#DearDiary

[tansdiary]

anyone else struggling to sleep? struggling to go on with their day? struggling to speak or draw or write or work? to eat and to enjoy? struggling to live, to be enough, and to take care of yourself!? because i am and it's killing me, killing me like a slow deadly painful poison. please let me know i'm not alone in this very moment. give me your hand and keep it on the palms of mine, let me feel better, at least, for a while.

[catinaltar]

Dear Anna (my constant, the one I turn to when life gets heavy, when joy overflows, when I need to make sense of it all.)

I always end up prioritizing these people. What is it that I'm still not learning? Maybe I already know. Maybe I'm just walking there slowly. Little steps. This time I didn't put her on a pedestal. I watched. I observed. I gave it space. Still, I let her in too deep. Gave parts of myself I should've kept close. My heart feels heavy. Because I really had love for her. I wanted to build something solid. And now I just feel... tired, maybe heartbroken ? Just worn the fuck out. But you'd be proud, Anna. This time, I communicated. Clearly. Cleanly. Without shrinking myself into something digestible. And I'm proud of me too. Relieved, maybe? That I didn't abandon myself this time. That's something. That's a start.

[itsalaafromgaza]

Is there a purpose to beauty when only shadows feel it?

📍Gaza

[booshoos]

i carved hearts into my knees, delicate lines only i could read— a quiet promise to love, to hold my body, my skin, my soul as my own.

i wanted, so fiercely, to love myself enough to break apart,

spilling inside out,

so i could cradle the tender pieces of me that had been waiting too long to be held.

[beatsboy]

transition timeline for 2 years out, 1 year on hrt :’) feeling very sad in the trans community lately, don’t normally post the before part or my face on this app but this felt like the right time to do both. i mourn the boys who do not get to live the rest of their stories.

[daisydenim1967]

I just wanna cut off everyone —all of my friends and family everyone that knows me. It’s like I have the urge to disappear—not be forgotten, but live as a memory in their heads. I hate the image that they have of me. I wanna go far away n create the image I want for myself not the image others want for me.

[shimmmmyyy]

[tansdiary]

here's me wishing again for the nights to be longer. to be all mine. in a secret play with me that the world will never know of.

—february twenty three, twenty twenty five

[betweenthelips50cm]

i do not know love yet when love finds me i will know her, when i feel her warm hands and a heartbeat to match mine. until then, universe watch over me

[itsalaafromgaza]

If I’m gone, let me be a memory, not among the broken streets that have lost our steps, not in the places that no longer hold us. Those alleys of Gaza, where we once laughed, have crumbled; the walls that knew us have faded to dust.

But if you stand by the sea, look to it and remember.

They can take everything from us, but they cannot take the sea. In its endless rhythm, I will linger—a part of the life we all shared, a trace of the world we once knew. When all else is forgotten, let the sea carry our story, our last witness to who we were.

[imjusthereforthegayness]

I have….mixed feelings about Jojo. I know she’s a young adult, everybody has different stages that they go through, she’s literally been controlled throughout her entire life, etc. the way she treats people, the cheating, lying, love bombing, etc isn’t okay. It’s kind of crazy that simply because she’s famous everyone knows everything all. the. time.

currently though I need to get my jojo brain vomit out.

think Chris and Jojo are just very all over each other type of people. example: Chris and Kem - Jojo and Ezra. I’m really thinking though that he’s use to this type of setting and found someone that he could attach to but then she become “confused” as she said. The way it happened on live tv for her then partner to see - super shitty but being confused is a normal thing that A LOT of people go through. It takes YEARS for some people to realize how they identify, who they like, etc. what I think is super crazy and crappy that I haven’t seen anyone mention is where they are both actually at towards each other. She keeps saying like super gushy stuff to him, love you, etc but I don’t really see it being reciprocated. Maybe later but not in those moments. Now I didn’t watch the show - the clips could be taking that part out but that is what is making me feel like she thinks it’s more and it might really not be.

Second side note, while I again have mixed feelings about her I feel like she needs to have her own space away from her mother.

[beatsboy]

i dont need to talk to my ex i can get all my toxic needs met by annabel lee and lenore every time i take a shit

[daisydenim1967]

born to be a lamb forced to be a girl :(

[lily-in-sun]

النهاردا كان الجو جميل :)

[uniquenightdaze]

Day 59 of 2025

Dear Diary,

I always feel better after crying... I don't understand how it works but it does feel less heavy after crying. I'm starting to feel a little frustrated again, but my only consolation is that business is okay, I'm getting patronage. My only frustration is that I feel lonely and my love life is always a mess , I wish I had my own person someone I could talk to all day , my best friends are there but they all have their special person they talk to. Every damn time I feel like I'm fine and I'm not interested in being with someone but by God! I really want to but I don't want to be hurt again.

[tansdiary]

oh, how i long for the wintry winds to kiss me in the dark nights!

—february six, twenty twenty five