#BUT NEITHER CAN GO BACK
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Y'know I had a theory about Varric before the reveal.
Because even from the beginning, him getting stabbed with the dagger specifically... was weird. I kept thinking about the dagger still glowing while lodged in his chest, how that dagger was used for Solas' big ol' ritual so there had to be a lot of power in it when he stabbed him... but somehow Varric survived.
That should've killed him [and it did! but shhhh-] but I wake up, and there he is.
Alright. He's fine, he's recovering. He's older now, he can't just bounce back from a stab to the chest like that, and I guess his leg got messed up given he's wearing a brace. Okay, this is how we're setting up Rook as in charge. Fine.
At first I was really good about checking on him just to hear his bits of dialogue, whether it be about the companions or about how he wishes he could get moving.
Something about it felt very... off. Very weird. I kept trying to figure out how the hell he survived getting stabbed like that, with the dagger, and then falling the way he did... and I started to wonder if maybe the fade saved him... that maybe the fade and the lighthouse were the only things keeping him alive.
Once that thought hit me, I was like.... oh fuck, is that going to be the reveal? Is he going to have a little exclamation point on his icon at some point? Is he going to ask to go somewhere because he's feeling better and he could use some fresh air? Maybe go out for a drink? And when we leave the fade, is he going to collapse like he's been stabbed all over again?
Are we going to learn that Varric's trapped?
Is the big reveal going to be that Varric can never go home? That he can never go back to Kirkwall? That Solas fucking doomed him to this... this purgatory state where he can't go home but can't move forward, not really? Because he's trapped in the lighthouse forever unless he chooses to die?
Are my choices going to ultimately affect his fate?
But then I started to forget about Varric... because he didn't do much. More time went on. The plot thickened. I became preoccupied with my companions. Sometimes he'd jumpscare me by being at meetings. I checked on him less and less.
I started to dread that oh.... alright, well maybe they brought Varric back because he's a fan favorite and they didn't actually have much planned for him after he got hurt.... but something's still fucking weird.
And I was right, something was indeed weird because then I got the reveal in the regret prison and I was............ Unwell.
I'm still unwell.
But I guess the fact that he can't ever go back home remains true, so...
#varric tethras#dav#datv#veilguard#veilguard spoilers#solas#veilguard critical#is this a critical post? i'll tag it just in case but it's more of an 'oh... i'm sad now' post as i continue to think about varric#the critical part is implied because i don't think that was a good send off for his character#and it only made the companions seem like they didn't care that rook's grieving their friend since they never ever ask about it#legit i was like uuuggghhhhh what if varric gets forced outta the fade and dies in my arms huh??? what then??? WHAT THEN SOLAS??#but no he was apparently dead the entire time and no one thought to tell me because that would ruin the reveal#like i was so sure that it was going to be something like the fade keeping him alive... i kept making connections between him and solas#and the idea of never going home because home doesn't exist for solas anymore but kirkwall does for varric#BUT NEITHER CAN GO BACK#hhhnnngggg excuse me while i go lie on the floor
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I think my favorite completely unsubstantiated crack theory/headcanon about Zane is that the reason he keeps dying so much in later seasons is because he wasn't meant to survive his fight with the Overlord - and since him coming back to life defies fate, the Cloud Kingdom is now desperately trying to kill him as a means of course-correction. But he keeps coming back to life each time/the attempts to kill him keep failing for various inexplicable reasons, leaving him in this perpetual game of tug-of-war between life and death.
On the one hand you can get really angsty with it about how Zane isn't supposed to be alive, so death perpetually haunts him like a dark cloud, something he cannot escape but for some reason can never fully succumb to either, and is now something that is not quite dead but not quite alive...
...but on the other hand, I also think it's absurdly funny. Imagine, all of Zane's brushes with death are because the Cloud Kingdom has a very passionate one-sided beef with him. Even better if Zane himself is just blissfully unaware of any of this - he just thinks he has rotten luck. Meanwhile the Cloud Kingdom monks are just constantly at their wit's end because this weird little robot is bizarrely persistent. He's like a gas station raccoon that just won't leave - no matter how many times you throw it out of the store, it somehow finds its way in again the moment your back is turned.
#whether you think its bc zanes love for his friends transcends life and death and thats what brings him back#or because you think his fight with the overlord shackled their souls together and now neither can die without the other#the fact remains zane that although zane cant go five minutes without dying. he equally cant go five minutes without getting resurrected#ninjago#ninjago zane#zane julien#destiny post
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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.
