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I don't want to diet I don't want to cut out carbs I DON'T WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT GET OFF MY BACK I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK
#fat liberation#fat acceptance#my mom is saying she'll stop making carbs for me and her#which. uuuuughhh#it's not even that i mind eating mostly protein and salad/soup#BUT THEY WANT ME TO LOSE WEIGHT. MY PARENTS WANT ME TO LOOSE WEIGHT#i do not want to lose weight i'd start breaking down if i was thin my body is FAT and i like it that way#AND THEY WANT ME TO START WALKING 10KM DAILY#WHO HAS TIME FOR THAT#and you know what's worse? i'd love to do#say#climbing!#BUT THEY DON'T LET ME BECAUSE I'M FAT. LITERALLY THEY SAY I COULDN'T HANDLE IT#HOW AM I TO HANDLE ANYTHING IF YOU DON'T LET ME DO THE THING#FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK#and I COULD#my shoulders were sore for like a month max ack when i started doing archery#then i was fine#i could do climbing they're just stupid
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red wine truly makes you feel like you could handle a butch train being ran on you
#and i could#lesbian blog#black lesbian#black sapphic#wlw#sapphism#wlw blog#wlw community#sapphic#black wlw#lesbian yearning
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Anyways I was going to make a post about the process of picking bracket topics and whatnot and was trying to come up with some examples of types of topics that would or wouldn't work and for whatever reason I thought of the concept of a "best murderer bracket" and I can't stop thinking about it lmao
it's just like such a funny concept? the idea of fictional murderers battling it out, especially ones from bls (which like I don't think is most people who are not super familiar with the genre as having a lot of characters who have killed people) is just funny in like an absurd way. like abstracting yourself from tumblr and tournament blogs, the idea of telling someone else that there's a tournament going for fictional murderers from east asian mlm tv shows, a genre that for several years was primarily shows about high school and uni students.
anyways that devolved into thinking about it more seriously, and then deciding a more practical way of doing it would to make some kind of directory of bl murderers. which would then lead to a lot of interesting statistical analysis, like characters with highest on screen kill counts, which countries have the highest proportion of fictional killers, etc. you can then make a separate category for characters with implied kills that aren't explicitly shown on screen or vague. and you could track how the number increases over time, which I assume exponentially goes up as more bls are exploring darker and more serious genres.
anyways back to the country stats, I started thinking about what the breakdown would look like so here's my guess based on zero research and just my general knowledge of shows
China. While having very few bls (censored or otherwise), they have a very unfair advantage and that is genre conventions. The 3 biggest Chinese bls I can think of are: The Untamed, Word of Honor, and Guardian. With The Untamed and Word of Honor, the conventions of xianxia and wuxia genres means that there are a lot of characters and almost all of them have killed before (usually nameless canon fodder but still). And then with Guardian, it's a supernatural detective mystery show with murder plots in it and a lot of characters, which again leads to a pretty high kill count. So even only counting these 3 shows, China will probably have the most killers in bl, or at the very least most kills done.
Thailand. It's a numbers game on this one. There's just so many Thai bls and an increasing number of like detective or mafia ones. A show like Kinnporsche has a lot of killers and deaths. Then there's other shows that include a few murderers (but less than Kinnporsche) like The Sign, Manner of Death, 4 Minutes, 3 Will Be Free, Never Let Me Go (Palm did shoot a couple guys dead elt's nto forget), Dead Friend Forever, etc. However the numbers also hurt Thailand in terms of proportions, since there's a lot more Thai bls that don't have murder, so it actually might be 3rd.
Japan. You're not getting much murder from your Cherry Magics and Old Fashion Cupcakes, which is what a significant portion of bl fan's primary exposure to Japanese bl is, but let's not forget that there's a lot of dark Japanese bls where murder is definitely on the table. Now I don't actually have a good gauge of what the numbers on this is, cause I haven't really delved that deep into this corner of the bl market, so I can't make a good estimation but I bet there's more than I'm aware of.
Taiwan. They've got a couple of mafia shows like HIStory 3: Trapped and Kiseki: Dear to Me, both of which have some implied and explicit murder (though less then you would expect if we're honest). That'll give them a few kills and they also have a relatively smaller pool of shows to pull from, meaning percentage wise it's a bit higher.
South Korea. Ok I am far from an expert of bls from South Korea, but unless there's like obscure short films I'm not aware of, the only drama I can think of from here with kills is Long Time No See? or I guess The Director Who Buys Me Dinner has like 1.5 murders? anyways Korea also has a not insignificant amount of bls to their name so proportionally it will be quite low.
