#apothiaro

[u5eername]

Why do people even like kisses they're wet and gross

[pride-hearts]

Apothiromantic Hearts

[aro-culture-is]

Apothiaro culture is feeling extremely numb on Valentines. like idk my brain just blocks it out and if it gets mentioned to me or if i get a gift I will start to cry and feel extremely sick and empty dont play with me

hey, that sounds uh, very dissociative and trauma-brainy. I'd really advise looking into Flashback Management (link to a page by Pete Walker, M.A. Psychotherapy and pioneer in CPTSD discussions) and overall grounding techniques (link to PDF from therapistaid, a therapy resource thing online).

I want to acknowledge that apothiaromanticism can contribute to this with repulsion, but there is a point where you can choose some activities to help yourself through it.

[officeobject]

Hellaverse critics, tag yourself on which Hellaverse character/character trope you are, based on your sexuality - if yours isn't in the Hellaverse, then you don't exist.

I'm half-existing (so, like, maybe fictional in-Hellaverse) for my aro identity (not to mention me being apothiaro + arolovic specifically - also, it's HALF, because there's ace representation, so I do exist, but there isn't aro representation, so I DON'T exist),

And then for my asexuality, (excluding my apothiace anticarnal stuff), I am: MINOR (this is based on the fact that the ace representation is either greedy Mammon, Alastor who I've heard is shitty and selfish, and also Octavia, who is the only normal person, who happens to be a minor).

Again, your turn.

[ryanyflags]

Hi! May I please request a alternative look for the apothigender flag? Can It be similar to your apothiace/apothiaro/apothiaroace flags? I just love how you do the X thing on those flags! :3

alt apothigender flag :)

[pt: apothigender]

Since you mentioned the alt apothi- (aspec) flags I made and the X symbol, I just remade the apothigender flag in that style.

The colours and general design are the same, but the style of the symbol is different. It has outlines, a different shape and size. I also made the stripes equally sized.

[altosys]

rebuilding the tfbogd fandom because holy hell this fandom's been dead for 7 years

ok ok so like, go watch gd fanmades. now, to understand the chronological order and the fanon lore spanning across several creators' channels, you'd had to have been there but it's not too late. disclaimer: you do NOT have to learn spanish to understand most of the lore. i promise you it'll make sense so there are three main timelines: -the la bestia timeline -the final battle of geometry dash timeline (and then there's sub-timelines but i'll get to those later) -like, anything else. [i'll edit this later to provide playlists]

lore highlights of the la bestia timeline: -the keymaster gets possessed -i think spooky dies at one point but gets revived? -plural gatekeeper real -scratch gets kidnapped -geometry dash actually gets destroyed -it turns out octocube has a sibling (we have trans rep now. AJDBWSJBCSJBCJISBSCJKSBAIC /pos) -octo's sibling is actually vv chill -oh also the gatekeeper falls in love with the player for a sec. i think it's implied that he thought the player was either octocube or rubrub? either way WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FU- -iirc scratch and/or potbor commit war crimes, so they got that goin' for 'em

lore highlights of the tfbogd (final battle of geometry dash) timeline: -the obscurity just... existing. like, more bpd-coded than spinel herself. i love this lil guy fr fr. vv kinnable for my cluster b ass. -the entire arc of octocube actually being the darkness actually fusing with obscurity but also being obscurity- it's your choice if you want to take that as canon or them being separate characters, personally i like to think they're separate. -the darkness being a girlboss fr fr. bro woke up and chose violence and im all for it -they got the whole light and dark concept better than legend of korra did which is saying something lol -the light isn't actually a "good" person, they're amoral. -hello keymaster x player fans, we have a lil' something for you! other timelines' lore highlights: -slum is kinda just gender ngl -discount bill cipher being everywhere. -yes, oculus (the ruler of levels) counts as a character. no, they're not in any fanmade *videos*, but we all accept them as a character in the series -i forget which video it is but to all the "spooky is apothiaro" mfs out there, i'm sorry

implied thingies that i turned into headcanons and now just go with it: -bpd obscurity real -aspd darkness real -octocube is the epitome of the psychosis/schizophrenia spectrum -i ship keycube and no one can stop me (i think there's some, uh........... stuff implied in one of the fanmades, all i remember is that it wasn't made by phoenix or rmr24hd) -scratch has committed war crimes (i think everyone can agree on this ngl) -biscuit is bigender or at the very least not cis (tbf she does use he/she pronouns canonically) -triple a battery obscurity real (agender aroace)

[officeobject]

So, like, what counts? Being forced into a kiss because you had no choice when both of you were like 6, or the dog that licked your mouth once, or neither? Am tagging romance for the apothiaros even though this post thing ain't romance for me -

Also, why is there no "I won't have one" result?

Anyways, here are my answers based on what counts:

1. Disgusting.

2. Disgusting.

3. Didn't have one.

Explanations:

1. At the time, even after that kiss, I was still expecting myself to get a boyfriend and whatnot.

2. At that time, was thinking of NEVER getting a boyfriend or kiss but was unhappy about it, regardless of the dog.

3. I'm not feeling queerphobic towards myself enough to say I'm gonna kiss someone. Not fecking today. Not me.

take two because my whole life is a lie and apparently mediocre means mid in english?? anyway

[u5eername]

i'm free... im free!!!!

