#aspd artist

[shawdios]

Loveless.

Had a bit of a breakdown last night because I finally got around to reading The Giver. And FUCKKKKK that book. I’ve never had one of those a-spec experiences of “I feel broken for not feeling [x]” before, but that book triggered one.

I don’t experience love. It’s always been a fictional thing for me. Or performative. I saw people in relationships growing up, loving their friends, loving their family, or loving their partners, and it always felt fake? Like wtf are you doing?

And like a lot of things I thought were normal growing up (didn’t know people ACTUALLY heard things when told to imagine it, or that seeing an overlay of static on your vision wasn’t normal), I’ve had my reality shaken. And yet again I’m reminded that I’m Other. I’m what the stories portray as the evil inhuman alien or the evil, because it’s run on logic not love, robot.

But, my bestie as I call them because they’re the only person I will be on an emotional connection level affected by if they were to leave my life, they don’t make me feel Other. Im confused when they say “love you”, but they don’t judge me for not saying it back. They don’t judge me for not feeling what they feel. Nor do they judge me for my violent emotions and disordered mind. They just accept my attachment, my clinging, to their presence in my life.

That’s the closest thing to “love” I have to give. And I’m trying to be okay with that.

[meeb-motes]

honestly we don’t know why we made this but thought we would share

I think we drew these as concepts since we keep seeing NPD angel emojis and haven’t seen anything like that for other cluster B disorders sooo :33’n

( anyone can use these as designs if they want :33 )

[fandomnerdshark]

A collection I made of different disorder creatures and my takes on them!

FML:

bunny, porccupine, and mouse mix! BPD tends to be very on edge and skittish, so he’s a bit spooked. When defensive, he fires quills, like some porcupines do. He also has many eyes because bpd is very hypervigilant. I called it “FML” because a lot of pwBPD kind of have that mindset ^^’

IDGF:

I made NPD a cat with a crown shaped head and a peacock-like tail because cats and peacocks care a lot about preening and looking their best. Many people think cats are assholes who don’t love their owners, and that’s absolutely bullshit. I thought that fit NPD pretty well :D I called it IDGF because NPD does in fact not give a fuck >:3

IDC:

I made ASPD a wolf because wolves are like the more feral version of a dog. Dogs are man’s best friend and are very loyal! Wolves are just the same but don’t trust as easily and are more likely to attack what threatens them, so many people fear wolves. I gave him some sharp shapes and made his eyes empty with eye bags, because let’s be real yall ASPD peeps do not sleep. I called this one IDC because the biggest thing in ASPD to me is the lack of empathy/low emotions, which everything else kind of stems off of. Chances are if you have ASPD you probably think “why should I care?” About 200 times a day lmao

TMI:

I made HPD into a swanlike creature with a feather crown to resemble a performer! They’re very graceful and regal, and get all the attention in the room. I called it “TMI” because some people find hpd to be a lot (which I think is unfair btw…) yall are larger than life and I love you for it ^^

TBH:

My take on the autism creature has darker eyes because of low empathy and a jester collar! The jester could make fun of the king and queen without consequences as they say, and people tend to underestimate asd. I also just felt like the energetic, unserious jester fit asd pretty well. I also gave him little ears to represent overstimulation/asd splitting (which is hardly ever talked about 💀)

STFU:

The c-ptsd creature feels completely fine until one small thing is just too much and for a split second they explode. I gave it a foxlike tail and neck fluff because of a fox’s cunning - but the fox is often the one looking down the barrel of a loaded gun when they believe they did nothing wrong. Because CPTSD is also hypervigilant, I gave him lots of eyes as well ^^ I called this one STFU because CPTSD gets a lot of the “get over it” comments, sometimes more so than regular ptsd, because c-ptsd is caused by multiple small, “insignificant” things that add up over time. I know for me personally this always frustrates me to no end 😭

The only ones out of these that I actually have are asd and c-ptsd, so I know those ones the best from experience :3

[keropikon]

Kabylian japanese akechi..

[coinedapothecary]

“ Care to take a Dive? ” —🫧🪷

Sunshine Character ASPD-masked

a -masked term where one masks their ASPD by pretending to be what can only be described as being a "Sunshine Character" this can mean one is pretending to be overly optimistic, overly friendly, excessively showing empathy, and so forth for safety / convenience / and other possible reasons the details are up to the user <3

flag was really only made for myself and my experiences but of course it's free to use

This term is exclusive to those suspecting or already are aware of having ASPD

click here to view general blog information

[spliceweird-2004]

Some stories are never meant to be kept in photographs but rather left in a sack of scraps—their value lost after silent hurdles, without any explanation.

[blazerraiden]

Fun fact, Curator has NPD, ASPD & BPD (and I'm not sure, maybe possibly HPD too)

with sadistic thoughts (that she learnt to not act on)

The cluster B queen

I drew this while i was in a trip

[bellz4brainz]

pest :) 🪰

[murderscenemotes]

Aspd devil 😞 Created by us and our partner ..

he’s so silly

[shawdios]

I really should post more here on tumblr ToT

Here, have this of Autumn (birb, he’s AlloAce) and Spice (catbirb, he’s Aroallo)

And here’s the OG paper sketch

[elasticveins]

Just realized I never posted this here but ‘twas having a discussion and it reminded me

[meeb-motes]

ASPD self love emojis :3

requested by anon !! ( we lost your ask we are so sorry ahhh )

requests are open !!

-F2/🍁

[fandomnerdshark]

Hey all!! Unfortunately I haven’t gotten to be very active recently because fair week is coming up where I live and I do 4H, which has been exciting but also a bit draining ^^’

To make up for it, have a Wilbur redesign because it’s the last day of disability pride month!

P.s. sorry to anyone who’s drawn him ^^’ If you’ve shared it with me or if we discussed it, I have your art saved to his gallery in Photos and still love it!

[trixten01]

ASPD pride flags! We added the first one into the pride flag side server!

In order: ASPD, ASPD alt design, ASPD with NPD symptoms

Emoji inspiration: @meeb-motes

[coinedapothecary]

“ Care to take a Dive? ” —🫧🪷

ASPD-masked

a -masked term where one masks their ASPD to any extent for their own reasons (safety, convenience, and so forth)

This term is exclusive to those suspecting or already are aware of having ASPD

click here to view general blog information

[z0mb13d0llsstuff]

HIIII!!! First post but I thought I’d share the drawing of what it was like when I saw our husband for the first time 😻

-Clover