#because i definitely know im awkward with negative stuff ^^;

[naenaex0xx]

I hope u guys know that I love and care about you. I hope it's obvious. I hope you know that someone out there loves you and will want to support you. I hope I can be that person for you. I love you guys <3

[numberoneredriotfan]

ooooohhh would you like to tell me how izuku is known to not like physical touch? i have only seen the show long ago but im interested in this !! i love rddk too yeah tho i also did notice izuku was much more physical with rody than he has literally ever been LMAOOO i don't think he has hugged anyone before either ? other than allmight and his mom but like. those are his parents. also that hand hold and lying on his lap and laughing god theyre do cute .maybe I'll watch whm again

Hmm, to be honest, it might be more of an interpretation than an actual canon fact, but I know there has been a few times where Deku got awkward or stuff whenever someone touched him! I can't think of any right now, but I know there has a been a few.

It's definitely noticeable how Deku doesn't really intiate physical touch unless he HAS to (saving someone in a crisis and such). Unlike other characters who are very touch (most prominent example being Kirishima who really likes to sling his arm around others' shoulders).

There is an interpretation that he may have a more negative interpretation of physical touch due to dealing with Bakugou bullying him. Which is actually pretty sustainable.

(Love Bakugou and all but he was such a piece of shit) So probably would be reluctant to physical touch- at least from strangers and acquaintances- simply because he's used to it having a negative connotation.

Which is why it's so interesting that by the end of the movie, Deku literally took Rody into his lap and held his hand. He has not done that with ANYONE in the show. Sure! He's carried his friends in times of danger! But what's really interesting is that Deku didn't have to hold Rody. He could have easily comforted and praised him while maybe hovering over him or sitting next to him. But no. He held his hand. And it makes me INSANE. This is why I just don't believe that Rodydeku would be unrequited. Sure, Deku may not have realized his feelings for Rody, but they're DEFINITELY there.

Also you absolutely should it's such a good movieeee.

[bucephaly]

Idk. Yall are getting these highschoolers raised with the ever growing 'ew sex lol thats Nasty !! Lol!!' mindset and being like 'here's the identity where you don't feel sexual attraction' and kids taught that Sex Is Nasty will be like ok that's for me cuz I think sex is gross! And its like. Idk, I never questioned this mindset of 'sex is gross and Not For Me' that i was taught because I was like 'yea I'm just ace' and so I felt a lot of weird guilt for anything I felt and i convinced myself 'yea i just don't do that' and it actually fucked me up! I think that's an important thing to talk about! Because there are definitely people who are using aro / ace as a way to avoid questioning things they were taught. Like I identified as aro because I felt horrible abt my lack of social skills and that I Didn't Do It Right and so I must be aro, and so I didn't improve these social skills at all?? And I didn't really learn how to actually navigate a close relationship like that?? And im Still dealing with this stuff because fuck, I feel like it's weird and tmi and Awkward to talk about my partner and our relationship and I'll be friends with people for months before they even know I have a partner because I just never mention it because I still don't know how to navigate that. Fuck idk. I'm not going to go around questioning people's identities I think people know themselves best, but I think it's worth talking about the negatives that some of these mindsets can have.

[hellsite-junior-detective]

ooh okay so im gonna ask this ask here

so uhh a while back when i was scrolling through pinterest, as you do, I came across a tumble post screenshot about this movie "passenger"??

and op has an amazing story of how better passenger would've been if the mc (idk the actor's names or anything I'm so sorry) would've just yk stayed awake and not wake anyone else, excluding the romance subplot.

while he's awake, he's talking and knowing about the other 499 people on the spaceship. so like at first it goes like normal stuffs he knows about them, that is recorded in the small cameras that each cryogenic pod has, and it goes like "oh you're born in [town] wow I wanted to visit that too" "you are a beekeeper?? ig that's the modern cryptid now, eh??" yk just normal talks

then it turns into "oh you should meet [name] you both have similar jobs and interests" "oh I think [name]'s grandfather served in your country they would've definitely tried [native food] from there" and so and so making connections

and like ofc he dies because he's aging others are not, and when this group does eventually end up on the planet they were sent to, they are first awkward but after watching a few of those videos they don't need ice breakers because they know exactly who they'll bond with and who they need to know about so it's like a really nice bonded community already

(i kinda dont remember the details ahead of this which is why I want to find the post but I cant find it anywhere and I haven't eve saved it on Pinterest too ig so there's that)

so dear junior hellsite detective, can you please find this post for me??

(im so so sorry for the long ass ask but yeah okay thank you bbyeee)

Don't worry about the long ask! Details are always nice <3

This was a bit of a tricky one, though — there were a few options.

I think this is my best find. It seems the most like what you described (and isn't really negative)

[iicloudyiiddyy]

I saw that you wanted requests, and then I saw that you write for sally face and I rushed right over! Currently thrown back into my sally face obsession lol. Anyways, could I request some platonic headcanons for a fem reader being part of the main gang? Basically just what it's like to be friends with them and being part of their group, what kind of shenanigans reader gets into with them, just friendship stuff if that's okay ^^ and feel free to throw some romantic stuff in there like who is most likely to develop a crush on reader. Hopefully this isnt too much I'm sorry if it is

ᴀ/ɴ : AHHHH! I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN I READ THIS. LIKE IM BEAMING WITH JOY AS I WRITE THIS. DON’T YOU DARE APOLOGIZE!! I LOVE SALLY FACE AND HAVEN’T GOT A SF REQ IN A LOOONGGG TIME AND IM JUST SO HAPPY TO HEAR SOMEONE FROM THE OTHER SIDE AGAIN LOL! This isn’t too much at all and I’m so hyped to write this! Please enjoy! ♡︎

INTRODUCTION 

I feel like it is Ashely who originally introduced you to the group

You two were originally pretty close friends and she decided to bring you more!

Now for the first impressions…

Larry would immediately warm up to you

you two would hit it off as if you didn’t know what the word stranger was!

Todd would sorta be indifferent to you originally

smiles and nods at you but goes on with tinkering with his projects 

But I feel like sally would be awkward at first with you..

Like how he reacted when he first saw Ashley…imagine how he reacted with you! 

He was originally worried on how you would react to his prosthetic 

But you never showed any negative expressions!

You had nothing but love and support to give!

And you were funny and pretty!

How was he supposed to react to that?

But as you guys hung out more and as Todd and sal saw how you interacted with the other half of the group they would warm up considerably more!

   NOW WITH THE GROUP!

I feel like it would be so hectic…

But so fun at the same time..

You and Todd would so have study sessions together! 

