#I don't really. care to know actually. I don't care for callout posts yeah

[anothermonikan]

idk what even even happened this time but like. rain world fandom kinda sucking a lot is not news to me lol. idk what it was like pre-2024 (basically when I got into the game) (it was December 2023 but close enough) but idk. It's been quite rare to get nice interactions from people, feels like everyone here is like 15 and still thinks it's cool to be mean to random people online yeah. I literally don't go in the rain world tags myself because of stuff like this.

[hollow-lime-green]

i feel a little complicated about making this post but ✨i am going to anyway✨

i haven't been able to work on FIYM for a few weeks, and there's a reason for that.

(this is not meant to be a callout post - you do not need to cybersleuth and Deliver Justice, not that i think any of you would do that)

a little while back, i got a pretty long comment of (trying to be constructive) criticism on one of my pieces, and it fucked me up a bit. i'm actually pretty good with taking concrit. i have betas, so i have more experience listening to actual concrit than the average fic writer - i am pretty used to it at this point.

(that being said, fic is something we do for fun and you don't need to want concrit at all. it's a hobby, not a job. keep it fun - whatever that means for you)

however, there is a difference between solicited beta concrit and random crit that you're not primed for. this person was genuinely trying to be nice and helpful. BUT, i wasn't primed for it. as good as their intentions might have been, that was not the effect that it had.

but hana! it's one comment! you have lots of readers who love FIYM!

yeah, i know. this all feels a little silly to be stuck on. I have so, so many more kind and enthusiastic commenters that have been cheering me on for almost two years now. but it made me feel bad, and it is no surprise that we get stuck on the things that make us feel bad.

the right words at the wrong time can be absolutely upending.

but hana! you referenced George W. Bush in a sex scene! since when do you care what people think?

yeaaaaaaaaaaah, i knoooooooow.

and to an extent, i don't. i write my interpretations (of the characters and the jujutsu system) based on what i want (and what makes at least some sense). i know that there's not a universal right or wrong read of canon - this is true of all fandoms. so i really should not care if people disagree with those reads.

however, i also do care because, well, of course i want you guys to like what I write. i write fanfic so that i can have a little thing to bring to show and tell that makes people happy. of course i care.

i am plagued with worries now: what if this doesn't match my readers' vision of the character? what if i'm taking too much liberty with jujutsu? what if this doesn't match their expectations?

right now, i can't look at FIYM, because when i do, I keep thinking:

what if what i've been planning for all this time isn't actually as good as i think it is?

anyway, like i said, i feel dumb and uncool (not baller not lit not on fleek) for getting so thrown off by this. it should matter more that i have plenty of super kind, super supportive readers - it should matter that i can objectively see that, with numbers and with words. it should matter more that i am confident in my own ideas and interpretations, and that i am writing the things that i want to see. but, unfortunately, there is a switch that has been flipped in my brain, and it has turned on a busted faucet of self doubt.

i guess, if anything, the moral of this story is: do not think that any of us are above being squishy - not your favorite author, or artist, or anyone at all really.

i've been able to work on some other projects in the meantime, luckily. but FIYM has been at a standstill. every time i look at it, i feel the yips, basically. it is going to take some time to unflip that switch.

[antiendovents]

Actually the proendo mod isnt proendo just they dont really care- and most of the mods i think have a complex veiw on syscourse which i have a rant abt that for another day, and the blog is , while having endos on the dnu/dni, specifically for CCD systems, and i feel the fans are parasocial overall, i remember when luxray returned after a while, formerly being 404, my friend sent an anon kind of prying despite me saying not to - i know luxray through a mutual friend (technically IRL we both know, neat aint it?) but luxray left because of alot of personal reasons when he was 404. But its not just being called out that made them say people were parasocial. there were people who genuinely believed they were their friends despite having like... i think 10k?? ish??? rought guess based on interaction rates. but yeah.

Yeah, no. You're wrong, I'm so sorry. there's literally a callout post that has proof (or at least an ask which has screenshots with proof) that not only are a majority of their mods endo neutral or whatever but they literally have a mod who claims to be a "mixed origin" system and to this day still posts pro endo shit. Unless that mod is no longer working there then yes they do have a pro endo (hell, just an endo) mod. It is not parasocial to be angry when people invade your community, claiming to be a safe space, only to welcome ableists into said safe spaces. No one believed these people were friends, but they trusted these people to be true to their word and to actually follow the rules they set for their own blog.

And being endo neutral or "not really caring" isn't great at this point either. Dismissing ableism is not acceptable and if your "rant" is just gonna excuse that then I don't want to hear it. Calling people parasocial for not wanting ableists within their spaces is fucked the hell up.

So like, even if they "only have endo neutral mods" that's still terrible!

[killerotto-blog]

DEFENSE OF KNEEBY/SPARKLECAREHOSPITAL

Everyone ganging up on her and screaming at her to leave and that she's some sort of monster is crazy. She went through trauma and made her own creation off of it, and maybe it was a bad idea to have a bunch of traumatized fans become obsessed with her comic, she's clearly still healing and everyone who is lashing out at her is too, and everyone's just full of emotions. It's okay to be upset or disagree with what she did, but remember there is a human behind that screen. Her comic clearly had a lot of love and care put into it and wasn't just a "secret fetish comic" if you actually read it there's a lot more to it than that, even if you don't like the comic or her opinions you can tell it's not just a fetish comic. Everything she did that had anything to do with her interest was kept in spaces with close people only, and completely separate from her actual story. She even explained it herself in some of her recent posts. Her own personal ideas that nobody else will understand has no bearing on the comic, nobody even picked up on anything weird until her private information came out, which is unfair to her. You're free to not enjoy the comic anymore if this really ruined things for you, but it's her own creation and anything bad to do with it was 100% private and personal. Even if it's a bad way to cope, she's still trying to heal, she just started therapy, it's complicated and we're all human. The screenshot of Emsody is honestly more self-incriminating than anything. I cannot imagine the lunacy of thinking that others are supposed to just *know* you're uncomfortable without you even saying a thing! & her lashing out at Kneeby over it was just uncalled for, listen, it's not others jobs to read you and know what discomforts you when you aren't even vocal about it! Kneeby did not need to apologize for that at all. People today have become too entitled to expect people to just know they're uncomfortable when they act on board and do things! You cannot be mad at someone for this. I've even seen people calling her out while saying "yeah I did it too" or "I encouraged it" but just brush past it or act like it's different because they were secretly uncomfortable just to add onto hate of her. Some of the stuff is even from years ago that I've seen, like dating as teens and her doing weird stuff. You can't expect her to read your mind. I can reiterate that it's okay to be uncomfortable with things she's done but it's silly to act like she's a monster who did all of this on purpose. Honestly I've never talked to Kneeby but just watching this from a distance this is all absolutely heinous to me the way you guys are treating her, and I'm not even into much of her works anymore but I was huge into her sonic the cat series as a kid so nonetheless I'm still around to see whats going on from time to time. And I must say you guys are ruthless. This girl is completely harmless and not a danger to anyone, she made drawings IN PRIVATE and she obviously knows its weird and wrong but it happens, when you have that sort of stuff happen to you as a kid sometimes difficult feelings and stuff like this comes about, its complicated but in the end it is just drawings, not even graphic ones at that. Even I think its a gross and bad coping mechanism but she's not an evil person for it, shes just creating things to cope with what she went through in private with *trusted* friends (who clearly had it out for her anyway.) The people who posted this callout clearly have a personal vendetta against this girl because she had not wronged them, she's obviously very mentally ill and just doing literal ship art of colourful animals, yes its weird and whatnot but why does this warrant the whole world to know, for her whole story to get leaked and for her to be doxxed? That's just absolutely moronic. In the end I just think people are blowing this way out of proportion. Unfortunately you know how this side of the internet is.

