#bc it's helpful to try and find a good balance between getting things done and taking care of myself

[cyberstudious]

sunday, december 8th, 2024

today's productivity:

did laundry

spent 1 hour taking notes from PMA ch. 16

backed up files on my laptop

planned out my week

today's self-care:

went for a run (well, mostly a walk lol)

made myself good meals throughout the day

[skyracha]

SKZ HEADCANONS

[OT8]

How many kids would they have?

Content: Self explanatory, some suggestive nature

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Chan

Twin Girls

This man is a girl dad 110%. He would so have twin girls. You can’t tell me he doesn’t absolutely let them pretend to curl his hair and paint his nails. Covered in stickers he’d walk up to you and be like “do i look pretty? i feel pretty.” He’s absolutely wrapped around their little fingers too, this man LOVES being a dad. Always asking you when you can start trying for #3 because he wants more.

Lee Know

Older Boy, Younger Girl

He gives me both vibes. I feel like he’d be such a tough (yet loving) dad on his older son, but yet he’d be so leanient with his daughter. Like that’s his babygirl. She can do no wrong. I feel like he’d try so hard to get his son into a sport just for his ‘peak dad’ moment to be when his son tells him he wants to dance. That little boy will never know a moment of peace after that.

Changbin

4 Boys

Something in my gut tells me this man would try to have his own sports team. Mans pull out game sucks. When he has 4 boys, he’s constantly outside with them playing ball and running around. The man never sits down because he’s so excited to have sons to play with. It makes your job easy since he tires the 4 boys out so easily every day.

Hyunjin

1 Girl

You can’t tell me he’s not also a girl dad. I feel like he’d be a one and done. But this little girl is his WHOLE WORLD. Like nothing is more important than her. She’s his muse, his life, his world, his everything. He would be such a protective dad too, like after every concert he flies backstage to you bc he just wants to see his girls so bad. He’s so whipped for y’all.

Han

Older Twin Girls, Younger Boy

This man gives twin vibes too. His older twin girls would be so hard for him to navigate I feel, and although he doesn’t know what to do, I feel he’d try so hard to fix things without having to call you. When the boy comes along, he thinks he’ll be relieved until his son turns out to be a copy and paste of him and suddenly you and Han are wearing earplugs all around the house bc your son got Han’s lack of volume control.

Felix

Eldest girl, middle boy, youngest daughter

Felix would be such a good dad for either. Willing to sit down and get a full face of makeup, nails, hair aka the whole spa experience for his girls- BUT also willing to go run outside and play wrestle with his son. He most definitely finds a good balance between his daughters vs his son, not letting either feel excluded or forgotten.

Seungmin

5 girls

You can’t tell me he doesn’t give “trapped in a house full of estrogen” vibes. That man is fighting for his life every single day between you and the 5 girls. It doesn’t help they’re all close in age, so it’s always something and he never knows the right answer. He gets the annoyed “Daaaaddd!” all the time. He’s always fighting a losing battle fr all cuz he can’t pull out. Always coming to you with “Idk what I did wrong today but (daughter name) won’t talk to me today.”

I.N.

Twin Boys

He would LOVE having twin boys. He’s always trying to get them to dance and sing like him but he’s also the dad that tricks them into tiring themselves out and keeping themselves occupied while you two hide away for a few minutes of peace and quiet. They both are exact copies of I.N. too so you’re constantly up against with I.N. and two of his minions giving you identical puppy dog eyes everytime they want something.

[sieglinde-freud]

out of curiosity do you have any favorite inigo lines? just in general 👀

YESSSSSS YESYESYES i do :) in a very predictable manner, two of my favorite things he ever says is in his father support:

Inigo: Do you think I'd be out here if I were ONLY after girls? Out here fighting every day, wondering if this is the time I don't make it home?!

and

Inigo: I had to fight every day of my sorry life and wear a smile while I did it!

both from the B support which is honestly just my favorite support section like. EVER. but those specific parts always stand out to me as both insight into his head but also how he speaks and how his speech patterns are different relative to everyone else. also lines from his cynthia support that make me laugh every single time i read it

Cynthia: It was so weird! I was just walking along when they started running up to me! Kept wishing me luck and saying I was their idol or something. I dunno.

Inigo: Oh, right, sure. You dunno. Cakes and girls just fell out of the clear blue sky. ...DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW JEALOUS I AM RIGHT NOW?!

absolute fav and underrated support on both of their parts. by the way. another one i like is in his harvest scramble convo with brady after brady snaps him out of spacing out, he says:

Inigo: You know me: Mr. Serious Fighter! I mean, it'd be a crime to see them wreck that AMAZING stage... Or to let them hurt any of these people who would LOVE my newest routine... Or to tear down that garland that just gave me the PERFECT idea for a new move... But I mean, really, who has time to think about dancing at a time like this?

like this is peak inigo to me. it just is. one more from awakening is in his hot spring scramble with laurent, and laurent is trying to figure out why inigo is so averse to letting him watch him dance. he says

Inigo: Yeah. Like I said, it's...complicated. I want people to watch me dance. I want to make them smile... But I can't help worrying what'll happen if I flop. What if everybody laughs at me? Whenever I get the urge to dance, those conflicting voices battle it out in my head. I guess I don't know which side is right.

(italicized is my fav part, rest for context) i dont know i love how he says this i love how he talks because it just feels so REAL and strangely modern which should feel out of place but i feel like awakening is really good at hitting that balance between casual and formal tones of speaking. so theres that

i’ll say that i stare at fates’s script less than awakening’s because no one has matched the category 5 brainrot event that the collective group of awakening kids have given me, but i do have a few. i posted this one pretty recently bc its FANTASTIC but when you battle laslow in birthright (ch26?) with anyone whos not corrin he says

Laslow: My duty is to protect Lord Xander and the kingdom of Nohr, in that order. May the gods have mercy on anyone who stands against me.

this is one if the greatest things that has ever left his mouth. by the way. “in that order” is CRAZYYYYYYYY ARE YOU KIDDING ME. whatever

last but definitely not least, i have to pull from his nyx support which has driven me endlessly insane to which you have all seen before if youve seen my blog for about a month bc i do not shut the fuck up about them. but for laslow specifically, in the B support he says

Laslow: Let's say I'd done something so cruel that I never wanted anyone to find out. If, say, I'd neglected a great many people... let them all die... Would you call me monster, too?

INSANE. INSANE. i quote that all of the time. drives me nuts. the amount of guilt that one carries is crazy. honestly i could paste their entire support in here and i dont think i could pull out a line i dont completely love but i will finish from a section from their S support

Nyx: I don’t want to burden you with my crime.

Laslow: You mean all those people you say you’ve killed?

Nyx: Yes…

Laslow: Well, much as I might want to, I can't bear your burden. Nor could I expect you to bear mine. But with burdens so heavy...don't you think we could lean on each other a bit? My calling in life from now on is to put a smile on your face. And I don't think there's anybody in this world who could make me smile but you.

thheuy r. peak romance. to me……:….

