I don't have an account here so I'm using my husband's. I am the "ebony goddess wife" of KC. You posted his message here a few weeks ago.
I want to echo what he said about your blog being so helpful to me (to both of us really). When he showed me this chastity stuff I was turned off by just about everything I saw and I really did not want to think about my husband as a sissy or abused or anything like that. I have read a lot of your answers to questions and I love how you have made chastity about your husband's devotion and not just some kinky sex thing. That is where I am hoping to bring our marriage. Also I am guessing it must be Tom who picks out the pictures but it really has been nice to see images of regular looking black women (and Asian, Indian, etc) and not images that look like cartoons. They help me feel more comfortable about seeing myself the way my husband sees me.
I did want to comment about the crazy changes that have been happening to me for the past few years. I go from feeling cold to getting hot flashes that make me want to tear off my clothes and not in a good way. And I don't "feel like myself" anymore. I want to be intimate with my husband but sometimes I can't even stand the thought of having sex.
I go from feeling guilty for keeping him locked to thinking that if I feel this bad then maybe he should too! lol I've read the questions from other women in "no penetration" marriages. I had no idea that this was a thing until recently but now I understand why. The few times I have tried are just uncomfortable and don't really do anything for me for some reason.
Sometimes when I feel like an orgasm would make me feel better I do make him worship my pussy. It also helps to keep him interested which helps make me feel less guilty about leaving him locked up all the time. I also remind him that he asked for this but I have to admit that he rarely complains.
I am happy to see that you still get pleasure from PIV and you still allow your husband to get pleasure from intercourse although I'm not sure how much pleasure he gets if he has to wear a strap on lol. But I am seriously wondering if I will ever feel like having sex again - I mean intercourse - with my husband. If you have any advice on getting through this I think it would be helpful to a lot of us! lol
Thank you for following up on your husband's post. I totally understand what you mean by you "don't feel like yourself." My change came a bit earlier than most, and it was several years of hot flashes, night sweats, cold spells, and crazy appetite swings. Nothing felt right, and I started gaining weight. My doctor says that my metabolism slowed way down, I was tired, and the last thing I wanted was my husband bothering me for intimate time. When you are not comfortable in your own skin it's just so hard to relax and enjoy intimacy.
It really did take several years for me to get past the perimenopause and have things start settling down. Yes, my husband was locked up for most of it, not that he really needed to be because sex just was not on the table (or anywhere else 😆) anyway. I don't want to say that he was "locked and forgotten" but honestly he might as well have been. A few times I did offer that he just unlock the cage and take it off, more out of sympathy or pity or something. To his credit he remained caged on his own.
When I finally started feeling better, we did get back to intercourse and foxing. Fortunately I did not get the vaginal pain that so many women get after menopause. However, things were definitely different. My lubrication was very thin, and I would get sore more easily. We went through different lubes (and now we us organic coconut butter from Trader Joes lol). Oh, and I'm a lot more prone to UTIs. I used to think it was the vixskin, but boiling and disinfecting didn't help. My gyno told me that it was a common condition, and she gave me some antibiotics which I take a dose of whenever we have sex.
Now, if you are not enjoying intercourse and your gyno can't make any suggestions, it's okay. You already keep your husband locked, so he has already learned... or is learning... how to manage his own libido and how to turn his energy into pleasing you instead of worrying about his own orgasm. This is why I tell women who message me that they do not need to feel guilty about this change in your sex life. He asked for this... to be locked and for you to take charge. This is one of those things that happen in life that you have no control over, so all you can do is control how you deal with the situation.
I am learning that there are more "no penetration" marriages than I ever would have guessed, and while a lot of them are done out of some kind of kinky game, some of them, like yours are more because Mother Nature was not kind. If this is the way you are leaning, please remember that your husband wants all the best for you. You can still reward him with your hands or by letting him rub himself on you (he must have a favorite place lol), and then lock him back up. Or you can use a vibrator to help take the pressure off of him. If you have read some of the other women's stories that have written in, some men find the idea of being denied penetration to be a turn on.
Finally, please keep an open mind. You may come out of this once again being able to enjoy intercourse, at least, when you start feeling somewhat normal... or rather, when all these things that are happening start settling down. And there are a lot of resources and articles for you to check online. You may not feel better about it but at least you'll know that you are not alone. Best of luck hon and let me know how you're doing.
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chan-hvgs · 3 days ago
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Okay the part 1 was cute and fluffy where we got to see the reader meeting seungmin and the fluff stuff where he helped her translate and dropped her back home. The reader is shy after this and starts doing her research on stray kids and their music and content. She really sees seungmin as a good human being and all members love and accept her. So she takes the passion for learning Korean on her own so that she communicates with members and so she asks seungmin questions about how you became an idol and what made so passionate about. Seungmin asks her on a date in a shy manner. They have their first date on the mall without minnie being recognized she wears heels and a dress that makes minnie heart flutter so the reader tells her life journey and all of sudden she faces a show bite without telling her. Minnie being soft he is lifts reader in her arms she is shocked checking to see whether anyone recognize him she feels fluttered and touched
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The photos above are not mine! They're from pinterest and belong to their rightful owners.
Ship(s)/Characters: Kim Seungmin x Fem!Reader, Ot8
Word count:1,348
CW: Fluff, mentions of food, friends to lovers, *Some info may not be accurate, Its just what the internet told me/ Or its just fiction completely!, injuries (Very lightly described blisters),
Bold is texted
Summary: You came to Seoul to pursue your dreams as a graphic designer and animation. You met a certain someone while you were there, what happens now? 
Pt.1 here!
It had been a week since you had that game night with Seungmin and his friends. You had been texting throughout the week and you had to admit, you really liked the boy. You had unpacked and were finally getting comfortable in Korea, having already fallen into a system. 
Currently you were taking a break from your Korean studies using the books Felix provided you with (and they were really helping, you'd have to thank him next time you see him), but instead of flipping pages you were sitting in front of your computer, Google open, your lips parted in shock. You scrolled through different pages about Stray Kids, having searched them on a whim when a nagging feeling wouldn't leave you– And now
 That little liar. He wasn’t just a fan of Stray Kids, he WAS a part of Stray Kids. And his friends, the friends you were joking and laughing with weren't just his friends– They were his groupmates. You leaned back in your chair, no wonder Chan was so suspicious of you, being the leader and all, you wouldn't expect anything less. But why’d Seungmin keep this a secret? I mean sure he hinted at it but did he think you’d start treating him differently? Get obsessed?  Well you wouldn’t be shocked, he must have had some pretty terrible experiences to not tell you directly. You tapped your phone nervously, debating telling him you knew but decided to go ahead and bite the bullet.