[deergirlfangs]

New Pinned post <3

Hi there, the name is Zelda, or one of like, 20 other names that may or may not be listed somewhere around here. If you know a name I go by that isn't findable here don't use it. <3

I'm bigender which is made up of girl and fem6oy, as such I use she/her and sometimes he/him pronouns when I'm feeling fem6oy enough <3

I'm in my 30s, not getting more specific than that until I decide it's not true enough to change it, don't try to find my exact age as I don't like sharing that information publicly, I don't even update it on my birthday <3

I'm a polyamorous bisexual voraphile freak and if you're over 18 you're welcome to talk to me about how much of a freak I am. I love to flirt and encourage it. Also happy to share my Other Blog with anyone interested, again as long as you're of age. <3

I'm a film graduate and currently working on doing something with that experience as well as working on a superhero comic and a 2D zelda style game. Feel free to bug me about any of those I love to discuss writing and media and want to encourage media literacy. <3

I'm also an ex-jehovahs witness and as a result I'm hugely into the holiday season in a very against my old god kinda way. Also big into sinning <3

Also I'm like, a dragon in probably an otherkin/thetadelta kinda way, like, it's core to who I am and how I understand myself so yeah. Despite this my fursona is a fox, the dragon in my icon is literally me <3

I also draw sometimes and when I do it'll be posted to @dragongirldrawings but always reblogged here too.

Also I'm a member of a plural system, feel free to check out the rest of the system over here @haven-sys <3

Further on the identity weirdness I'm an imaginary friend for the person who used to inhabit this body, they've been gone for like, over 20 years so it's not really relevant but I have started embracing my nature as a fictional creation, it's comforting.

Btw, if one of my posts containing my typing quirk ends up on your dash I take no responsibility for it. I use it in posts that are for me only and if they happen to resonate with others that's their choice to reblog.

I had intended to set tipping up on my blog for a while but adhd caused me to never get around to it sooo, homebrew tip button on my original posts. Feel free and outright encouraged to steal this idea <3

So yeah that's me, hiii I love you all <3

this post is specifically a6out tum6lr user Zelda dragongirltongue [tip]

DNI list under the read more.

lmao imagine if I actually made one of those finally, that's how you'd know I've been replaced with an evil clone or something.

That being said if you're looking at my blog to send me an ask or dm about what someone gets off to please understand unless they're actively hurting someone I rly don't care. I have a lot of ignored and blocked anons about this.

This goes double if the person you're trying to alert me to is trans femme, we don't play that game here, especially given that I know I've been targetted for things as simple as engaging in vore the wrong way for some people or whatever.

Like, I just want to make it clear I rly don't give a fuck what another adult does in the bedroom, I rly don't care if the bedroom happens to include their blog and I rly don't care if they like to flirt about it with other adults on this website.

Also if your pinned post is a callout for anyone about anything it's likely to set off my paranoia around you, which is to say I will not be able to trust you if this is the case even if it's for someone who's actually a danger to a community, like, actively.

Like, this ain't a moral stance or anything, it's a mental health thing. I see that you want to make your first point of contact into a crosshair on someone else I'm gonna be scared you're gonna aim at me next even if it's completely reasonable that you'd never find anything objectionable with me. It scares me and I'm gonna spend every interaction walking on egg shells around you cos what if you're digging for dirt, like, I got no way of knowing.

Anyway as the opening joke implies I don't see any worth in having a list of things to not interact with me over cos the lived experience on this planet is so full of nuance and I've formed deem friendships with people who'd probably have avoided me if I had a DNI and they cared about it.

I think DNIs are dumb but this feels like a space to talk about some general limits on what I'm gonna put up with on this website. I'm just here for a good time with other freaks, anything else is optional. If you want to drag me into your discourse at this point then I guess this is whre I ask you to Do Not Interact. To anyone else, I love yall <3

If you've been directed here after sending an ask my way please apologize for wasting my time [here]

tl;dr DNIs are dumb but don't drag me into your personal grievances with others.

this post is still specifically a6out tum6lr user Zelda dragongirltongue [tip]

[sudusong]

World of Twelve dashboard simulator #2

👁️ katarynadance follow

Freaks may say i want to fuck antonio sadisski from the bontarian boufbowl Love Arrow team. I'm freaks. I mean im freaks. I mean im freaks.

🌌 somethingquietplace

I wouldn't go that far, but NGL, I don't know how one might not develop an affinity for him... Very charming man! He might be the second greatest player after Khan.

Then again, my opinion on who the second greatest player is changes all the time, haha.

🌸 sadidaskickshoe follow

Ehh khan's been dead for centuries....! Let it go. I think he's cool, but thinking nobody will ever be better is crazy...

🌌 somethingquietplace

He developed most of the techniques still used to this day, just so you know. Visit a museum perhaps. It might be helpful?