Bonus:
#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks#hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature#ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#lucabyteart#RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete#they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot
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Being a batfam fan is funny because people will make a post like āhereās my headcanon-ā and itās just something thatās directly canon to the story then post about major canon events and get everything wrong.
#this post was inspired by me remembering the experience of reading death in the family#after only knowing the fanbase version and realizing oh none of that shit happened okay#like girl you donāt understand itās so bad#Jason wasnāt even fired as Robin#Heās not accused of murdering anyone by Bruce#Heās not trying to prove himself at all heās just looking for his mom#The reason Bruce didnāt go after him right away is because he was tracking down a goddamn nuke the Joker stole#Then after he finds it and handles the problem he helps Jason track down moms 2 and 3#Also Jason died in like 20 minutes?? even less??#He died in less time than it took his mother to smoke a cigarette#Bruce literally went āwait here Iāll be right backā and was gone for less time than a trip to the grocery store#and then you go into the Jason Todd tag and they act like Bruce pulled the damn trigger on him#Like besties I donāt know how to tell you this he basically did everything right he possibly could have#Even him benching Jason from Robin temporarily happens so that he can get Jason into therapy about his trauma#Like the whole point is that neither of them did anything wrong bad shit just sometimes happens#Thatās the tragedy. The drama.#Bruce couldnāt have made better choices in the position he was in and Jason was never going to make different ones#It was inevitable#Anyway rant over please read death in the family before I lose my mind#batfam#batman#jason todd#tim drake#dick grayson#damian wayne#bruce wayne
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Prompt 162
āSo,ā Danny drawled from where he was sitting, legs kicking slightly. Really, what a fun reincarnation. A world with heroes and villains where he didnāt have to do shit in and could just vibe with Ellie.Ā
āSo,ā Tim responded from where he was typing on his computer, mostly in civilian clothes save for his gauntlets and boots. The Red Robin outfit was haphazardly dropped across the couch and his pole leaning against the end.Ā
āTechnically thereās proper procedures for clonesā¦ā Danny motioned to both himself and Ellie from where they sat on the counter, snacking on a plateful of scones. From Alfred, he was certain.Ā
āTechnically, yes⦠but do we want to actually do that?āĀ
All three of them smiled, something almost feral in the motion. Of course not. They all had the same memories after all, and Bruce had just returned from the past, from exactly where and when Tim had said he was. Despite no one believing him, hence why they were in his boathouse, and not in the apartment or manor.Ā
āThink we can pull it off?ā Ellie took a sip of tea, mischief swirling in her eyes.Ā
āOf course we can.ā Both Danny and Tim spoke at once, one pulling up a new doc and the other pulling the whiteboard out from under a curtain.Ā
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#danny fenton#ellie fenton#tim drake#Ras: *Makes Tim Clones*#Danny & Ellie: Lmao weāre gonna blow up this place and go- buh-bye now~#All three of them are salty about the whole time-travelling thing#Tim: Why is one of my clones a girl?#Ellie: Idk man but Iām not changing#Tim: Fair enough do u want me to make you guys proper IDs#Theyāre going to do mischief and make the Batfam think theyāve always been triplets#They have the paper trail to prove that the Drakes had triplets#Neither Danny or Ellie have powers but that isnāt going to stop them#Nothing can go wrong ever theyāre sure#Why yes this is inspired by the Ao3 fic Twincognito Mode#Why YES Bruce does in fact think he somehow adjusted the timeline#And Yes Clockwork does do a little nudge to make their IDs & history *pretty* solid#He's back in Long Now eating popcorn and watching his new favorite show
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#the official FX YT channel pinned this comment (their own comment!) under the table scene#someone probably posted this on here already but I just found out this comment exists#gave me a mini meltdown#the bear#sydcarmy#carmy berzatto#sydney adamu#I'm just going to ramble in text about this scene for a bit#if that's ok?#this is my personal favourite scene in the entire show#when I watched it for the first time in 2023#it's like something finally clicked in my brain#about how their relationship is emotionally intimate and their chemistry is absolutely palpable#I felt something had changed between them from that scene in season 2 ep 1 where their at their lockers#and there are the scenes in carmy's apartment and carmy's panic attack#but THIS was the scene where I realized their relationship was something else#the way the camera slowly panning closer and closer to them as the scene continues#come back by pearl jam playing in the background#how the table could be seen as a metaphor for the restaurant with syd and carmy fixing/buliding it from the ground up#how they are SCREWING under the table#their prolonged looks#their voices soft throughout#āI wouldn't even wanna do it without youā#āyou make me better at thisā#āyou're not alone syd...ā#āneither are youā#I just...#can you tell that this scene has been stuck in my head for the past two years and I have alot of thoughts#pairing brainrot 2025
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I want it back / I drag its dead weight forward.