You:
Hey

Can we talk
?
Seungmin:
What? You tired of me already 🙏
You:
You know that’s not it..
You’re a vocalist of Stray Kids?
You watched as his text bubble appeared and reappeared multiple times, once, twice, three times before finally revealing a message. 
Seungmin:
So.. You figured it out. I'm so sorry I didn’t tell you sooner.
I was just scared. You don’t know just how scary some people can be.
You:
I’m not mad Minnie,  I understand. 
I don’t care that you're an idol. I like hanging out with you because you’re you.
Seungmin:
Thanks
 I’m sorry again.
Do you want to hang out? There’s a mall I want to show you.
You:
Oh? Asking me on a date?
Your smile widened as his reply appeared
Seungmin:
If that's what you want to call it, then yeah it’s a date. See you at 5.
You smile, cheeks heating up as you look at the text. A date.. An actual date. The heart throb wore off when you realized the time. You only had about an hour and a half to get ready. Pulling yourself out of bed you quickly showered and began getting ready, your phone playing a Stray Kids playlist, you might as well get familiar now. Brushing out your hair and doing your makeup, casual but still nice. You wore one of your prettier dresses, blue and floral, and the shoes to go with it were a pair of dainty heels with bows on the buckles. You picked your phone up and winced when you realized the time, 4:55. You did one last once over in your full-length mirror, spraying yourself down with perfume before grabbing a purse and dropping your phone, lip gloss and wallet into it just as there was a knock on your door. You rushed to open it and there he was, dressed in a beige sweater and light wash jeans, white converse on his feet, A small bouquet of beautiful roses in his hand. You watch his face flush a light color of pink up to his ears as he takes you in. 
He blinked, quickly snapped out of it when he realized he was staring. Holding the bouquet in your direction “These are for you” He smiled shyly as you took them, fingers grazing his for a split second. They smelt heavenly, and they were so beautiful. “I’m gonna put these in a vase if you wanna step inside?” He smiled, stepping inside your apartment as you filled a vase with water, he looked around for a second “This is a really nice place” You nodded, smiling. “Yeah
 My job provided it. It’s really big for an apartment” You set the vase by a window and moved towards the door again, looking over when Seungmin offered his hand, looking away. You smiled, taking it as he led you out the door and started towards the mall.
On your way to the mall you looked over at the male, who was obviously more flustered and reserved than he was the last time you walked together, your hand still in his. “So
 “ You said gently “What made you decide to become an idol” You didn't want to come off as pushy but you were genuinely curious and he looked happy to have a conversation starter. “Well when I was younger I wanted to be a professional baseball player” He giggled a little, but you could see the longing in hius eyes “But plans fell through because of–- injuries and
 other things so I turned towards entertainment. My friends convinced me to audition for JYP and now I’m here” You nodded with a smile, he obviously gave you a short, cut blank explanation but it was enough fpr now. By the time he finished talking, we’d reached the entrance of the mall. 
You realized Seungmin didn’t have a mask on and you looked at him curiously “Aren’t you worried about getting recognized?" You asked, voice low. He shrugged, walking over into a store. “This mall isn't very popular, and it's 5pm on a Tuesday so I’m not too worried. Idols come here more often than you'd think” You nodded, letting go of Seungmin’s hand as she looked around the store. He stood beside you, looking at you, eyes wandering your form. “So.. what about you?” he smiled “I told you about me so it’s your turn” You smiled "I've already told you most of it.” He shrugged “Still” So you told him about growing up in Japan and what led you to your current job and how you got the offer that brought you to Korea. The two of you walked store to store as he listened to you, nodding along, occasionally asking you a question or two, his hand holding yours anytime you weren’t using it, You could even swear you could see hearts in his eyes as he listened. 
 It wasn’t until you stopped at a food court and sat down to get something to eat that you felt the pain radiating from your heel. Sure, you knew wearing heels when you would be walking around wasn't the best idea and now you had a painful blister covering your heel. Seungmin came over with two Korean corn dogs and handed one to you, eating one himself. The two of you ate in relative silence, having talked so much while shopping. And when you finished eating Seungmin stood to continue, offering his hand. He must've noticed the look on your face and the way you falter when you stood because he immediately put his hand on your shoulder. “Hey, you ok?” You nodded with a smile. “Yeah
 just have a blister from these heels” He looked down with a nod. “Then let's call it here for the night, yeah?” You smiled at his consideration and started walking when suddenly his hands were on your waist and your feet were off the ground. You looked at Seungmin, his face was flushed, his ears basically glowing, obviously flustered by his own actions, but he continued to carry you as if you weighed nothing. Warmth bloomed in your chest, the closeness, the gesture—it all felt like a dream.
Seungmin carried you all the way home, not once putting you down once until he reached the front of your apartment, allowing you to open the door. You walked in and turned around, Seungmin still red from embarrassment with the smallest smile on his face. You smile, eyes meeting his. “Let's do this again?” Seungmin nodded, smiling so widely it made your chest ache “of course” 
(A/N: Pt.2 yay! I hope you like it @vernorica123 ! It was fun to write! Sorry this took me so long to get out! I had no motivation and was a little burnt out but hopefully I'm back now! Thank everyone so much for the support I've had recently! As always, feel free to send requests and remember to eat, drink some water and get rest! Have a great day/afternoon/night! I love y’all!-🐝)
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bullet-prooflove · 22 hours ago
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Do you have any NSFW headcanons for Charlie and Emery that you’re willing to share? I get it if you’re keeping a few things up your sleeve and saving for later
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The few things off the top of my head under the cut because this turned into a much bigger post than originally thought.
Equality/Professionalism
It’s a very equal relationship despite there being a professional power imbalance. Charlie works very hard to make sure that there is no feeling of coercion from him in that respect. However there are sometimes when he has to pull rank and I mean, firm voice ‘that is not fucking happening’ and Em will be forced to obey even though he can see in her eyes it’s the last thing she wants to do.