🎃 sacriblo0ody follow

average khan fan showing how much criticism of his favourite misogynyst he can withstand.

🌌 somethingquietplace

And you're an average 16 year old child with Very Important Opinions trying to educate me nicely.

🧀 cheesefuckersupreme follow

Seeing somethingquietplace and sadidaskickshoe on the same post is kind of terrifying.

#worlds most toxic crossover? #20 callout posts gang real?

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🧀 cheesefuckersupreme follow

Guys they both blocked me ASFHFKDKGJSJ

Do i get a boufbowl fandom badge of honor now????? Did i make it in life?????

🦠 gorebludsac follow

I don't think it's a nice way to post, considering one of them is like neurodivergent and a minor, and the other is tumblr user somethingquietplace (diagnosis self explanatory)

🧀 cheesefuckersupreme follow

I'm sorry yeah i forgot that they're both diagnosed.

#ngl i feel bad kinda for both of them

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🌌 somethingquietplace

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I hate adventuring with other people. Just being there and knowing I'll never be their friend. I want to say something, be in the conversation, but I never know what to say, and everyone already knows each other and

Well even when they don't yet know each other, obviously they'll prefer anyone else over me. They'll give up on trying to talk to me.

It's so weird... I hate everyone. Everyone has stupid interests and tastes. Just braindead things. Romance and fucking and fashion. And all of them have normal lives and normal families and once in a while they ask something about mine and I don't know what to say at all. And I want to be liked. Even if I have zero respect for anyone I want to like me. Is it weird?

I guess I'm just sad because I don't have that innate talent to pretend like I care about other people. Or maybe I wish someone actually liked me besides my family.

#delete later #...I really like this ''forbid others from reblogging a post'' function they added recently #When my dad dies I think I will finally kill myself I guess. #not osu #Honestly I can't tolerate anyone at my work. I hate them all and want them dead. #And I can't tolerate anyone close to my age. #They all insult me. Constantly. You know. #So the only people who like me are my family. #Its neverending. I can't take it anymore. #I think me only liking my family might be a self fulfilling prophecy but i don't care. #or so I think.

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🌸 sadidaskickshoe follow

people who post about their family issues on here are weird.... My brother isn't here but just the idea of him seeing anything on my phone makes me so scared to write anything!! 😵‍💫

#temp

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🌌 somethingquietplace

I wish people would refrain from obvious vagueblogging about my deleted posts.

#delete later #not osu

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🌸 sadidaskickshoe

people who stalk other peoples blogs are so weird!! I think it's easier to follow one another. Because this is getting embarrassing for us both XD

🌌 somethingquietplace

Ok.

#Mostly I am following you because you said you liked Khan Karkass. #Even if you don't have good opinions (ones I agree with) on him.

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🦠 gorebludsac follow

A second mad xelor explosive machine has hit the tumblr boufbowl fandom

#those.two.... are mutuals now. #i canrt stop laughing there are tears rolling down my face #remember when kickshoe told me in explicit detail how she wanted me to kill myself #or how quiet typed out whole 40 paragraphs of threats #and ended that post with ''youre wasting my time away from work'' as if hes not termianlly online too #this is historical for me and nobody else

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🪰 maldemal follow

She throw dice on my tabletop til i eacflipcity

🕳️ eviltreeman follow

Collect my Thirsty Branches

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🎭 syxxxxxaenika follow

Bruh someone tried to kill the prince again and missed. How the fuck does a fifth assassin in a row fail at killing the prince of brakmar!!!! I can't live in this stupid country anymore

🌸 sadidaskickshoe

Even if things suck i dont think killing royals is the answer..... 😰

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🌌 somethingquietplace

Was in a store recently. The prices were disgusting, and the worst of all, the Ministry of Moral Purity wants to propose a tax for being negative about the government... Are we in Brakmar now? Is this Brakmar we're in?

I have something very taxable to say but shall refrain.

🎭 syxxxxxaenika follow

Bontarians when something bontarian happens bontarianly in bonta: is this fucking brakmar

unlike you, I have the free speech to wish death on our royalty. I can say freely that I hope the prince of brakmar kills himself.

🌌 somethingquietplace

It's literally so easy to hate you even besides the holier than thou attitude... Your city has lava. Would a good place to live with good people have lava. Would a good place with good people have invented something called "the Brakmarian burial"?

🎭 syxxxxxaenika follow

You can't be saying that white-blue boy

#WHERE DID A RANDOM BONTARIAN LEARN A 500 YEAR OLD GANG TERM FOR BODY DISPOSAL?? #WHAT???

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🪄 pantypervert69 follow

CALLOUT POST:

@/xellymelly has been selling re-bought goods from The Mad Xelor. Do NOT buy from her. Not only are they dangerous, they are also wildly past their expiration date. DO NOT USE ANYTHING YOU BOUGHT FROM HER. IT WILL KILL YOU.

🌌 somethingquietplace

If you have items made by The Mad Xelor, Kerubim Crepin from Bonta's Aux Tresors de Kerubim shop has a recycling program for all victims of this scam. He even gives out rewards for all the items you bring in.

I implore you to consider taking the things you bought to him, and making the world a safer place. (And "★bring some magic to your life★")

#not osu #I can personally vouch for this store's quality. It's very well known among some circles around here.

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🚬 pigpigeazer follow

Everyone always jokes about the bad parts of classes but nobody ever talks about how generous the pandawa are, how honest iops are, how lively ecaflips are, and how empathetic sacriers are

🎃 sacriblo0ody follow

literally im always saying that!

🤖 athefogenesis follow

Except it always comes at the expense of mentioning that their religion makes them ignorant, addicts, or drives them to self harm?? We need to bully people who are hardcore about class tenets harder. You're destroying yourself for some all powerful reality-warping creature that doesnt give a shit about you

🤹 lancerclown420 follow

People like you give us atheist classes such a bad name. Everyone and everything in the world has a purpose, both those who follow a deity, and those who follow a primciple and

Actually they're a sufokian supremacist so nvmmmm

🧙 hupperschlongartor follow

THE NOTES ARE A FREE BLOCKLIST 💀

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🌌 somethingquietplace

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#not osu #delete later #the thing is that. I never stopped hating him for ruining my life. #But the amount of hatred i feel ebbs and flows. Does it make sense? #This is stupid. So stupid... Like #oh nooo papycha... you neglected me as a child to the point of incurable mental diseases... #They would be better off if I was dead honestly #i need me and my dad to die. #I need everyone to die actually

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🦞 foggerfish follow

Apparently there's a big thing going on in demigod history community because Goultard (you know, the 4847372882843 or whatever year old son of Iop) undied again and was spotted somewhere around Astrubian border.