Sometimes Larry would join but we all know you never get any work done with him around

Todd and you could talk for hours about the most interesting topics! 

Larry would most definitely put his two cents here and there and it would always crack you up!

Todd would always be exasperated but Larry means well!

Larry and you would be the best of twins.

When I say you two get into the deepest shit together I mean it.

He’s your partner in crime what can you say?

With Ashley I can see her having painting sessions with you and sal would just be in the back struggling..

You guys definitely have treehouse hangs!

If you got into some demonic shenanigans that treehouse would be your go to.

You and sal would be smoke buddies, if he can’t hang with Larry than it has to be you

He finds you so endearing 

NEVER LEAVE THAT MAN ALONE WHEN HES HIGH

he can get so scared if his own thoughts…(ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

But one day you two are just chilling high asf and his munchkin of a cat comes crawling over 

Immediately you cherish gizmo and he cherishes you. 

Probs likes you more than sal

Sal already liked you but seeing this?

A fellow cat person?? Say less 

As soon as sally saw that he was never letting you go.

Now for the shenanigans you guys get into….

I can just see larry convincing you guys to try out this goofy Oujii board with cheeto dust he saw off E-Bay

And Todd’s like “ it would be good data..”

So here you guys are speed running through the halls because the demons wasn’t in the mood to deal with 5 emotionally traumatized teenagers..

May or may not have accidentally let more demons in Addison apartments

You and Ashley have friend ship bracelets. It’s just a fact!

Feel like you, Larry and sal would go to a gas station in the ungodly hours of the day and create the worst abominations with candy, Gatorade, packets of sauce, and yogurt and have you guys try them.

Probably pranked Todd with some of the worst ones..

For romance I would feel like Ashley would love to draw in you if you were her S/O 

(TW) : if you had sh scars are any scars of any kind she would draw hearts and stars on them

Same thing with sal, he loves kissing them,

making sure you feel the love he never got

For the one who would be most likely to develop a crush… 👀 

I think sal would..

If you showed never wavering love and devotion to that man he would just melt 

actually tears up if he showed you his face and you didn’t recoil back 

Like what did he do to deserve you?

Nothing bbg it’s all you

*sobs* give him love!

If you were with Larry I imagine you guys having late night drives…

Listening to ear fracturing death metal as you talk about your guys hopes and dreams..

Tʜᴀᴛs ɪᴛ ғᴏʀ ɴᴏᴡ! I ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀᴅ ᴄᴀɴɴᴏɴs!! I ᴡᴏʀᴋ ʜᴀʀᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴍʏ ᴀɴᴏɴs ғᴇᴅ! ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʟᴇᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡ! ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴅᴇʟɪɢʜᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴘᴀʀᴛ 2!

ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴᴏɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʀᴇǫᴜᴇsᴛᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪs! ɪ sᴍɪʟᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ I ᴡʀᴏᴛᴇ ᴛʜɪs! ᴀs ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴀғʀᴀɪᴅ ɪɴ sᴇɴᴅɪɴɢ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʀᴇǫs! I ʟᴏᴠᴇ sᴘᴇᴡɪɴɢ ᴍʏ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs ᴏᴜᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ! ɪғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ, ʀᴇʙʟᴏɢ , ᴄᴏᴍᴍᴇɴᴛ, ᴏʀ ғᴏʟʟᴏᴡ ᴛᴏ sᴜᴘᴘᴏʀᴛ! THANK YOU ♡︎

[freebooter4ever]

Hello! Another random anonymous but I kept seeing you’re posts about some relationship relating things and saw the negative stuff you’ve said about yourself. Even if they might be teasing jokes about yourself, you might not realize this (and not in a creepy way 😅) but you really are wonderful! I love seeing your posts and you’re personality!

You’re super pretty too! This might sound really random and weird (and I’m honestly probably not getting the right context of anything because I’m sort of confuse about the topic since English isn’t my first language and the events are hard to catch up with) but my grandma has found love when she was in her 50s and has lived a nice life.

I know your situation differ from hers but have faith in yourself. Nothing is wrong with you at all, it just takes time to find the person right for you and when you do, you’ll find someone who deserves you and you deserve them, if you wish to find someone to love of course. But try to remember that you should try and have some more love for yourself, no matter how tough it can get.

Just know that there are people out there and no doubt people waiting to meet you and love you. Haha sorry if this all sounds super weird and awkward, it’s just how the people of my culture see things. There’s always that one person out there who loves you and is waiting to love you 😊

Hi there! Not annoying at all, my entire blog could probably be classified as annoying, this is most definitely not a curated space :). I waited to respond to this cause i wasn't sure how.

First, im really sorry, i should probably tag my insecurity posts with trigger warnings, i know it can be...a bit much. and can hurt other people who read it. The good news is the insecurities usually only happen when im dating and i like...never...date. So as soon as i find a job i will happily go back to 'im too busy to date', and i can shove the insecurity back under the self hating rug. Its like a hornets nest - its only if you poke the nest that you get stung and i keep poking the nest lately.

Second, I apologize if i generalized too much, i am trying to be more aware of myself doing that. There's lots of examples of friends with good long relationships in my life - the friend whose wedding i'm going to has been with her husband for ten years, my other childhood bff has been with her partner for 11, and jelly bean and her husband have been married since 2015 and dating since college (lord we are old). And of the celebrity couples i kinda idolize, im pretty sure only steve ao*ki and recently rami (lol good for him) are the ones with break ups. (i have been REALLY entertained by the sheer sudden volume increase in thirst traps on steve's insta starting around the time nicole got cozy with this new guy and deleted her loving tributes to steve off her account - dont get me wrong i fully appreciate the photos and selfies, enjoying every minute of it but yeah he must be single right now LOL i would feel more bad for him if he hadnt been the one doing the dumping)(it must be hard dating with his insanely fast paced lifestyle though, i dont envy him :( ). So its absolutely a 'me' problem.

My only experiences dating over the years have taught me that i dont have much to offer that someone cant get through friendship (or friends with benefits) - entertaining and fun to hang out with but not pretty enough (or good in bed enough LOL) to be actually worthwhile. At this point its kind of a joke; "its saturday night, why are you calling me, dont you have somewhere to be?" "no, of course not, i was wondering if i could come hang out with your dog"

Thanks for trying to cheer me up? :) i'm sorry i'm an insecure mess!