[seiishindraws]

Hello hello, I'm a big fan of your art. Um, I was wondering, if it's okay to ask, where do you look to for poses to use in your art? I struggle sometimes to come up with or find poses I like, and was wondering if there's any resources you use for that kind of thing? (Hopefully that all makes sense)

i feel like i differ from a lot of artists i know irl bc they all use pinterest to look for pose reference, i personally kinda just fiddle around until a pose looks nice and only seek out reference if im having trouble nailing down the pose im trying to draw

since getting back into art school, i do like 6 hours of life drawing every week and its done a lot to help me formulate poses in my head! cannot overstate how vital life drawing is if you wanna get better at depicting the human figure in various poses, you start to become so intimately familiar with how our bodies and bend and squash and fold in different positions

i feel like the only little tip i have here is, if you're drawing a pose and something about it feels off, consider "contrapposto", which is a term used to describe the balance of weight in a figure. usually one leg will be bearing a bit more weight than the other, and the hips and torso will never be completely parallel to each other. this image kinda showcases what im talking about.

one side of the body will stretch while other squashes, and having a stretch and squash between the torso and hips usually makes for a more interesting pose, and creating an interesting rhythm between the head angle and the torso and hips can help make a pose more appealing. this is not a hard rule of course, just things that automatically run through my mind out of habit now.

here are some midna sketches i made the other day while procrastinating on assignments lol. i drew these poses without referece, they arent like super elaborate or anything but i feel like theyre pretty charming at least

THIS ISNT A VERY GOOD EXPLANATION OF THIS CONCEPT IM SORRY but basically: draw from life, study the human figure an excessive amount and you will start to grasp things pretty well !!

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

i was talking about how i like to have s1 trent get his brains kissed out (bc he deserves it) and also how if it's ted like. the earlier in the season it is the funnier it becomes. when you're not taking it too seriously. ANYWAY. and now i'm thinking about like. okay, so, ted charms trent pretty early. obviously. he wins him over in episode three, with the interview, but i think he was already at least a little bit reluctantly charmed by his second press conference in episode two. now, i've done plenty of scenarios where they meet pre-canon/ep1 for whatever reason, and i've done plenty where they end up kissing/become closer than in canon during s1. usually during or after episode three. however i am now thinking of what would happen if they somehow met, in a relatively in private, non-professional, one-on-one (or with only their kids, no other adults?) context, etc, between episode one and two, when trent's opinion of him is at the lowest it ever gets (and honestly, probably vice versa, too). and i am just... spinning that.

because, i mean. you know ted's gonna charm him. even if he isn't trying quite as hard without the interview giving him a direct reason, he's gonna charm him. just by being his kind, goofy self, he's gonna charm him, and without the interview to give context and reason to be talking professionally--assuming they are still talking and not avoiding each other, for whatever contrived reason--it's gonna put poor trent in such a snit. liking ted personally, so much, and not knowing how to handle it because as far as he's concerned, this is still someone who is putting the team and everyone who cares about it in a bad situation, but also, even after talking to the man for a few hours, it's already hard to believe he would do that. trent catching on to the fact ted lasso is smarter than he pretends, catching on to the fact that nice and kind and positive attitude is at least mostly if not completely and utterly sincere, and all that--just a little bit earlier. not enough to really make a difference in canon but. idk man. a) assuming this is a barely canon divergent thing it's just kind of fun to imagine that happening b) however back on my s1 trent gets kissed agenda i have literally no idea what circumstances could possibly arise to make that happen however i am CACKLING at the thought.

ANYWAY, back to the point: i just think there's something kind of compelling about that. between episodes one and two, when both of them have the lowest opinion of the other they will ever have, meeting in some innocuous way and being helplessly, unwillingly charmed. ted sees That One Reporter outside the press room only he's affectionately wrestling a frog hat onto a small child, grinning at her when she boops his nose, and can't help a smile at the reminder that even the coldest, rudest people are people, capable of kindness and goofiness, and he hadn't forgotten but it's still nice to see. trent, confronted with the full blast beam of The Lasso Effect right to the face and up close and outside of the press room, away from where he feels most confident, off duty and balance, sans notebook and pen, stumbling just a little into awkwardness, the edge of rudeness that comes from dislike that's tempered by some standard of british politeness and a hint of confusion and then quickly melted away entirely into utter bewilderment and oddly endeared charm, because what. trent crimm has no idea what to think of him. ted finds he actually likes trent, quite a bit--their conversation, however odd, had been entertaining, and despite their, uh, eventful, less-than-ideal first impression, ted may or may not have a favorite journo suddenly. because that sharp-cutting no-holds-barred journo from the press room is also strangely warm, and perpetually bewildered at the smallest kindnesses, and a good dad, nevermind that ted's heart is aching interacting with little kids like that.

idk man i'm just going in circles here i'm rotating and spinning because something something each seeing a better side to the other just a teensy bit earlier and it doesn't really change that much in the long run, unless it does; something something ted has only seen trent once, at his worst, being outright hurtful, and now here they are outside of that context, and trent has only reasons to think ted's incompetent, careless, greedy, an asshole, or some combination of the four, and yet here they are, and just. idk man! something

[christiannerd]

IBS is a disability

TW for discussion/vent about how a disability affects me, and mention of having to hide pain

Disclaimer: I am new to Tumblr, and have yet to watch an etiquette video. If I have accidentally said or done anything I wasn't supposed to, it was entirely unintentional, and I deeply apologize. I will correct it as soon as I am made aware.

Warning: long post ahead (under the cut)

IBS should be considered a disability. I know a bunch of people in the disabled community online already consider it one, but legally it's not considered one.

Sure, im still able to have a job and do my school work, but that doesn't mean it doesn't make those things harder than it would be for someone who's digestive system isn't a mine field.

What happens when I have a flare-up at work? Which, by the way, has happened before. I can't just take a 2 hour bathroom break in the middle of my 8 hour shift! So I just stand there. in pain. ignoring the pain. keeping that customer-service smile on my face so the customers don't notice I'm in pain.

One time (before I had my meds, so the pain was a lot worse back then too) I was working a shift and my boss stationed me in the elevator. Literally the most useless job I could have been given, I was just there to press the buttons for customers. (I had a more important role at one specific spot in the shift, but that lasted like 5 minutes). I had a flareup towards the beginning of that shift. I could tell this was going to be a multi-hour bathroom visit, so I couldn't do anything about it until I got off work. I was in so much pain that I just wanted to curl up into a ball and cry. But of course, I couldn't do that. I had to stand there, and smile, and keep working. So not only was I having to smile through the judgemental stares and comments bc I was being paid to press elevator buttons, but I had to ignore being in agonizing physical pain as well.