👽 cvt3-r41nb0w follow

MY WEDDING IS BACK ON NOBODY WILL HOLD ME BACK. He already married witches i can be the fourth

🗣️ thedarkwitchfromthatbook-is-gay follow

Isn't he gay

😈 osawhip666 follow

isn't he a mass murderer

🌌 somethingquietplace

Finally a reason to kill myself?

#I have to work with demigods a lot so... #Wish me luck in avoiding him like plague? #I had horrible experiences with him in the past #but talking about it would definitely lead someone to finding out who I am so... #I hope he kills himself and it sticks for once.

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🪐 8lunarcoeur8 follow

Heyyy

I wish people would stop rb'ing quiet's boufbowl gifsets considering the fact hes racist, misogynist, a freak, a bonta apologist (goes with the racism), has a fucking Maid, and likes some really weird things.

At least kickshoe has the excuse of being like a teen but this fucking guy is just something else.

🧙 hupperschlongartor follow

whatd he do? ����

🪐 8lunarcoeur8 follow

Says weird things about brakmar (x, x, x, x, x, x, x, and mooooore), is a freak (x, x), and a misogynist (x, x, x) (STOP STANNING KHAN KARKASS) also he's weird about huppermages and self described his class as an antihuppermage and even though it was like 200 years ago hes a wholeass immortal man and also is Still a weirdo about ecaflips.

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🌌 somethingquietplace

RE: the newest cancellation

I don't care about your feelings and I have nothing to apologize for.

#not osu

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🦴 skellythievin follow

Not me honoring sram by stealing bones from the graveyard 😭

🦴 ougigou-woof-woof follow

LEGENDARY POST

#WHY DO I HAVE THE SAME PFP AS THE BONE STEALING SRAM

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🌸 sadidaskickshoe

Yaaa antonio sadisski won as always!! They should put sadidas like him in the hall of heroes for our country ᕙ⁠ ⁠(⁠°⁠ ⁠~⁠ ⁠°⁠ ⁠~⁠)

👯 mirarynnnw follow

He sucks

🌸 sadidaskickshoe

Hi kill yourself :) /gen

#i was banned from using my phone but ill risk it all again to say that nobody will miss you!

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[tandytoaster]

Ngl this Christmas season kinda sucked. Like a lot

Me complaining lol

Nanny making light of how my mother almost died. Like my mom forgets something and nanny is like "oh lol its because you had a brain aneurysm" and on one hand i understand joking about something fucked up that happened to you and the scenario of your daughter being inches from death would seriously fuck you up but i don't know i just don't think its funny. I dont think its her thing to joke about. Nanny and I are on complete opposite sides of this like shes like "lol my daughter almost died. Tee hee" and I'm like. Forever altered for the worse by this

Omg. She had a moment back in September where she wasn't telling Steve stuff and he flipped out at her like cursing at her and screaming. I can't remember if I talked about this I feel like I might have. But like HE called me that day and was like, "hey uhhh idk if u were talking to ur grandmother or not but i kinda freaked out on her earlier and i feel bad about it and i wanted to tell u my side of the story because we've been talking more and i really appreciate that" and i was like 🤏👓🤨 EXCUSE ME? Not actually but i was thinking it. And then that night or the night after nanny called me and telling me the same thing, that steve flipped out at her and she was like "omg. I don't think I'll ever think of him the same. i dont care if i ever speak to him again" and all i could do was be like, "ok. yeah." Because why is THIS. Where you draw the line why do you decide to hate him when he's mean to you but you still talk to him despite the shit he did to me. Like all I could think was "i dont give a damn" like truly i dont lol. I dont care that steve yelled at you. Like daaaammmnnnn thats craaazzyyyyy he yelled at you? Omg? Should we cancel him? Should we write a callout post? LMFAOOOOO

She's also like 100% fine with him again. Joking about her saying she was gonna chop his dick off because whe was so upset with how he spoke to her.

Thats so funny that you wanted to chop his dick off over him yelling at you. and not anything else. that would warrant having his dick chopped off.

I have to live this shit ass game of pretend for the rest of my life. I fought against this for 5 years and nothing changed. No one cares. No one wants to think about it. Its a battle I've lost, I lost it the moment it started I truly never had a chance. But I tried. And I failed. And I tried. And I failed. And I tried. And I failed. So I'm done. They win. I'll never ever say it didn't happen, BECAUSE IT DID, but I'm just never going to acknowledge it again to them just like everyone else. I'm sorry if that makes me a shitty survivor or whatever .

Also nanny is just . Overly excitable when company comes over and she gets like. Too ready to tease. Like shes just slinging jabs at anyone and everyone in her way. Like all my life my mother would tell me that nanny is awful and that she treated her like the black sheep of the family and i see it. I know that I for sure have it better than my mom, which is a damn shame, but like. Fuck dude idk!!!

And nanny is just weird. She puts garbage in with clean stuff and calls it tidying and she laughs when someone tells her thats not right, and when they're like, "no, seriously, do not do that" she goes, "well i guess i can't do anything!" And then she fake laughs to try to seem like she's not mad but she is mad. That someone told her not to actively damage her surroundings

Reading this I'm realizing its literally just nanny being weird. Nanny moments.

I baked a butterscotch pie for her and Sacha and nanny told me to put it in the basement because its cold down there, so i did and she FORGOT ABOUT IT!!!! FOR DAYS!!!!!! i made it on the 23, it finished setting on the 24th, she forgot about it until today, the 28th, brought it up from the basement at 12pm, and nanny forgot about it Again until 5pm. So it was sitting at room temp for 5 hours. She was like, "yeah it tastes different" I FUCKING WONDER WHY?