[wallcwskrc]

TW: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, SH, EDS. Vent post to some degree

a year ago today, i tried to kill myself, i was scared, it had gotten "bad" again. my grandma had passed a few weeks ago. who I was very close to i saw her every wednesday for 7 hours. at the least, id see her saturdays a lot. the thing was, when she died, she was doing something in preparation for another funeral. she died helping the grieving, while grieving, herself, as not only there was that upcoming funeral. the day she died, december 21st was the same day her ex(?)husband, my grandpa, who I never got to meet, died, years ago.

i had also just gotten a partner, i loved him, we got together december 14th, well, it was kinda a love triangle thing, the other girl that was in it is now my best friend, she knows it all. she was the best thing i found from my ex. but my point, he did a lot. im still hurting, one of my friends, who was also his good friend, just suddenly hated me? she directly told me so, she directly, blocked me. he comforted me! my ex did. i was really happy. i guess.

im so sorry for going off track but id like to circle back to where, when and how we got together. it was online only, most likely good thing. most definitely. but to put it as short as i can. he had a girlfriend when i met him, he got broken up with by her. i was friends with her (til she left our friend group entirely due to her own personal reasons) then, not too long after, i told him my feelings, and so did, our friend, ray, ill use her name as I still talk to her a lot. !! so yea. but its not the end because, fuck it, alex, im name dropping him, said that I was trying to act like his ex to make me like him, that hurt me a lot, but, whatever, I love him right? whatever. but he got over it (?) I don't know. Nothing was ever over, everything felt tense. Alexs solution to both me and ray liking him was to just date us both...

we (me and ray) both agreed, I think now we also agree that we were just desperate, I guess. it wouldn't have mattered what proposition.

we were all dating, I was scared, btw! At the time, and this will play a strangely big role, back then, I was very "cute" in style, personality, interests, and stuff. once my grandma died, I told him. his response, was a little lukewarm, I wanted comfort, bad. but I understood ofc, that's a very awkward thing to have to reply to.

Between where we are in the timeline (december 21, 2024) and new years, things went between me being anxious he liked ray more than me (which, at the time anyway, I can confirm was true, but thatll be summarized later) and me just sending him cute little sanrio memes and gifs, I did that a lot. And other things like that. It was okay, but my stomach dropped every time he messaged me "what if he wants to break up?" "He likes her more." "My fault" "fuck" "oh, its okay, but what if he actually hates me?" Is all I thought, ever.

January 2nd, 2024.

so, I had went offline for a bit, I was overwhelmed. it didn't last that long though, after about 30 minutes I got a call, from alex. if you couldnt guess from my anxiety from simple things from earlier, the call scared me at first, what happened? Is everything okay? Oh, okay, they found a new friend! cool, ill meet her! I met her, wait, whys he ignoring me... Im right here... He had me, and ray, and he started paying attention to this girl he just met, I messaged him about how I felt left out, like I was gonna be replaced. He told me I wasnt!!!

SAME EXACT DAY, FEW HOURS LATER.

this is where, if you remember the part where our mutual friend just started hating me? Yea. That happened, I was so confused, and scared, and I went to Alex for comfort, and he comforted me! yay! I mean, he was still friends with her when she talked mad shit about me, but, I thought the positive outweighed the negative.

pretty big timeskip here regarding me and alexs relationship, same constant general me being anxious blah blah blah. But there was a lot of other stuff that happened, around the 10th I think, is when my grandmas funeral was. this whole time, but especially in this little 2 weekish period, I fell again, back into not eating enough, back into self harm. I felt belittled by my parents, everyone else and their emotions mattered more. I always had that philosophy. but it was being reinforced, heavy.

the big day, January 17th, 2024.

the day i tried to make my last.

Im not going to document this as much as you'd assume cause its kinda what this whole thing lead up to. I already feel cringe, plus details, aren't too needed, just make it a bit sadder (?)

i texted him about the many things I listed in the paragraph before, the one regarding my self harm whatever the fuck this is embarrassing to write about lol.

But uh yea, I tried to do it. last thing I messaged him before I did [INSERT MY UNDISCLOSED SUICIDE ATTEMPT METHOD HERE] was "im sorry for falling in love with you" that's really embarrassing, past kat, but I also kinda feel for her, love, or obsession, I think was actually the better word here. is a dangerous thing, it makes you stupid, and desperate, and shit.

His response to me trying to kill myself? (Which I told him beforehand I was going to do.) was just kinda.. Idk. He didn't like me saying the "im sorry for falling in love with you" one of the things he said was "if we keep into this every single day ill end up losing my feelings for you fr" which is just CRAZY. USING "fr" in reply to your girlfriend THE MORNING AFTER SHE TRIED TO KHS BTW. IT WAS LIKE 9AM WHEN HE TEXTED THING LMAO but uh also, I guess I get it, but cmon, that hurt a lot, he was the only thing I liked (even if he was the worst thing for me) his mood dictated mine, if he loved me, I loved myself, I was happy, I felt like I was on thin ice regarding being loved. I don't think anyone should ever feel that way.

Ending paragraph: big reveal moment here, I said wayyy earlier that I know he liked ray better, and the way how is, I saw him say it to his friends in a gc, directly, just, that, he said a lot of stuff in gcs. Like when, there was this gc with me, ray, alex, (the friend who randomly hated me) and a girl named lula, who I haven't mentioned but dear god she was my friend, my TRUE friend through all of this, she still is, I genuinely love her to death and I felt like she was my only true friend, she might've been at the time. and when the friend who randomly hated me ... Ik this is a little late to establish but ill just call her mary, Mary randomly hated me, she didn't like that I had that "cute" personality idrk why I just said "hai" and shit. But yea. Alex comforted me through that right? No, they made a seperate gc without me (not including Lula I don't think, or she stood up for me, ik she did that multiple times.) And just talked shit about me, while he was "comforting" me. Oh and remember that same day, a few hours BEFORE, I had gone offline for a bit but Alex called me cause they made a new friend? Oh yea the new friend was a alt account of his.

