#I don’t know how to write headcanons.

[ittybittymarblekitty]

You know what? Fluff you. *tells you about my oc’s age regression even though nobody on this blog knows anything about him*

🩵• No designated age. He is just tiny for the sake of being tiny

🦋• Regresses due to trauma and the fact that he barely had an actual childhood

🩵• incredibly talkative in littlespace

🦋• owns at least 5 pacis

🩵• when he’s big, he’s a musician. when he’s little, he’s binge watching Little Einsteins like it’s nobody’s business

🦋• does not have a designated caregiver. More often than not, however, he lets his best friend watch over him.

🩵• oil in sippy cups. he is a robot.

🦋• when you’re in a being eepy competition and your opponent is this little babyman

🩵• likes cuddles, like a lot. he already likes them when he’s big. so when he’s little he’s basically like a magnet. If he cuddles with you then you are NOT leaving anytime soon

🦋• he can get a little hyper sometimes but overall he’s an absolute sweetheart

[astrxsee]

mdni 18+

the sounds of johnny’s cock slamming into you filled the room. all you could feel was his large, muscular chest pushing you flat into the mattress. the only sounds you could get out were loud, sloppy moans as he slaps your ass again.

‘god, bonnie, gonna have tae fill this pussy righ’ up’

he barks into your ear, cock throbbing inside your tight walls. his hands are wrapped around the back of your neck with his elbows wrapped around your arms, holding you in a tight chokehold. your eyes go wide as he starts to speed up..

‘johnny, don’t cum inside me!’

you beg, your voice almost an incoherent whimper as you feel his thrusts beginning to stutter. you weren’t on birth control, he knew that!

‘johnny, please!’

you practically beg as he rams into you with one final thrust, his hands roughly pushing your head into the pillow. with a groan, he pulls out quickly, releasing hot ropes of his cum onto your plush ass and thighs.

exhausted, he plops down on top of you, his cum that was supposed to be inside you smearing against his front. his lips planting a sloppy kiss to the back of your neck.

‘johnny, you know you can’t cum inside.’

you pout, slapping the side of his thigh. he mumbles something incoherent into your hair, his lips leaving lazy kisses on the side of your neck.

‘i know, bon,’ he pauses, ‘just gets me off so easy when you’re scared.’

[rororowyourboat18]

My headcanon (heart-canon) that Mickey is Ian’s peace goes hand and hand with my headcanon that he is also Ian’s safe space. 

Mickey is the safe space Ian needs when dealing with bipolar episodes.

As soon as Mickey found out that Ian was bipolar, he immediately took it as just another one of his responsibilities.  It was a given to him that they would deal with it together.  Fiona suggested having Ian committed, but Mickey was not having it. Yes, it would be tough to deal with, but Ian is not a burden to him, and they would work through the episodes together.

When Ian was manic, Mickey provided a safe environment for him have his episode.  When Ian wanted to kill the homophobes, he helped rein in the “crazy” and provided an alternative.  Instead of murder, just your regular old run of the mill blackmail would do.  He didn’t try to stop Ian because he knew that wouldn’t be possible, but instead helped him through his episode in a manner that was less risky.

I just know that if he would have been around during Ian’s Gay Jesus era, Ian wouldn’t have ended up in prison.  Mickey would have helped him accomplish his goals in a less destructive manner while he found a way to express his concerns over it being a manic episode.

Because, unlike others, Mickey’s first reaction is NOT to ask about meds, but instead to observe and see how he can help Ian through whatever he is going through.  We see this when he observes that Ian is feeling down about losing his shitty warehouse job.  He does ask about meds but only after spending the entire day together and giving Ian something else to focus on.  Mickey knows that sometimes Ian needs him to be chaotic so Ian can get out of his own head and focus on whatever nonsense Mickey is doing.

However, Mickey knew when it was time to get outside help. The summer that they were living together he researched, and he was willing to ask Lip more about looking for outside help.  When Ian did the porno Mickey was mad because of the cheating, but I also think he realized that he could no longer provide the safe space Ian needed.  Ian went and did this extremely unsafe thing in a place where he, Mickey, couldn’t protect him.   

Mickey allows Ian to have feelings and emotions.  He doesn’t immediately label Ian’s joy and energy as mania or label his sadness and anger as a depressive episode. Mickey observers and tries to understand Ian.  Just because Ian is bipolar doesn’t mean that he can’t have extreme emotions like any other person.  It doesn’t mean that he can’t have an off days.

So Mickey Safe Space Milkovich, knows his husband and understand that sometimes he has to be a concerned husband and sometimes he has to be the shit-talking, bitch-slapping piece of south side trash Ian fell for.