Its not that my IBS stops me from having a job, but it probably effects my performance at my job. Who can focus in that much pain? Sure that day focus wasn't really an issue bc I was just pressing elevator buttons, but in any other position it would have been a major problem. And if I dealt with the problem to make the pain go away, I'd lose several hours of work, on a consistent basis, and probably be fired for it.

And as far as school, hygine, and social life goes, I lose several hours out of my day, every day, to being stuck in the bathroom trying desperately to make the pain go away. You think that doesn't effect my ability to find time for homework? You think that doesn't effect my ability to make it to class? You think that doesn't effect my ability to take care of my body in other ways?

I very often have to choose between going to class or taking a shower, because the time I was suppose to be in the shower, I was on the toilet. I often have to choose between getting my homework done, and spending time with friends, because the time I was supposed to be doing homework, I was stuck in the bathroom. I know homework vs social life is a common time balancing problem for students, but for most people it's "less time with friends to get the homework done", but for me it's very often "no time with friends to get the homework done". It's so isolating. If I didn't see these people at church, and at club meetings, I'd probably never get to see them. (and yes, I have missed or been late to those bc of my IBS as well)

My IBS has kept me up until the middle of the night before. It's made me miss class. It's made me late to things. It's made me miss exams! (Thank goodness my professors were understanding enough to let me take it another time).

The only ways I can manage my IBS is by taking meds, and/or severely restricting my diet. My pills help me be able to avoid some of the pain from eating food, but like any disability aid, it doesn't help 100%. Without my meds, most vegetables are completely out of the question. So is a long list of fruits, and so many other things. Even tea hurts me! Coffee too! Meds help, but I'm still in pain. Less pain, but still pain. And im still spending hours in the bathroom. 1-2 hours at a time, instead of 3-4, but it's still countable in terms of hours.

This is a lifelong condition that I was born with. If any other part of my body was effecting me this way, no one would doubt that I'm disabled. Heck, this effects me more than some of the recognized disabilities that I have! How is this not a disability?

[milesgmoralles]

Hi! Do you mind sharing your coloring tutorial or tips? especially for the animation ones, they're so good! your gifs are crisp and HD

hi, anon. tysm! 🫶 i don't mind at all since i’ve gotten more than a few requests from before, ig it's time to give it a go. (more) details are under the cut. 😁

before we start, i want you to take note of the following things that will be helpful in the process of making/coloring gifs.

if you want to get the know-how on making gifs, @redbelles did us a solid and gave us this comprehensive guide that will save me the time for explaining lmao. 😅✌️

make gifsets without skipping frames. keep frame delay 0.05 and 0.06 for less than 25 frames. anything more or less is too fast or too slow. additionally, it's also important to note that if you're dealing w videos that are faster than 30fps you change the frame delay to 0.04.

gif using the the new dimensions (in this tutorial i used the dimensions of 540px x 510px since it's all about big gifs now 🙄).

use the standard sharpening settings (smart sharpen, amount 500%, radius 0.3px, remove gaussian blur and tick more accurate) also note the sharpening settings for 2d as you've specifically requested.

 you can use action that will convert your gif back to frames and set your timing to 0.05 with a single click. basically photoshop will follow out all of these time-consuming steps for you! just download the action and double click it. it should now be added to your list of actions.  to see your actions, go to window > actions. find the folder that says "GIF ACTION" and select the lines that says "CLICK HERE" and voila! ps will do all the hard work for you.

the coloring on your gifs will look good if you have a good base so try not to skip on video qualities. use high quality copies like 1080p or 2160p (4k ones are good) the higher the gb the better. it makes coloring so much easier and reduces grains.

*cracks knuckles* let's start!

for 2d animation's sharpening settings, it usually varies so i just move the amount around and see what looks or works better for a specific gif. i used amount: 189 and radius: 0.2 for this ponyo gif. anything can work between 189 to 350 for me but i maintain the radius at 0.2. again, you can just play the amount around until you find the one that looks good for your gif.

when i’m making gifs. i look for that notorious contrast between the light and dark parts. i think it gives life to the gif- so exposure, levels and curves are best to achieve that. for curves, just go to layer > new adjustment layer > curves. this layer is going to help brighten up the gif in certain areas, and darken others. select the white eyedropper. click the lighter part of the gif like the white/light part of the ship.

next, select the black eyedropper and click on a black/dark area of the gif (refer to the arrow bc i don't know which part of the ship is that called lmao).

you can skip the black eyedropper if you're already satisfied w the result of the white one.

color balance and selective color are your two best buddies. they’re great when you’re trying to change some tones or specific colors of the gif, like the skin tone which is very tricky.

using selective color is pretty simple, here’s a really useful guide:

if you pull any of the tabs to the right, it increases the amount of color (cyan, magenta, yellow and black), and reduces the amount of opposite color (red, green, blue and white).

i also use the blacks and whites in selective color especially if the gif is saturated w colors to tone down some parts and make shadows more visible (idk if this is still making sense 😅).

in working with color balance, i use midtones and highlights sparingly. it's really helpful in removing or balancing out a certain tone.

here's my save setting ⬆️

idk why but ps puts the default frame delay to 0.07/0.03 so open your gif in ps again and don't forget to change the delay to 0.05.

and we're done!

i sometimes go back and forth and do some tweaking until i’m satisfied with the result. this is how i color and i know it’s not perfect but i learn by constant practice. there’s really no standard in coloring so you can make yours the way you like it. just enjoy- until you get the hang of it and it becomes less daunting (or something like that). i hope this helps. if you have more questions, my askbox is always open 😊.

[golbrocklovely]

so i decided to do a tarot reading on snc (obviously separate lol) and lemme just say i got some interesting cards.

this post will be for colby's reading. if you want to see sam's, you can read that here.