Thats just december 14 2023- january 17, 2024. If anyone reads this thing the whole way through, fuck it, this is becoming the next "who the fuck did I marry" series

(its past midnight so no longer the 17th but. Yea. We do get better, its okay, "january kat")

[porcubus]

Long post where i look at some stuff that raises me eyebrow

i dont think rodya consistently hesitating to speak around sonya is a sign of comfort (seen when she was at the gambling table the constance silence from her and then her herself describing it as uncomfortable)

you could interpret the small chats they have as friendly definitely but i dont think her clamming up is just her true personality coming out i think she was clamming up. on top of that he is consistently brushing off any question or concern she might have with him in order to paint their previous life (and his current one) as the ideal

she recalls hearing of a child die under sonyas care (which he again avoids a direct response to Which again pisses her off very clearly)

again during this scene he speaks to her about her need to feel special and her being exactly the same as the broker, and once she's at that low point thats when he chooses to drop the perfect world speech

sonya isnt stupid. i feel like the acting like nothing ever happened is a very intentionally placed line, he knows about rodyas guilt, and he knows how tempting the idea of a world where none of this had happened would be

then theres the big scene where she sees the vision, wants to etch it into her memory. rodya can describe this ideal world as feeling warm and perfect but if we actually look at how sonyas been talking we can understand that this is just more of it. talk. it moves rodya, because it is what she wants. of course she'd rather live in a warmer, happier world with someone she used to call a friend. but its very much not real. and its not something he can give her. rodya knows this

later when rodya recognises sonya knew what she'd do all along she brings it up and is immediately brushed off. sonya instead starts talking about how hes special and what makes it so

"this will probably elude you" is one of his more clear moments of condescension towards her. what hes been saying this whole time really as kind or as flowery as it might sound, its that is she isnt special. she just wants to be. she doesnt have what it takes. shes doing everything for the wrong selfish reason. but maybe she could be something if she tagged along with a real "chosen one". someone who has the special mark, who travelled the world, who reads books. i think she recognises whats going on here and thats the reason she cuts him off

let me be clear i dont think their relationship is black and white. clearly she holds an amount of care and nostalgia for him and their relationship. its a complicated thing to run into someone you considered a friend as a child. i think that inherently adds to the awkward air about them. and the way sonya talks you could easily say he does hold actual love for her but the language and tactics he uses feel very calculated. their relationship is very bittersweet, im solely focusing on the negatives for this post because its things i have not seen pointed out yet :thumbsup:

love this line at the end because it feels so so loaded after sonyas speech about the mark and reading rodya's desire to be special. Goddamn

also something i havent seen mentioned is him showing rodya an idealized world was a tactic specifically suggested by hermann to win her over. the one thing we know about sonya is that hes good with his words, its basically his job. and knowing there was some sort of planning and intention behind their meeting makes it interesting to read back on

does anyone want to discuss rodya and sonyas relationship and not through rose tinted glasses and not by reading sonya as a based communist king

[fugos-lil-fork]

Hey! Can i please request bucci gang + trish headcannon where they have been dating g/n s/o for few months now, but s/o has been canceling dates for another bucci gang member and they starts to feel like s/o doesn’t love them anymore, but s/o has secretly planned a suprise party for them!😭❤️

Im sorry if the request is too much! You can ignore if you don’t wanna write this!😗❤️

Have nice day/night🫶

It's alright! It's not too much! Tysm for the request! I hope you have a good day as well! (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡

~➗🍓🍊🐞⏳🔫🤐~

Bucci Gang with s/o avoiding them to plan a surprise party!

Abbacchio;

He is quick to feel hurt about you avoiding him

Without knowing what's going on, he thinks this is your way of informing him that you're losing interest in him

He, himself, still was a bit in disbelief that someone like you could love someone like him

So, deep down inside, he almost expected a day like this would come-

And so, he began distancing himself from you as well

Sometimes even ignoring you when you did have the time to interact with him

You were quick to catch on

Unfortunately, because if this you had to break the surprise party to him before actually showing it to him-

He's so disappointed in himself-

He felt both ridiculous for thinking you would do such a thing

But also thought you were ridiculous for thinking he would like a surprise party-

Nevertheless, it all ended with awkward chuckles and soft apologies and a gentle kiss

He appreciated the gesture of you trying to throw him a party.

But request for them not to be a surprise ever again-

And you reassure him that you'd never hurt him in such a way

In the end he's just very happy and glad to know that he still has you

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Bruno;

His first response is to worry about you

He thinks maybe there's something going on with you that you're afraid to share and therefore are avoiding him in order to not say anything

Tries to approach you to ask you what's wrong or to ask if you could at least talk to him later

Unfortunately, you'll continue to excuse yourself from such conversations-

Eventually he convinces himself to just let you be

Maybe you just need time by yourself

Maybe you'll come to him when you're ready

Soon enough you did come to him, but apperently not to talk but rather to take him somewhere

He tries to talk to you while you're rushing him to your destination

However, he's soon cut off by everyone else jumping out cheering "Surprise!" And wishing him a happy birthday

He's unbelievably happy and humbled

He's quick to realize why you've been distant

He tells you he genuinely thought something was wrong so he's glad to see you were just planning a surprise party for him

You reassure him if something ever were to be wrong, he'd be the first to know

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Mista;

He was actually pretty chill about it

Shrugged your actions off

He figured you were probably busy or had other more important stuff to do

Hell, he even forgot to ask you what was up later on-

He just had completely convinced himself that you simply had other things to do-

So, it was definitely a bombshell when you revealed his surprise birthday party to him

He was immediately excited and thanked you repeatedly for the surprise

Definitely pulls you into a kiss as well

Then tells you he honestly thought you had just been busy doing something else

But was glad to see that he was that thing you were so busy about!

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Narancia;

He gets pouty

Then makes it his official mission to try to get you to pay attention to him and quit avoiding him

But you make it harder for him to interact with you

In which case he begins to get upset

He starts to think that you're going to eventually leave him behind because your too busy for him

He ends up basically moping around

Battling his own thoughts.

Maybe you aren't leaving him.

Maybe you really are busy.

He definitely isn't very happy with himself thinking such things about you

And once you get his attention by asking him to follow you, those negative thoughts quickly begin to be lifted

Once you surprise him he's unbelievably overjoyed

Quickly tackles you into a hug and smothers you with kisses

Absolutely praising you for your hard work on planning everything out

And profusely thanking you for the surprise

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Fugo;

He's confused with your actions

Why are you avoiding him?

If you're busy you could just tell him

Rather than straight up avoiding him

He gets a bit pissy over this

But then that grumpiness turns into fear

Had he done something to you that you didn't approve on by accident?

Did he say something to you that you didn't like by accident?

He also begins to put some distance between the two of you

Believing maybe he did do something wrong and needed to give you time to talk to him again

You start to notice how distant he's becoming and approach him about it

You quickly explain he didn't do anything wrong but that you have something to show him

Once presenting him with the surprise he's completely taken a back

While he definitely cherishes the surprise party

Even though he also doesn't like surprise parties but he'll suck it up just for you-

He requests that next time to just make up a reason as to why you can't interact rather than make him worry-

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Giorno;

He's also confused

Though, unlike Fugo, he doesn't get upset

He draws the conclusion that you most likely have something important to deal with and can't talk at the moment

At least that was his most rational explanation

However, he did find it odd that you couldn't just quickly tell him that

It would be better than just straight up ignoring him

Nonetheless, he actually tells you, himself, to just go talk to him whenever you have the time

He'll always be waiting for you after all

And soon enough you did go to him

But not just to talk, rather take him somewhere as well

The poor boy had no idea how to react to his surprise party

Just kinda stood there for a bit before politely thanking everyone and especially you for the gesture

Can't help but give you a peck on the cheek as a thank you for the party

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Trish;

She's offended-

Why would you avoid her?