Its just a really difficult, stressful and time consuming thing to make and to have it be forgotten about when I work hard using the little energy I have to make it, it hurts ! I don't have any money to buy anything for anyone not even my girlfriend, so thats why I bake 😔 Man usually I'm not passive aggressive but dude. Nanny was like, "do u think its still good" and i was like, "well lets just eat it and see what happens if we get sick we get sick 🙃"

[cecils-dragons]

So you prolly don't remember this bc it was back in 2019 but you liked a post by xxdemonic-heartxx with this content:

"An opinion

I get body positivity. But if you weigh close to 350-400lbs from fatty tissue you should get some help. Human bodies cant function as well as they should with that type of stress on the skeleton and joints and its gonna compromise your organs. Body positivity is okay but fat acceptance isnt. I’m not fatphobic. I’m concerned for the longevity you’re losing and the health conditions you’re pulling in. And the dangerous mindset that humans should be and can be fat. Yeah. Some fat is okay. But if you body fat percentage is 32% for women and 26% for men (or higher). Thats obese and very crippling to your health. Take care of yourself. It isnt a crime."

That plus the fact you never drew fat ppl (not like just little pudgy but actually fat) got me to the conclusion you must be fatphobic, so I have had you blocked but you still crossroads my dash sometimes bc tumblr is functional website. So after all these years is once again saw you on my dash so I thought I'd send an ask, it's been years and I was wondering maybe you have changed and you don't hold these views any more.

I know I am a spiteful bitch for remembering this. The op has deleted their blog and all I have is a screenshot I thought just sharing the post content would work since I am not here to make a callout post or want ppl to harass you I just want to make you think about your past and maybe present biases.

Thanks for more information on the ask as it was a bit scary to see after being woken up in the middle of the night by my dog barking.

Okay, you may be getting me mixed up with someone else because I don't follow xxdemonic-heartxx, I recognize them in our community but I don't follow many people because I like a curated dashboard and like even less stuff, so even if I liked it back then, first, I was 19, and second, likely a misclick because I don't like to interact with stuff like that for the sake of my own mental health as I deal with body dysmorphic disorder. I of course can't 100% say what I was thinking or clicking on around that time as I was 19(now 24) and due to trauma I don't really remember much around that time.

For the second part yeah, I was 19 and still getting use to drawing bodyily diverse people and when learning to draw you get taught to draw slim people as a default. I'm getting much better at it now but it was never because of prejudges, just ignorance and staying in my comfort zone. I don't really mind or care being blocked because of that because it's your opinion about me and I can't control that.

At the base, I would not be considering myself to have ever been fatphobic and I am sorry if it has come across that way as it's of course never my intention to make any group of people uncomfortable. I'm of course open to talking more about this if I am missing anything.

[honeyhonest]

I don't want to come as weird but I believe that the game actually should have made the characters of actual college age than teenagers. Maybe change their appearance just a tiny bit to look a bit older. but first, second, third and even fourth year start from the age of 18 - 19 - 20 and 21

Why? Because original and by originally I mean the Japanese version is not even directed to teenagers but to adult working women mainly (everyone can play it but I think you get what I mean to say) so why make those characters that young to start with. I know the game is not otome but the genre is still indirect otome in it's own way that's the point of self insert Yuu those kinda of games depends on the fandom being the ones making their own fan romantic ships. Actually the Japanese fandom is much much more chill doing 18+ stuff for the characters (I won't talk much about that since it may be uncomfortable but I'm just pointing it out)

I don't think the adult would be patty about teenagers playing it in this case like the way teenagers about adult playing current twst. Like teenagers making 18 years old to ship with the main cast because they are college students and simply doing cute stuff yeah no problem really adult won't even care but a lot of teenagers are so petty about adults (and even someone as only 19-20) making young ocs to make cute innocent ships with teenagers is problematic.

I'm someone who started playing when I was like 16 or something and now I'm 19 so yeah idk what else to say and sorry for this long ask... Don't get mad at me just getting something out of my chest 😭

JESUS CHRIST ANON YOU SCARED ME!!!!! thought you were gonna make up discourse or something and I'd have to mitigate. no this is a normal take to have, I also frequently find myself wishing that this game's characters were older, not so I could ship them but because I genuinely would care about them more if they were closer to my age 😭 it's just Really Hard for me to relate to teenage boys and it's impossible for me to separate them from their teenage boy-ness. I subconsciously recognize leona as more of an equal than like, idk, silver. impossible for me to look at them and not think "okay so you're literally two seconds old alright. Baby"

the rules of this stuff still confuse me, I think about it all the time, like how it's generally frowned upon to be an adult and make a younger OC to ship with a younger character, but it's okay to be a teenager and make an adult OC to ship with a 31 year old. I'm not saying which is more morally correct, but I don't understand (and I MEAN THIS, I am not infantilizing myself I literally don't understand the rules here) why one is bad and one is okay. like what is the litmus test????? I need someone to explain this to me like I'm three. I don't give a shit about the details I'm just confused as to how the equally bad thing is okay. help

I don't get involved in ship discourse or callout culture anyway because both sides are brain-rottingly stupid and [old man in a western voice] back hwere iiiiii come from we ain't got no "dni" nonsense, if someone posted porn on the board we allllll hadta deal with it

[pleasantspark]

Absolution Chapter One

Author's Note: I did tell people I was gonna do something but I was told off by Cell and I can't just go into the kitchen and take a huge weapon, my mom would find out. I am not feeling too well, I need help but the same help I usually get would consist of the same "Yeah happy place, yeah happy PLACE YEAH HAPPY." it's not working. So I made this isekai OnionBug and others fic. I apologize for worrying people, I tend to get overwhelmed I want to thank people who reached out including someone that's controversial in the community. Just, just bare with me, It's another one of my SchizoEffective Episodes and I need the support, and I just can't do this.

Warnings: Suicide, Mentions of Suicide, Suicide Ideations, Delusions, Depressing Dialogue, Implied Mentions of CSA (Although suspicions of CSA), and additional tags

ab·so·lu·tion

/ˌabsəˈlo͞oSHən/

noun

formal release from guilt, obligation, or punishment.

an ecclesiastical declaration of forgiveness of sins.

There was always something wrong with me. It wasn't really a big deal as most make it out to be really.

I guess it was because I was seen as crazy of the day, and not actually someone worth a damn, in the populace of mentally ill troubled people I make up most of the percentage rather then the estimate of everyone.

All because I dare to utter a single phrase, really back then before this hellscape I was completely okay. I had no issues, I had been happy, dare I say… Glad? An emotion I have not felt for years now, less before the age of 7, those days are behind me.