#Better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#This was a style experimentation doodle that took on a life of its own.#In a way it is a great example of 'beautiful failure'. The original goal was to try a pure black and white contrast piece.#Which I very much failed at doing. Not quite ready for that! However what this turned into is something I like a lot!#Different but in a way that really pushed me as an artist. A little less simple; a little more proportional.#I was also recently thinking about LWJ's grieving that we only catch glimpses of.#LWJ grieved his first love for 13 years. His love that was never reciprocated.#He chose to dedicate his heart to that mourning and most painfully of all - he did so knowing there was no end to that grief.#Wei Wuxian comes back to life in MDZS but that is an exception. Not the expectation.#He was dead. Not missing. Not 'maybe in hiding'. He was dead and his spirit unreachable.#Jiang Cheng went forwards with denial but LWJ takes that grief on. He copes by continuing to carry the weight with him.#Let me be clear. Neither are healthy approaches. It is a way to cope but it does not mean that is healing or healthy.#Grief is loved transformed but it is also about endurance and letting go. Grief can change you. You can also change your grief.#It isn't a good or evil thing to experience. It is just an experience.
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DAREDEVIL: BORN AGAIN | 1.09
Nothin' in this world a good cup of coffee can't fix.
#Daredevil Born Again#ddba spoilers#Frank Castle#Karen Page#Kastle#Daredeviledit#Daredevil Spoilers#Not Revolution#GIF set#Mine#Do we think it's the coffee or the handful of pills making you feel good Frank?#FFS. He's eating them like tictacs.#Hopefully that's not something we need to circle back around to later.#I can't imagine he'd let them send him to rehab.#She makes him nervous.#He can't be still with her there. He has to be doing something with his hands.#A decent amount of this scene is just Karen and Frank staring at each other and breathing.#And Matt's reaction to realising something is going on is VERY MATT.#I want (I need) Matt to question Frank on his *intentions* - so we get the parallel of that against his heartbeat conversation with Karen.#I think Matt could to get alot of stupid joy from having something to tease them both about.#I don't know how I expect him to actually feel about the possibility of whatever they have - but I think there are elements here that can b#fun and not serious and dark#I probably would have liked the flow of this season more if there had been framing around how Matt was working through his sh*t#Like each ep has a VO but it's just 20 secs of him talking to Karen's voicemail - keeping her updated. And she never responds but it's#just little thoughts he's had and things he'd say if she was actually there. And some of them are stupid or sarcastic but it's a ritual.#It's keeping him sane.#I read an article today about what they could do with these 3 in S2 and I don't know what to think. I want to have no expectations.#No expectations is safer. But I want more Kastle and as long as neither of them die I don't care how I get it.#(Just no more killing people I like. Writers you tried it. It wasn't great so don't do it again.)#Giffing in this lighting almost did my head in.
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I actually think Dorian and Orym should fight more.
Remember when their slowly building tension over and entire episode (full of passive aggressive remarks and blame throwing) led to threats? And how after, Orym thanked Dorian for handing over the crown sadly because he knew Dorian would be mad at him? And Dorian couldn't even look at him because he was legitimately hurt, thinking Orym was disappointed in him for doing what he thought was right? That was peak.
The fact they went from that to their current closeness and trust is the best part of their entire dynamic. Their relationship was hard fought and still will be. They will fight for it because they respect and care for one another deeply, and their disagreements don't change that, only improve it.
#critical role#cr3#orym#dorian#dorym#text post#cr discourse#'dorian deserved that actually and is being stupid by agreeing with ludinus'#'orym was too mean and needs to be quiet about his trauma'#just say you don't understand their characters#or that they are characters#you don't have to agree with them. they can make decisions you wouldn't make and disagree with#its good tv regardless#dorian didnt deserve that and orym was too harsh#dorian needed to be reminded of the consequences of indulging those ideas and viewpoints and orym is tired of this discussion happening#these things can coexist#neither of them have the whole picture here. we can't judge them based off of what we as viewers know#dorian didn't see first hand what the ruby vanguard has done. only what the spider queen did so thats on his mind more than anything#orym didnt see first hand (nor hear many details) about opal and cyrus. only what the vanguard has been doing to them for months#let them bicker and argue#its the best part#only going near the discourse because i have been waiting years for more of this and bitches on twitter are complaining about it#and often from people who don't even like orym (or sometimes dorian). go back to ignoring them and let me enjoy this moment in peace#i know i am adding to the discourse but i needed to find other people who want more dorym relationship drama before we get more fluff
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really like the idea that shen yuan and shen jiu arenāt two separate people, but rather the same soul existing in different dimensions. shen yuan might think that heās not shen jiu, that he just stole the body and life of shen jiu, but in reality he IS shen jiu, just with different memories.