[kyanitedragon]

[ID: Icons of Power from Chainsaw Man against apothi-romantic and aromantic flags. Power is a devil possessing the body of a girl with long strawberry blonde hair. She has red horns, sharp teeth, and orange eyes with plus marks for pupils. The first image of both sets show her from the wait up, bent over slightly with a grin, one hans on her hip and the other holding a scythe made out of blood behind her. She's wearing a blue jacket over a pinkish white collared shirt and tie. The second image in both sets shows her naked from behind, holding her cat and glancing behind her with a neutral expression and messy hair. End ID]

[aroaceconfessions]

I have big problems with identifying as a identity. I usually go with like aroace or apothiaro ace. but I'm low-key aroaceflux and it's difficult for me. especially with suddenly getting feelings for someone and just going like "fuck am I just gay/straight" and it's so tiring.

like I have like "crushes"(non-romo, usually), and I don't think about them too much, but like I can tell I'm like off when I talk to them, and sometimes I do think about them like different ways. and on side I am like very favorable towards like platonic kissing or whatever, but I have like weak/short-lived targeted feelings every now and then and I'm just not a fan 😞. the most accurate label for me would be something like apothiaro/arospike/lithro grace/aceflux and like tertiary attraction flux (mainly sensual).

but basically my sexuality changes a lot, and I go from having attraction to being unable to imagine ever thinking of anyone in any romo/sexual/tertiary attraction lense. it's such a difficult thing. another thing is I'm afraid I won't be queer. because it's pretty much only solid part of my identity. and I do have the "well worst case I'm bi/pan", but I like the idea of being aroace, and yeah, just, I'm not a fan of my sexuality's fluidity.. it's difficult.

[officeobject]

OH MY GOD, YES! Also, romance repulsed aro = apothiaro.

Anyways, it can be hard to tell if you're just a hater, or if they actually shouldn't be romantically together, but if a break up happens, typically, YOU GET NO CONSEQUENCES OF ROASTING, AND, GET TO SAY "I TOLD YOU SO"! And who gets to be the nice friend who's there for them, and hates their boyfriend just as much, while giving them so much confidence?! YOU! Unless they're some trashbag celebrating with trash friends - YOU, get that honor in their mind! And they can focus on your friendship, if they want - and let's be honest, you ARE being so cool and all right now, so ...

And that's one of the good things/good rare moments.

I hate Ariana Grande, and "Break Up With Your Girlfriend I'm Bored" should be about THIS instead. I do sometimes miss the few friends I've celebrated break-ups with, but stuff didn't work out, would love to "steal" another friend again.

one of my favorite parts of being aromantic + romance repulsed is celebrating when people leave relationships that they’re glad to be leaving like yass bitch get that divorce, love loses !! 🔥🔥🔥

[officeobject]

Me: Wow, apothiaro and/or apothiace people are so funny and relatable, maybe we'd get along - *remembers my horrible experience with a shitty apothiace who invalidated me* ... I'll ... just go sit over there ...

(Also I start crying whenever I remember, LOL, like multiple times when writing this).

[officeobject]

Pinkie Cooper headcanons, because they give me "aro with intense friendship" vibes (it's NOT just out of projection and whatnot)!

Ginger Jones: Cupioromantic (she is described officially even in prototype phase as SUCH a romantic, but never shows even a hint of it in the show) nor is described as that in it, etc.

Pepper Parson: Apothiaro (I kinda know how le "show for girls", work, and according to how Pepper was portrayed and treated, if the show had gone on, she would probably be one with crushes, maybe just rarer crushes, but has a chance of being like "eeeew, romance is icky!")

Pinkie Cooper: Romance-favorable as well, or indifferent. Given that she shows no signs of romance nor mentions of it in even that prototype video, there's a chance romance wasn't really thought out for her (plus she's not the designated watered-down-Rarity of the group), but since she's the main character, and a girl, and supposed to be feminine, etc, she would likely have some love interests and stuff.

How they'd be if I could be in charge of a revival (aged 13+):

Ginger: Cupio to apothi (yes I'm self-projecting). No crushes, ever (I am yet again self-projecting - if I was in charge I'd have fun with Pepper and Pinkie and all, but Ginger would literally just be a thinly-veiled self-insert).

Pepper: Apothi to romance-indifferent. Straight + another aro-spec thing but I'm not sure what.

Pinkie: Indifferent-to-favorable. Abro, romantically.

[officeobject]

Me but every year - and if it was a choice,I would have changed orientation again by now (to CUPIO), because, like, I don't know how consistent my wishes were through the years, but I at least wasn't THAT consistent, and had even long periods of time, of wishing I was cupio, but I ended up going from cupio, to sassy apothi, and I just wonder what the fuck happened.

(Same goes for me being apothiaro, though I'm more of a "I don't think I can actually fill the void but everyone else seems so happy and don't have a void and get stuff I want, so Imma ignore the underlying things of what I want and just shove a boyfriend in my life - also, NO ONE GETS ONE BEFORE ME!" type of apothiaro - like, I AM still romance-repulsed, but more like "if you don't shut up I'm gonna throw your tool of a boyfriend in the trash" type of repulsed - like, EEWWW, you kiss that thing?!)

every day i get more and more sex repulsed

[officeobject]

People who will assume that even just weird stuff I say, even while knowing me and/or knowing that I'm apothiaroace, is sexual and/or romantic: Cishetallos, allos, aros, aces, aroaces, apothiaces, apothiaros, apothiaroace, "literally anyone" is my point.

People who will assume that me admiring the body of someone who I stare at, is platonic: the person I stare at themself who I've never talked to, and just mutually stare at (they're right and we're homies and they let me stare for some reason).

[officeobject]

(Warning for talking about dates and stuff, for those who are apothiaro and whatnot).

Calling the person,

That you are on a date with,

"Squirt" ...

Is SUCH a bad idea to have, and especially a bad idea, to then proceed to DO.

I guess everything lies in the details (of why we hate Goth and all).