Okay time to get off my soapbox 🤗

[gemgdynamxght]

i’ve never posted anything, ever. but i have a headcanon so…

OKAY this might have already been written in the vestiges and nooks of the never-dying, long-suffering BBC’s Merlin fandom. And it has definitely been thought but

Arthur heals a lot faster than others - whether it’s from sickness or minor wounds and injuries. Merlin canonically SUCKS at healing spells but tries to do what he can when he sees Arthur wounded and he’s like helping him change and stuff or putting gauze on it.

Also im a strong believer in the fact that Merlin is Emrys and has an insane, unlimited supply of magic so he could definitely learn healing spells. I’d think at some point he’d start learning them to heal Arthur faster but in a way that it wasn’t suspicious, not like “oh i had a massive scar cut into my arm and now it’s suddenly gone” but more like “huh that healed quicker than i thought it would”

Also I’d like to think Leon notices that Arthur heals quicker but doesn’t comment on it.

[asexualasshat]

Okay but what if Buck is still apartment hunting and he’s with Athena and he’s talking about the struggle. And she’s commiserating because with her decision to sell the house, she’s not having an easy time finding somewhere to settle. So long story short they decide to move in together.

They find a decent two bedroom place. And they actually make pretty good roommates is the thing. Despite being young and impulsive, Buck is tidy and happy to cook when he’s home. She loves that she still gets to come home to her husband’s recipes. Despite being a mother figure, she doesn’t boss him around at home. Respects his boundaries but is also always there to talk to, about almost anything. They grow closer as friends.

And the thing is that as his friend, he’s been talking to Athena about Eddie. She knows he didn’t really want to leave the Diaz home, even if he is happy to live with her. And Buck doesn’t ever say it, but she knows what she sees and she knows what her husband always told her about them. She knows they’re in love, and obviously as his friend, his mother figure and his damn roommate she is gonna make sure this boy. Her husband’s son. Gets with the man of his dreams. Her husband might not have gotten to see it happen, but it’s never too late.

One way or another she does it the boys confess they are in love They start dating . and obviously it’s a beautiful relationship, but also Buck loves living with Athena and Athena loves living with Buck. their lease is coming to an end in a few months. And of course Buck wants to move in with Eddie and Eddie wants the exact same thing. But he’s heartbroken about leaving Athena.

Eddie has to think about it for all of three seconds before he’s like. “ we could live with Athena. But but we gotta find such a big house.”

And they do. Eddie’s savings have had time to recover, especially with the sale of his El Paso house. Buck is doing pretty all right for himself and Athena is Athena. So they do pretty all right. Either it’s a big house with a lot of bedrooms and one of them on the other side of the house from the others, or it’s a three bedroom with one of those small apartments in the backyard. Though only two of the five household members are related to each other. It’s still a beautiful home full of love.

[snowgrieve]

taking these lyrics and reinterpreting them as dessriel… asriel knowing he should try to move past dess’ disappearance, he’s moved away for college, new town new people new life and yet… he still hasn’t stopped thinking about her. the thoughts still consume every fibre of his being, it hurts, losing his childhood best friend, his closest confidant,,, to have no idea if she’s still alive, if being hopeful is even worth anything after so long… it’s a never ending cycle whenever he’s reminded of her. and so many things do. she’s in a new song he hears on the radio while trying to find his favourite station, she’s in a pair of combat boots he saw at a thrift store, in a bracelet forgotten in the pocket of a jacket he had let her borrow. it still brings him to the brink. the distant memories of a budding relationship, so many what if’s, stolen from them. good things don’t last, and life after she left was like a falling row of dominoes, crushing one part of his life after the other. nothing will ever be the same again.

[kimsiwimsi]

Wrench hates CB/BV’s GUTS! She hates him because she can never rest anymore..

Wrench: “YOU!”

CB: *looks around* “me?”

Wrench: “you motherf- argh I can’t cuss, Electra installed shock collars… WHATEVER, you, I HATE YOU! You ruined my LIFE!”

CB: *acting innocent* “well what is the problem?”

Wrench: “The problem is that after Electra moved to this train yard, I, yes ME, I am the only repair truck around. And SOMEONE keeps derailing trains for f-… christs sake!! And now I have to repair them! Every waking moment of my life I am repairing wrecked trains you… you-”

CB: “That sounds tiring… Why does that involve me?” *still acting innocent*

Wrench: “you know what you did. Oh I’m gonna get you….” *she says and rolls away while glaring at him.*

[quinn-pop]

let’s do some autistic meta knight headcanons!! over explaining my interpretation of meta knight yet again wooooo

this orb has NO idea how to talk to people!!! outside of work anyway. a lot of this is partially due to upbringing (suppressing his emotions all the time) but he does not know how to express emotions, like…at all.

this goes into a few things

1. yeah talking is hard. even after figuring out what he wants to communicate he will struggle. conversation can be so overwhelming, especially under pressure. he will need time lol

2. because of that, forming connections is hard. i really don’t think meta is much for shallow relationships, and certainly not early in the timeline. which also means he has very little experience with friendship. so a lot of the relationships he did have went kinda neglected, and issues that probably could’ve been worked on by talking became…*cough romk* escalated.

3. honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if meta convinced himself he couldn’t feel emotion (anymore) until like. katam-ish. he tried very hard lol

vulnerability is terrifying. (though this gesture here is also just comforting, like his little cape cocoon thing he does.)

unmasking—yeah im taking the mask thing very literally here—is a big deal and a very slow process for mk. i’m sure he has a lot of feelings on that lol. it served as a way to ensure no one could ever, y’know, see him.

i can’t say i think he’d ever fully ditch it—there’s always gonna be some days that are more stressful than others and if having it could help him get through it, it just makes sense. mainly when working.

it really is about vulnerability. granted, i don’t think he has the most expressive face (in my head every astral just tends to stare at things) but i doubt he has much control over it. can’t fake a smile but also can’t hide it. probably blushes easy because yeah, astrals; just look at kirby’s face.

just the idea that someone might be able to read his expression and know what he’s feeling before he’s ready for them to (or even understands it himself…) yeah he doesn’t want that

but emotional turmoil aside, i think his mask also hides a lot of his stims

remember that whole “suppressing your feelings” thing? yeah turns out that ignoring half your instincts isn’t a good idea. so in true meta knight style, he tries to stim as subtly as possible

1. he has the least control over his wings, so they will flick and twitch on their own. they’re usually a good indicator of how he’s feeling, not unlike the body language usually seen in cat ears and tails lol. flapping is also an extension of this of course, though he probably suppresses it more.

2. this also effects when he takes his wings out. pretty much every time he’s excited or nervous it just happens. kinda makes me wonder if his wing cape ordeal might also go into the suppression thing… (i’d say yes, but using a cape is also very comforting so it’s not necessarily a bad thing)

3. going back to the mask thing; he stims a lot underneath it. think like biting or pursing your lips. he bites his tongue and clicks his mouth. that sort of thing. his mask also makes it harder to notice that he is constantly sighing, humming, grumbling…all that

one nice thing about the mask though is that it helps a little bit with lights!!! woo

(look at him and his magically floating glasses)

sensory stuff—i think he’s mostly bothered by light and sound. maybe a bit of texture. he’s pretty sensory avoidant and perfectly happy standing off to the side not touching anything.

the one exception to this is physical affection, which is, despite all of this, most of how he shows affection. it’s a lot easier to hug someone than to try to explain your feelings for them, after all.

i think he would like pressure though. so that’s probably part of it. and i’m pretty sure there’s some connection in here to fighting (dang, is that the only way he knows how to get his energy out?)

anyway, pretty much all of this is in contrast to kirby, who i would gladly nominate as the champion of Doing Whatever He Wants. he might pick up a few bad habits, but he will never mask the way meta knight does. he might not understand how he feels, but he’s in tune enough to express it…usually.

this is a very good thing for meta because it helps him to do the same thing. kirby’s so energetic, it’s hard to not want to stim with him. it reminds meta to be kinder to himself and explore his own emotions. he can also help kirby understand themselves, so this connection is very important.

yeah, at the end of the day, everything kinda just boils down to kirby and mk as parallels

this is the conclusion i promise

to me, meta’s arc is about growing stronger by growing kinder, and this is mostly by learning to be kind to himself. letting himself be a person again, loving and understanding other people, and eventually, letting go of all the expectations placed on him and doing the things he’s always wanted to do…

autism headcanons are fun for me because it’s cathartic to write, but at the same time, it just makes sense in this sort of narrative. meta is, to me, inseparable from these things. and so is kirby! that’s a dynamic that’s a lot of fun to play with, and it’s at the heart of my kirby interpretation.

if you actually read all this WOW thank you

[ficandkaboodle]

🩵 Did it hurt? 🩵

Did it hurt when you inevitably stumbled upon the thought that part of why Copia might’ve wanted to be Papa so much was less about the power and more about being loved?

Like, he was absolutely raised like an orphan within the church, I think we can all agree on that in the face of Ghost’s clunky lore. And dudes more likely than not has the ‘tism in him so he was an oddball and very likely an outcast on so many fronts.

But then he began to notice how revered Papa was. How respected the position was, how drawn to Papa people were. Men and women and everyone in-between threw themselves at his feet and looked to him for guidance. And that’s just from the more immediate congregation and other ministry locations — where to even begin when it comes to the adoration pouring in from fans of the Ghost Project?!

And when you’re desperate enough, you’ll latch onto anything with the conviction that this. This will be what saves me from a lifetime of loneliness and being misunderstood. If I can just do this, become this, I can have a family of some kind. I will be surrounded by people who will have to stay by me and acknowledge me and see me as important.

If I become Papa, I will have control. I will be seen. I will be loved.