DISCLAIMER: i am not saying any of this is true or 100% accurate. i'm not a professional tarot reader, and the way i read these cards might be different than how you would read them. this is just for fun and not to be taken as the word of law. the future is not set in stone, things can change and thus i could be wrong. let's have fun and just enjoy this light-hearted reading. and if you think you can't have fun reading this, don't read it :)

~~~~~

(i use this site to help me understand the cards, along with books i have)

so for colby's reading, i was really excited. bc this is the first time i've done a reading for him while he's had a gf. so i was curious what his cards would say, and if any of the previous readings would show up in this one.

and… that sorta happened lol

the first question i asked was what does colby's current love life look like? and these are the cards i got.

3 of cups: this card is about social gatherings and love. him and malia will grow closer together in friend group settings. being with friends will make their love flourish.

9 of cups: this card talks about being grateful. colby really appreciates his current love life, and he's very gracious and has a lot of gratitude towards it and malia.

2 of swords reversed: in the reversal, this card is about a stalemate. there's something blocking them from talking things out and resolving the issues they have. this card can also mean trying to find a balance between love/family/work… which sounds like a colby issue lol

5 of pentacles reversed: the reversal of this card is about your dating life improving. things are working in your favor again, your relationship is rekindling. this can also be about opening up more. and i think in relation to colby and malia, it's showing that the bump they were just in was just that - a bump in the road. and things are working out again for them. they are opening up to one another and getting a better understanding of one another (aka working thru whatever issue they had).

4 of pentacles reversed: this card, reversed, talks about past insecurities healing. this is showing that for colby and malia, they are able to move past old wounds and move towards a better future for the two of them now.

ace of pentacles: this card is about stability and security. there is confidence in their relationship right now, room to move around, and explore new things together.

queen of swords: so usually king, queen, knight, and page cards are representative of someone new entering your life (or of someone already in it). what's interesting is sword cards are connected to air signs. and colby's moon in his zodiac chart (his emotions) is in libra. so i sort of feel like this card is tied to colby's feelings. (these could also apply to malia, given it's a queen, but without knowing her chart i can't really say so imma say it's colby). this card represents someone who is a bit of a loner, hard exterior, but soft on the inside. very loving and loyal. not someone that let's their guard down easy. this can be a sign that colby is looking for independence inside of his own relationship.

what does all of this mean?: right now, colby and malia are in a really good spot. they care for one another, they feel comfortable around one another, and they seem to be on a good path towards a great future. obviously, like any healthy relationship, there are gonna be some bumps along the way, but they seem to work thru them pretty easily. as long as they continue to communicate, things will work out for them. that being said, colby will reach a point where he might feel the need to set some alone time aside without malia. which makes total sense, given that both of them have admitted to spending almost 24/7 together. and given the fact that before this colby was a loner and someone that liked being alone, i can see him reaching a bit of a boiling point, so to speak, and wanting to have some time to himself. do i think it's gonna be an issue? not necessarily. but he needs to voice how he feels, otherwise it could become an issue.

the next, and what i thought would be last, question i asked was what does colby's future love life look like? here's what i got (and this one does raise some… interesting questions).

king of cups: so again, like i mentioned, king cups can be representative of someone in their lives. cups are water signs. and funny enough, colby has no water signs in his entire chart. but malia, her sun sign is scorpio, a water sign. so taking that into consideration, this is what i think the card is saying. the card as is is about finding a balance between head and heart. this person is usually someone that can calm the waters down when things seem to be a bit much. i think this card represents how when colby is stressed or anxious, malia can calm him. i also think this applies the opposite way around too.

10 of pentacles: great card to get in a love reading. this is about abundance, affection, and luck. everything in their relationship is strong. this is also a sign of moving towards something bigger in the future, ie moving in, starting a family, buying a house, ect. this can also show that there is family approval for this couple… :)

9 of pentacles reversed: in the reversal, this card shows that while everything is great, it can still feel like something is missing. this card calls for colby and malia to open up to one another, and express what they are feeling.

9 of swords reversed: this card, reversed, talks about suffering in silence but feeling ready to open up. i think this is showing that one of them, possibly colby, is ready to express some anxieties he's been holding onto to malia. some form of discussion is needed to be had.

10 of cups: this card is about family, or long term stability. they might want to be with family around this time, or introduce one another to each other's families (even tho they have already haha). this is a sign that they are committed to one another deeply.

queen of pentacles: pentacles is related to earth signs, which is colby's sun sign. at this point, they are both gonna enjoy having a stable relationship. everything's going great, they are comfortable. they are happy. i think colby will feel the most content during this time period.

7 of cups reversed: in the reversal, this card speaks of daydreaming and trying to live more in the now. possibly together as a couple, they're gonna start to realize what they really want out of this relationship, instead of what they think they want. this card is very much giving expectations vs reality. they're gonna need to take steps together to figure out what they want the future to look like.

4 of cups reversed: this card in reverse calls for being more active in love. there might have been a period before (with the 7 of cups reversed) where the relationship felt it was a little stale. a little bit slowed down. but now they are gonna start to open up again, possibly moving past some unrealistic ideas they had about love and almost starting new. or at least getting back to a good part in their relationship.

queen of cups reversed: again, cups are related to malia assumingly. this card in the reverse shows an imbalance between two ppl. malia might start to feel like she's putting more effort into the relationship than colby. like maybe she's taking care of him more than he is of her. emotions during this time period are gonna be a bit high.

the sun: like the actual sun, this card is about happiness, light, all the good stuff. so, while they might have went thru a bit of a dark patch, things are open and bright again. they feel blessed, they feel in harmony. they are growing closer.

knight of swords reversed: swords are air signs, like i mentioned, so they're related to colby (assumingly, since i don't know malia's birth chart). this card in the reverse is about arguments. there are gonna be some really intense fights between them. some form of conflict is gonna arise.

emperor: this card shows a traditional kind of love. one that's a bit serious, possibly a bit stifling. usually can also be a sign for unexpressed emotions.

so, after getting the card about them having arguments, i was curious how things would play out. so i did a very quick ask of what type of fights are they gonna have?. what i got was reassuring, at least for me lol

7 of swords: this card shows dishonesty or lies happening in the relationship. it can also be a sign of unfaithfulness. BEFORE ANYONE OVERRACTS, the next couple cards sort of dissuade this notion.

5 of swords: this card is about emotions being high, and fights happening often. almost like fighting for the sake of fighting. a building of passion that feels needed, but might be draining in the long run. a lot of egos bumping heads.

8 of pentacles: this card shows a new appreciation for your relationship. still finding out new things about your partner and learning to love it. deepening the love you have for said person.

knight of cups: cups = malia, keep that in mind. this card shows that the type of love coming into the picture is an idealistic version. they love the idea of love, and want to show it off loudly. which is great, but can set expectations too high.