some people like to think that shen jiu and shen yuan swapped places when they died but i really like the idea of the universe placing shen yuan back in a world he already existed in before, just with new memories now. sort of like a villain redemption arc to give shen yuan the opportunity to make up for his past sins without him even knowing it <3
#there is a fic with this exact concept except shen yuan remembers his time as shen jiu#and then he dies and chooses to go back to the role of shen qingqiu to make things right#and binghe is the og!binghe who ALSO died and got sent back#so they both have their memories of the original pidw while living a new version of it#and neither of them know that the other knows#name and author of the fic is in the comments: itās called unfinished business!#basically i really like that concept but without either binghe or shen yuan knowing that theyāre the āoriginalsā from pidw#like shen yuan thinks heās just some reader who was stuck in a fictional characters body but in reality he has ALWAYS been that character#he just doesnāt know it#itās like reincarnation but instead of getting reincarnated into a new life youāre going to a past one to make up for your sins#now that shen yuanās soul has healed and he CAN make up for his sins#i guess this means the system is god#bingqiu#svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#scum villains self saving system
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yuusha loungewear??? i suppose???
+ more frozen references have at yeā
also the ghosts actually made the outfit for her using ramshackle's curtains and yuusha doesn't really have the heart to get a "better" one (+ she thinks there's nothing particularly wrong with it in her opinion anyway so why bother)
#this is inspired by how the ramshackle ghosts made yuu and grim's halloween outfits#bc omg they can do that??? how sweet š„ŗš#simple (and easy) yet in-character design for yuusha i think#idk i still might give her the ābetterā loungewear in the future šļø#twst loungewear#(š) yuusha tala#(š) curry noodles#(<- barely but hfnsjjs)#anyways imagine book 5 and u see her walking down the hallway in the middle of the night#white lady of balete drive more like white lady of ramshackle dorm#(<- pls look up the former if u donāt know about it or else im gonna sound insane)#the sdc group offering a more proper sleepwear for her#but she refuses#she just wears it for sleep anyway thereās no need to get anything ābetterā#plus who are they to judge what she wears in her own residence š¤Ø#also good morning?? itās wayyy too early for me#i got a stupid nightmare i cant even remember what it was about š#anyways me projecting my problems into yuusha#yuusha beelining to jamilās room after having a nightmare#jamil comforting her#then neither of them realizing they slept in the same bed#i SWEAR i drew/wrote about this before#at least something similar#anyways iām gonna try to go back to eep just for alittlee#(ā§) my art
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ā¦It's nice. You're so noisy. [ā¦] Actually, it'd be better if we died together. That way, neither of us would have to suffer the pain of losing the other, right? Shut up.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 13
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userspicy#userrain#userjjessi#pdribs#*cajedit#*gif#AI DI'S FACE IN THE LAST GIFFFFFF IIIIIIIIII. LOOOOVE. HIIIMMMMM.#this might be the most romantic thing ive ever seen full stop#if you dont want to die with me so neither of us have to live without each other then why would i want you.#(but also ai di would have been okay with that. again. hes like. hes taking what he can get.#he thinks chen yi isnt as All In as he is....and this is the scene he realizes chen yi is just as insane about him and he is SOOOOO. happy!#i also love the face chen yi makes as he's getting in the car while ai di is calling at him to promise. he ROLLS HIS EYES.#he looks at ai di like. SURE jan. SURE ill let you die before me. SUUUURE i wont go insane if you die.#i just love how now theyre completely on the same page with each other. they know how much each loves the other#and both of them are so so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AGH.#'youre so noisy.' 'shut up.' chen yi just wants to kiss (hes laughing & fond & in love & not as good with words & its really. really cute.)#and the way he leans back and clears his throat like he cant believe what he just said but he would never take it back...baby...