Yeah so anyway, how did it feel when you first thought that?

[thenaturalorderbaby]

random prompts (since i probably won’t ever write more then one/two/three shots of the chaos fam and I can’t write nsfw(not because(almost adult=15-19 ) but because it’s hard to write) for writers out there

Non nsfw

Agatha tries a new spell and it goes a bit….. wrong, let’s just say Agatha accidentally summons a swarm (like hundreds!) of tiny skeletons. Rio walks in then smirks and cackles, “My lady!, why is there hundreds of tiny u-" Agatha glares at her………..

Rio (because she lady death and spent the last few centuries chasing her love) is awful awful with technology and can’t how to use a smart phone

Agatha and Billy prank the whole coven and let’s just say it goes a bit wrong (magic and all)

Agatha walks Rio around like a dog(not literally) and the coven laugh but only she is allowed to embarrass her wife so she hexes them(lightly)

Prompts with bits NSFW Below

nsfw-not fully explicit but still a bit (I think ?🤔)

Agatha gets pounced on by Rio as she steps out of the shower into the bedroom wearing only a towel

During naky time Rio carves her name into Agatha rib side then heals it and does it again

Agatha always tops Rio

Their first time, Rio as death never needed or had wanted to before and Agatha has done it a few times with neighboring girls and Rio needs a lot of aftercare after the first time

[whatudottu]

Honestly I’d love to see the Ben 10 fandom go more in-depth as to what the galactic audience’s thoughts regarding interspecies relationships and what dynamics formed between different species are like. Is dating To'kustars or Galvans when you’re not a To’kustar or Galvan frowned upon due to the severe height difference involved? Are there debates on whether it’s ethical to date a Vulpimancer or not? Is a Galvan dating a Galvanic Mechamorphs seen as a power imbalance? What would a romantic relationship between a Petrosapien and a Tetramand be like, or a queerplatonic one between an Ectonurite and a Lepidopterran be like, or even a platonic/familial one between a Kineceleran and a Pyronite?

Heheh, I really like thinking about the interplanetary community and it’s dynamics throughout the cosmos in the Ben 10 series, because I dunno it’s like rife with potential for worldbuilding and I guess political drama? Because apparently I like fictional political drama? I guess when it’s fictional it doesn’t affect anyone so it can be played around with in interesting ways.

Got some talking points down below hehe-

I have like SO MANY headcanons about how the interplanetary community treats vulpimancers, though to be fair I have like an unrefined list of notes about the chronology of Vulpin politics and ideologies that I haven’t neatened up yet, and one of those headcanons is the difficulties they face trying to prove themselves just as sapient as the other species; amongst all the bullshit that does bring, interspecies relationships are also affected by that bias. And the fact that you bring up the implied dynamic between creator (the galvan) and creation (galvanic mechamorphs) is interesting too because also, you can kinda also have debates about ‘is it ethical to date the first generation of a species’ especially in comparison to galvans who seem to have quite long lives, ‘is it ethical for a long living species to date a species by all means younger in their entirety than they are’ type questions-

It also isn’t just like the general interplanetary community though it’s also just the differing planetary communities (with their differing nations etc etc until we get to the individual) that also butt heads with each other- an ectonurite’s family really REALLY pushing for them to ‘get together’ with their queerplatonic lepidopterran partner before they have to host a funeral one day vs the lepidopterran having to explain to their hive that they’re happy with their ectonurite partner especially without the pressure of it being romantic there’s so many others that can and do *coughs into hand* ‘contribute’ to the hive population! Or or! The kineceleran not giving two shits about their pyronite sibling from another… pibling? Ah whatever- being so frickin’ slow because they can both bond over sports vs the pyronite wanting to share one of their thrill seeking traditions from back home with a race in their stunt car against their kineceleran cuz’ own personal wheels!

Lowkey I kinda made at least a concept for a tetramand/petrosapien couple which I based on a pseudo sumo wrestling match I saw at school once where one of the participants was slammed into the ground but they quickly switched their positions to roll the person on top so fast the crowd thought THEY were the one to win and not the person they flipped who won first- I mean! In my sphere of headcanons about petrosapiens and Petropia is that they barely got much chance to interact with the universe at large (being cracked open by the fulmini before Plumber intervention set them off plus doing something similar but… a little MORE to what they did on Revonnah) and so modern interplanetary discussions about any petrosapien relationship is ‘i thought they were extinct?’ and especially with tetramands intense courtship it may even skip straight to ‘oh they might as well be extinct’. Not exactly pleasant to hear, compounded by the rare potential someone happens to know - to put it in gross terms - a ‘suitable mate’ with the opposite sex of the petrosapien they’re pestering. At that point you’d better hope it wasn’t the tetramand/petrosapien pair because if the petrosapien doesn’t stab you over the offence, the tetramand would put you in your place, as legally able to as they’d can just to piss them off :P

Do you think if a galvan and a to’kustar were dating it’d be considered a ‘long distance relationship’ :P?