(also, in case anyone was curious, i asked if they would break up bc of these fights and i got one yes card and one no card so…. i think it's up in the air as of right now given that none of this has taken place or might not even happen).

what does all of this mean?: so, if this isn't your first time reading one of my tarot readings for colby, you will know that i've said time and time again that this man needs THERAPY bc he has a lot of internal shit he needs to work thru. a lot of problems opening up and being deep with another person. now seemingly, from what he has said about malia, he has opened up to her a lot which is awesome. however, does that mean he's told her everything? probably not. and i think the unsaid things will come to bite him in the ass if he doesn't start being honest with her. i think past issues he's had in his other major relationship are gonna fester if he doesn't address them and let them go.

this also goes for malia. bc she seems, according to the cards, to have this idea of love and what a future with colby will look like vs what it will actually look like. i love that they have talked about getting married and having kids and all that jazz, but what does that actually look like is a completely different topic of conversation. it's cute to dream of the white picket fence and the 2.5 kids and the dog, but not when you're referring to a man that travels for a living and is constantly moving and busy. so… is that something she wants to deal with on the regular? is that something colby is willing to compromise? these are real questions they need to ask themselves before taking the next step. the actual next step, not just the thought of it.

do i personally think any of this will cause them to break up? no…? from what most of the cards show, they seem to be willing to open up, to be vulnerable and honest with one another. and i think if they continue down that path, they will be able to continue towards a long lasting relationship. but sometimes in love, you have to take a major leap of faith first. and taking that first step can be scary. the good news is that they have time to work things out, to figure out what they truly want and what works for them. they are some things they need to address first (like past loves, insecurities, ect) and once they do, they'll be able to build the dream life they want together.

[hyperfixation-fix]

Alright guys I really need your help figuring out my godly parent. I get different answers every time I do a quiz 🥲 here's some deets about me:

I work in health promotion - basically it's early intervention stuff, including health education, raising awareness, advocacy/political activism, and working with affected communities. It's also a lot of mediation between different professions and groups - helping doctors understand why patients can't "just lose weight", helping patients understand why they do need to make healthier choices, and helping politicians... actually there usually isn't any helping politicians, but we try. Currently, I'm in youth mental health

In my free time, I do a lot of arts & crafts. But like - I never stick to one. I've done knitting, sewing, embroidery, metal stamping, jewellery making, digital art, woodwork, music, paper making, book binding, and on and on and on

Honestly that generally goes for all my skills. I've done a lot of things and I *can* do a lot of things, but I don't really do any of them super well

I'm an out-of-the-box thinker, creative and yes, chaotic, and there are lots of pros and cons to that

My happy place is by the beach, but I cannot remember the last time I actually went for a swim. Fuck that, the ocean is scary. I'll stay up here on the grass reading my book under a tree tyvm

I describe myself as a happy person with depression. I'm very sunny and optimistic, but I find life and living and liking myself rough at the best of times. I spend half my life picking myself up, dusting myself off, wiping away my tears and trying again - but I do it, over and over, bc I genuinely do believe it's worth it in the long run. I'm also just ✨emotional✨

I love children, they make me so happy, but I'm not sure if I'll ever be stable enough to have my own

I love animals. Except fish. Fuck fish.

I'm a hugger, but I feel weird asking for hugs

I've been told, even at 23, that I seem older than I am, that I'm "mature for my age" (fuckin hate that saying)

I love being around people, and finding and creating community is super important to me, but being social drains me and I struggle to find a good balance

I put 110% into everything I do. It's a truly awful habit 🙃

I love maths and logic puzzles. I love the structure of it, the planning and strategy, the satisfaction of a black-and-white answer. And yet, I dropped out of my maths degree because I couldn't see myself working in anything but pure maths, which is not really a career. My current job is kind of the exact opposite - yes, it's very research-oriented, but you deal with nuance and unknowns and humans every day, and the reality is that there is never a clear answer. And I love it. No idea what that says about me 😅

Ok now that I've written that out, I'm actually leaning towards Apollo. What do you guys think?

[dragonji]

please, I'm begging for some webnovel recs 🙏 don't have to be particularly good, just entertaining enough and preferably a little gay

Oh anon take my hand and allow me to impart my hard-won knowledge I swear not to lead you astray<3 ( In absence of any other genre/length preferences I will attempt to give a variety but my tastes do skew heavily for longer xianxia/historical danmei so yknow. smiles fangfully. Also only doing completed tls for now bc otherwise this wld be even Longer ahaha...)

Devil Venerable Also Wants to Know: Thee high cultivation novel of this year decade century etc. Literally in the top 3 of novels I've ever read that's how serious this is. Pragmatic and cold leader of the top evil sect acquires a book detailing the dogblood love drama of a righteous cultivator girl that just so happens to involve him as one of the romance candidates, along with his unhinged usually repressed to hell right-hand man. Not seeing the logic in any of this he decides to embark on a quest to figure out how true it is, and also keep aforementioned right-hand man from his book-self's unfortunate fate at the same time. Really really incredible cast of side characters who are dynamic and endearing all on their own, with very concise and satisfying worldbuilding. Plays a lot with the conventions and tropes of its genre to great effect, really funny, a healthy balance of light-heartedness and dashes of angst, well-paced, and truly a joy to read every time.

2. Zhe Zhi: Mid-length, cultivation setting. Poignant and efficient with its plot, a bit trope-y in its righteous vs evil sects thing but in a humorous way. The top disciple of the righteous sects is kidnapped and raised by an evil cult for most of his childhood, only escaping when one of the twin sons of the cult leader manages to get him an opportunity. He swears to come back to rescue his only friend, and after 10 years manages to do so only to find that they already escaped thanks to their shixiong (other twin son) who was poisoned in the process. He resigns himself to helping their shixiong as repayment despite personally disliking him. Along the way they find the hidden truth about the cult's past and all of their escapes. Disciple is unfailingly devoted and upstanding, while the ML is a bit two-faced but equally as devoted to his loved ones. There is an age gap in this one but nothing happens until they're both well into adulthood, and they have a really fun dynamic once they're together. Supporting cast was good too, not too complicated with the setting or plot but still satisfying on both counts.

3. Purely by Accident: Short historical comedy baihe, about a crossdressing bandit chief getting accidentally engaged to the nation's princess and eventually falling in love. Bandit chief has a passive, devil-may-care personality that really carries the story, emphasis on humor but surprised me with some well-done drama and political maneuvering too. Refreshing takes on gender and attraction throughout, and some of the best translation work I've ever read. Also has a deeply repressed sensitive devoted bodyguard side character that makes me insane👍

4. The Villainous Junior Brother Was Actually Secretly in Love with Me- First off tw for discussions of rape, abusive relationships, and suicide, none between main cp! Cultivation setting, fairly lengthy. A genius disciple of a renowned master gets reincarnated into his younger self after being betrayed, abused, and killed by his master and shixiongs despite years of seemingly-mutual peace and affection. With his rebirth he realizes his shidi who always fought with, derided, and hated him was actually trying to make him quit their sect and escape. In his new life he decides to repay his shidi with endless indulgence and gentleness and to try to save them both. This has truly horrendous consequences for his shidi's peace of mind lol. Huge fan of their dynamic as a cold-faced but sympathetic loner with an absolute crybaby flustered flop of a tsundere. The comedy-relief sectmates do their jobs Extremely well and most of the side characters were used efficiently. There is an unfortunate amnesia plot further in that I found personally distasteful, and it loses steam by the later chapters for an abrupt end, but still well worth the read even if only for the humor and unique ML!