She definitely doesn't think she's done anything to hurt you!

Or maybe she did?-

Starts to worry-

She tries to push the thoughts away though

But she can't figure out why you'd be avoiding her

You two trusted each other with everything, if something was wrong you'd tell her

Right?

She hesitantly tries to get you to talk to her but you always excuse yourself before she can get anything out

Eventually though, you came up to her wanting to take her somewhere

She kinda was grumpy about the request though

After all that time avoiding her, you really had the nerve to ask her to go somewhere with talking about how you had been acting?

Fine, but only because she loves you-

She reluctantly follows you just to be absolutely amazed by her surprise party

She turns to hug you tightly and give you a kiss

But then immediately scolds you about avoiding her-

Nevertheless, she loves her surprise and you!

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[egoepicure]

just gonna ramble about my personal experience with being objectum!

also making this a little "share your story" post!

feel free to add your own experience, regardless of how odd you may think it is or how few people you see with the same views.

are you posic? no? do you believe your objectum feelings are due to or partially due to past experiences or neurodivergency? do you only feel certain attraction for objects and do you feel attraction to people? do you experience stuff with your objectum identity that you dont often see other objectum people talk about? i'd love to hear different peoples pov of this!

my personal stuff under the cut!

I feel a tad bit odd about my personal experience with being os/or / objectum. i'm not posic really? i dont view objects as having souls or being alive in any capacity, though a lot of people ive seen on here do that. for me, having something fully able to react and such as a human does kind of puts me off as it brings back any stress of human interaction i experience. this isnt to say i think nothing of the objects around me.

im more of a lowkey spiritual person, i dont practice many things activily, but i hold beliefs. one of those beliefs is everything having energy inside of it. this isn't necessarily a soul or being alive, but regardless of that energies can be attractive. its why i consider myself masc-leaning os/or. things with more "masculine" energy or far more attractive to me.

i can come up with personalities, names, gender, etc for objects, and usually they come naturally based on that energy, but when it comes down to it i dont believe anything of that sort is necessarily real. that doesnt stop me from being attached to and attracted objects, concepts, places, etc.

people have never been very interesting to me, im not sure how much of that is influenced by my being ND (though, definitely the lack of even platonic or familial bonding is part of that), and for me alternative things have always been easier for me to bond and become attached to and i refer to myself as aroace because of this, since im really not attracted to people at all. objects have always been a safe space for me to seek comfort, be openly awkward or embarrassing, experiment, confide in, and honestly it has always been more satisfying and less negative for me that connecting with people, since that doesn't come naturally to me personally.

my object bonding doesnt stop at just positive bonds either lol, there are some objects i HATE (especially some of the machines at my work place... i swear they are difficult on purpose, only act up when they shouldnt... they have the energy of cranky old people doing everything out of spite...). but usually, my bonding is more confusing, i dont think in the simply terms of bonds (platonic, romantic, sexual, aesthetics, whatever) as ive never really understood them too much, and a lot of them overlap or are different depending on time and mood or object ofc. objects are also a space i dont have to be worried about that with though.

i know a lot of objectum people are very attached to their objects of course, and i am too, but due to past experiences with having things taken from me / thrown out on me / changed without my permission, and nd issues with apathy and such i dont think im as caring about "hurting" (again dont view my objects as alive so they cant really be hurt imo) or throwing away objects as even sentimental non-objectum people honestly.

[luvingsolace]

And if i start pushing my Leo x Will x Nico friendship agenda???

You all WILL be listening to me!! Because they are besties i know it

Disclaimer: this Is a mortal!au, so no demigods and stuff

Starting when they were children

Will and Leo were childhood best friends

Grew up together and shi

Will always knew he liked both guys and girls and even tho he never explicity came out to Leo as bisexual, he always knew that too

They met Nico 2nd year of middle school (he was a new student) and they just. Decided to adopt him.

(Will definitely didnt look at him with heart eyes the moment he entered the classroom and pushed and pushed Leo to go talk to him and befriend him)

They supported him during the time of grief for Biancas death and it was something really big for Nico because even with all the issues with his father he knew he couldve found a safe place in his friends

Will was BOTH Leo and Nicos gay awakening (and they realized it almost at the same time, during 8th grade)

Hes a pretty boy and im tired of pretending its not like that

This was pretty hard on both of them. Leo reacted trying to push himself with as much girls as he could and Nico just stopped talking to Will for a while to try to understand what the fuck was going on.

Will was very confused, he didnt understand what he did wrong and why his best Friends were ignoring him like that

After some time Leo and Nico talked to each other and Leo helped Nico figure out his feelings, making him accept himself as gay.

They apologized to Will for how they treated him and he didnt make a big deal out of it, welcoming them back in his house with a warm smile.

(that definitely didnt gave them butterflies)

During the summer between 8th and 9th grade Nico came out to Will as well, somehow scared of a possible negative reaction

He was shocked when Will came out to him as bisexual in response of his "so you dont find it weird that i like men?"

Will was more shocked than Nico cause like. Was he dumb?? He explicity told him before that he had a crush on a boy in their math class

(Nico just thought that he was joking. He hoped that he was joking cause he definitely didnt want to get his hopes up)

Leo was the n1 supporter of his friends, but he couldnt say the same for himself. He couldnt accept what he felt for Will. He couldnt accept what Will made him feel. What girls didnt make him feel. He could accept Nico and Will liking boys, of course, but not himself. He wasnt like that. He couldnt be.

Starting high school he tries to ignore as much as possible his feelings, hitting on every girl he put his eyes on.

Will and Nico? Oh they just start that awkward they-like-each-other-but-are-too-afraid-to-admitt-it moment

2nd year of high school and Leo Is tired of having to listen to Nico gush and giggle about Will and Will gush and giggle about Nico. Tired tired

At one point he just explodes, yelling at Nico to please, shut the fuck up and just confess cause Leo can swear to him that it was going to end up well

So yeah thats how Nico and Will start dating

Yippy yee

Leo acts annoyed at the two of them being all sweet and dumb to each other but hes really happy for them

Which makes him realize something

He doesnt have to be miserable like he is

Forcing himself into people he simply doesnt like

He thought that if he went out with girls and girls and girls what he felt wouldve gone away

But it didnt

Well it did. Somehow. He doesnt feel anything for Will anymore.