How that plays out in the bedroom – They need to reset the balance.
Em is probably still pissed off when she gets home and he intentionally goads her to break the stalemate. Saying stuff like, ‘if you need to rough me up a little, slap me around to vent that frustration, go for it Em. I get off on that kind of shit.’ It turns into rough sex where it’s almost vying for control, like a fight without words. Buttons getting torn off, his lower lip being bitten, fingertip bruising. He is just as bad, pulling her hair, jamming her thighs open with his hips. Shit gets broken from the ferocity of these two going at each other. When he finally gets inside her, he’s not gentle and neither is she, he’s getting scratched up and bitten as they fuck the shit out of each other on his desk, the coffee table, the floor, wherever they end up.
Switch:
Charlie has to be dominant in his professional life, he’s a force of nature. He has to be responsible for so many people and he knows exactly how to use the carrot and the stick to achieve his goals. That kind of thing can take a real toll on a person so sometimes he needs to be taken care of, he needs to have that control stripped away so that he can relax. That’s part of what Em saw in him during that first night they had together.
While he’s not into restraints he does like the physicality of being pinned down especially if he’s struggling to get out of his own head. He likes the sensation of his wrists pinned above his head, Em’s whole body pressing against his because it makes him feel safe but also plays into the ‘being taken’ aspect. He’s not giving up control, it’s being taken from him in a safe environment.
Edging is a bit of thing for him, it’s having someone else be in charge for once. He never begs but he’s very vocal about what he’s feeling in the moment.
He enjoys praise but terms like ‘Good boy’ and ‘you’re doing so well’ don’t work for him, they’re too childlike.  It has to be more adult and specific to him like ‘you getting off on that Charlie? You like how my tongue feels on your cock?”
On the other side of this sometimes Charlie has a dominant side that comes out to play too. Sometimes this can be situational, eg: they’re at a cop bar separately for retirement drinks and he sees someone hitting on Em. That need to claim her, its fucking strong and the fact he can’t do it openly drives him a little crazy. He’ll orchestrate a situation to get her alone, it could be a smoke break, a secret text summoning her to the coat check, a dark stairwell or bathroom. It’s very much about getting her off, reminding her why she’s with him so depending on time, location and the mood he’s in < this usually depends on who has been doing the flirting with her.
Another detective: She gets to ride his fingers and then wait for his cock until they get home because that man is no match for Charlie. He knows getting her all worked up is gonna make her leave earlier so he can have her entirely to himself.
Ranked officer: More threatening because of the professional proximity and power dynamic. Em is not a good little girl but there’s a certain balancing act women have to play sometimes when a male superior officer makes a move so it doesn't decimate their career. Charlie understands that and fucking hates it. Going down on her shows he loves and appreciates her, even if she has to play that game. – you can bet after this he is running interference with that asshole knowing he’s had her coming on his tongue.
Fireman: Fucking hates them esp since one of Em’s exes was one. Will end up fucking her into the wall because seeing one flirting with her makes him completely feral. If it's the ex, it becomes 'he can't get you off like I can, can he honey?' as he's pumping into her. You can bet, he’s smirking afterwards as the night continues, knowing his cum is dripping into her panties.
Roleplay:
The glasses led to a little professor fantasy that they both didn’t know Em had. It started with Charlie doing paperwork at her house and then her climbing into his lap, commenting that maybe she’d been a bad girl and wasn’t making the grade. And maybe
 just possibly there was someway she could earn it? That tapped into something Charlie did not know he was into. It ended in a little spanking, a lot of cock sucking and him coming all over her tits.
There are so many more thing I have to say but I realised how long this post was getting. If you have any specific qs about their sex life, feel free to pop them in.
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goldensunset · 13 hours ago
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been trying to find a way to word this for a while but. in my opinion (aka this is just me rambling so don't fight me) a principle of really good writing is mastering the art of narrative threats, and what you actually want them to mean. if you put your characters in danger, you gotta ask yourself- do i want the audience to be merely curious, or actually afraid?
curious- it’s obvious that the storyteller is almost certainly not going to deliver on this threat. of course the main character in this children’s show will not die halfway through season one. of course they’re going to get that important thing back. the story wouldn’t work otherwise. so the question becomes not what, but how? is our hero going to successfully convince their enemy to change their mind? perhaps the shy side character is going to suddenly show a side of themselves they never have before and come up with a brilliant plan?
'fake' danger like this falls flat when the writer is trying so hard to legitimately get you scared but any observant viewer with an understanding of solid narrative structure knows a tragedy wouldn't work here. this type of situation is best executed as less like a threat and more like author and audience watching the scene together going oooh i can’t wait to see them get out of this somehow! like idk. it doesn't have to be about fear it can be about fun or tension or epicness! it's gonna be so cool to see them solve this puzzle and get out of this trap!
afraid- the storyteller very well could deliver on this threat! it would make perfect narrative sense for this important secondary character to die during this season finale, it would make it so much more fascinating to lose the thing everyone's hope was riding on here, it would be thematically fitting if these guys could never go home, etc. and the story as a whole has been serious enough- whether outright or implied- for a tragedy like this to fit in. so you get people going oh snap this could very well happen the danger is absolutely real.
imo it's best when you don't make it too obvious- it really could go one way or another. they might get out of that scrape fine but also if they didn't we can still imagine a working story. when the audience can foresee two different possible narrative directions and both are equally compelling and satisfying in their own way, and they therefore don't have a clue which way it could go? that's the good stuff. that's when the crazy anxiety and tension starts
(obvious disclaimer that you have free will etc etc you can do whatever you want in stories, including delivering on seemingly weak threats to catch the audience off guard. but that's shock factor. which is something different from what i mean by a threat, or rising tension. but you have to really really know what you’re doing if you go for that, otherwise it feels frustrating and unsatisfying
like from my own experience. if a character gets killed off at a weird time it's so offputting that i will be distracted just waiting for the part where they magically come back, just waiting for the story to make sense. and whether it comes or not, it's hard for me to pay anything that's actually happening at that point. unless what happens then is the story appropriately dealing with the emotional aftermath. so like if you don't give people time to prepare at least give them time to heal)
the reason i like say all this is that a well done threat is what's going to evoke the most emotion out of me. if a character is actively dying i am going to shed the most tears if i am willing to believe they will actually die and stay dead. or even if they do come back, that the writing is good enough for this event to still have material or psychological consequences for the foreseeable future. if all hope seems lost in a narratively appropriate moment i can feel the weight of everything on me just as much as the characters do. otherwise it's like hmmm so melodramatic but we all know where this is going nowhere so it feels cheap. i love serious emotions and danger but you have to use all that correctly or else it weakens itself!