5. My Junior Still Hasn't Killed Me- short little transmigration novel with a cultivation setting. Fairly silly and a bit of a rushed plot but overall cute and a fun read. Main guy transmigrates into a background cannon-fodder character with the mission of reforming the villain of the novel into an upstanding ascended cultivator. MC's personality is satisfyingly realistic, a little foolish but charming and funny in his failures. I will warn it does fall into the "bending" the love interest language (thankfully not as frequent or exaggerated as it usually is in the genre). The villian is understandably blackbellied esp in early chapters but he's pretty sympathetic and eventually sincerely likeable. Translation is mid but bearable, couple of good side characters to help carry a decent if simple plot.

[lost-amongst-the-stars]

Therapy recap

We started off talking about how wiped we were after therapy followed by PT on Monday then overdoing it on Tuesday trying to get time sensitive chores done. And then trying to find a balance between rest and doing things yesterday. C asked how we did with that balance and I said that I thought we did pretty well but Bean had some complaints for me last night. We talked about how Bean sees me as the "representative for the Big People" and thus often directs all their complaints towards me. But it doesn't bother me bc I know usually it's just bc they're upset we're in more pain and blaming me is easier than grappling with our disabled body for them. And they're never upset with me for very long.

Then we talked about our upcoming wedding anniversary as two other marriages in the family fall apart. We talked about learning more ways that M's husband betrayed her that have guaranteed a divorce at this point and O trying couples counseling with her husband after overhearing him planning to kill her. Which. Feels like Such an underreaction. We're not even supposed to know about that but their mom told S who told me. So yeah. Out of 5 marriages the siblings have had, mine and S's queer marriage is the only successful one.

Then we talked more about our marriage/relationship. That we'd already been living together for years before dating as well as being engaged before dating (we'd both given up on romance and knew we wanted to be together for life so I proposed in the planetarium and we intended to marry for the benefits while being open to dating whoever we wanted). I talked about the various traumas we helped each start to accept and hardships we supported each other through just in the first year of our friendship. And how we had a lot of similar history, most notably being raised in fucked up churches that were eerily similar and gave us a shared point of understanding most people around us didn't have. And while all of that could easily have become toxic, it instead strengthened our relationship.

I was talking about how it helped that our responses to our childhood traumas were different enough that we were able to support each other through things and C commented that again that could have easily led to clashes and we must have been very open with each other. And I was like oh. Well it definitely did, especially in the early years, but we found creative ways to reach each other and communicate. Which led into talking about how in college S taught K and I self defense and would have sparring matches in the fields at night and sometimes when I was really getting stuck trying to say things we would go out and spar and talk things out while physically fighting each other. Which again. Could easily have gone bad. But ended up leading to a lot of good communication for us. Being focused on the physicality of fighting helped me get past some of the blocks stopping me from talking and just get the words out so we could work through it.

At the end, C commented on how nice it was to spend time talking about my relationship with S bc of how I light up when I talk about him and how strong of a relationship we have

[cyberstudious]

2025, week 1 (dec 30th - jan 5th) ✨

for this year, I felt inspired to take a page out of @lostlibrariangirl's book and try weekly posts! I like the idea of collecting little moments throughout the week & reflecting on them at the end.

this week was very strange and kind of difficult, tbh. I blame new year's day falling in the middle of the week - my routine-loving brain did not have a good time haha. I was also struggling to get some work projects done. I find that some projects flow really well, and others seem to drag on forever and make me question my purpose, but I suppose it all balances out in the end. I'm hoping that things will feel more normal next week, now that all the holidays are over. swinging between feeling super exhausted and super motivated is not fun :(

one of the things that I did this week was fill out a goals page in my 2025 planner! I wrote down a lot, but I think they're all achievable, and it's okay if I don't get everything! it'll still be nice to look back at the end of the year and see what I've done. there are some cybersecurity courses that I want to work through, and I want to properly get back into language learning this year, but I wrote down some fun goals, too! here is a small selection of what I want to try and do in 2025:

complete the TCM Practical Malware Analysis and Triage course

read a book in Spanish

reach 50 birds on my life list (this is a totally arbitrary number, but that's like 1-2 new birds per month which I think I can do if I really try) (a subgoal of this is trying to spot an american woodcock bc their range technically overlaps with where I live and they are so goofy looking. I want to see one of them doing that funky lil dance in person so bad)

mend at least 1 item of clothing

get a technician amateur radio license (everyone on my dad's side of the family is licensed, and I think it would be a fun hobby to get into as a combo of learning the science behind radio & also learning to help with communications from a disaster preparedness perspective)

I think 2025 is going to be a year where I have to keep reminding myself that I can do anything, but not everything. I also want to make it a year of reaching out and forging connections with people in my community & online friends. the world feels like a very heavy place more days than not, but we can get through it together.

some highlights from this week:

drinking lots of tea

settling into my 2025 planner

getting back into language learning with clozemaster & busuu

outlining & starting the first draft of a fic that's taken over my brain the past few weeks lol

finishing two projects at work so I can start fresh next week

[flippythedoodle]

hey can u give some tips for a beginner ambigrammist to refine her ambigrams and make the process easier?

i'll just put what ive learned from others and my own experience (i kinda put a lot so imma put it all under a read more)

1. you need to really know what letters look like

one of the talents an ambigrammist needs is to know the details of what makes a letter a letter, and what strengthens or weakens this reading. for example:

on the right are what i would say are very readable letters, almost instantly recognizable. on the left however are essentially the same letters, but missing the core elements of what makes them them. i recommend looking at fonts if you really want to fully understand, but as long as you know the glyphs, you can ambigram them!

additionally, there are so many other forms to choose from. we're all used to the simple, elementary alphabet we were taught, but there is a vast sea of different forms of letters you can try! things such as style, form, and mutations if done correctly will look cohesive in a design! experiment with cursive, square, fancy, blackletter, capitalization, italicization, the world is possible! for example, here are the many ways to write an r that i've collected:

14!!

14 for the LETTER R ALONE. the modifications may be subtle, but in the world of ambigramming where totally legible ambigrams are far and few between, every possible form counts bc you'll have more options at your disposal to choose from. as you see more ambigrams (and trust me, you probably will), you'll learn more about what's possible with them!

2. get feedback!!