[dragon-queen21]

Hehehe.. hehehehe

Im back.... (Hope you're having a nice day!!!)

... thank you for the ysopp idea because im totally making it so he's trying to deny himself the idea that sanji could possibly ever ever be ill, and tries to gaslight himself bc he's terrified of the illness the baby may have... hehehe...

Ilove strawhat angst i say sillily!!! /non serious

But i also, would LOVE to yap about possibly all the baby strawhats (i dunno how u feel abt padded regressors but uh.. theyr mentions.)…

UH ANYWAY!!

I kinda feel like out of all the strawhats, i think only luffy and sanji would be padded littles

Luffy bc he’d simply forget, which i see alot in other fics with hyperactive littles i am not like, in ownership (???) of this hc.. but i also feel like luffy would have like a younger middle headapace in like 5/7 so its like its okay..

(This is everywhere bc i hust wanna yap and i… i like yapping to you bc you have awwaome ideas ^_^!!!)

But er, on that i feel like nami would be a middle regressor being anywhere from like 7-9??? Younger when she has the chance.. also that she bought a giant tangerine that she loves to lay on in little space !! (Also little her has a fear of fishmen so sometimes when jinbe gets a little too close she’ll cry 😞)

Nd also robin being a regressor fills me with joys. Um 4 yr old robin for the win!! (Her range is prolly a whole load older —> 3-14 i thinksie？）Nd caregiver franky who obviously favors robin with building her toys nd such!!!! She doesnt cry often but wheb she does its never a tantrum, simply quiet tears and being cradled by franky. She isnt bothered by much.

Little zoro >.>!!! I think i mentioned it before but he refuses to admit he’s ever littler than sanji, so sometimes when sanji regresses, he’ll regress too bc he knows he’ll usually be in a bigger headspace than sanji. (Sanji doesnt mind, he likes having a bug brother.)

But i think zoro would regress to abt 4-10 maybe? Usually being a little higher because he just.. does. Also i think he likes teethers compared to pacis, or chewlery simply cause he thinks pacifiers are for babies.. and he’s not a baby!! (He is)

HAHA!! Baby usopp. I think he regresses to anywhere around 7. But he also goes like way way low sometimes. Like to 2/3.. he likes to watch franky build stuff when he’s tiny, and franky will give him little tasks!!!

And finally 🙏🙏🙏 (SORRY THIS IS SO LONG)

Sanji. Littlest crew member, going from 0-4 (maybe 5 on a good day)!! He probably perfers nami bc sometimes her orange hair makes him think its his mom (who was blond how’d he get that idea?? Oda same face syndrome maybe, anyway..) but he will always seek her out, because she reminds him the most of like safety.

If not her than zoro, because the green reminds him if seaweed. He likes anything ocean like. (Post timeskip i think he likes jinbe alot bc jinbe = fish)!!!

Also i think sanji also has a thing where ince in a blue moon he regresses older than zoro, which makes him think he is pretty often, so sometimes the two babies argue with babbles

“N’ m’ bigger!!” -sanji

“.. then why d’yiu have a paci”- zoro (said VERY proudly)

*sanji looks at his pacifier clip and tries to take it off to no avail, so he just plops himself on the floor and throws a tantrum*.

Hahaha!!

Little strawhat hc’s amke me happy.

(Im sorry im a huge yapper)

~Absolutely nothing to apologize for! I absolutely love getting long rambles like these. Always reminds me of all the shows I need to get back into watching (kinda stopped watching after Thriller Bark because like I hate that arc so much) Also, also because I can then ramble just as much! >:3

~You’re welcome! Glad my ramblings could give you ideas to use :D (Also I am just as much of a sucker for straw hat angst, specifically Usopp, Sanji and Luffy so I take whatever opportunity I can to ramble about it.)

~Also padded regression is just kinda ehh for me. I’m cool with it, can’t write about it for the life of me, I’ve tried to, and usually don’t talk about it much because I don’t want a bunch of disgusting blogs attracted to me over something that is innocent. So long story short- I’m fine with you, (or anyone) talking about it and I will ramble some ideas given the chance.

~Okay onto the actual rambling now!!

~Adding Nami to that list of padded littles, because I feel like after being stuck with Arlong and being forced to make maps and meet a deadline at such a young age I feel like either she wasn’t given the time to go to the bathroom regularly enough, or simply forgot to getting so caught up on making maps and buying back her village. (I can go into this idea a lot more, but it is kinda heavy on the child abuse side of things so I won’t)

~It’s an idea that Robin gave to her, at first suggesting wearing a diap for her periods when regressed because it’s just easier, and then realizing she finds a lot of comfort in it. Also tangerine themed nappies. I rest my case

~Aww thank you <3<3<3

~First of all, Jinbe is so dad coded and I think it hurts him to his core that Nami is afraid of him. He’s sulking whenever the little is crying because of him and he wants to try so hard to make her feel safe but trauma isn’t that easy to overcome. (dang this is turning into just a regressor Nami post isn’t it?)