But he still feels... Well feels when Jason Grace speakes to him

So he finally decides to speak to his best friends about it and they listen so carefully and they help. They help so much.

3rd year of high school Leo accepts himself.

Its not like things got suddently perfect

But hes doing better

And he feels lighter and happier than he ever felt before

[vbee-miya]

helloo!!! could i get a matchup for bnha?? :0 (this is the first time im requesting something sorry if i say anything wrong msfnsnnd) im 18 (i turned 18 only some days ago lol), i use he/they pronouns (im a trans boy:]) and im gay mdmfms im an isfp and a hufflepuff if that matters!!! im v introverted and shy at first and im not someone who likes to go out because i have trouble with loud noises n too much people, but whenever i go out im the kind of person who talks too much (when im w friends) and is a literal clown, although i still cant talk with people outside my circle so other people have to often speak up for me (esp when i want to buy stuff mssmfmsmdlmao), as for my traits, ig im kind of pessimist when it comes to myself? but super optimistic when it comes to others, im also v anxious, protective towards ppl i like and very, very blunt, because i speak without thinking,,, i also daydream a lot and get distracted even more, i have a lot of energy too but i just dont show it so thats that!! as for hobbies im a writer and an artist! (daydreaming helps a lot for some reason), i like playing videogames and that stuff, and i also love researching things such as bugs (i love them but if you put a bug Infront of me i'd cry) and human behavior:], ii also have a lisp so how i speak in every single Language sounds funny,, im basically what would happen if you combined a nerd, anxiety, a clown and too much coffee (i cant even drink coffee bc of my adhd tho since it makes me very sleepy) hehebw i hope that information is good!! sorry for rambling too much again aa

༺❀༻ matchup ༺❀༻

i don't see why not, here ya go.

hop in on the adventures of tintin. 

he doesn’t mind going out to places that are quiet, or places that have little to no interaction with people. so probably like hanging around his dormitory or if given the chance when the school is on break he’d invite you to his place or if you ever offer, then you guys could hang around at your place. 

mirio to me is the type of guy who can easily warm up to people and usually knows what to say and do. i mean after all, what do you expect from someone in the big three? so even hanging out that random silence of awkwardness would cease to exist. the more you both start getting to know each other and start creating that good rapport he’d be able to talk about anything and everything. and let's say there’s a topic you love talking about that isn’t within his knowledge, then no worries he’d be more than willing to learn and listen about it. 

when you guys are outside, potentially to go out eating and or to buy things, mirio is your man, your buddy. you bet he’d be the one doing all the talking. i mean you can’t really shut him up. anyways when you guys go out to buy stuff he’d actually buy anything you’d want and that’s a fact. he’s generous. 

pessimism is natural, anyone can feel those doubts and it’s so easy seeing things negatively. especially about oneself. but as optimistic as mirio can be he’d understand where you’re coming from and rather than saying haphazardly things like “don’t think like that” “don’t say that'' he'd be more than willing to hear you out and encourage the hell out of you. because no one deserves to be thought about like that especially from us. 

your bluntness in my headcanon is something that catches him off guard sometimes, though he’d appreciate the bluntness. he’s most definitely the type to accept critical criticism or just anything about him. in terms of self-improvement. 

every time you have that burst of energy mirio would think that it’s cute. and sometimes if not most times would be highly fascinated with your daydreams and would actually give great writing ideas to write about as they’re not too complex and can be worked around rather quickly. 

there’s a funny little headcanon i have where he doesn’t mean to put a bug at your face, he just thought the stick bug was really cool and knew to some degree you’d research about them potentially. 

he’d wouldn’t even notice your lisp and would actually say that he doesn’t hear it. but till one day he really notices it and his world opened anew.

[luveline]

jadie (may i call u that ?) i was wondering how u deal with hate on ur page. does it ever get rlly hard to the point where u think about quitting or something? ive been going through some hate of my own and although im still a small acct and the love outweighs the hate, its still super hurtful and i just wanna know how someone with a following as big as urs would handle it ! thanks so much

you can call me whatever you like!! how I deal with it..

I think it's important to acknowledge that I have a 'bigger' account or a bigger following because if you tallied up the hate to the kindness I'm shown, there's always going to be more love. And I feel like I can stick up for myself more often because I know I've made friends here and have followers that will support me!! So I would definitely say those things are a privilege that I have to help me

That being said, I've definitely noticed a tenfold increase in hate as I gain followers and i think thats natural, it makes sense that the more people that are exposed to me and my writing, the more I will see people who dont like me or my writing. Sometimes I handle it by crying my eyes out, and sometimes I just feel really sick all day. Lots of the time, hate pretty much saps me completely and I find that I don't want to write anymore because you do start to internalise that and feel negatively about yourself. It's always worse when they kind of find the thing you're sensitive about and prod at it.

And hate feels to me like it is in two categories, actual stuff with value and then the troll/bait kind of stuff. Most of the mean anons I receive I block straight away so they can't send anything again. Sometimes I post it because I want my own say, like when I don't agree with the way someone's speaking to me.

Sometimes you get silly cruel ones, and sometimes you see hate and think like??? What does this have to do with me? Fanfic and writing in general can be so skewed toward personal preference because why wouldn't I write what I want to write? This is my hobby and its for fun, and so when you get those "this was awkward' "this was poorly written" "why did insert character do this" I can disregard that pretty easily cos its a comment based on their own perception and preference. You don't have to explain yourself to anyone if you don't want to!

I recently saw someone get a hate anon that said like "you need to use more full stops, I need to take a breath" and it made me laugh because there are literally millions and millions of books and billions of words of fanfic online and that person has seemingly never encountered a run on sentence before? I think you just have to keep in mind that your circle of experience in life is different to other people's , and there will be overlap but often the majority won't, like a Venn diagram. What I'm trying to say is I tend to not take that stuff too personally (though it's still hate, and still annoying!) because that person probably just hasn't realised the world doesn't revolve around them yet!

Hate sucks! We aren't goodreads authors, we aren't offering our work up for a five star rating and asking people to pick it apart, and it's always gonna be gutting when people don't like what we have to offer. But I just try to take it on the chin because rejection is a constant in life, and if you don't wrestle with it I'd imagine I'll turn into a bitter bitch. 😅

tldr: I let myself be upset by it! I give myself space to feel sad but ultimately I reason that you can't please everyone, and you shouldn't want to! Do what makes you happy and the right people will find you and love you for it !!