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noctiva · 1 day ago
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Speaking of Toby, dick, and riding
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Isn’t Toby bi? If sooooo
 What’s his fav position when he’s takin dick (or gettin pegged, I don’t judge)? Is he a top, bottom, or switch?
Also! TicciJack question!
I remember one time you said that Toby would wanna ride that demon cock just to see what the hype was about
 did he like it? Did he get it?
Sorry for the long ask, I am just thirsty for this man but, alas, I am a dick-haver and I would like to know if I could dom this man.
he’s switch đŸ™‚â€â†•ïžđŸ™‚â€â†•ïž BUTTTTTT
ok like, for his first few times with men he’s probably going to insist on being on top. refuses to take it up the ass. it’s a mixture of a whole bunch of fuckshit going on in his brain, all of which being direct results of some of the scathing remarks his father used to make. (fragile masculinity, internalized homophobia, general self esteem issues). his dad would say a lot of shit like “whys your hair so long? what are you, a f*g?’ so toby was like very adverse to exploring his sexuality like AT ALL. #1 out of fear of what would happen if he was found out, and #2 out of shame that he’d be proving his dad right.
LOTS of shit to unpack with this boy. I’m thinking he probably avoiding dabbling at all for the longest time until he got high, kissed one of his friends, and went ‘uh oh.’
so yes, you COULD dom him, but it’s going to take a lot of work, patience, and understanding. he’s curious and willing, but all of that is shoved deep deep down under layers of self loathing. he plays up a facade of fake self confidence, but on the inside he’s really just a fragile dude. you’ve got to break down his walls first. show him that it’s really okay to just let all of that self doubt go. make him believe that putting trust in someone else is worth it.
ok. now that we’ve got the emotional stuff out of the way - favourite position? plain old missionary when he’s the one receiving. he’s a clinger, and a big baby, so he really just wants to be as close to you as possible when you’ve got him so vulnerable. arms wrapped around your shoulders, ankles locked around your back, not satisfied unless you’re chest to chest. He wants as much skin to skin contact as possible. He’d have his face shoved into the crook of your neck, fuckin drooling all over your skin and sniffling between broken moans.
absolute cutie patootie. doggy is also good too though. he’ll probably go brain dead and see stars, not expecting that you feel so much deeper this way. will go non verbal on the dick for SURE.
and last but not least from my little ticcijack saga - did jack and toby bone? yes. đŸ™‚â€â†•ïžđŸ™‚â€â†•ïž simply too much sexual tension for them not to. Jack played it like a game, knowing how repressed Toby was, and knowing how tough he was to crack. He was patient with it, which was all made worth it when he finally got the brunette beneath him. and yes, toby liked it. a lot. #1 because that demon dick is just something else, and #2 because Jack’s a lot bigger than him. Can manhandle the FUCK out of him - something that Toby was not aware he’d be into until it happened
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amelias-calamity-quintet · 2 days ago
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On Writing (Zelda) Dungeons
Alright, one of the regular compliments I get on Goddess of Secrecy and now on Mark of a Hero is on how my dungeons feel like they could be in the games. It's still one of my strengths, so I figured I'd actually try to write thoughts down. I have never documented this process so please understand a whole lot of it is just ✹ vibes✹ and then piecing that together into something coherent.
Not to give homework, but I think the Deku Fortress (the first dungeon of GoS) still holds up roughly to my current standards and it's a quick read to get to relative to the other examples in my repertoire. I also have a particular naming convention for my works, so you can very easily jump to Dungeon Chapters & Boss Chapters via the index.
Concepting
I talked a lot about in a post I made on MoaH's dungeon design what I think the point of LoZ dungeons should serve as but I'll sum it up here. A dungeon has three goals narratively:
Advancing a local/character plot
Advancing a regional threat arc
Advancing the grand quest arc
If you want a really good example of this in games, Dragon Roost Caverns from WW is a prime example. I talk about it in the linked post above as well.
Starting your own, I recommend picking two of three things before you get into it:
An aesthetic
A boss and/or mini boss
The dungeon's relic
These things should inform each other and are the barest place to start before design. The aesthetic will generally decide the vibe of exploration, while the bosses determine the means of combat and likely your minions throughout the rest of the dungeon. The relic will engage with both as a puzzle solution. And typically if you can figure out two, the third will follow after.
Debatably, dungeons through an original legend should be concepts to connect together as a series of trials to build your hero up towards their final fight. It also depends on if you want to imply whether the dungeon order is linear or not how that will turn out. Having solutions only focused on general mechanics/exploration can lean more open world, while puzzle solutions that use focus on items or require items from previous dungeons will lean towards a linear narrative. Both are valid, but it's good to decide on one or the other before making a dungeon list and order.
Designing
I cannot emphasize enough in this step, but make maps. They don't have to be detailed maps, but figure out your spatial stuff. I wrote all of GoS without any maps and boy, let me tell you. The jump to having them for MoaH was night and day.
Generally, the recommendation here is to look at TTRPG dungeon design or escape rooms. If you got stuck doing this puzzle with other people/reliant on other people's pacing, what would be enjoyable to follow? Because unlike in the games where you are the player, in books, you're limited to the pace of the POV character.
There is also the limitation in writing of the reader's imagination. Complex puzzles are great and all in games, describing it in a way people can imagine is harder. Without the visual and interactive elements of games, easier puzzles are better because most people can picture the basics. As anyone who has played a TTRPG before can tell you, a puzzle for a 3rd grader will absolutely stump an adult if the setting or size of the puzzle makes them miss the important elements of it. You do not need to design complex traps and puzzles (in fact it will often go poorly).