~I love regressor Robin, specifically as a trauma regressor. She’s… struggling a lot, and even regressed is not that typical child. Franky counterbalances her so perfectly as a caregiver. Just- silly older brother trying everything to get Robin to laugh. Robin meanwhile is just very unamused most of the time. Though I think that

~Zoro comparing himself to Sanji, is one very in character for him, but also like- You’re aware you are comparing your regression to the literally baby on the ship, right??? Saying your older than him doesn’t mean much when he’s 95% of the time regressed to baby space <- Usopp probably, or Franky

~Pfft- Okay the part with Oda made me laugh. Casually breaks the 4th wall. I think that Nami can be so maternal when she wants to be and that’s a big reason that Sanji is drawn to her. (I mean I also headcanon that Usopp mistook Robin as his mom once for like a split second so yeah… poor boys miss their mamas :< )

~Again papa Jinbe 👏 I haven’t actually met him yet in canon, but someone will have to pry that headcanon away from my cold dead body /lh He just, is so hug shaped. I love him…

~Sanji just babbling to the fishman who is trying, so hard, to understand what he’s being told. Something about the All Blue… probably? Possibly?? Maybe??? Someone get Nami or Robin, the poor guy is trying over here but he needs a baby translator.

~Sanji is the king of tantrums actually. Someone just let the baby cry.

~Also imaging a very ticked Nami just popping a pacifier into either Luffy or Usopp’s mouth when they start going off about something. Sixth sense of whenever one of her crewmates is over tired and starting to slip, it still startles them because they weren’t even aware that they were starting to feel small. But also just an easy way to get them to shut up /lh

[twojamie-o-clock]

I literally said I should delete all social media for a month because it’s ruining my art HOWEVER. consider polly and two, if you will, and how they are always there for each other even when they’re not.

almost immediately after two regenerates, polly accepts him. she’s confused and lost and probably more than a little upset and thrown into a Dalek story which he does little to be clear about, and she accepts him. she entertains his passing interests and urges throughout the story, and she constantly points out to Ben how this must be the Doctor, if only because he’s taken the place of the last one. this new doctor who is wild and intense and tactile and also even more mysterious and confusing than the past one. this doctor who doesn’t even seem to know who he himself is yet. Polly comforts and helps even when she doesn’t really know what has happened; she sees what’s in front of her and works with it.

It’s not seamless, but they get each other. not all the time. but they are there - polly is there, in the most vulnerable moment - when there were not many others to be there for one another. and of course it’s not perfect, but they do click, they do turn to each other, they do work together in ways that ben and jamie learn to (that the s4 team splits into pretty much every pair for various reasons is what makes it so interesting. like Polly and Ben and Jamie and the Doctor have their own relationships and being so so deeply intertwined to the point of like. love parallels if you want. and then ben and jamie serve as the male companions together who tend to get beat up, who don’t always agree but always have each other’s backs, who remind each other where they are, while two and polly are generally more ,,,,, well this is me gender projecting onto two because I want her gender, but they do click like that. and then Polly is Jamie’s reference for his first few adventures in the tardis. meanwhile Ben and the Doctor uh. I’ll think about them more later.) and while of course Jamie does end up being the doctor’s go-to for physical affection, you still see a greater deal of it with Polly and the Doctor that’s not quite present in non-granddaughter figures before. I feel like they care about each other in a “I’ve seen you at your lowest and I don’t really know much else about you but I’ll be here, if you need it,” way which never goes insanely deep because (as I’ve kind of already yapped about on the trans fic but) they also rely on words alongside their brief affection in a way that two and jamie don’t.

anyway. they grow with and on each other. and then you cut to the faceless ones………..while Polly and Ben obviously have been wanting to go home, they aren’t expecting/in control of it when it happens. so they’ll leave, yes, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t leave them with a bitter taste……a hasty goodbye, not enough thought, not enough words. [60s who departure voice] quick. two seconds before the doctor’s urge to adventure takes hold. you have two seconds to summarize what the past year(?) of your life has meant to you…..

….and afterwards, well, how does Polly sit with that? She wants to travel. She wants to keep moving, keep going, never stop. But she also cannot bear thinking of the doctor and everything she was, in a way, forced to leave behind when the choice was brought in front of her so abruptly. she wants to push away her own rejection of that life (and, by association, Ben, if you’re a “do you dream in color” fan……again why that story’s characterizations are golden. ben is everything the tardis was, of course she cannot stay with him. of course she cannot give him up.) but she couldn’t betray herself by ignoring all of it, so she travels. and that really does feel like her carrying two with her in the only ways she can. and the Doctor, well, he carries on living even more true to himself across s5-6, taking more and more bold, interfering steps as he actively chooses to intervene and rescue those in a way the first doctor did not. as he rebels even further from gallifrey and the time lords, as he accepts parts of him he might never understands just as Polly did.

they’re not always together, and they don’t always get it. but they hold onto each other, in their worst of times, or in the best, just that little bit, because they were there for each other, and they’ll always be.