the unique thing about ambigrams is theyre made to be seen by others, to be read and gawked at by onlookers, and so any outside feedback means the world to development. let family members, friends, preferreably people that mostly read normal words, try to read them, if they missed any letters, try and improve it. reiteration and tiny modifications help so much, even the tiniest of changes can help. sometimes we may be tunnel-visioned into thinking our ambigram is legible, because we know the word already, we see what it's supposed to look like. but when you get opinions from others, its almost like getting a new perspective, the ambigrammists equivalent of flipping a canvas. there are also communities dedicated to creating good ambigrams out there! (to name some, Ambigram Aficionados the discord server and ambigr.am the website, both of which are linked if you want :3)

3. know the methods!!

there are two main methods that ambigrammists "officially" recognize, downstroke matching, and shape matching

shape matching

this is the more freeform of the two methods, providing more space to do whatever, and thusly, maybe come up with either cool new stuff or bad new stuff. this matches "shapes" of letters, straight, curvy, half curve, spirally, etc etc. this one takes more experience to master, but if done well works wonderfully. heres an example with "greener"

(hey, look! weird R from earlier!)

downstroke matching

is one of the easier of the two, and most often than not yields the best results. in essence, letters are broken down into their vertical strokes, which are then "cut in half" and aligned to each other. this comes from the notion that people read the top parts of a letter more than its undersides. so, when flipping, all that crazy stuff that used to be on the top is now on the bottom, becoming flourishes and designs. this is kind of a precursor to shape matching, as if pretending all letters are squarish before actually taking into account their shape. an example with the word "Basket" would be:

this of course, has its downfall in curvy letters like b and o, as these have specific curves to follow, which may get lost in how strokes are made straight. i got lucky here with the e curving the same way the B would normally, but this isnt always the case.

the best ambigrammists tend to find a good balance between the two, making sure both form and style are as optimized as possible!

finally,

4. not all ambigrams are possible*.

*as a normal rotational

unfortunately, jojo, hello, uwu, and many more words aren't (currently) possible just because of how theyre built at words. so don't be disappointed if some seem impossible, because (like chloe *wink wink*) they might just be. you can then resort to different types of ambigrams, or different modifications!

here jojo works okay as a lake, uwu works perfectly and naturally as a mirror, and chloe and hello work as chain rotationals! another somewhat crucial element of making an ambigram work is flourishes. these help hide the modifications made to a letter, almost like camouflage, or even to hade a letter itself. here are some examples:

this one uses a curvy flourish for the hoops of the Ps, tiny dots for the i tittle and the Es midline, and a bit more flourishes to hide them like serifs and extra curves

this one turns a C into a drawing of a cockatoo! the flourish being the cockatoo, hiding the otherwise awkward C

this one's rather extreme, S and e being turned into flourishes. these are then surrounded by more flourishes to hide them, which works semi-okayly

thats all i think i know about ambigramming, i hope it was semi-useful!

(find me on ambigr.am at chump, and discord as shin_dig :3)

bonus resources: John Langdon (ambigram god)'s advice: https://www.johnlangdon.net/thoughts/advice-on-ambigrams/

Write Words Make Magic (who's also on here @writewordsmakemagic! makes much more in-depth videos on downstroke matching and ambigrams in general on youtube and tiktok)

[earthbovndmisfit]

Hi !! For the ask-game! 2, 5, 6, 12, 20, 21 and 24 ? sorry if it's a lot!! hope you'll have a good day!!!

Fandom/fanfic asks!

2.- Most recent fandom you joined? Not sure if it counts because I've liked the games for actual years and I've just recently got more into them and became more active in the fandom, but it would probably be the Metal Gear series.

I don't watch or consume new media very often unless it's something that somehow takes my whole attention away from what I already like and I'm deep into, so it takes a while for me to get into a new series and fandom haha

5.- Favorite platonic pairing? In Jojo, that would be Erina and Speedwagon!! I love and cherish their friendship so much despite how little we see of it onscreen. This is also why I dislike it so much whenever the "everyone dates everyone" dynamic gets forced on Jonaeriwagon instead of just letting them be a happy V-polycule (not to mention the erasure of all things homo in Speedwagon by shipping him and Erina romantically and/or sexually when that's not even "necessary" for the polycule to work). Someone once said Erina and Speedwagon invented the "girl and her gay best friend" and they were so correct.

6.- Favorite headcanon? Going with Jojo again since that's like 99% of this blog, one of my fave headcanons ever is that of Speedwagon's body being covered by scars from his many years as a criminal (+ all of the more "honorable" ones he got after he joined Jonathan and helped him fight zombies, the one he got from Jack The Ripper, and whatnot).

Related to that one, I love the headcanon that Jonathan too has scars, most of them from his childhood, from his reckless ways (like that time we see him walking on a tree branch as a kid in the manga) and from playing around with Danny by the river, or from his boxing and rugby training. He also still has the scar from the wound Speedwagon caused him with his buzzsaw hat during their first encounter, since he wasn't a hamon user at the time and was unable to heal himself (the wound was said to be a deep cut, so it definitely must have left a scar). The sight of that one scar always makes Speedwagon apologize profusely bc he still feels bad for permanently marking Jonathan's skin with his own recklessness, however, Jonathan always reassures him that it's okay and that he genuinely likes it because, in Jonathan's words, much like Speedwagon's face scar does to him, it gives him personality too, and also "now we match, too, Robert!"

12.- Craziest thing you've ever done as part of a fandom? Already answered this one. This one is not as "crazy" I think?? But I'm adding it anyway as a bonus: I've always had a "if it doesn't exist, then make it yourself" approach when it comes to fandom stuff and spaces as a result of me always getting into obscure and/or unpopular fandoms/characters/ships, and so I always try to find ways to spread the love for what I like and share it with other fans regardless of how big or small the community is and promote interactions as much as I can and etc. This is also why I've kept this blog as some kind of "central" for all things Speedwagon/Jonathan and Jonawagon, for example. It is also why I try to tag every post I make or reblog, to make navigation easier for any and all fans of them who end up here, as I do still remember just how difficult it was to find anything for them years ago, when all you'd find would be "Speedweeeed best gril! XD! le funny memez" full of out of character bullshit.

20.- All-time favorite fanfic author? Probably HamonHugs when it comes to Jojo. Their portrayal of Jonathan and Speedwagon was always so on point and their stories were always so *chef's kiss* and had a perfect balance between fluff and cute moments and super hot and sexy ones too. There was also a fanfic author in the Yu Yu Hakusho fandom that I liked a lot but I can't remember their alias. They wrote some really good KuronuexKurama stories, though, as far as I can remember, they deleted their stories some years ago.

21.- Favorite fic trope? Already answered this one too!

24.- Funniest fandom-related story? Already answered too! As a small bonus, I wouldn't say it's precisely funny since it's more of a super nice and touching experience I had, but it has happened to me at least once that someone recommended to me one of my own fics, saying it was one of their favorite fics ever and that I should totally read it. This person didn't know I was the author since I rarely ever mention my ao3/wattpad accounts or the fact that I raaaaarely ever write fics, so it was genuine praise. It was kinda odd in the best way possible and it was also super touching in the sense that once more I could see first-hand the positive impact some of my writing has had on someone else, similar to the times people have taken time out of their day to tell me just how much they enjoy my creations, or how happy they make them, whether it's my fics or my art. It's just undescribable but it truly makes my day every single time it happens 🫶

[alyjojo]

Thinking of You - June 🤞 2024 - Cancer

Whole of their energy towards Cancer: Page of Pentacles