This is also where that aesthetic decision can help. A relatively simple dungeon can absolutely be carried by an interesting location. Are there lore drops to be found in the dungeon? Is it just a cool space to explore? Is the means of backtracking post-relic something the reader can piece through as the character(s) explore it the first time? There should be hints on how these aspects will link together before the end.
I will get into this with relics as well, but it's a good idea to keep an inventory of your character(s)'s abilities before going in. Is your hero traveling alone? How many relics do they have? What resources did they bring into the dungeon? This can help inform solutions too by eliminating what your hero doesn't have access to.
Writing
Pick a pace of chapters. There's a reason that dungeons are consistent in their chapter length for GoS & MoaH. They're aimed to set the tone for how long the dungeon should feel. I'm going to use both as examples for outlining everything I haven't already said in previous sections.
GoS has two types of dungeons: Goddess Temples and Sage Dungeons. The Goddess Temples were designed to be shorter "tutorial" dungeons, the formula being 2 Dungeon Chapters + Mini Boss + 2 DC + Boss. Compared to the Sage Dungeons, which were 3 DC + MB + 3 DC + B. The Sage Dungeons also typically got a Mini Dungeon and Mini Boss to reach the dungeon itself.
The goal of this was to suggest size and difficulty. GoS was meant to parallel OoT in a lot of ways, the Convergence timeline event to the "Divergence" event that was the timeline split. So the Goddess-Sage split is meant to mirror the Child-Adult dungeon split. Once GoS!Link pulls the Master Sword, things got harder, the challenge leveled up, dungeons got longer and more complicated.
Conversely, MoaH's dungeon design was based around BOTW/TOTK and my general response to it. MoaH's dungeons are designed around the idea of having a series of shrines that build to a larger dungeon puzzle in a region. The split here will be a single dungeon chapter and Mini Boss at a time, but three or four trials before leading to the culmination of four dungeon chapters and a boss in the main temple combining the relics and puzzles from the trials.
In both cases, good divides for dungeon chapters are typically switching between floors, puzzles being cleared, or to break for backtracks to other wings.
Bosses & Mini Boss
The top of this, I want to say that the power scaling will not always be right. Nintendo doesn't even always get this right. Sometimes the Mini Boss is harder than the Boss. Obviously aim otherwise, but trust it's fine if it happens.
There are a goals to aim for with trying to keep that balance:
The difficulty of the puzzle
The tools necessary to solve it
How easy it feels like the hero lands a hit
Generally, a mini boss fight will rely on the tools already at the character(s)'s disposal while a boss fight should rely on the dungeon's relic. Both should incorporate parts of puzzles already in the dungeon itself, either in getting to the dungeon or in progressing through it so far.
It can help to look at boss fights as puzzles on a timer. The timer is how fast you hit it before it hits you harder. But that also should help pace the three stages of the fight. The first phase should be the longest, it's puzzle-solving first to see how to hit the boss. Stage two will likely be shorter, as that knowledge is reapplied. It's the same solution but with some added retaliation. Stage three should make the solution slightly harder to reach by adding that final hit glowing red desperation energy.
You want to make sure that hitting a boss monster is challenging but doable. This could be done by letting the hero get hit, focusing on coordination tactics, or having a failed attempt and having to retry. While never gets hit heroes are impressive in games, they can't build tension very well in stories. If there's no risk after all, then the reward won't feel as earned. At the same time, if there's too much risk, then it may feel like your hero is not competent enough to handle the fight. The character(s) should figure out the mini boss's weakness faster than the boss, or the steps to hit the mini boss should be easier to achieve than the boss.
If you want to come up with a new enemy and not reuse an existing one, I'd recommend picking two plants or animals to smash together. Generally, it only takes two or three off character traits for a chimera to start feeling like a monster. Too many elements though and the design may not read well to your reader (unless the point of it is to be unknowable or absurd). Your bosses should fit the aesthetic of your dungeon too, so if you're running short of ideas, trying looking what might live in the kind of environment that your dungeon is and you'll probably start getting ideas. But also, sometimes the answer is just rule of cool.
Relics
Relics are the best part of a Zelda game for me. They add a lot of fun to problem solving and reexploring old areas. They culminate to decide on the general skillset of your protagonist and dungeons serve in part as tutorials to learn how to use the relics in all its possible uses.
A relic should be the primary puzzle solution for a dungeon after its acquired. This is in game to experiment with its uses before the boss and experiment with its mechanics in lower stake situations. Most dungeons will have some no stakes mandatory puzzle in the mini boss chamber requiring use of the item before the character(s) can progress. And then it scales up from there to get creative and use the item with other tools at the hero's disposal.
While there are staples for sure (hookshot/bow/bombs/etc), most Zelda games will typically have at least one totally unique relic to that game. This is a great way to build your story's identity too! Your character's tools should cover a wide array of options, so it's important too to look at your relic list as a whole to make sure they don't overlap with other relics. It's also important to consider a relic having not only combat use, but also puzzle utility too! These are after all going to be used to get through the rest of your dungeon.
Companions
One of the harder things to balance is party comp. If your hero travels with other people, this can change the necessary scale of the dungeon as a whole. Puzzles and fights will need to be solvable with multiple people working together. Sometimes this can be expediting the issue, many hands make light work after all. Other times it's about strategically placing everyone on the map.
One thing you should decide early in is whether dungeons are intended to be solved with more than one person. If the hero is supposed to be handling their quest on their own and just happens to have a companion, then puzzles need to be solvable on their own (this may be better to implement the expediting method). Or you can make the puzzles quick, allowing for more dialogue while they solve puzzles faster.
If the hero is supposed to be traveling together, then puzzles should incorporate each of party member's skill sets. Be sure to add those to the inventory you take at the beginning of design! Rotating around party members solving the puzzles can help them feel like a team, but you can also incorporate this cooperation slowly if you're trying to build up a new relationship.
Based on Zelda tropes, it's very likely that the companion in question to a dungeon will be someone like a Sage. If this is the case, I would advise against making the character's abilities exactly the same as the relic. If the two are identical then it runs the risk of underselling them both. They can be similar, but they shouldn't be the same to make sure both have room to shine. Also so getting the relic at the mini boss isn't just your hero one-upping a companion. That's a quick way to making them seem less useful to a team! It's best to look at them as compliments. For example, if a dungeon gives the hero the hookshot to bring enemies in close, then having your companion be a fighter who deals with the monsters as they're getting dragged in to range would be a good way to highlight teamwork.