I look at the mirror and what I see isn't a regular person, it's someone who seen enough, who had lived for too long. Someone with no future ahead.

I have nobody, I am a sack of meat to be used, and abused to be abused in the most depraved ways, been that way since I was 7, probably even earlier. No one tells me anything.

Probably for the best, if I was to ask what happened those years ago I'd probably use that as a badge of honor.

As I stare fornlornly at the mirror, I barely recognize myself, someone wouldn't have gussed the cheerful happy go lucky girl that didn't just say something, someone who was lacking a backbone.

Then I saw it, in the corner of my eye.

Him.

No one would have guessed my delusions manifested in my day to day life as a means to comfort me, I have no one to tell how I feel so I began to manifest him.

He's everything I dream to be, in every since of the word.

Unapologetic, Perfect, Smart… Those things I can only dream of being. He placed his hands on my shoulder and leans down.

“Don't you want to burn it all to the ground?” He said, I tensed.

“Don't you feel the rage they put you through?” He pointed to my room where theres a desktop and the site tumblr were on, the callout posts, the mean people… Everyone, there was a few that cared but that was inbetween. There was too much going on through my head and rather not enough things done in this world.

I always never had the pleasure of true happiness and that's okay, I suppose I was destined to be nothing more than someone who walks through life faking it.

I was destined for greatness. Since 2010 I repeated those words up until 2025, those words started off as a confident stupid child but gradually overtime became less and less confident and became more emphasized on the “Was” part, almost as if I was already considering leaving this earth.

The truth was, I never was destined for shit. I was destined to be someomne who failed at every turn, and the only person who brought me pleasure is technically not real, a figment of my otherwise deserted and deluded mind.

I grew up as the weird kid, and was always bullied. It started with Sonic and ended with… Cell.

He knelt down and placed his hands on my shoulders looking at me through the mirror. He smiled.

“You know, it doesn't suit you, right? A frown doesn't suit you, you should smile more.”

For a apperation that isn't real, god was he real, my eyes caught on the knife on the toilet cover.

“You're considering it.”

He said, as the beeping notification of Discord rings insessently.

“No.”

Bloop.

“Yes you are. You want to end it.”

BLOOP.

“I…”

Words escape me in this situation, what was I supposed to say? He's just a part of my mind, but…

“I'm scared.”

“Likewise, death is a very scary thing, no one would want to do it.”

“They make it so easy.”

“Yeah, because those people you're thinking of are school shooters, and deeply disturbed people, they did it to avoid accountability.”

“…I do not mean those idiots. I mean the people who aren't here with us.”

Cell shifts a bit, I can tell the conversation was getting to him, he manifested as a guide of some sorts, someone to comfort me when I needed it.

He often strays me away from thoughts like these, but I can tell his hold and comforting was weaning from my downright behavior.

Cell grimaces, before he could remove the knife I grabbed it, and judging bu the fact he jolts back he knew I was gonna intend to hurt someone with it, no not someone.

Somebody.

That was me.

“Put the knife down.”

“No, make me, I am done.” I said, and Cell looked down.

“Is this what you want?”

“…Yes,”

The Discord Notifs were like a mantra, I know people were worried, but I don't care. I wanted this to end.

Cell's eyes were downcast, he knew he couldn't stop me.

“Just let me look away.”

“Go ahead.”

Without further ado I stabbed the knife in my chest hitting my heart directly, a simple hit that killed me, and would have.

I saw Cell loom over my body with a look of sadness, blood pooled under me, as his form flickers away, I felt so much pain as I laid there with the knife out of reach.

I was destined for greatness.

I was.

But in reality there was no chance, the greatness was nothing more than a mere illusion and I deluded myself into thinking. As I found myself fading from the light I cursed myself.

[bioethicists]

Your post about unfollowing people who’re really combative online made me think about someone in particular. Apologies if this is out of nowhere so feel free to ignore.

If somebody (with thousands of followers) who isn’t a part of a specific marginalised group habitually seeks out bad takes regarding them to dunk on, isn’t that a little weird? I’m not talking about defending your friends when they’re facing discrimination or dunking on the main bigot character of the day, but regularly seeking out bad takes from small accounts that’d otherwise never seen the light of day.

It’s nobody on here I’m referencing. I feel a little crazy because this person gets heralded as a huge ally and has a lot of people in this marginalised group who’re really devoted to and defensive of them but it just really rubs me the wrong way because they seem really discourse-brained more than anything else.

yeah haha ironically i think some of the ppl on that post are seriously missing the point (which i probably could have made clearer) in terms of some of them are like. people who clearly think being told they're racist is the same as the type of behavior i'm talking about.

but also yes! this is more what i meant- people who are seeking out fights with those who would otherwise never get any attention! especially when it's takes that are NOT popular or the response is just totally disproportionate. or just building a social media brand off of over-exaggerated hatred/meanness towards people who "deserve it". it reminds me of all the cis people on here who constantly reblog shit about like... putting terfs in meat grinders but then never even lift a finger (or, more likely, are part of the mob) when trans women are sexually harassed or viciously bullied.

i don't think joking about harming bigots is some grand moral wrong, but it's often just gratuitous in a way where... are you actually expressing outrage or are you using the performance of outrage to get followers? what if that outrage is directly putting people in danger (e.g, if you find a terf with 45 followers + start sending her death threats, is that helping anyone or is it potentially provoking more violence, which you know full well you will NOT be the primary target of). i can see how this behavior can result in members of certain groups defending you, because if nobody has shown their willingness to defend you, isn't it refreshing to see someone who will? it's not so simple, either, cuz i do think ppl who do this do CARE, but i'm not sure the way that they care is sustainable or would hold up to a real, complex situation where allyship is needed.

it's so contextual + i'm not arrogant enough to pretend like i'm the one who can see the context right 100% of the time. this is a little sappy but i feel like the difference is whether the root of the anger is love/hope or if its fulfilling your own desire to lash out/release tension/look good. like "i'm pissed because i care about my trans siblings + it hurts me to see them treated this way + nobody else is saying shit for them so i'm stepping up" vs "raging online meets a need in me that i'm not willing to acknowledge + here's the perfect target". not exactly that simple but sometimes u can tell someone would be a kiwifarms bro if they didn't need social capital from a different crowd, ykwim (which btw we regularly learn that certain leftists will comb through + disseminate kiwifarms shit if it fits their vibe, which is an automatic red flag to me that you only care about drama, not morals)

it reminds me of how some "callouts" are clearly written with the intention of preventing harmful people from maintaining the power to do more harm (e.g x popular artist sexts underage fans) while many others are clearly written with glee about someone turning out to be Bad (e.g x popular artist has a private twitter that i, op, SCROUNGED to find, where they say horny things about genshin impact characters)