In the preshuffle I saw a break between you and this person, and the sentiment that you’d like to work things out and move forward, but that they’re a “my way or the highway” sort of person, very arrogant, bossy and demanding - and you can’t really work with that, can you? I’m not seeing the same cards here, but I am seeing Marionette, which shows you feeling controlled by them. If you speak your mind or try to bring resolution, you’re dealing with someone who is going to act out and “punish” you for doing so. Is that who they are or this specific situation, idk, I find it hard to believe this behavior can only be one situation, yanno? So that’s for you to chew on.

I do see them wanting to apologize for whatever has happened, two cards showing an apology here, and it may be a message - along with something. Doing you a favor, offering you something, a gift, some kind of tangible thing you can see or touch. This isn’t over.

Feelings: Death rev

See? Not over. Not to them. This would also indicate there’s been no *real* action taken. So if you live together, they may not be speaking but they’re one room away and don’t intend on actually going anywhere. No effort being made to leave, but there’s no conversation telling you how they feel either - and an apology is pending but not reality, yet.

Intentions: The Moon

Whatever your issue is, they don’t really understand - so them apologizing is kinda pointless but they know it’s what you want and what they have to do to get back into your good graces. Do they mean it? No, not really, they don’t even know what they did wrong. They’re afraid of losing you though. The Hanged Man rev clarifies as like…an *inability* to see outside of their own perspective. They literally can’t. Maybe you went silent and didn’t tell them why you’re upset. The Devil rev is positive though, sorta. Do they have good intentions - yes. Do they have any idea how to fix the problem you have without knowing what that is - no. If you would consider them or something they’ve done/said as toxic, they don’t know that or have no idea how to change it.

Actions: The Fool

They’re just gonna YOLO it, they’re coming back around to try and talk to you, butter you up. Maybe offer you something. Cook you dinner. Take you out. Anything, but again there’s some kind of gift or tangible thing involved. That’s their thing. They want the stress to end, don’t like not speaking, they just want everything to get better and today we start over. Everything is fixed now. I can’t see your perspective with that but that’s their perspective. You’re seeing manipulative and I’m just seeing clueless. Could be, you’d know best.

Messages:

Their side:

- OBSESSED 🤩

- Boujee

Your side:

- Marriage Material 💍

- Honest!

Possible signs:

Heavy Pisces, Gemini & Virgo

If you’re dealing with:

Temperance shows a chill month with calm and balanced interactions - or that’s the goal. 10 Swords rev underneath could be like playing damage control or trying to put the pieces back together after a difficult situation you or others have endured - which you’re doing successfully. At least you’re not drama, but you can’t help what other people do 🤷‍♂️

Aries - doesn’t come around or make an effort because they don’t see the potential of it going anywhere positive

Taurus - can’t continue moving in a new direction bc they can’t break free from something old

Gemini - there’s unfinished business and a lot of healing that needs to take place here 🤕

Cancer - a secret or hidden information coming out makes the decision they weren’t actively trying to make before - now they can’t

Leo - feels abandoned by you, like you aren’t giving what they are and that the connection isn’t reciprocated, could be financially

Virgo - moving forward in a positive direction, both of you are creating exactly what you want

Libra - quitting something, could happen very quickly

Scorpio - defending flirtatious behavior because they will die being “right” - or switch it - someone isn’t interested in the other’s perspective

Sagittarius - done talking to or having anything to do with you, could be a person firing you - or they’re just…a harsh, sharp talker, greedy, time is money and they’re being rude or calling you out - or switch it 😬

Capricorn - confused about what the decision to make is - regarding everything in their life

Aquarius - cutting through delusion and bs, it would be silly to try and come at them any way but *logical*, if it’s a romantic thing, they think you’re full of bologna or starry eyed over nothing

Pisces - if you’re waiting for this person to grow up, enjoy waiting forever, your version of grow up will never be their reality - 3 Wands rev indicates never

[ourlastbastion]

What I really wanna write right now.

A love story (weird. I usually wanna write fantasy saving the world stories where the optimistic young heroes lose their spark and joy as the story progresses)

But I just really wanna write romance rn. A book centered around one suspicious as fuck invite only prestigious university. Follows four plot lines about blossoming relationships in the one book, each with its own themes and motifs. And one secret plotline.

One side follows the theater nerds. Except they’re not nerds. Girl so one of the most popular people in school, has a legit fan club because she’s done traveling shows for major theater productions. She’s a perfectionist when it comes to the craft, and is terrified of any kind of failure because of her entire career is riding on this show succeeding. Dude is more relaxed, this is his passion, but if you take the fun out of acting, you take out the soul of the performance, he likes improv, can do a good performance even when things go wrong. They balance each other out, he helps her relax, she helps him find more structure.

Addresses: transphobia, bullying, parasitic relationships, toxic parents, toxic perfectionism

Features: co stars falling in love. 2 am coffee dates. Sexual tension. Cuddling. Defeating your enemies by being a good boy. Stargazing and 2 idiots on one bike.

Second pair follows the extrovert/introvert age gap one in the flower shop AU. Punk, goth, fashion fan and cat dad has a chance meeting with the quiet, elusive, gloomy florist. It’s honestly love at first sight for both of them. Cue her offering him a job and him immediately accepting, and just a lot of them both being very obvious in their crushes and totally-not-flirting while pretending they’re just employer/employee

addresses the grief and guilt of a loved one dying, childhood abuse, social anxiety and depression, and an attempted murder.

Features: slow dancing in the kitchen, mutual pining, two idiots in love and having it bad for the other, comfort, introducing your boss/girlfriend to d&d, getting to call your best friend your step- nephew.

Third relationship is a more academic romance between upper classman student council president and the first year acting vice president. SCP is a workaholic, a perfectionist, an academic dictator, and an ice queen bitch who trusts no one to do the job right, so she puts all the workload on herself. The other is a girl with a boyfriend, an obsession with boys, an an undying desire to help. A story of one learning to be softer and kinder and the other learning to stand up for herself as they fall in love over an endless stack of paperwork. Don’t think they even have time for class they’re just doing paper work all the time.

Addresses: ocd, cheating, abusive relationships, assault, the stress of trying to maintain appearances at all times, burnouts and overwork affecting health.

Features: many long rambles about bear facts, ballroom dancing, when the girl thought heartless becomes a blushing, nervous mess. The inherent romanticism of pulling an all nighter today to fill out paperwork that really should be handled by the faculty and not the SC. Love language for both being acts of service and gifts, and neither being able to recognize that’s what’s going on.

Fourth one is between two teachers. Enemies to friends to lovers. The literature professor and the history professor. Can’t stand each other. Both are strict teachers with contrasting approaches. Forced to share an office space for the term bc renovations or smth, which forced them to interact more forcing them to learn that their perceptions of the other weren’t correct, becoming friends, helpingg each other in their personal goals, and becoming romantic partners, and now students fear if they anger one they anger both.

Addresses: PTSD. The stress and emotional turmoil of trying to make it as a writer. Estranged family.

Features: fine wine lesbians. Professor x professor romance no one wants. The rest of the faculty absolutely hate this they’re too powerful together.

And then the secret plotline? Person infiltrates the academy because let’s be real it’s suspicious as fuck. Giving people free admission like it’s a lottery? Goes digging, sticking their nose where it don’t belong. Discovers it’s a front for a cult, they find young adults at their lowest points in life and who are the most malleable. Make them feel indebted through mutual blackmail, ends up in a stalemate where neither can make a move against the other. It’s a very tense dance of waiting for the other to slip so they can go in for the kill. This plotline brings in a bit of psychological horror to the thing.