On the Grander Scale
As I said earlier, dungeons combined serve as the training montage that gets your characters ready for the final fight. But, as a narrative, they should share some central theme together to weave them together as a story. Maybe that's the overall aesthetic sharing some element, like the Divine Beasts and the Blights. Maybe it's a similarity in the bosses and how they appeared, like the echoes in EOW.
This is where making a loose outline can help. If you have a rough idea of the dungeon themes or relics you want to include, you can start to build a wider narrative theme you want to meet. Do you want your hero to feel more like a wizard? More magic focused relics may help. Do you want them to feel more like a tactician? Having more allies to coordinate could be the way to go.
And I do mean loose! For the entirety of GoS, I only had a list of dungeon names and some rough ideas for items I wanted to give Link. In the original outline, the Soul Temple was going to be kinda funky and disco themed. It ended up in narrative needing to be a much more serious late game beat. The same boss and relic was in the dungeon, but the aesthetic shifted to fit the theme I needed for that story arc. Your grander narrative can always come back to inform what kind of challenge your characters need to face in that moment. And that may change as you figure out the story.
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I think that's generally it though. If I think of anything else, I'll add it in a reblog or edit it in, but generally applying all these elements should get you on your way to making some fun dungeons. Excited to see what you come up with.
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fandomfluffandfuck · 3 days ago
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Congrats on the summer freedom! I have a bunch of stuff that popped into my head throughout the year but lets start with one and hey look at me dropping the anon shield /j
Post serum pussy!Steve getting tag teamed by two or more Buckys. Timeline shenanigans, cloning, whatever. Just, him utterly overwhelmed, overstimulated, wrecked by more than one Bucky, Bucky everywhere. Touching him, fucking him, making him shake and cum over and over
Thanks! Though I'm not sure I'd call it freedom, haha, I feel like I'm doing just as much as I usually do throughout the school year, if not more, lmao.
Also, I'm glad to see you being horny loud and proud on main 💀
And, okay, I fucking love this.
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I love it because can so easily picture Steve getting fucking destroyed like this.
I immediately thought of Bucky just, just before he's shipped out back in the early 1940s, and Bucky just post-Civil War when he's thick as hell and still putting the pieces back together, but he's clearly returning to himself. And, Jesus Christ, having another version of himself around shows Bucky what exactly Steve means when he says he could've charmed a devil and convinced an angel to fall with just one look. He understands. And it flips a fucking switch inside him, so suddenly modern Bucky, big and thick as hell, isn't so quiet, he's grinning more than he has in forever, crooked and cocky, and he's grabbing at Steve, and any shyness he had still has melted away.
So, poor fucking Steve has these two fucking dreamboat hunks pawing at him, and, oh, Christ, they're gonna pull him apart.
How are they both gonna fit in him? Are they gonna take turns? There's no way both of them can squeeze inside his pussy at once. It just won't work. Steve is intimately familiar with what they're both packing.
Steve viscerally recalls how big Bucky felt to him in the 40s when he got it into his mind that he had to get the jump on basic, going out in the mornings to run and staying late at the dock's to work on building his muscle more, lifting anything heavy, always sweaty, grunting, and looking good enough to eat. Steve thought, back then, he'd be able to climb him like a tree. Then, in the same breath, Steve viscerally knows how big Bucky felt to him when he finally let himself be found in Romania, muscles packed onto his frame that weren't there the first time they met in their cruel twist of fate under the modern 21st-century age. Having the both of them crushed tightly against either side of his body is overwhelming to say the least. Steve feels smaller now than he did when he was 90lbs soaking wet.
They're going to tear him apart.
They're not gonna fit.
Bucky was always hung. Now, post-serum, fucking forget about it.
They're not gonna fit!
But...
They do.
They make it work 😈😈
Both his Buckys--charmers, the both of them--talk to him in that low, smooth tone, they paw at him, they pet him, they stroke and touch him just right until he's so wet he could be convinced he's just melting.
Steve is a popsicle held in a hot mouth on a sizzling summer evening.
There is no rest from the heat. He's liquified. He's never felt so much wetness drool out of him, he swears it. His brains must be melting out of his swollen, hot pussy, throbbing devastatingly between his legs. He's so overwhelmed before they've even tried to put anything bigger than two or three fingers in his pussy that he can't tell when it's just another cramping, gasping, aching swell of need--his whole center throbbing--or when he's about to cum. He can't warn them. He doesn't need to. His Buckys can tell. They know. They know his body and the slutty, guttural noises coming uncontrollably out of his gaping lips better than he does. And so, naturally, they pull orgasm after orgasm from him, wringing him dry, making him clench and squirt around two fingers until there's nothing left. Pulling him apart.
Then.
Then, his Bucky's take him.
They plunge deep into his quivering, limp body, filling his ass and pussy to bursting, so much cock all at once that Steve can taste it on his tongue, choking, crying, sobbing as he's bounced cruelly between the two Buckys laps. He's so fucked out he can't even make a sound. He's been groaning, moaning, squeaking, squealing, and shouting. But now, after hours of torture, rubbing his g-spot until he's sure he's gonna die and circling his clit until he wants to shove their hands away from him, too raw and hot, nothing left but a puddle of wetness on their suddenly-too-small, king-sized bed, now he can't do anything but gasp silently. His mouth hangs open, stupid, like a fish out of water. He can't make a sound. He can't even quiver. He's fucked out. Fucked raw. Fucked stupid.
He is nothing except for the cocks inside him.
Nothing.
He's fucking ruined.
All his composure completely and utterly lost, manhandled like a doll. He is a toy. No thoughts. No muscle to take his weight. Nothing but two hot, wet, leaking holes. He's not anything close to tight anymore. A set of holes to be used and abused. He's a toy. They're playing with him, using him, touching him. Overwhelming him in every way. Growling and purring filth between breaths that lavish him with praise for what a fallen angel he is.
Really, though, for whatever reason, when I got this ask, I thought first about the aftermath.