[imavikingo]

Steve Rogers was a lot of things, but a two faced son-of-a-bitch he was not, have some respect for his mother Sarah. Thank you very much.

What he was though, is a liar.

He has lied plenty, more times than he can even remember.

Every time he arrived home with a new bruise before his mom, and stayed in his room until she was gone again he said he was A-ok, only tired.

All the times Bucky asked if he was fine after a fight, and if he was having fun after another rejection by a pretty dame. He said he was just peachy.

When he was on death’s door he said it was nothing.

He lied more than what he was willing to admit (Steve from New Jersey ring a bell?)

Every time people expected him to be the ideal man with a plan, THE Captain America, he just faked a smile and performed how they wanted him to.

Lie, after lie, fake smile after fake smile.

He was so tired of pretending. At least he used to lie for better reasons before, and for himself.

He was what they needed him to be now, and more times than not people didn’t need Steve.

No one seemed to see HIM after being defrosted either: Steven Grant Rogers, the person behind Captain America. They only saw what they wanted to see and expected to hear.

Thats why he didn’t try and be friends with his teammates after the New York incident. Thats why he let them do those shitty “educational videos” for high schoolers.

Thats why he stayed alone for the most part.

(Nick Fury didn’t let him be either, what an asshole).

They needed him, they wanted him. But not really, right? Because Captain America is an ideal, a superhero. It isn’t HIM really.

Steve Rogers is only a man after all, tired, lonely, a sad man out of time.

Who would need HIM?

Thats why he tried to contact Peggy and have a somewhat relationship with her again. He didn’t care if it was based on “what ifs” at this point and that she was old. He needed something, someone from his past, anything at this point that made him feel like Steven Grant Rogers, human again. Maybe she would need him in some way?

Once he knew she couldn’t even remember him for the most part, he went back to square one.

He missed her, the old her. The strong independent woman that she was, and sometimes he lamented the fact he didn’t give her the coordinates in time. Maybe he would have had a good life with her by his side. If he only loved her so…

Maybe he wouldn’t feel like dying in this new scary and terrifying world every single day.

Thats why he came back alive when he saw Bucky again.

Bucky was his home, his everything, always was, always will be. He never thought he would have another chance to be near him again.

So he once again became Steve Rogers. Sure before Buck he was friendly with Sam and he had a cordial relationship with Nat. But after knowing of Bucky’s existence in the present (he’s alive, he’s here) did he became friends with them.

He fought with tooth and nails for Bucky, because he wouldn’t let anyone tear them apart again. Not even the man himself (not matter what Sam said about co-dependency. What did he knew anyways?)

When Buck wanted to stay in cryo Steve wanted to scream and cry in his face. But didn’t, because he knew Bucky needed it, needed to have his own choices and for them to be respected.

So once again he started to lie. He didn’t want to make his friends worry about him after all, he was fine. Bucky was the one that needed all the attention, not him.

Then… The battle of Wakanda happened and…

Never in a million years Steve would have thought he would lie to himself without knowing.But he did, and for literal years until present.

See? Steve didn’t know he was in love with his best friend until he lost him for the sixth fucking time. He knew he loved him, but not that he was in love with him. He didn’t realize, but even then he couldn’t admit it. He was terrified, so he replaced his name with Peggys, even on his mind.

That was safer, more “normal”. He knew people weren’t that homophobic anymore but… he wasn’t a regular Joe, right? No. That would be a disaster.

Even if he didn’t have the mantle of Captain America anymore, he was horrified. He didn’t even want to think about Bucky that way. So he started to lie to himself.

He has lied to everyone else for literal decades, what was lying to himself now?

And well… talking about deluding himself and lying… he couldn’t let himself think that Bucky and Sam were… they weren’t! They could change things, they needed to bring them back. Bring him back.

So they planned and they succeeded, for the most part (Only at the cost of one of his best friends and people he cared about).

Steve was so happy once he knew he had Bucky with him again (he’s fine, he’s alive). But he couldn’t forget about what he now knew about himself. And couldn’t let himself be distracted by any of that, after all there was also a hole Nat and Tony left on his heart, on everyone's hearts and lives (And Wanda wasn't stable anymore, he needed to fix that too).

He wanted to lie again, be comforting to Bucky, treasure him, but he only seemed awkward and cold. He was uncomfortable with his own feelings and on his own skin, and didn’t know what to do to fix things with Buck. (I love you, I'm in love with you please forgive me, I’m sorry).