[mlm-mod-taka]

I'm loving this blog alot!

If it's not to much can I request some (Seperate) Mondo, Kiyotaka, Yasuhiro and Leon X masc reader where the reader gets them a present? Not for a special occasion but just for fun!

GIVING THEM A PRESENT • hiro, leon, mondo, taka x masc reader

im so glad you like this blog! im really sorry if this work is shorter than my other ones, especially since you waited around two weeks for this to be finished. please feel free to contact me if you want me to redo it! /gen. i still hope you enjoy this!

tws/cws: negative tarot card readings.

|| -> mod taka <3

a very happy boy whenever you give him anything! you could give him a bracelet that doesn't fit him and he'd find a way to wear it at all times so he can properly appreciate it.

he gives you a free tarot card reading whenever you give him a gift. its a little awkward when the reading ends up coming up with something negative, though.

his favorite gifts are things that you made with your own hands, or things that involve his talent. yasuhiro is pretty much satisfied with anything, though.

never, ever throws away any of the gifts you give him. it doesn't matter how old it is, nothing can make him get rid of it. you could give him something useless and he would somehow find a way to put it to use.

tries his best to make it up to you and give you gifts with equal value. most of the time, he'll just get you a bunch of smaller gifts as time goes on, that when put together, is equal value to your present.

overall, appreciates anything you give him. it doesn't matter what it is, if its from his beloved s/o, then he'll keep it for as long as he possibly can.

thinks any gift is cool! he's sort of like hiro except he's a bit louder when you give him things. he'll practically flaunt the item you gave to him to all of his friends because he loves bragging about you! /pos

isn't exactly the best at taking care of your gifts though... he's a pretty clumsy person, so when he shows his friend group the gift you gave him, he's probably lost it atleast twice, and dropped it a minimum of five times. he's trying to be more careful though!

he really isn't all that fond of all the baseball related gifts he receives, so its nice to know that someone gives him stuff that he actually wants, and its someone he loves the most.

he isn't very good at gift giving, so when he tries to return the favor and give you a present, he ends up missing the mark quite a bit. you still put on a stiff smile, because he looks so happy and proud of himself. you can't make yourself hate someone as passionate and lovable as him.

he 100% keeps most of the gifts you get him, no matter what. whether or not you bought it or made it with your hands doesn't matter to him, he's just happy to get something! anything from you is amazing to him.

literally doesn't know how to react. in a positive way, though! not many people give gifts to mondo, and when they do he's already pretty flustered. but the love of his life giving him even the smallest present? he shuts down for a good few seconds.

just sort of stares at it for a few moments, then thanks you a bunch. its nice to know that someone would give gifts to someone big and intimidating like him.

while he does really enjoy gifts that are motorcycle related, the man would also adore more soft presents. you give him a pastel dog notepad that you thought was cute and reminded you of him? he is holding onto that gift for the rest of his life.

like leon, he definitely isn't the best at giving presents back. he tries his best to get you something that you'll like in his eyes, though most of the time it backfires.

he has to ask some of your other friends from your classes what you like beforehand if he plans to buy you a gift. but you really couldn't care less, you'd love whatever he gives you. and it goes the same way for him!

no! he will not accept a gift from you. its not for any negative reasons too, he just thinks that you have much better things to spend your time and/or money on. he doesn't want to burden your wallet or your schedule.

however, he gets you so many things. it almost seems a little unfair that he won't let you give him anything, but then turn around and hands you multiple school materials that he bought with his own hard earned money.

after a few more tries of desprately trying to get him to accept your presents, he finally gives in when you hand him a small stapler. the more you tried to give him bigger gifts, the stronger he declined. so, its best to give him little things that would be useful.

that stapler you give him, is the only stapler he uses until its broken, and takes great care of it too. he only lets you borrow that stapler, and has an extra one in his pencil case if anyone asks for one.

while it does take awhile to let him know that its okay to receive presents and he's worthy enough of it, when it does happen, its such a great feeling.

[docholligay]

Tracer/Emily “on a scar”

Talk about stuff I've meant to write for ages, this moment is finally out in the world. ANYWAY THANK YOU 1600ish words, all of my OW universe is here.

Tracer kissed her shoulder.

It should have felt good. She wanted it to feel good. She was incredibly attracted to Tracer, who had been a perfect lady over the past few weeks. Tracer, who was handsome and charming and gallant, who had treated her to dinner and walks in the park and made her laugh with all her stories, brought her flowers and told her she looked wonderful in purple, who had never invited herself up even though her eyes clearly wanted to be invited up.

But instead, there was a sort of deep grim that lapped at the corner of her mind. Emily was not good with women. She wasn’t good with anyone really, over the age of six, she thought, quiet and shy and awkward, the way she’s been all of her life. She wanted this, and she was afraid of it. She was not a casual person. Sometimes she wished she were.

The hard part, for Emily, was knowing when to tell someone. When she had been younger, it had been easy to blame her being trans for every ounce of hesitation she felt in a public setting, for every stumble through a conversation, and every bad date where her calls were never returned. It some ways, it had made things easier, to know that there was an immutable reason for such things, but life is rarely so kind, and she had met so many other women like her who glittered and had full dance cards, who lived life loudly.

So her own hated timidness had to, at least in some capacity, be an organic consequence of being Emily McNair, rather than anything else. It was disappointing.

But because she was Emily McNair, and because she had no idea of what it meant to be casual, and because she, like the silly fool that she was, was dangerously close to being truly in love with Tracer, she had to tell her. She wanted to tell her. Because if she was going to love Tracer, she had to know that Tracer could love all of her, even her history.

She tried not to expect too much of people in that vein.

“Em?” Tracer pulled away from her, ‘Can’t ‘elp but notice you don’t seem particularly engaged. You,” she seemed disappointed, “you not want to?”

“Oh, Lena, I do, but it’s only..” She tucked her hair behind her ear, “I have to speak to you, first.”

Her eyes darted around the room. “What ‘ave I done? Or not done?”

“No, no, of course no. It’s only me.”

“Alright. All ears.”

Emily was sure there had to be a perfect way of doing this, but over the twenty odd years of her life, she had never quite found it. Words were, most people would agree, not Emily’s strong suit, and generally she was as content to listen to others talk as they were. The handful of times she had gotten far enough to want to tell someone, it had never come out the way she’d imagined, and as Tracer looked at her, she realized that new and better speech she kept planning wasn’t going to reveal itself this time either.

“I’m trans. I just--thought you should know, before.” She swallowed and looked off to the side, waiting.

Tracer rocked back on her heels and looked at Emily.