[sailorsunspot]

the point of that post abt queer media isn’t whether you specifically enjoy/dont enjoy smth, it’s the way the internet at large will go out of its way to target queer things for every little mistake and criticize it in a way they wouldn’t for straight media. for example there’s a hundred and one mid ‘cringey’ straight romance webcomics out there that no one cares about, but for some reason the boyfriends webtoon gets such intense and extreme vitriol for seemingly no other reason than…it’s a cutesy slice of life with low stakes? and it’s kinda cringe? people fall over themselves to call it fetishizing and problematic when 1) they have not even read it, and 2) its creator IS a trans man, who has been endlessly harassed and misgendered ever since it became popular to hate on his webcomic

Real talk - I think you and I aren't ever going to agree on this. There's no ill will here, I wish you the best in life etc. etc. That being said, lemme get into it.

Who was the audience of that post? Where was it posted? What motivated that post?

It was posted on tumblr - specifically queer tumblr (although is there any other kind) - so we can make the informed assumption that it was written with a queer tumblr audience in mind. What motivated it? Likely frustration at queer tumblr being critical of queer media, because as I highlighted earlier - that's where the post was written.

So if we can agree on those two assumptions, then let's get to the meat of the complaint which is what I found that post so eye-rolly.

Let's call a spade a spade. This was a classic tumblr callout post, vagueblogging , moral grandstanding, a perfect example of the Tu Quoque fallacy. It's standing on the false premise that because there exists "bad" straight art that isn't criticized, "bad" queer art shouldn't be ever be criticized.

When the reality is, who says the "bad" straight art ISN'T being criticized? Maybe the reason queer tumblr doesn't spend time criticizing mediocre straight romance webcomics is because queer tumblr doesn't consume or care about mediocre straight romance webcomics or whatever.

Conversely, maybe the reason X webtoon gets criticized is because its primary audience wants more from it and actually cares about the subject.

And lets take it a step beyond - so what if straight art isn't criticized? Shouldn't we as people ask for more from what we like? If I criticize something it's because I care about it - it's because I see something within it, some untapped potential that I want to encourage it to rise to.

So yeah. I have no idea what webcomic you're referring to and don't really care to know. I just know that this preciousness regarding queer media is one of the primary reasons that I, a full ass lesbian with a fiance and a life, avoid queer media like the plague until it has been appropriately vetted by several trusted parties. A lot of it isn't good. And that's fine - I think bad art still has a place in the world. I also have my fair share of bad art that I enjoy! There's stuff that I think is just fun, and I don't really engage with critically.

But the constant babying of queer media is such a fucking problem and it's so tiresome, lol. I dunno how other people dont find it patronizing as fuck.

[chengfagshi]

https://www.tumblr.com/yomi-hellsimp/748129756207333376/

absolutely real. when we say that a good chunk of antis are first degree dangerous were very much NOT joking

awfully yeah ive heard so many stories about antis owning csem to send it to a proshipper or lolicon like a 'gotcha!' thing except that.... where do YOU get this csem from in the first place?? why do you have that in ur files?? or do you have for some unknown reasons the right to seek and possess fkcing csem cuz ur doing it in a ''''god honoring way'''?? jfc

however must correct something! they only care about fictional characters and victims who think exactly the same way as them! otherwise ur not a real victim and are just the same as ur abuser! easy right? /Jk

Sorry it took me awhile to respond to this ask, but this 100%. I'm sick of antis only "caring" about victims if they cope in a way that antis approve of. All victims cope differently (and yes, you don't have to be a victim to like fictional stuff). And a lot of these antis are minors that think they know more than licensed therapists. And where they heard all these "sources" from were probably from other minors that are antis. Because we know that's where all antis heard the term "proship" from. That's why every anti thinks proship is another word for "MAP" or some shit, like no. We like fiction. And some proshippers don't even like lolisho. You can like other things besides lolisho and still be considered proship. And this is also really fucked up. I see callout posts on actual pedophiles from proshippers more than I see it from antis. And if antis do callout someone for being a pedophile, it's usually buried under lolisho shit first. I saw a callout the other day from a proshipper, talking about an actual pedophile. And antis had the audacity to say shit like "Epstein are fighting each other" or some fucking shit. WE are talking about REAL CHILDREN. Real children matter more than fucking pixels. idk why antis will never understand that. They're sitting here calling real children "pedophiles" for shipping things like Sebaciel. Instead of possibly using that fucking energy to call out actual pedophiles, they are going after 15 year olds for shipping pixels and calling them pedophiles because of it. Children saved: 0. Good job, antis. You're fucking useless.

[ruiination]

// So big shock, Jay is posting a callout about me. I can post all the screenshots I have of our talks here. I haven't read his callout because I have him blocked.

Basically, here was my situation. Jay told me over and over that he cared deeply about me. He loved me. He cared about me. I was the closest person to him on tumblr. I can confess I bought into his bullshit totally.

I didn't want to post publicly, because I didn't want anyone to come after him. He just got mad because I asked to not interact with his friends. I haven't gaslit him or anything. Lmao.

So this is what happened. He talked about all this shit about how special I was to him. He ended making me PRY information about what he wanted to do for like 20 minutes ( write incest which I had expressed I was uncomfortable with), I got frustrated a little. I was harsh when I told him I didn't like the ship. He instantly went to acting like I was trying to cut him off. Which I even said I wasn't.

So I got really upset and literally was throwing up and in severe pain from a headache and I just gave in and relented. I asked for space. The next day he basically forced me to talk about it despite not being ready. I literally spilled my heart to him. I did say I thought he got my friend attacked which was not actually true and was an assumption. Which is like... something I apologized for and confessed was a misunderstanding. I felt really bad about it too. Which you can see in my screenshots lol. I ended up giving up and shutting down because he kept calling my cruel for not liking his ship. We "made up". I asked for space.