The Philippines. Out of all the countries on this list, I am least familiar with the bls from here, but from what I've gathered during my routine mdl searches, basically all of them seem to be murder-free (unless of course there's some shocking plot twists in them)
anyways I'll probably never do this project just cause it would require a lot of time and collaborative effort and I've got a lot irl going on right now (hence why the submission period for most whipped is so long lol) and also have some other projects I'm already planning on doing so I don't really have time to do it. but I wanted to tell y'all about my thoughts on the matter.
also sorry if this is the weirdest thing I've ever posted. kinda had a major stress breakdown today but then resolved it relatively quickly cause I realized I could just reschedule the life altering appointment that was causing the breakdown lmao so I'm in a strange frame of mind lol
#not a poll#like I was walking around looking like some haunted peasant from a dostoevsky novel#and then suddenly was like wait can I reschedule#and I could#and then I thought about this and then made this post#and here we are#get ready for strange posting over the next couple months as high stress levels with a pretty decent dosage of psychiatric meds combine int#unhinged ramblings about bls lol
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'remain calm, forget that you know me' might be referring to a future where the narrator & subject don't interact, and the subject does their best to forget everything that happened between them in the past. but it could also be occurring within the relationship; 'remain calm' to prevent anything escalating in a clearly volatile situation, and 'forget that you know me' — willingly ignoring what the subject knows about who the narrator is as a person so they can both continue on in peaceful, and deliberate, ignorance of everything wrong and the inevitability of a painful ending. forget that you know me
#i write this out and then sit here thinking 'this goes without saying - it's so obvious and i'm an idiot for thinking it's worth posting'#but whatever. idk. i'm getting very autistic about sleep token for obvious reasons#am here with a pen and printed-out lyrics#makin notes#thanks to government disability grants for giving me a printer. i'm definitely using it for academics#and i'm so insecure(?) about my ability to articulate what i'm thinking that i'll likely never share most of this. only the obvious stuff :#where did my gcse english literature grade 9 energy go jhdbcjhj#that confidence ... come back#anyway. what a song#i want to ramble all day about it#and i could#and i HAVE#on paper.#sleep token
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(old man yells at clouds voice) poetry isn't poetry anymore
#poetry#original poetry#pen and paper#queer artist#i read a book of poetry in the store that was basically fb statuses#and i thought 'i could do that'#and i COULD#if i wanted to / kept up with it#maybe one day i'll compile them all an d give it a pretentious name like 'dilapidated junkyard tire to my soul'
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decided to read 200< page books to feel joy again with the semester ending and now i'm like... i could do that
#AND I COULD#i just have to pick what will get novella-ised#imagine this is what fixes from the mouths 🙏#ooo maybe i'll pick the orchard commonwealth#telling myself i write novellas/novelettes now to take some weight off of my writing 💗#pia.txt
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Did did you know
I made them have a Papa’s Freezeria AU
Please ignore the random reds it was a themed event time and I needed those tips
#I had to see if I could#and I could#crack one shot LOL#stray gods the roleplaying musical#stray gods#frace#freddie stray gods#grace stray gods#greddie#post#update#papas games#papas freezeria#freezeria au
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Iconic!
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Follow-up to the Sho Joker render.
Credits:
Model - me, ATLUS
Cyber Ring - Duekko
Effects: B-ToonShader, ExcellentShadow, AutoLuminous, Mega IkClut Pack [RaC], o_SelfOverlay_改変 微彩, ikDiffusion, ikClut_デフォルメ, ikClut改変 cinema, Data_stream, NEXT_Solid, sdExpensiveLens, msVignetting
#mikumikudance#mmd#render#my renders#3d#labrys#oracle#persona 5#persona#persona 4 arena ultimax#i saw the turtleneck extending to futaba's chin then looked at labrys and thought#“i can make this work”#and I could#better life choices have been made cause the mask was a pain
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I want you to remember:
The fascists hate you too and they just will pretend otherwise until after they've killed the rest of us, before they turn on you.
Edit! It's been blazed by now. Thank you, though!
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* Won't you play again, Kris?
#deltarune#deltarune fanart#kris dreemurr#kris deltarune#asriel dreemurr#noelle holiday#dess holiday#first post since the chapters released#i wanted to draw something that could at least partly represent how many feels i was left with#but its kind of impossible#these chaps were so peak#all those kris piano scenes bro#all those Kris Scenes in general#i truly won#deltarune spoilers#crythartic's art
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me when someone abruptly asks me if i want to go and do something fun together but the fun thing wasn't part of my daily plan:

#you could approach me on a day when i have nothing on and say d'you want free tickets to a theme park and lunch at your favourite restaurant#and i'd be like [sweating] can i think about it#be shh now#containment breach
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new propaganda campaign just dropped (now an actual print!)
#skips into the sunset#spent all day painting this and quite happy with the result. i could have done more but im satisfied#aceart#furry#original art#painting#how in the hell to tag...#art#freak#trans#sfw furry
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This song has single-handedly taken over my life and it’s only been like a week
#TikTok#doctor_waffle#axolotl#I can not for the life of me get this song out of my head#it is stuck on a loop that seems impossible to break#so of course I have to share it every way I can with everybody I could possibly share it with
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posting it here because there's no chance anyone in my family would ever see it: this is how my brother's 13-year-old child decided to announce something to me
#nonbinary#the purple says 'V1 is nonbinary too so it's okay'#thank you people in the notes for reading what I could not#I'm their they/them auncle so I'm very proud :')
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