'Cause can you imagine how hard Steve struggles to not let the aftermath turn him on, too? He just got finished being fucked within an inch of his life--and, actually, can he really prove that he's not already in heaven and that they fucking killed him with their heavy, fat cocks fucking him until he just goddamn lost it--he can't get fucked again! Even a super soldier has limits.
...Right?
I'm thinking about how afterward, the Bucky's are still being mean to him. Sure, they let him pass the fuck out for a few hours, making sure to clean him up of all that slick wetness and lube and cum after he's passed out in part because he did just fuckin' conk out so easily after and in part because they knew how sensitive he was gonna be after. So, it'd be nice to give him a break, wiping and patting his achiest parts only once he was unconscious. However, when he's had his nap, they've made sure he's had a whole two water bottles worth of water and a couple of protein bars, at the least, he could certainly use more calories than that, that's when the fun begins--
They fed and watered him in the guest bed (where they carried him to after cleaning him up since the master bed is one big wet spot and reeks of sex), and they don't bother bringing him anything to wear except a pair of his running shorts. His summer running shorts. The short, teeny-tiny ones that look like girls' shorts and that are made of some magic, future-type material that's so silky and thin it feels like it should be lingerie more than workout gear. Alas, Steve owns them because he's a slut, and so when he asks, legs still shaking at what could and should be identified as a vibration, the Buckys hand them over with a sparkle shared between them. They know where this will end up.
Steve slips them up his legs and doesn't realize his mistake until ten minutes later, when he's helped to the couch out in the living room, he's shaking, shuddering, and hobbling on weak legs, leaning on one of each Buckys arm, expecting his refuge to be sitting. He doesn't think about going commando under his shorts. He doesn't think about that thin, silky material riding up. He doesn't think about the pressure of the couch cushions. He doesn't think about how his thighs are still too weak to lift him up from sitting with any kind of speed.
And he doesn't think about it when he sits down either.
Nah.
He just knows.
All. at. once.
He understands.
Oh.
He inhales so sharply it cuts against his throat, hurting, because, fucking christ, he can feel his used, achy pussy pressing against the cushions between his legs. He's still so sensitive and swollen. The silky, thin fabric of his shorts rides up perfectly, dragging the seams against him. His teeth chatter. Oh, god, he can even feel the thicker thread and grain of the couch beneath him. He wants to squirm, he wants to moan, he wants to squirm and rub his pussy against the couch at the same time that he aches to shoot up and spin around like a goddamn cartoon character that's sat on a thumb tack, spinning, rolling, and collapsing to land face-first on the couch, ass up, never letting his oversensitive pussy touch anything ever again 'cause it's too damn much.
He could sob.
His modern Bucky sits down next to him, smirking but acting oh-so nonchalant, casual as he inquires, "something wrong, doll?"
The fucking problem is that he's heavier than Steve and he sits down by dropping all his weight and it dents the cushions, swaying Steve's body into his, rocking his tender, puffy lips and swollen clit against the furniture. The sound he makes is, frankly, mortifying and dripping in sensuality, "AH!"
There's no mistaking that gasp for anything other than what it was.
They're on him like sharks, swimming in circles around him, knowing he's bleeding, smiling with all their teeth. One after the other offering to let him sit in their lap instead of the couch, huh, how does that sound?
Steve's gonna die. If he's not already dead, this is how he dies. Too many orgasms. Too much dick. Too many Buckys. And fucking fuck the serum and his healing factor, he's gonna be feeling this for days.
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moldypoff · 2 months ago
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*generic weather reporter voice* I’d like to thank Dell Conagher for sponsoring my delusions and getting me through this week. That is Dell Conagher from Texas, surprising, yes, considering how much the news from that state gives me an aneurysm.
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babymorte · 5 months ago
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i hate that friends can see your likes now cuz i actually gotta be careful with the shit i like on main so his friends don’t see
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cloudcastor · 1 year ago
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I had a minor surgery/procedure today I was super nervous about but everything went well!!! everyone was so attentive and nice, it made the experience an absolute breeze and I felt really comfortable and reassured ;;_;; couldn't ask for a better care team!!!
just got a couple days of healing ahead but super blown away...just had to share it out into the world!!! the care team even wrote me a handwritten note and added it in to my stuff ;;_;;
there has been A LOT of personal stuff going on the last couple months but finally getting to chip away at stuff, and getting medical providers that are helping eith the burden... I'm extremely lucky and thankful to have that experience !!!! can’t wait to get back to art
. can’t wait to hopefully feel some kind of relief soon!
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hermitsdump · 2 months ago
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kind of amazing how you can spend 99% of your life forgetting about someone's existence and still have nightmares about them for... nearly 20 years at this point. it's been 10 years since seeing them. fucj
#I am beginning to finally process this#and I am kind of blaming gege for that#the way jjk has helped me learn and accept my headmates life experience etc etc far more than therapy is criminal lmfaooooo#ig a lot of it is also just. years of research and personal work and self awareness like ok sure I put the work in but things I've never be#able to understand or identify or communicate with... now have something to relate to. identify with. it's incredibly helpful and I'm grate#all the time. it's funny how I swore off tragic media bc after a lifetime of masochistic consumption I was finally disinterested in it#and then some asshole sabotaged my 7 year resetthat was SO CLOSE I could've had a body that no one took from me but NOOOO#Anyway I'm glad that event took me back into the tragic taste in media bc this is rly insightful but also goddamn that fucked me over so#incredibly much. it's a lot easier bc I wasn't in denial in the moment. I was able to process it at the time. not just years later. I alrea#had years of cptsd research and experience and so the healing is a lot easier but also??? I was doing so well and it set everything back an#I'm so upset. like bitch stole priceless shut from me and also my clothes that don't give sensory issues or dysphoria and also a haunted c#cryptid book on niche stuff that was from my dad like#I'm still so angry I finally wasted money on toys like ovipositors I wanted for YEARS trying to get myself to enjoy sex again but it's stil#so numb. even in my dreams. it's so numb. when I had good t levels for a bit things were better. but I dunno.#even if I have always been repulsed aro ace (which could all be trauma induced but it's all I know). I've always been a freak#Anyway sorry for that lmfaooooo I am willing to talk about it but also like I feel bad for mentioning it but also I don't expect anyone to#read such long rambles. whatever here's my vague little trauma dump I guess#but what would it take to feel clean??