So he once again fucked things up and tried to bring back Nat, Tony and Vision with him. Only… he didn’t discuss this with anyone else so he had no back up, nor help. No one knew of this plan of his after all.

He was on his own. On a prison cell for what it seems. (For the crimes of creating new alternatives timelines apparently, huh. Who would have thought that fighting and talking with himself from 2012 would lead him here. Trying to bring back the others didn’t help either).

This place was bare of anything recognizable, it was ugly and cold.

He was a man out of time once again.

Bucky probably hated him now, Sam too.

What a joke.

Everything was fucked up

For what they told him a “Skrull” (what is even that?) replaced him and everyone bought it, even Bucky. (And no, no no no... Bucky would notice, he would know!).

And would you believe it, he wasn’t the only fucker that was here too, huh. What a weird place.

So yes, Steve Rogers is a liar and a disaster…

and what a good companion that would be for Loki, the God of mischief, no?

So both tried their best to escape that fucked up prison.

Together.

[yurihollyleaf]

Nick who met Pete during IFF. Their classes paired up, and from the first time they flew together they clicked. Everyone thought that their pairing would be catastrophic. Nick, known for being an overbearing RIO at best—how someone could be so laid-back on the ground but so nitpicky in the air was anyone’s guess—and Pete, a rule-breaking free flyer with a chip on his shoulder the size of Texas?

Catastrophic.

But, when they got in the air, for the first time, Nick wasn’t jittery. He wasn’t constantly taking note of each and every infraction. There, on their first flight, Nick realized that beyond that proud, carefree exterior, Pete was serious. Not only about his flying, but the safety of his RIO as well.

That’s not to say that Pete flew by the books—hell would freeze over before that happened—or even extremely safely—he is Pete Mitchell after all—but Nick could tell that Pete was actively thinking about his RIO, actually listening to him. A far cry from some of the cocksure pilots he’d flown with before.

Usually they would listen to his reports—they had to if they wanted to stay in the sky—but any suggestions beyond that were shot down. “I’m the pilot Bradshaw, now where’s the target?” As if the plane wasn’t built around the RIO! And sure, he could be a little overbearing, but it was hard not to when your pilot seemed to forget you also controlled half of the plane.

Flying with Pete had felt safe, as contrary as it sounded. It wasn’t Pilot-and-his-backseat-driver, it was Pilot-and-his-equally-as-important-Rio. A team.

They were on the same page, and damn if that wasn’t refreshing.

Pete expected to hate flying with Nick. Nick Bradshaw, USNA graduate and, from what it sounded like—fussy and overbearing in the cockpit. He had heard of Nick before, their classes were paired up after all, but only in small snippets—“apparently Bradshaw pissed off Robins during flight training.. think they’re good now though. Bradshaw must certainly have a way with words”—and he was sure Nick had heard of him. Who hadn’t.

So when he had gotten in the cockpit, Pete had known it would only be a matter of time before Nick would be yelling in his ear.

“Are you trying to kill us!?” Was a popular one. Pete might have been reckless, but only because he could afford to be. And the feeling of being high off adrenaline flying in the skies was addictive as hell. Who could blame him for having a bit of fun?

Pete could afford to be reckless and skirt the rules because he was good. One of the best. Of course, people didn’t understand that. They didn’t understand that Pete took his RIO’s safety seriously. How could he not? There was someone else in the plane with him. Someone who had a family, maybe a wife, or kids running around. His RIO was his responsibility, his team, and Pete wasn’t too prideful to say that without putting his trust in his RIO, they were both dead. Just because Pete had a little fun with it, showed off a little—he was one of the best—didn’t mean he couldn’t understand that.

the RIOs he’d paired with for training had never seemed to show any trust in his flying, they were either by-the-book or bland. Either way, none of them had enjoyed flying with him, and Pete hadn’t expected Nick to be any different.

So when the inevitable yelling didn’t come? And Nick had actually encouraged one of Pete’s stunts? Well, maybe he wasn’t as bland as Pete expected.

When Nick had seemed to predict every move Pete would take before he said it?

When he could tell that Nick trusted him? And Pete had felt like he could put his trust in the RIO, the way he was meant to?

Exhilarating. Confusing. A breath of fresh air.

And after? When they got to talking and that click had started sounding more and more like a lock? Nick took one look at Pete, his pilot—and he was going to be his pilot. He could tell—and, like his Tennessee-sweetheart self, latched on to Pete like a leech.

Pete, for his part, had been a bit more wary at first. But it hadn’t taken long for that wariness to crumple like a wet paper towel, after a few nights of honking laughter and easy talking. Quite quickly Pete had picked up his own leech-like tendencies. Could you blame him? he had found his RIO.

[lunarw0rks]

john “soap” "chubby chaser" mactavish