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i am this site's biggest earthspark megasound warrior.
they are estranged conjunxes. they were married. megatron left hoping that soundwave would follow. and has the audacity to be shocked pikachu about it all.
both of them know each other far too well- they know how to dig at each other's egos and make them feel like literal shit. they are the married couple who has the nastiest fights you've ever witnessed because neither of them has a filter. they both go for the jugular every time.
but they love each other. the reason why they go for the jugular is because of how ferocious their love is. they know each other inside and out. they know the other's idiosyncrasies, habits, thought patterns, histories, and everything else. its like knowing someone better than you know yourself.
its nasty. its messy. they have insane make up sex. all megatron has to do is apologize. all he's gotta do is fuckin sit on soundwave so he cant escape and force him to talk it out like an adult.
soundwave is reasonable, and every time megatron treats him like he isn't, the angrier he gets.
its the refusal to communicate for meeeeee. its the i love you so much that the line between love and hate is blurred for meeeeeee. its the i would never betray you/i betrayed you for your own good for meeeeeeee.
#yapping#soundwave#megatron#tfe soundwave#tfe megatron#earthspark#megasound#tfe megasound#es megasound#transformers#maccadam#maccadams#your HONOR#THEY ARE MARRIED AND ESTRANGED AND GOING THROUGH A VERY NASTY DIVORCE ALL BECAUSE NEITHER OF THEM CAN APOLOGIZE#im forcing them into a psychiatric padded room and not letting them out until they come to an agreement#and that agreement better be to fix their relationship#otherwise im taking them out back#pew pew#you know?
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read an article that rape by stranger is exceedingly uncommon (some <0.2% lifetime risk they concluded iirc) and that the majority of attacks fail, usually because the victims fight back. in fact, even though all victims were smaller or at most the same size, and all perpetrators were described or deemed on arrest to be in at least average shape, physical resistance was the single most likely factor to end the attack (verbal resistance and screaming for help alone succeeded only ~25% of the time). there was more but essentially all of this is great empirical evidence that the extremely gendered asymmetry of sexual violence is neither an inevitability nor the 'natural' consequence of some unbridgeable strength gap where men can freely abuse their physical superiority over helpless women, but rather simply a matter of male mentality.
(besides this it also suggests that despite what many will unfortunately have you believe, as a woman you are very safe outside, even alone, even at night, and that in the highly unlikely event that something does happen, you are more likely than not capable of fighting him off.)
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exes bucktommy who are fucking in secret... hooking up in the restroom of their karaoke bar because they still have the same friends and they still hang out at the same places. buck agrees to watch jee and whoops look at that, tommy was just dropping off something with chimney and once chimney and maddie leave he just... stays. and fucks buck in their kitchen. eddie lets himself into buck's loft one day and tommy rolls and drops off the bed and stays there till he's sure eddie's gone. buck gets teased about his new hickeys at the station and feels a pang of guilt when hen says maybe he should cover them because tommy is coming over for lunch and the sight of them might just hurt him
#they cant let go off each other but they also dont wanna talk about why and they also dont want others to know because the reason why#they cant let go off each other is clear as daylight#they say they like the secrecy of it and it's all casual and the other can date people if he wants but neither of them do#at least for a long time#then one day one of tommy finds himself agreeing to a date because this thing with buck is getting too hurtful#and when buck learns about this he is DESTROYED#and he fucks tommy about it ofc but also cries in the aftermath#idk they somehow resolve it#a day after getting back together they learn everyone knew anyway#bobby says something about he heard noises from his closet during a nash-grant barbecue and buck wants the ground to open up a lil bit#bucktommy#911#mimi.txt#911 fic
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walk with me.. . .
#hear me out not in a āwouldā way about kali (unless idk)#hear me out in like a let's talk about our deranged headcanons together hand in unlovable hand#do NOT ask me how long ive been thinking about the jale parents crackship. you will not like the answer#crack shipping not withstanding#thinking about their in law dynamic would be so fascinating i feel#mrs stirling runs a vineyard but also has mori phone so she's clearly a hard worker who also likes REALLY nice things just like her son#if jan's a huge mama's boy i can only imagine how much she spoiled him#and she decided to keep the name january rather than put the name she originally intended for him just bc she liked the sound of it#she's probably a bit odd at times but shes easy going#Now Kali on the other hand we know is cold and ruthless---river without the softness and aubrey without the brashness#they would not like each other#kali because mainly they dont like jan's influence on river and mrs stirling because they just seem so cruel#the common ground they CAN agree on however is that their children are too headstrong for their own good.#that neither of them know where that ambition came from but seeing it grow in river and jan respectively is something either of them would#almost say they were proud of#if not concerned#/ rant over#the mars house#my art#fanart#art#natasha pulley#pulleyverse#okay... back to the wips cave i go...
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