“Is that all? Doesn’t matter, I don’t care about that,” she stopped for a moment, “Sorry. You know,” she tilted her head quickly and leaned forward, trying to put herself back into Emily’s gaze, “it’s just now occurred to me why me Dad put it that way when I told ‘im I was gay, can’t really think of a better way to say it--suppose it didn’t urt that ‘e wasn’t the slightest bit surprised by the news--but wasn’t helpful to me then either.” She took Emily’s hand. “Thank you for telling me. I feel all the same about you as I did. I think you are absolutely beautiful, and I cannot believe me luck, sitting on the sofa with you. You ‘ave no reason to be shy with me. Still buzzing about being invited up, love.”

Emily let her shoulders relax a little. “I’m shy with everyone.”

“I ‘ope sincerely that it’s not that people ‘ave been cruel to you.”

“Not, I think I’m just a bit awkward, I mean,” Emily shook her head. “Most people haven’t known since I left school. But I don’t much,” she fiddled with the strap of her dress, “you know, see women.”

Tracer smiled. “Right. Let me show you something.”

She slipped her shirt off under her CA with a speed and grace Emily would not have guessed was possible, leaving only her CA and a sports bra. The first thing she noticed were the bright toucans on Tracer’s bra. The second thing she noticed was that Tracer was as spectacularly toned as she might have guessed given her quick strength, and she blushed.

The third thing she noticed were two deep and heavily puckered scars, right at the edge of her rib cage. Her eyes widened and she brought a hand to her mouth, without thinking, and then immediately realized Tracer must be seeing her, after being so kind to Emily, showing shock, and she might think it was disgust--

But Tracer gave that loud peal of a laugh that Emily loved so much. “I know! Terrible, innit? Man shot me.” She scowled a moment. “Thought ‘e was me friend, once upon a time, but ‘e did disabuse me of that notion, as Fareeha put it, you know, love, for all the times she pretends she doesn’t understand a bloody thing I’m saying she manages to put up quite the English vocabulary when it suits her, right? Right, absolute tosh--listen to me waffling on, me Dad always said I could talk for England--what I mean is, love, you ain’t the only one with a thing or two unusual. Say nothing about the machinery. I’m loads of things to get used to, right? So you and I are of a kind. Me more than you, even, ‘ave no doubt you look better with your clothes off than me, if you don’t mind me saying so, right? So you never need be shy with me, for I’ll always do me best. I ‘ave no doubt that I will say or do something unbelievably bloody stupid, and when that happens, I want you to say, ‘Lena, you bloody stupid cunt,” Emily laughed and shook her head, “--No love, I’m being very serious just now--Lena, don’t do that” and then I won’t.”

Emily looked at her. Tracer’s eyes were bright and sparkling, but full of sincerity. Even now, she had that little resting smile on her face that Emily had come to realize just sat there, as unhappiness did on others. There was something about Tracer that drew Emily in, that made her feel safe, and suddenly it felt true, that someone like Tracer could not mind. Suddenly it seemed silly to Emily that anyone had ever minded at all. She had so many explanations planned out, ways to make it okay for Tracer and assure her that there wasn’t much different about Emily, but it all seemed completely unnecessary in the moment.

She had been honest, when she said she didn’t care.

Emily reached her hand out and brushed her fingertips against the deep crater on Tracer’s stomach, and Tracer did not flinch away from her touch, even for a moment.

“It must have hurt terribly.”

Tracer shook her head. “You know, actually, I lost a great deal of blood very quickly, which doesn’t necessarily recommend itself but I will say made the pain a bit of a non-issue.” She laughed again. “Honestly, Winston’s more traumatized by it than I am, I only remember little bits of the thing. Lost some of me liver though, and I am sore about that, as I make quite a bit of use of it,” she looked down, “ as you can see by the fact that I lack a bit in the definition department.”

“You’re very handsome, Lena.” Emily said, still looking at the scar, unable to look Tracer in the eye when she said it.

“Well, you’re kind to say so.” Tracer put her hand on top of Emily’s. “I still am keen to root about the cabbages, so to speak, and I want you to know I won’t be put off so easily in future,” she grinned, “but if you’d rather not tonight, I understand that, as well.”

“Oh, but I don’t want you to go!”

Tracer took Emily by the shoulders. “I can stay then, love. ‘Appy to ‘ear it. Can stay all night, if you like. But we don’t ‘ave to do nothing.”

Emily leaned forward and put her head on Tracer’s shoulder, letting herself fall into her embrace. Tracer kissed her forehead.

“We can stay just like this, love.”

I love you, she wanted to say, I love you, and I feel excited and happy and utterly terrified at the fact. But, she reasoned, she had tripped over her own tongue enough for one evening, and in this moment, she thought she would have plenty of other chances. Tracer would stay. She kissed Tracer’s cheek and settled into her arms as Tracer laid back against the couch.

“You know, the scars aren’t even the worst of it, with me. ‘Ardware neither.”

“Oh?”

“Right, there’s the entirety of me personality to deal with, as well. Messy. Can’t pay attention to save me own life, sometimes quite literally, depending on who you ask. Touch of P--well, honestly, just ask Fareeha, when you meet her, she’s got a list of me negative qualities, I think. Probably alphabetized. Maybe categorical.”

Emily felt herself melt into Tracer and allowed herself the joy of a laugh.

The cool wind of October shook the trees outside, and litter blew along the street next to her shabby little London flat, and Emily had never been happier.

[lustrousims]

I'm a small creator myself i chose not to talk to others because of my negative experiences with people here and on Instagram i rather feel safe than sorry not everyone is kind or nice i would like to talk to you but probably you wouldn't talk to me or like me i know it can be lonely in the community but just know sometimes it gets better and you're not alone in that thought when you put yourself out there like you did on your post sometimes magic happens

Honestly i never saw you as a small creator i always thought you as one of the big ones with engagement since you're well known toddler pose maker

sometimes magic does happen!! I had a few people reach out and a few people who also feel the same way and it worked out great for me!! you should definitely step out of your comfort zone but I completely understand about the bad experiences on IG, I had some too a few years ago by someone who was 10 years older than me bullying me lmao. but if you ever feel comfortable messaging me, please do!! I dont push people away and I doubt I wouldnt like you!!! Im really awkward, so I totally get it

I mostly call myself a small creator just bc Im not really somebody that people tag under "cc used:" and like "good creators to follow" and stuff and also based on the amount of followers and downloads other people get I just always consider myself small. I appreciate everyone that likes my work 1000% though, nothing wrong with being a small creator!!! just wish I had friends hehe