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exopelagic · 11 months ago
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WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME BURROWS END WASNT FREE
#I DIDNT TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT IT BUT STILL. SOMEONE SHOULDVE WARNED ME BEFORE I GOT COMPLETELY INVESTED#I know next to nothing abt dimension 20 I’m pretty sure I just saw a post abt burrows end specifically MONTHS ago and was like 👀👀👀#opened a tab with the first episode to watch later and promptly forgot about it#until last night! having a bad night and was like hrm what if I just watch smth#and I’ve been reading watership down recently!! finally got my own copy bc it was my favourite book when I was like NINE#so I am fully primed to fall in love with a story abt little animals rn and man#I am OBSESSED with this and also realising yeah I’m at a point where I could get very into tabletop rpgs now#what if. what if I just get dropout. what if I just do that. would that not be fun. I would like to see the stoats do stuff#i am so in love with Ava and her player and I understand so much more about brennan lee mulligan now. and VIOLA#viola may be my favourite character I’m obsessed with how she interacts with other characters.m#i NEED to know what’s up with thorn’s cult thing. and also thorn. what is going on there#hrrgrhehh the thing that’s holding me back is I’m allergic to subscriptions#impermanence. even though I know it’s fairly unlikely I’ll wanna watch it again any time soon I don’t like the idea that I’d have to like#in a couple years pay for it again or not be able to bc I can’t afford it even though I already paid for it once#I’m a books + cartridge games guy and it shows.#okay. I will chew on this. the price is not unreasonable and I have coincidentally also been looking at make some noise clips#it does not help that I basically never watch things but my favourite podcast is also ending within the next month (2 episodes left)#and this IS primarily audio so I could cook + watch mayhaps. and I’ve heard good things abt all other d20.#they have a 20% off first year deal on. annual would make me less stressed long term if I end up liking this bc cheaper + choice premade#and would also mean I can do it now and not feel bad abt wasting the first month bc I won’t be able to watch much for a few weeks#fuck it I’m allowed to make frivolous purchases sometimes I will simply swallow the subscription distaste#more stoats >:)#that aside all the players are incredible I’m pretty sure when this is done I’ll wanna watch other seasons just to see what else they do#okay go do the thing I believe in you you can spend money sometimes#luke.txt#update I downloaded the app. I am putting off the decision for another day now bc it’s 1:21am and I have not been thinking clearly <3
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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago
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any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that
if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it
#snap chats#no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game#oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH.#id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k#OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think#my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious#rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final#HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE#i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that#i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki#someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it#like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but#i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital#the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe#cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion.#yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3#its a real head scratcher ...#a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think#it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little#and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened'#im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways....#sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly#idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me#THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED#i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell#is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form#i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments#BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow#im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE
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hauntingblue · 7 months ago
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Episode 8 I am so scared....
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#mel magical girl transformation.... her mother's weapon... christ... mel will save them all vi step aside!!#this is so funny... mel with her bodysuit and golden bodypaint walking thru the valley with her new pet crow.... slay#SINGED WILL CONTROL VIKTOR???? AND VANDER??? AMBESSA ENOUGH! VIKTORS VOICE OMG!!#LORIS REMINDING VI OF VANDER NOOOOO I KNEW THIS WAS COMING!!! CAILTYN TAKING MADDIES HAND AWAY FROM HER AKDJSK#arrested jinx???? OH MY GOOOD JINX!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HER PUPILS ARE SO WIDE SHES SO OUT OF IT#YES CAITLYN END THE CYCLE!!!!! they repaired the council table with golden stuff.... YES JAYCE FINALLY REALIZED!!!! OOF NOT THE BEST MOMENT!#UPSIDE DOWN KISS COME ON!!! Viktor realizing too that it has been all jayces fault.... this is so sad.... what a breakup#silco talking to jinx about breaking the cycle... he became a hallucination too.... not so bad like the others thats inch resting#THE HUG NOOOOOOO YOU DESERVE TO BE WITH HER????? SHES GONNA DIEEEEEEE NOOOOOOO VI AGAIN IN PRISON UNABLE TO SAVE HER SISTER!!!!!#theres no good version of me after we just fucking saw it im gonna be sick.... SEVIKA AND THE FIRELIGHT GUY IN THE COUNCIL ROOM??#what tf are you wearing jayce.... an outsider force putting an end to a civil war who woulda thot.... OMG THE PARALEL TO THEIR FIRST MEETING#WHAT THE HELL!!! NOT IN THE PRISON CELL!!!! AFTER VI JUST TOLD HER THAT??? AKDJAKSJ CAITLYN HOLD YOURSELF!!! my god i need a pause#vi does look so good from the back.... but my god why are they doing this now akdjsksjk maddie is upstairs akdhaksn WHYYYYYYY NOW????#no WAYYYYY WE GOT HER BACK TATTOO REVEAL NOW!!!!!! WHAT THE HEEEEEEEELLL OH MY GOOOOOD VIIIII GOING DOWN AND LOOKING UP THANK YOU GOD!!!!AAA#cait laughing... girl i would too... that was all so detailed too like damn... vi was amazed by the Kirammountains....#so thats it... can i be honest.... a little too unemotional.... like their kiss was something else entirely....#but this is vi just going DAMN!!! RIGHT NOW!!! and pouncing... which i understand but their bed scene... come on.. i needed to cry with this#so no talk about reconciliation..... *throws phone on the floor and jumps in skateboard and breaks it in half*#vander dying with viktors humanity..... and sky.... viktor getting his mask.... my god.... and vander losing his memories.... should we all#talking tag#watching arcane season 2#watching arcane#you know i understand caitlyn admited she was manipulated and what vi said about second chances but.... apologies please.....#oh now i get it she sent the guards to the gates so jinx could escape..... alright alright... i thought she did that only so they could fuck#well vi did follow her sisters advice and got with her i guess akdhaksjak which okay is nice bc she said she didn't need to feel guilty#about being happy.... alright i understand now *viktors voice*#alright i was slow my bad... vi pounced on her bc she is just so grateful that she let jinx go and cailtyn did let go of her anger.... aight
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