And then he messaged me a bunch of times saying I was ignoring him while I was literally sleeping. Which he said my discord was being weird. No clue if that was true because I was literally asleep. I talked to him the following morning and he again told me how important I was to him, I really wanted it to work out because I really enjoyed being his friend. But I was still really hurt and I tried to get over it.

But yeah anyway, I learned later that he said he would have blocked me if I didn't write jill and actively tried to get someone else to pick her up so I could be replaced and he could block me even after we made up. Multiple people said he outright hated me. He also compared asking for space to being like his abusive mother to guilt trip me. So like honestly, he still genuinely doesn't care that he hurt me and wants to be a victim. Just like how he constantly tried to turn everything around on me.

And yeah i was told he said I stalk his blog which I don't. I have him blocked and seeing his URL causes me anxiety sooooo. Why would I go there? I literally panic block people that interact with him. Because he actually really broke by heart lmao. I am sorry for being harsh and emotional I guess.

He's literally having a meltdown because I posted that I didn't want to be associated with him. Like I have literally not even tried to talk about him aside from "he hurt me" but like come on. Don't pretend that you don't mind people blocking you when this is how you react when you treat people like shit and then they cut you off. Please work on yourself. I ALMOST wrote a callout about him but like I didn't because I didn't want him to be hurt or upset lmao. But go on and keep trying to make me a bad guy when you literally lovebombed me and guilt tripped me. I don't care if you don't like me. I know you never actually cared. I'm not going to look at his blog or whatever because I don't really need to see what he is saying about me. He can do what he wants and I can do what I want. But I don't want to see him lmao.

[ratcrux]

I @'d you on my blog and rebloged the callout post. I dont really care how you identify. Personally, I think it's harmless for trans men to call themselves lesbian, except that I think they are harming themselves bc there's nothing wrong with being a straight trans man, and I don't think it was good that trans men of the past had to align themselves with lesbians to have any sort of community. I do caution ppl against involving lesbianism with trans masculinity. The implications ARE transmisogynistic: if AGAB makes straight/bi trans mascs "lesbian aligned", it implies straight trans femmes can be "gay male aligned", or worse "straight male aligned" if they are lesbians.

Claiming straight trans mascs are aligned with lesbianism IS literally a TERF talking point. Equinox has a nasty habbit of stirring the pot and claiming identities that dont belong to it to gain traction. They have been accused of race faking as black, but picking on the lesbian community and the trans lesbian community is their go to for content. I see nothing good about a person obsessed with putting down lesbians on tumblr bc we wont accept it. calling us TERFs is ugly. A lot of us are nb or trans ourselves. We arent TERFs and we arent bad people for thinking lesbianism doesnt offer a place for trans men. It never did. Trans mascs equated with lesbianism in the past was literally a product of antiquated ideas of butch lesbians being "internally male". Butch lesbians aren't male and assuming butch lesbians are male bc of their presentation is misogyny.

Thanks for asking for the callout and being civil. These are just my opinions. I rly hope I did not offend you. I dont mind individuals identifying as whatever, but please please know equinox isn't a great queer scholar.

Yeah I see the points you're making. I ID as lesbian (and butch) still due to having been one for so long and it having been a big aspect of my identity. I'm also intersex and so that also plays a role in how I identify tho, gender complicated

My gf is trans and most of my friends irl are trans women and lesbian (or bi). I know a couple who are dating trans men who ID as lesbians and it's never been an issue for any of them. I see it as a person-to-person thing on what makes people comfortable or uncomfortable, and so I didn't really think of the transmisogyny aspect due to most of my experience being connected with trans women. It was actually a friend i have who is trans fem who let me know there wasnt anything wrong with me for still iding as lesbian as a trans man, back when i was kinda eh about if it was ok to do or not. But I do understand what you're talking about I think. I don't think someones a bad person if they aren't comfortable with it.

Ty for the post tho and info about equinox, I followed but didn't pay much attention to equinox as a person so I wasn't aware of any of the stuff I just read from that callout and tbh it tracks, I've known people just like that before unfortunately. I appreciate you letting me know about this

I apologize if I didn't hit all the points there btw, not avoiding them or anything bc I do largely agree with you here. adhd makes the text kinda blur together a bit but I tried to pick stuff out

[meatsex]

I don't know you, but I saw your tag on the "kinnie with a job" post and I'm so fascinated by this glimpse into your life. Do you want to elaborate on that experience?

ohhh i forgot i wrote that, its not as exhilarating or exciting as it might sound, its just shit from my personal life, but i have a reason to be mad, and actually these two parts of the tags dont correlate at all, so im sorry, either way:

summer 2017, i had finished playing lisa the painful, i really really connected to this one little guy, i did so much art of him, i still do, the app vent was going around, and kin culture there was crazy (if you were there you know), there wasnt any other kinnies abt this dude so it was #serious shit to me, im pretty sure at some point i began to just make up "kin memories", i probably wanted to dye my hair blonde, in retrospect i just really wanted control over being THIS guy

anyways, the other part of the story

i was dating this one guy, i think we had been dating for a year or more already, probably more, for reasons my feelings began to shift, i actually got really interested in one of his friends, i eventually told him about this, and i dont recall whatever the response was, but nothing really changed

in parties and get togethers i began to actively make moves towards his friend, i dont think i ever got to kissing him or stuff like that, but afterwards my still boyfriend would ask me shit about it and like, hype me up on it, im pretty sure he told the gc too because they would joke about him being a cuck, i dont know, i never found out

eventually we broke up, it was like whatever, if anything he broke up with me at a really bad time of my life but otherwise it didnt destroy my world or anything, we stayed friends and i even saw him a couple more times after that

then the 2020s come up and i find out that after we broke up he became an incredibly disgusting sex pest, asking friends of the gc or trying to make moves on them left and right, even if they had boyfriends, he also in general became a really disgusting and selfish person, i think the worst part of it all is hearing about it and being like "well fuck, im sorry, i wish i could say more but he legitimately never treated me this way", so honestly, i hope he kills himself i dont care

maybe after all of that i moved his brain so bad that he became an awful person, who knows, now hes a game dev for a project that might or might not make rounds, who knows, i dont care, i could make a callout on him but its redundant irl stuff, and i dont have hard proof or energy to put into it

(edit) i just remembered he also might have spread pictures of me, personal pictures of the kind a couple takes for themselves, so yeah i actually hope he kills himself